Oh life oh universe

What have I done to make thee so adverse?

All I did, all I do, all the ribald expressions
Are meant in good humor, as sarcasm is my oldest obsession
And so you chose me to be the butt of thy cruelest joke
Of the most evil fashion
You gave me a life devoid of any passion

For years I have been wandering like a vagabond
Ignorance is at its paramount
They say Ignorance is bliss
But this bliss has left me with blisters
What remains is rubble of dreams and ambitions lying about in cinders
I feel envious of the ants
All in one line, focused and marching along in a unifed formation
And I look into the mirror searching for the curious kid, who believed in innovation
The kid that once peeped is long gone, what stares back is a crippled soul
In search of a source to push him into an even deeper oblivion
Give me a sign or else I may be forever lost, show me a glimpse of hope
Or else where there used to be candle, will lurk a ghost of a fame
All my life have I been just a bane?
I gaze at the stars as they too ficker
I drench myself in their pale glitter
And as Twilight approaches I recede
The sunlight is too bright to bear
My eyes tell me and so does my heart
That I was made for the dark!
If there is no silver lining, if you indeed think I am not worthwhile
Why not shove me down into an even deeper and darker aisle?
I stand on the edge of an abyss
Waiting for a gentle breeze
They say falling feels like fying
Finally I will be at ease
At least I will go down with wind in my hair
The airiness will blow away the despair
With eyes wide open I embrace the fall
With hatred for none and malice for all