Im building a mountain with every secret worry swear Ive ever had made done committed to piled high:

by lunch Ive got a reminder to remind myself to remind myself to care by dinner, a note not to bother tomorrow, or the next next next day... (and a hundred refutations screaming red denying me the luxury) one day Ill tear away my smile and torch the rotten mess some day Ill get to clearing away the cobwebs from some asphyxiated thought bubbles Ill play hero for my creative side arts eternal savior delayed another day Ill mine my mountain for forgotten pleasures? treasures? I knew it yesterday Ill get through today when its all built up around me, theres a valley where I can unpeel my skin and close my rubbed raw eyes against the ash-filled sky