I realize that I actually do like myself.

Helena stated that she disliked tsundere characters, and I realized that she might dislike Asuka, and also shinji. I dont know why her opinion about him bothers me so much still. I feel like I like myself better after watching evangelion, but I dont think self-hatred is something that just goes away. Ive transferred my trust in other people to trust in myself. Now that I trust myself, that same hate I felt for myself is going against the people who made decisions for me formerly. Thats another reason why her comment bothers me, I keep trying to understand her position, but I know deep inside that shinji could have been saved in episode 24, yet she thought denying him the only thing that would help shinji love himself would help him. I dont understand why she thinks that. It doesnt help that she watched this show when she was 10 and wasnt nearly as concerned by it as I am.