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my cat voted republican this morning I was in from the night-time garden, picking pieces of moonlight off my fingers he sat on my chest where I lay staring at the stars through the cracks in the ceiling, and whispered it, eyes cavernous and wicked, so close his whiskers lit my cheeks ii. the world slipped forward and left me behind, frozen in crept the Winter; she kissed me and shattered my bones into powder so she blew an apology that swept the motes of my fractured mind into a drifting embrace, til I was warm at last... iii. my thoughts stopped with the dawn, somewhere floating near the sun, who brushed me into being and punctured my lungs instead time to face the day, he whispered, as I bled oxygen and every secret I ever held oozed out of my mouth for all the birds to see I dove to catch a robin, his breast so red within my grasp, and asked him what hed heard he opened his beak - but a faded sin crept in and cracked him open death stained his chest blue he whistled, shrieking iv. the sky sent warriors on a wailing wind to howl at me until they blew my face back off my skull; I was bared to the world, heaving rattled breaths, caught in a binding tempest the winds screamed why, and fix it, and I couldnt hold myself up and fell in a tumble, through the earth and back out again, to the end of the universe I perched on the ledge and looked down and saw nothing but questions I had no answer for I tore out my eyes and flung them down and prayed to the abyss for relief but my mind kept swirling and twisting and knotting, leaking kaleidoscope shapes out of my empty sockets; they buzzed and whirred and whipped around and around and screaming I pulled out my mind and flung that too down v. (in the quiet, I could breathe) vi. chewed and spit up and tickling feebly

it snapped up to meet me and, trembling, I woke blinking in the daylight on the floor vii. my cats reprimanding stare reminded me in the sleepy clarity of Day: I cant breathe, and cats cant vote