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bayatlar aam, li mni, gzldir li mni. z s diyim bir !za gndrin li mni. b"rdan drd bac kdi, ba#d !y!ac kdi. mr$m bhrsiz %ld", g$nlrim ac kdi. t%rpa!da ac %lmaya, insandan bac almaya. &l d$nya yarana, insanlar !%calmaya. ana sada %laydm, s$rm !ada %laydm. sinnim gri dnydi, 'n b yada %laydm. mn ai!m, ay #"mar, gc sr#%, ay #"mar. s gilim ca ab rmz, a yatr #"mar(#"mar. a!, n gzl yazd, mirzlr gzl yazd, !"mr" kimi danan sinnd tlli sazd. a! grmd"zl"d" sz$ irin, d"zl"d". mclisi gylr kimi $lkrli, "ld"zl"d". mn ai!m, drindi, k$l$ badan dr indi, bldim k%r talyim, d$d$m, !"y" drindi. )br rin g$l#ara, gyinmsin g$l(#ara. ai!i nakam gtdi, !ismt %ld" g$l #ara. a!, adn irindi, *rhad d%st" irindi. d%stdan d%sta gln pay b baldan irindi.

grayllar yar n&c 'ld"+ b"la!, sndn #br alm, syl gr$m, yar nc%ld"+ g$n $zl$, ay camall, !ddi !lmkar nc%ld"+ itirmim bir maralm, ksilib sbri(!rarm. sndn bir sz #br alm, syl biil!ar nc%ld"+ aramzda sn %l, hkm, atasz, !ardasz, tkm. itkin gdn % ba#tkm, a sinsi !ar, nc%ld"+ &idin, a! ca anam, n atam ar, n d anam... tndn %d"r nianam, bilmm % yar nc%ld"+ ar 'ls"n &llrin snin tk$l$bd$r a b"#aa )"rmay tllrin snin. yarar !ayma! d%daa, irindir dillrin snin. d$msin llri drd, !m !almasn kn$llrd, gzir dilsiz prdlrd. sntkar llrin snin. h$syn %#"r zild, bmd, !almasn kn$llr !md. &l szlri ar sinmd, ar %ls"n llrin snin. arn alm ay !aba!l, hilal !al, !"mral gzl$, arn alm, cyran kimi "# ba#l, i (nazl, arn alm,

gzl kn illr kimi, rngi s%lmaz g$llr kimi, '#"yan b$lb$llr kimi, )% a azl, arn alm, &y r*li, nam"sl" !z, $ryi pak, !lbi tmiz, min iyin birini $z, s%lmaz yazl, arn alm, n ara, hrt alal, s gilinl !%a !%cal, z yarna min nm al, tlli sazl, arn alm, ca an h$syn dir dilk, sizsiz hyat ny grk. sni grn tmiz $rk, c%"b yazd, arn alm, &ylr -cal grayl. mhbbt saray "sa, !lb alar, dil ay ylr. kn$l pr azlanb "sa, gzr yarn, *adarn, z dildarn, tapammasa, dil ay ylr. a! yarn grms, siyah salarn hrms, alan g$l$n drms, g$l tk$lr, yar g$lr, bl b$k$lr, ca alar, tl ay ylr. ' " itirs maral, ksilr sbri(!rar. dadan(dadan #br al, $ryi yanar, yarn anar, drdli !anar, mn szlar, l ay ylr, mhbbtin tam balsa, an arn alsa, yar yarna hsrt !alsa, saz da alar,

sz d alar, gz d alar, gzdn a#an sl ay ylr. hicran ya drin gls, mhbbti iki bls. ca an h$syn nakam ls, aylar alar, d%st s%ra!lar, yar alar, hy*, dyib l ay ylr. d&, dalarn b" andan a!, gt$r tlli saz, d, dalarn b" andan, &idilsin #% a azn )ab"lan yaylandan. ba#, !artall !ayalara. bzkdir "l" dalara, gz "r"rlar b"l"dlara y"rd"m"n hr b"candan. tbitin b"d"r hal, g$nylr srib #al, b%z tplr rt$b al, d%yma! %lm"r n randan. kmr!aya, &ynalld$z, d"r"bd"r snnn $zb$z, szldaan znb"r" s$z, bal s$z$l$r /caynandan/. ya#l"#"r, gilli b"la!, kpz #, gy gl ba#, gzmyinn %lmaz d%yma!, azrbaycan t%rpandan. saryaldan gl !%!ara, hrmt ylr sntkara. gzl, d$m b%ran(!ara, # dalarn snandan. ca an h$syn, a azn #%, zildn %#", $rkdn c%, 0r d yaz, nm d !%, d$rr s$z$ls$n d%dandan. dalar

n gzlsn, s*alsan, s%lmasn g$lzarn, dalar, ya# d%st tk *alsan, p%z"lmaz il!arn, dalar, yaz %landa !arn rir, kks$n g$lzara dndrir, )stlr *a rir, srin b"z"n, !arn, dalar, lalli !%ca trtr, )an ay, dli !ar!ar, cbinindn a#an trlr, c%d"r"r aylarn, dalar, !%!ar, kpz, m"r"z, mr% ... !alarndan gtmir !r% , dli dadan !al#anda % , izlr % "larn, dalar, yrnmim lsgrdn, yazram sind*trdn, ca an h$syn hrdn(hrdn, yazr z 0arn, dalar, !'malar mhbbt b$lb$l$n !lbindn silinib gtmz, g$ln mhbbti, g$l mhbbti. an h zaman d$mz dilindn, tn mhbbti, l mhbbti, "r"n"yam sakit a#an s"larn, azad dilklrin, sa* d"y"larn, d%stlar !lbindki !in, il!arn, gtmz $ryimdn bil, mhbbti, mn z$m *rhadam, tnim irin, !%yn"mda bsldim mn irin(irin, !nddn d irindir, baldan da irin, ana mhbbti, dil mhbbti, kn$l alasa da, yada ba ymz, yad rn atlas, #aran gymz, mhbbt ai!i h zaman dmz, h$syn, $ryindn sil mhbbti,

'"l gl atann szlrin !"la! as, ytir srlr sn di!!t, %"l, "n"tma ki, biz !%na! d$nyada, mr$m$zdn gdir hr saat, %"l. !iymtli a#tlarn gtmsin b%a, kamil sntkar %l, hmi yaa, nam"sla mr$n$ rgiln baa, &l sn bslsin mhbbt, %"l. sn ya bir alim %l, ya bir sntkar, y$n sntinl yl i*ti#ar, yazb(yaratdn !alsn yadigar, yaadar insan, i, snt %"l. )al!n s sin sni z %l" kimi, z $ryi kimi, z al kimi, igid babk kimi, k%r%l" kimi, 'ls"n $ryind mtant, %"l. dalmasn *ikrin, amasn h""n bir ii balasan zldn d$$n, mzmmt tmsin sni tay(t""n, 'lma d%st yannda #calt, %"l. a! h$syn dyr, glck sabah, sabahn nbzini t"t, %l bir crrah, bilmz y%l gstr, %lgiln hmrah, sa#la b" sz$m$ mant, %"l. d$nyada rpnma $ryim, dy$nm !lbim, kiilm d$mn, yilm yada, 'dlar lksinin "calb ba, dyilir hrti b$t$n d$nyada. ah km, !m ym, %# ba#ma y%la, alama, szlama, ylm nala, %# kmz ytrsn yn $sala, drdin artb %lmaz hddn ziyada. paralanma $rk, yaralanma sn, tz b$t lndin, paralanma sn, *al d%st"ndan aralanma sn, d%lan ar#asnca, d%lan piyada, tindir l$mdn, yaman ayrl!, &yldi !ddimi kaman ayrl!,

s#sa da h$syni zaman, ayrl!, d%st"ndan l kmz, dnmz nbada, ar aydnl!dan !aan, klgd itn, !aranl!da k%lda yatanlar da ar, m!sdsiz yaayb, yri y%l t"tan, $mmana da(t%rpa! atanlar da ar. d$z gtmyn h!i!tin y%l"yla ilmyn z y"rd"nda liyl, icdann, nam"s"n" liyl z$ tk nadana satanlar da ar. bilmir ismtini, bilmir arn, salr aya! altda z $!arn, rib zglr i#tiyarn, zg tyindn t"tanlar da ar. lal #%r"z tk 0dsind banlamr pis iind z(z$n$ danlamr, indiydk anlamayb anlamr, b% danb, ara !atanlar da ar. tirli g$llri $zmk istyn $z$b ya#asna d$zmk istyn, ! asl! bilmyn, $zmk istyn, h$syn, $mmanlarda batanlar da ar. yar $zm, $zm -!%a yarpa!. 'ld"m dilikst, y b%y" bst, lim tyind, yar, $zm, $zm. ndir sinn $st, lblri p$st, m$r t t canm, yar $zm, $zm. drmansz bimaram, yar, intizaram, kn$l t"tm"r aram, snddir aram. mn d g$nahkaram, n !dr aram, !%y ba#sn gzlrin, yar $zm, $zm. m0nalar m0nas, gzllr #as, min drdin da as, kn$l bnnas, h$syndir, !adas ar tmnnas, &!in dryasnda, yar $zm, $zm. ikdn d gzlsn

yarn sinsind bir dst ik, yar nrgiz, yar !n, yar g$l. ikdn d, nrgizdn d yar gyk, )% halna kimin ard yar g$l. !zlg$l canann al yanadr, nazik yarpa!lar !mi dadr, a g$l gzlrinin tr b"#adr, g$lr $zlr h %lmasn sar g$l. g$ld$ yara baa(balarn, )ald yara a b"#a!larn, yard yara gn %ta!larn, ca an h$syn kir intizar, g$l. gzl mnim !lbim caradan nazikdir m$r t t, sinmi dalama, gzl, hsrtindn knl$m zik(zikdir d"z spib yaram balama, gzl, zldn "r"nam lal $zlr, s$zg$n ba#lara, hla gzlr, !%y snin baarn glsin bizlr, ah kib, ya tk$b alama, gzl, sn ca an h$syn d, mn d can dyim, 'lm"am h$sn$n bir hyran dyim, snin gzlrin mn !"rban dyim, ks sinm $st$nd, sa#lama gzl, tindir dinlyin $ryim, ziz d%stlarm, !lbim inlr, dil yaras tindir, !lnc kss, g$ll dys saalar, h saalmaz dil yaras, tindir. !anlar a#r $ryimdn yarasz, tz ytirin h alm yara siz, drdli sinm crrah kimi yarasz, grsiz ki, s%l yaras, tindir. namrdlrdn mrd yara ytis, trlann ikar sara ytis, tirli !nlr #ara ytis, b$lb$l $$n g$l yaras tindir.

kl(kt$r y%llarn d$zldim, tn $$n a g$l gzib izldim, kimsy dmdim, drdim gizldim, sinm $st mil yaras tindir. ca an h$syn yts yar irin yara, l$t* ylr lbindn yar irin yara. ! r dir !lbimd yar irin yara, dz bilmm il yaras tindir. g$lrmi talyi #% insan gls d$nyaya, 'n"n gtirdiyi d ran g$lrmi. l%man gls bir #stnin yanna, )st saalarm, l%man g$lrmi. hr kimin d$nyada talyi g$ls, sinsindn l0l$(g hr s$z$ls. azad g$nlrinin !drini bils, d ran s inrmi, zaman g$lrmi. sn h a#t d$nyada g$lm bir ks, namrdlr istyr basdn ks. zaman bd glib mrdlr b$drs, namrdlr l alb yaman g$lrmi. !a*il %lma, kn$l, #% g$nlr ara, &!ini rginn d%ma diyara, bir %# d$zg$n gdib dys ikara, syyad s inrmi, kaman g$lrmi. h$syn, sn dalarn zir sindn a, dy$ mydanna h$nrl yana, kmk lms !ardaa(!arda, knardan l alb d$man g$lrmi. manti &y m$!dds tn, y ana t%rpa!, $ryim snindir, al manti, bir c$t krpm !alr snd yadigar, taprram sn, bil manti. kimdir mnim kimi knar lindn, ayr d$n g$n$n sanar lindn. b$lb$l ayr d$r !n g$l$ndn ' ba manti, g$l manti. hdim b"d"r: yar ra snmsin,

zg b$lb$l dal b"daa !%nmasn, yara tapr ( hr sz inanmasn, d%da! manti, dil manti. ' da gtsin z d%st"n" arasn, tz saaltsn $ryinin yarasn, salarn sallasn, darasn. ay !aba!da ca tl manti. krm "za!da mn intizar, l$nc "n"tmam % d$z il!ar, h$synin d%st"na ar 0tibar, ytirck sn, al manti. irindir sirri bilinmyn z$lmt gcnin r0yas da, shri d irindir. yar y%l"nda irin candan knin s inci d, !hri d irindir. krdn alnb mhbbt tam, baldan s$z$l$bd$r $saln cam. ksib y%l"m, tks !anm haram, al !anmn c hri d irindir. ca an h$syn p%zmaz hdin(pymann, itirmz hrtin, itirmz ann. acnn, irinin dadbdr tamn, d%st"n mn zhri d irindir. !"mran gzlrinin !"rban 'l"m mahir % " kimi mni izlyn, !"mral gzlrinin !"rban %l"m. sa#ta ba#lardan mni gzlyn, i (nazlarnn !"rban %l"m. arm snin kimi s%lmayan ik, briim cal, !ana "z birk+ d%ra mni, tik(tik i k, biir, gzlrinin !"rban %l"m. ca an h$syn d%ymaz sa* mhbbtdn, gl !"rtar ai!i !mdn, mhntdn. bnin balndan, nabatdan, !nddn irin szlrinin !"rban %l"m. b)t r

kilib, !$drtdn !alarn, gzl, kimin %laca!san yar, b#t r+ tk$l$b grdn ipk salarn kim hr$bd$ % salar, b#t r+ tzc !ndn #b yanan, %# salb grdn b$ll$r b"#am. n irindi dilin, !ayma! d%dan, an kibdi y!in ar, b#t r, snin mrmr sinn kazdan ad, ba#n !lbimd d$y$nd$, dad, !%yn"n bir bahard, my li bad, bcribsn irin bar, b#t r, aydrm camaln, g$nd$rm$ $z$n+ snsnmi i gc(g$nd$z$n+ 'ynatma !alarn, s$zd$rm gz$n, t0n "rma biz bar, b#t r, tbitdn n gzl pay albsan, 'd"r l iind sn "calbsan. g$n kimi d$nyaya i! salbsan, n"r"n t"t"b hr diyar, b#t r, gzldir d$nyada d$z il!ar, *a. yar yarn y%l"nda %# kr c*a, ytiib $sala, s$rrlr s*a. mhkm %lsa d$z il!ar, b#t r, yanandan a#an gilabd, trdi+ b"#an g$l kimi n tz(trdi, sni s n ksin %larm drdi, h$syn s ir sntk yar, b#t r. ba)d trsin gzllr gzli, mlklr #as !zbl $z$m ba#d trsin. dysn a!dan ar tmannas, m$1gann sinm a#d trsin. yandrd cismimi !in *ra, am kimi ridi !lbimin ya. s inc yalarl mim b"la piyaltk d%l"b a#d trsin. kims itmdi !lbim harayn, zimistan yldi knl$m$n yayn. ' bim$r t mhbbtin sarayn

yarlar lil y#d trsin. 'lmad an birc pnah, gylr "cald *ryad, ah. &!in lylasna gzllr ah, min zab rmy #d trsin. ca an h$synin almad shri, b%d" ilhamn s inc !hri. lblrindn l$t* yldi zhri, $saln camna s#d trsin. nakam lmrm dy$lrd brkimim, bimim, !%r#" ndir, l$m ndir, bilmrm. anamn s$d$n mn and imim, tn adn $ryimdn silmrm. azadl! "r"nda !anm tk$ls, mzarmn $stdn y%llar kils, salarm aarsa, blim b$k$ls, d$mn ba yib scd !lmaram. irin arz"larm yrin almasa, tnim zilltdn azad %lmasa, )al!m s inms, lim g$lms, $rkdn ad %l"b mn d g$lmrm. *! %l"b $rklr tk$llm, inar %l"b y%llar $std killm, b"da! %l"b yarpa!lara b$k$llm, hrt c$bbsin mn b$k$lmrm. #b sa alana y"rd"ma ba#sam, tbrizin kks$n "ld"zlar ta#sam, z*r nmsini zildn %#"sam, mn ca an h$synm, nakam lmrm. 'lmasa mcn"n dzrdimi hicran !hrin $ryind bir m"rad %lmasa+ *rhad apardm bis$t"n da, irin kimi sr inaz %lmasa+ h!i!i a!lar y%l"ndan amaz, gn g$nd gr$n$b, dar g$nd !amaz, lallr !zarmaz, !nlr amaz, tz ilin gzl yaz %lmasa.

b$lb$l ch(ch "rar g$l arasnda, an *rhlnr tl arasnda. a! s ilrmi l arasnda irin lhc, #% a az %lmasa+ a! ayrlarm z sntindn, &lin shbtindn, lin mdhindn+ )al!n !$drtindn, l adtindn kim danar, #al! raz %lmasa+ !anadsz ahinlr dalar aarm, insan da tnsiz, lsiz yaarm+ ca an h$syn mclislrd c%arm, sinsind tlli saz %lmasa+ bilmmim yarlar ala!lar yadlar h 0d z$m yar bilmmim. s"ltanlara %lmamam sadaa, alama!, szlama!, zar bilmmim, d$m$m t"*ana, !ara, b%rana, yilmyib am !ar d$mana, dmim sz$m$ mrdi(mrdana, n !%r#" n l$m dar bilmmim. sinmdn tkm$m zbrtac, inci, 'lmamam namrdlr ya nc. tn !i %l"b knl$m s inci, b"ndan by$k arz"( ar bilmmim. &l drdini $ryimd kmim, alnmdan tr, gz$mdn n"r tkm$m, )zan grmz barl balar kmim, zhmti z$m ar bilmmim. h$synm, hrtli, b$satl, adl, !lbim hrartli, $ryim %dl". inti!amdan irin, $saldan dadl, hyat balarnda bar bilmmim. a!larn atasdr lsgr n !dr d$nya ar, briyyt ar, g$n kimi !alasdr lsgr. a! ar, s gi ar, sa* mhbbt ar, mhbbtin badsidir lsgr.

sz mhki, srra*larn "stad, !zl shi*d hkk %l"b ad, kn$llr s inci, azlar dad, analarn laylasdr lsgr. sz$yl !lblri dib ra!ban, &!in bimarna %l"bd"r l%man. kiik sinsind by$k bir $mman, bhrlrin dalasdr lsgr. smndimi hr tr* apmam g hrin m0dnin b"nda tapmam. sz m$lk$nd b$rc$(!ala yapmam, szlrimin !alasdr lsgr. t$knmz #znli, hatm s#al, klmsi ya!"tdan, d$rdn bahal, b" ca an h$synin cahi(clal, gzlrinin 0lsidir lsgr. sz !iymtlidir ya!"tdan, almasdan, d$rdn, g hrdn, anlayan yannda sz !iymtlidir. m$#nntin tirmsindn, alndan, mrdlrin gydiyi bz !iymtlidir. yalanlar ddiyindn "tansa, h!i!i szlrin m0nasn !ansa, &! %d"na ai! srasr yansa, mhbbt hlin gz !iymtlidir. ca an h$syn s r at, t$*ngi, dy$ mydannda ylyr cngi. mhg zri tanr, gzs mhgi, srra*lar yannda gz !iymtlidir. inanma insan $$n hyat baldan irindi, kim ds b" baldan d%yd"m, inanma, gnclik z$ hr $saldan irindi kim ds $saldan d%yd"m, inanma, ca anl! gzldi, !drini bilsn, gzllr dstind bir !zlg$lsn, *al yar il danb g$lsn, kim ds b" haldan d%yd"m, inanma, h$syn, !in smndin %l s$ ar,

mhbbt hlinin z arz"s" ar. gzllrin #asndan da #as ar, kim ds gzldn d%yd"m, inanma, h$nr !alas myi, zhmti s myn insan hmi yadlara ya nc %l"r. l%man da drdin tapmayr drman hmdmsiz %ta!da zarnc %l"r. hr insan !lbind min arz" yatr, zhmt saysind m"rada atr. kimlr ki trini t%rpaa !atr, myin bhrsi, s inci %l"r. tnin s myn a#tsz !%calr, kn$l r$babnda / ay/ n*s alr )al!n s n, #al! lil "calr, !%l"nda !$drtli l g$c$ %l"r. g$zg$d$r insana snt d$nyas, ' ayna gstrir lkni, pas. sk$lm$r, dalmr h$nr !alas, hr tmiz $rkd bir b$rc$ %l"r. ca an h$syn, sz$ $rkd biir, iy sz yaamayr, !iymtdn d$$r. snin d bynindn g hr ytiir, d%dandan d$n sz inci %l"r. arasnda m0nasz szlri !b"l tmrm, ca ahir gndrsn l0l arasnda. na #yyat min d%n tiks gymrm gndrs d tirm, al arasnda. mrd igidlr ldn rmz *$rstin, &l iind nian rr !$drtin. gt$rmrm m$#nntin minntin, !r! %lsam dryada lil arasnda. sar gr$nmz ahinlrin gz$n, mrd inanmaz namrdlrin sz$n. almaram ""l, kzzab gz$n, mn z$m bir gzl g$l arasnda. bir d !m grmsin % !mli sin, glsinlr d%stlarm n mclisin,

bir air ki, !in smndin min, dyin % !alarm l arasnda+ ca an h$syn kimdn k$ss$n, incisin+ tanr d%stlarnn ya#sn, pisin, sir srra* kimi sz$n incisin, $nki % nhngdir l arasnda. tcnislr min aya billm b" n gzl g$nd$r, n #% saatdr, b"g$nk$ g$n$m$ min aya billm. mnim drsim rn kamil "staddr, yrdib, zbrdn min aya billm. yar !ddin gyinibdir acar, &l bil ki, szldayr ac ar, arz"larm dilim ylr aar, s%r"salar drdim min aya billm. m$#nntlr %ld" mndn !raa, mrd !%yma, sndr b%yn"n, !r, aa, ca an h$syn yar da atmaz !raa, yazlb yazs min aya billm. al, a al a!, gt$r d%!!"z tlli sazn, ya di ani, ya da tcnis al, a al, d$mn $$n s !lncn sazn, sirgm, gllsindn al, a al, ya# apaz tanr ya# d$y$n$, !mli ai! !lbin nin dy$n$+ mhkm bala, almasn d$y$n$, bir ilmk y%#, $$n mhkm al, a al, n a#tacan *lk mn a# alar+ *aydaszdr zr(!zllar, a#alar. ca an h$syn, !ara #ttin a alar, dyrlr ki, !%ca a!, al, a al, $z bilmz -cal tcnis. h!i!tin lmi dryadan drin, na ! as %rda bil, $z bilmz,

mn ai!m, $z bar, canan, gldi $z bar, azad bada g$l ab, nazl dilbr, $z, bar, kamil baban ab balarn drin, namrdlr balardan g$l $z bilmz, m0ri*t lazmdr ata(anadan, grk ki, drk tsin hr al nadan. ai! dyr n dan, sirrin rm nadan, a#tardm n g$l tapdm, iran bada n dan. kn$l tapb hmdmini n dan, l$ncn ayrlmaz, l $z bilmz. ca anam, b" yrd gzldir halm, drs rib mn d drin bir alim. mn ai!m, alimdir, zaman mn alimdir. gz$m grd$, ad %ld"m, azad ana limdir. g$l(ikl bznibdir mahalm, )zan p%za bilmz, yl $z bilmz,