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e le"tion #$onsters% &ages 2'()2*1 Rosolowski talks about her weight problems and her struggles she had with herself, her mom, and society itself while she grew up. Who I am matters more than what you say (rosolowskipg2 !" #he is saying that when she watched $od%illa gnaw on a &uick when she was younger and still belie'ed in the (uote abo'e that she could throw herself into self)display of all kinds. #he embraced the monsters way of being who they are and despite what others might say. #he reali%ed later that this belief she had was fading away. *er familiar self was fading fast away from her. +hey didn,t feel shame with what they (the monsters" were who they were and didn,t spend hours trying to be something they weren,t. #he used that as inspiration for herself. -'en though, she herself would spend hours laying on her bed. Rosolowski states that she was so compelled in what society wanted her to be that while lying still in bed she could feel the parts of her body that was meant to be thin. +his was her dilemma. #he says if you can,t be slim and popular you then had rational thinking. .nd you were almost in a way compelled to self) hate. Rosolowski says in the time she spent paraly%ed in her bedroom she would think about her own inade(uacies. #he continues saying that that is how girls lose their most 'aluable innocence, something more profound then innocence lost in se/ual initiation. #he then transitions into the way girls are meant to be, but that this was all so normal. 0emininity is a mas(uerade1 gender is created by the costumes we put on and the roles we play, a fashioning of body and mind. 2ounting calories or learning to walk in high heels with a book on my head was not fundamentally different than being told that I could no longer ride my bike at night, or being forbidden to go (in daylight" to a neighborhood where a man raped his niece. I learned to walk to walk 3 with

body and mind. (Rosolowski pg2 4" she is basically saying that society makes us who we are by what we do and how we act almost in a subconscious way for e'ery man and women to conform and be the way society (men" want them and each other to be. #he also says that for a girl counting calories or learned to walk in high heels is normal and part of her life that came almost naturally like a parent telling you that you aren5t allowed to do something like riding your bike at night. Rosolowski then adds about the beha'ior women were supposed to ha'e and that any big emotions were to be subdued and locked away. Resentment, desperation and anger ran high, but I knew I had to keep (uiet. (rosolowskipg267" 8o matter what she felt she couldn5t 'oice it because of the way society had made it not ok to do so. +his is how she mad monsters ha'e greater meaning to her then maybe another person might ha'e. #he goes off this to talk about if girls couldn5t meet the standards of society then it automatically abdicate the right to complain. If you meet the standards then you were to shut up and keep that achie'ement and be proud. With this comes her attitude toward certain things, when I ga%ed at my dinner plate 3 a study in 792 and 79: cup measures 3 I knew that resentment about my mother5s kitchen police)state was impermissible. I was supposed to appreciate her help as I shuffled toward slenderness. +o be rude and ungrateful, or to be fat; (e'entually I chose thin and rude" all the anger drained into some inner holding tank. (Rosolowski pg26<" she is basically says there is only one choice you could ha'e if you struggle with weight and want to be in society,s good graces which is to be rude and ungrateful. +his is a big part of her lo'e for and the deeper meaning to the rubber suited monsters.