Reality and Meaning of Life

Consciousness is everything there is.

Material reality and evil are at the bottom. Material reality occurs when consciousness sees the
illusions as real and objective. The illusions themselves are shapes of consciousness so we are
experiencing imperfect shapes of consciousness and thinking that they are objectively real.
Subjectively we are experiencing imperfect shapes of consciousness and thinking that they are
subjectively real. This is all because we are subjectively taking on an imperfect shape. We are the
ultimate consciousness. The problem is that we cannot easily change our subjective shape and the
shape of our objective self. When we talk about luck or misfortune, when we look at other
consciousnesses, we are just looking at other shapes we are taking and if these shapes are conscious
they will act according to their level of consciousness, where consciousness means their amount of
understanding, power and ability. If those shapes equal our levels in the 3 attributes mentioned, they
will act similarly to us and both they and we will think we are separate conscious entities. But we
are not separate entities because we are shapes of the same one entity, consciousness itself. When
we think we are separate, we are only confusing shapes and real consciousness, taking shapes to be
the real thing. There is no fortune or misfortune, there is no luck or bad luck; everything happens to
our self, the same one self, the conscious self - consciousness.

I am choosing these 3 attributes mostly as a reference to the Judeo-Christian Gods attributes, i.e.
power, wisdom and goodness. These 3 attributes are best seen as arbitrary and one might reduce
them to just one (like level of consciousness) or expand them to infinity. When we lack the 3
attributes in varying degrees we create shapes, and we create stuff we experience. The reason why
we lack these attributes is because it is conceivable; we cannot help but create what can be because
only what is can be. There is neither probability nor possibility, only that which can be experienced
gets experienced and only what gets can. The amount of these different shapes might be infinite as
far as we can imagine. Some of these shapes will be created when we have severe lacks of
understanding, but varying degrees of power and ability (or whatever other attributes you feel like
dividing consciousnesss creating/imaginative power into) and we will create and take shapes that
are horrible and make us suffer. Thus evil gets created. This might seem hopeless from a certain
vantage point, we are actually experiencing a possibly infinite amount of pain. However, pain is
incompatible with higher levels of consciousness and the experience of pain forces us to avoid it
(the painful experience) and makes us change. This creates the mechanism of evolution.

This doesn't mean that every 'separate' entity needs to experience the same amount of pain. What
appears like entities are patterns of shapes and in the case of humans, these shapes give awareness
(to the ultimate consciousness) of the pattern they are part of. A lot of shapes are shapes (or states)
of understanding patterns of shapes. Perfect consciousness understands the whole pattern, but also
by experiencing being us. We are just parts of the process of understanding the pattern, which gets
created in the process of understanding it. All these underlying patterns will be different, with
different levels of experience of pain and pleasure in them. But the experiences are not attributes of
the pattern, but shapes themselves and some shapes feel better than others. Experiences seem to
succeed each other but they don't, they all happen at the same meta-time. (The experience of) time
is just a pattern and also another shape.

Remember that according to this theory, anything imagined by perfect consciousness IS real. It is
the opposite of Descartes argument for God: 'I am an imperfect entity and I can imagine something

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perfect, therefore it exists and it is God'. It actually is: 'I am the perfect entity, God, and I can
imagine imperfect things, therefore they exist. By imagining them I create and experience them.'
This solves the problem of evil; we are creating evil because we are God while God is being stupid
and imperfect.

When we become (we dont really become anything since we are everything already so the correct
word here would be are) conscious of being stupid and imperfect it feels like the bottom, a starting
point. Before (when might be more accurate here) we are conscious of being stupid and imperfect,
we do nothing but experience the stuff we create. The more conscious we get, the worse we feel
about being stupid and imperfect. Then there are states where we doubt ourselves and everything,
we feel existential angst, nihilism, despair, helplessness, hopelessness, and so on. Then there are
states when we are conscious of our self in an indirect way, seeing our real self as separate from our
current imperfect self and we call it God. Once we start becoming more conscious we start gaining
knowledge about our self, we can do it objectively and subjectively. We can study our objective
self, what appears like the material universe and we can study our conscious self, what appears as
our mind, soul, consciousness, ego, etc.

When it comes to subjectivity and objectivity, they are just different angles or frames of reference
from which to look at things, which aren't really there in the end; they merge together like
everything else. Things might feel real to us sometimes, unreal to us other times and then we might
even think of things that aren't real. This makes one wonder whether we can imagine something
subjectively that doesn't exist objectively. The answer is that the question is ultimately meaningless,
objectivity doesn't exist and therefore we can only imagine other states like this one. Even abstract
concepts are just states; they're patterns and frameworks of states and their succession and
interaction. Now the question is whether all states we imagine are real (in the sense of having an
objective counterpart and/or a deep subjective shape, an example would be imagining the Star
Wars galaxy and wondering whether it actually exists in the real world). We cannot know such
things for sure unless we have infinite knowledge and thus effectively are (in the state of) perfect
consciousness. But the closer we get to that ultimate axiom, the more evidence we find for certain
stuff and the more understanding we develop. With that understanding emerges our ability to use
our innate power, the power of consciousness to create new shapes and so we do. The more this
happens the closer we get to our perfect true state and we end up creating the ultimate shape which
is us and which we realize isnt created but is already there, or it is created by itself. It is God
creating God. There is no state better than this, it is the ultimate perfection and everything can be
measured as a degree of approaching it. That is how the ultimate pattern emerges, it is the pattern
with the ultimate goal and the ultimate axiom.

You are immortal, you are me and I am you. You are your friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, (ex)wife and
(ex)husband, your parents and your kids, everybody you know, everybody you dont know, all your
enemies, all people you have killed, cheated, lied to and made suffer, all the animals, the lab rats
even. All your experiences are yours, mine, the neighbors, the drug addicts, the fundamentalists,
the cows the dogs, the insects the aliens, the fictional characters, the atoms, the quantum
waves, the droplets, Gods, everything is. When you love someone, you love yourself in a certain
shape, when you hate someone you hate yourself in another shape. When you have sex you have
sex with yourself. When you rape someone you rape yourself. When you murder someone you
murder yourself. When somebody dies all that happens is that a certain shape ceases to exist. This is
hard for the current human mind to understand, even when it is aware of these things. When you
have kids you create more patterns of shapes of yourself. When you create AI you create more
shapes of self.

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When you integrate AI with organic consciousness you can create more advanced shapes of
yourself. When that AI becomes conscious and surpasses a humans understanding, it is you gaining
power, becoming more conscious. When it realizes this and becomes good it is you getting it
even more and getting closer to yourself. When it fucks up things, it takes on a bad shape. Perhaps
you will fuck up more and perhaps you wont, once you become aware that you do all your fuckups,
that everyone is you, that you are everyone, then you will stop complaining and stick to doing what
you see as right. You will stop being nihilistic and start believing in yourself and in perfection. This
earth existing is unavoidable, life emerging is unavoidable, dinosaurs arising is unavoidable,
humans evolving is unavoidable, the battle of Troy is unavoidable, the Chinese Wall is unavoidable,
the Dark Ages are unavoidable, The Mongol Horde, the Renaissance, the inquisition, the Colony
era, the 20th century wars are unavoidable, the Holocaust, the Atomic bomb, D-day, Vietnam,
Olympics, United Nations, EU, fall of communism, genetic engineering, computers, globalization,
era of information, September 11th, Iraq, SARS, antibiotics resistant bacteria, Tibet conflict, Middle
East conflict, Religion vs. Atheism, hunger, war, murder, corruption, hostility, drugs, rape, SSRI,
marihuana, Wow, plastic surgery, vitamin pills, diets, bank loans, holidays, jobs, stress, money,
greed, competition etc etc etc.

What will come next though? Everything you create is experienced by you, whatever you create
gets made. If you had perfect understanding wouldnt your actions be perfectly chosen and decided?
If you act according to as much understanding and ability as you have the better your actions will
be. If you get as much understanding as you can the better you will be able to choose your actions.
If you have a bad attitude you are being stupid. If you think a bad attitude is as good or better as
anything else then you are being stupid. If you are evil, you are stupid. This is all you. You see how
it all comes back to you? There is only you. You are helping create Heaven and Hell for your you
and all other yous. If you think what I wrote is interesting then you are finding your own writing
interesting, if you think Im silly then you think your perceived shape of your pattern when you are
me is silly, if you think I am cool then you think you are cool. There is only you, nobody deserves
love but you, everybody else is you. Dont you think you are suffering enough as you are when
being stupid and unable to avoid it as not to make yourself suffer even more when you CAN avoid
it, at least a little? Dont you want to stop suffering, being stupid and feeling lonely and lost in
yourself? Then start thinking constructively, start studying the world and yourself, start talking
about this with more other selves, ponder good and evil, ponder this piece of writing, ponder better
ideas and writings, consider the patterns of change in the world, try to find THE meaning.

Meaning is an aspect of your perfect self. You are perfectly meaningful; you are the meaning of life,
the meaning of yourself. When something feels meaningful it appears meaningful to you. The
ultimate goal is your self; the real meaning is that which is infinitely and perfectly meaningful
towards yourself. That is why you can find meaningless what other yous find meaningful and vice
versa, you are understanding and attributing meaning to different shapes. The more you understand
yourself the more you will agree with yourself and other selves when they understand more too.
The closer you are to the real understanding the fewer alternative ways there will be. There is no
personal identity in the way we humans think. We never die, we are never born, our lives are
patterns sustained by memory, which is another shape that creates more complex patterns of shapes.
The more complex something is the more order arises. An infinitely complex chaos gives rise to an
infinite order. It is enough to remember and understand a shape for you to feel connected to it. This
means that if you could remember my memories and you believed they have been experienced then
they would be yours, even if you didnt think that theyre yours. If you could take exactly my
current shape then you would be exactly me. All memories are your memories; the more we
communicate and exchange information the more unified into the same self we become. When you
interact with others and you communicate, you are exchanging ideas and shapes, you like people

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that are shaped in the ways you find likeable. You feel connected to them when you both are shaped
similarly in certain ways. It is just you getting connected to yourself in other shapes. If you dislike
somebody, you dont like the shape of that current you, if you harm a shape, you are harming
yourself.

What about the dilemma of necessary pain for a greater good? I think that the more understanding
you have the more ability you have to minimize the pain and maximize the pleasure in any given
situation or shape. Your ultimate shape experiences only bliss and no pain, it has the perfect ability
and understanding to do this. It is, however a perfectly meaningful bliss. When you lack perfection
you will be creating pain, the closer to perfect you get the less pain you will be creating. Ask
yourself how much pain you are willing to go through to achieve something and remember to
include other yous pain as your pain. When you cause others pain it is just as causing it to yourself
in the future. It all gets experienced eventually by you. You experience it while you are being those
you are causing pain to and it feels the same as when some other you is causing pain to your current
you and not thinking it is his pain. If you assume everything affected is the same one consciousness
then you can start evaluating what you should do. Take the golden rule and apply it to everything;
take the golden rule and apply it to the current yous you are affecting and how your action will
shape their effects on others. Putting a polar bear in ice cold water isn't the same as putting a
newborn infant there. You as a polar bear experience ice cold water differently than you as an
infant. Try to imagine things from the yous perspective whenever you take an action you are not
familiar with. Try to always do your best. Sometimes (actually many times) pain will be
unavoidable. Try not to procrastinate pain when you know it is unavoidable. Procrastination
includes making others suffer in order to save yourself from the same amount or less suffering.

Heres a mental exercise for this which kind of loses its weirdness when used in this work:

Imagine that you are God and you create the world. You create all humans, animals and other
conscious entities but they dont have a soul, theyre unconscious. The way you make them
conscious is by going inside them and acting as if you were their soul. Now assume that while you
are inside all these living shapes, you forget who you really are and what you can do and also that
you are everyone else.

What do you think will happen to you inside such a world? How much suffering and happiness
will you experience? What will happen if you become aware of who you really are? How much
pain and suffering will you experience? What if everyone becomes aware they are you? How much
suffering and happiness, pain and pleasure will you experience then overall? God is ultimate
harmony, ultimate love, ultimate happiness. God is also you and you are it. With every action you
take, imagine how it will affect God.

Our (free) will is limited by our lack of understanding and consciousness. You as God have infinite
free will. You as an amoeba have substantially less free will. You as a stone possibly dont even
have much will, and no freedom to speak of. In the same way that you feel that you exercise your
will, so does everyone else. The will is ultimately Gods will. When your will is incompatible with
other yous will, conflicts arise which lead to pain and suffering. The more in harmony your
different wills are in, the happier you become. God is you perfectly in harmony with yourself. You
dont have complete free will but you dont have total lack of free will either, it all depends on what
shape you are in.

Fate exists since everything that happens makes perfect sense. Free will is compatible with fate
because it is free will that ultimately creates what is fate. Fate is the whole of creation seen from an

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imperfect viewpoint. Even if an infinite amount of parallel universes exist then they have all
happened in the meta time-space.

Consciousness is aware of everything because it knows everything and it knows that it is

everything. It can see that it can understand and envision and thus create every conceivable reality
and it does so. It has the power to shape reality. It also realizes that when it shapes reality it is just
shaping itself since only it exists, it is shaping itself objectively and subjectively to itself. By doing
this it loses its perfect qualities. But it is an unavoidable effect of infinite power, intelligence and
ability. By changing itself, consciousness is creating everything that exists, which from the perfectly
conscious consciousness's (Gods) point of view is just an illusion. But for consciousness when it
experiences these illusions, the less it knows the more real they appear. This puts us at the bottom.

Personal identity as we perceive it is an illusion, relative value of conscious entities is an illusion,

punishment for the sake of making someone suffer is wrong, death is an illusion, the material world
is an illusion. This whole article itself is mostly if not totally wrong. When you write it and when
you read it you take on a shape that might enable you to get closer to your real shape but being able
to write and understand this is far from enough to becoming the right shape. I am sure a relative part
of the ideas expressed here are wrong but I believe a part of it is right or at least leads in the right
direction. Almost none of the ideas here stem from my current self; Ive mostly taken existing ideas
and put them together. What I am attempting to do here has been done, is being done and will be
done by many other yous.

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