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by E. J. Ward
It is happening now
As the sun swings overhead in its solstice
Suspended
The Old dies
Aching
Crippled by too many questions
Swollen with too many answers
Knowing too much
Understanding too little.
Still dying
In a state of unknowing
The New starts to breathe
Uncomprehending
Suspended
Asking nothing
Knowing nothing
Barely inhabiting its own space.
This is uncomfortable
But is it dying or being born?
Is it death throes or birth pangs?
And what is the difference?
And what are the rules?
This Peace hangs ripe and heavy in the air like fruit
Golden and soft
Breathing and shimmering
So thick you can slice it
As if the world has just been made and God is looking at it.
We are strong
We are indomitable
We will go down with the ship
Even if that means taking the ship with us.
We have anticipated this
And sing out loud with streaming eyes
Aching for the end
For the promised answer to the unasked question
(For if we knew the question
We would not need the answer).
If we wish to survive
We must go out
And come in again by a different door
Leaving our rubbish behind.
This is no surprise
Only a confirmation of itself
Unexpected because not suspected
Realised in the moment of fulfilment
Accomplished because it is time.
Stiffening joints
Stained with pain
Aching bones
Rigidity
Forming the chrysalis
Yes!
Metamorphosis
Yes! Oh yes!
Shadows lengthen
Discreetly
Drowsily
For the long day is over and the night is come
Sweet dreams
And even sweeter memories
Yes yes yes oh yes!
It is not Death
It is a Remaking of the Soul
So this is who I am
An old reborn
Already wise
With things forgotten
And I said
I am more likely to become the person I am
But more so
And I said
I may be a bad person
But it has taken me a lifetime to get here
And a little drink from time to time
Helps me survive the Apocalypse that surrounds me
And I said
Before you start knocking the shit out of me once more
Perhaps you could remind me of the purpose of this exercise
And I said
But it doesnt seem to be working does it
Why dont you try being nice for a change
And I said
Suppose I dont want to be a better person