Thought that I was strong

I know the words I need to say

Frozen in my place
I let the moment slip away
Ive been screaming on the inside and I know you feel the pain
Can you hear me, can you hear me? (ah, ah, ah)
Say its over, yes its over but I need you anyway
Say you love me but its not enough
Never meant to lie
but Im not the girl you think you know
The more that I am with you
the more that I am all alone
Ive been screaming on the inside and I know you feel the pain
Can you hear me, can you hear me? (ah, ah, ah)
Say its over, yes its over but I need you anyway
Say you love me but its not enough
Not that Im so different
Not that I dont see the dying light of what we used to be
But how can I forgive you- You changed
and Im a liar by your side
Im about to lose my mind
cause Ive been screaming on the inside and I know you feel the pain
Can you hear me, can you hear me
Youve been dreaming if youre thinking that I still belong to you
and Ive been dying cause Im lying to myself (ah, ah, ah)
Say its over, yes its over but I need you anyway
Say you love me but its not enough
T H E C H A N G E
Do what you what you want, if you have a dream for better
Do what you what you want till you dont want it anymore
(remember who you really are)
Do what you what you want, your worlds closing in on you now
(it isnt over)
Stand and face the unknown
(got to remember who you really are)
Every heart in my hands like a pale reection
Hello, hello remember me?
Im everything you cant control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way
to believe we can break through
Do what you what you want, you dont have to lay your life down
(it isnt over)
Do what you what you want till you nd what youre looking for
(got to remember who you really are)
But every hour slipping by screams that I have failed you
Hello, hello remember me?
Im everything you cant control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
Hello, hello remember me?
Im everything you cant control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
Theres still time
close your eyes
only love will guide you home
Tear down the walls and free your soul
Till we crash were forever spiraling down, down, down, down
Hello, hello, its only me
infecting everything you love
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
Hello, hello remember me?
Im everything you cant control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to learn forgiveness
Hello, hello remember me?
Im everything you cant control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe we can
break through
W H A T Y O U W A N T
Speak your mind
like I care
I can see your lips moving
Ive just learned not to hear
Dont waste your time
Its never enough for you, baby
Dont want to play your game anymore
no matter what you say
Im all out of love for you, baby
and now that Ive tried everything
Ill numb the pain till I am made of stone
Take your time
Im not scared
Make me everything you need me to be
so the judgement seems fair
Dont waste your time
Its never enough for you, baby
Dont want to play your game anymore
no matter what you say
Im all out of love for you, baby
and now that Ive tried everything
Ill numb the pain till I am made
to tear out my heart
for the way that it feels
I will still remember when youve long forgotten me
Its never enough for you, baby
Dont want to play your game anymore
no matter what you say
Im all out of love for you, baby
and now that Ive tried everything
Ill numb the pain till I am made of stone
M A D E O F S T O N E
I pulled away to face the pain
I close my eyes and drift away
over the fear that I will never nd a way to heal my soul
and I will wander till the end of time
torn away from you
My heart is broken
sweet sleep, my dark angel
deliver us from sorrows hold (over my heart)
I cant go on living this way
But I cant go back the way I came
chained to this fear that I will never nd a way to heal my soul
and I will wander till the end of time
half alive without you
My heart is broken
sweet sleep, my dark angel
deliver us
Change
Open your eyes to the light
I denied it all so long, oh so long
Say goodbye
Goodbye
My heart is broken
release me, I cant hold on
deliver us
My heart is broken
sweet sleep, my dark angel
deliver us
My heart is broken
sweet sleep, my dark angel
deliver us from sorrows hold
M Y H E A R T I S B R O K E N
Make me whole again
Open your eyes
Taunted by the shadows of your light
Cold and far away
like youre not even mine
Undo everything and take me higher
Never believing what they say cause Im
Counting the days to meet you on the other side
I will always be waiting
until the day that I see you on the other side
Come and take me home
Im not giving in
I want you back
holding together by the shards of our past
Stole my heart away
I cant let you go
Break these chains and let me y to you
high above the world below
Over and over in my mind
Counting the days to meet you on the other side
I will always be waiting
until the day that I see you on the other side
Come and take me home
I am so lost without my place inside your heart
I wont survive I need to know you hear me
Awaken and release my love
Counting the days to meet you on the other side
I will always be waiting
until the day that I see you on the other side
Come and take me
Counting the days to meet you on the other side
I will always be waiting
until the day that I see you on the other side
Come and take me home
T H E O T H E R S I D E
Its too late to change your mind
even though this fragile world is tearing apart at the seams
I cant wash these sins away
this sinking feeling every day Im waking up in someone elses life
Is it so hard for you, cause its so hard for me
to believe that what we dreamed could ever come to life again
cause I cannot erase this lie
Not gonna let this day go by
Im gonna save this wasted life and nothing can stand in my way
Not enough to say goodbye
Burn it till theres nothing left
Im drowning in the mess that I have made
Is it so hard for you, cause its so hard for me
to believe that what we dreamed could ever come to life again
cause I cannot erase this darkness in me
The waters rising around us
there is no other way down
I only have myself to blame for it all
Is it so hard for you, cause its so hard for me
to believe that what we dreamed could ever come to life again
if I could just erase my mind
but I cannot erase this lie
E R A S E T H I S
Embrace the silence
cause theres nothing that can change the way I feel
Taken all that you wanted
now theres nothing that can change the way I feel
Hold on, little girl
The end is soon to come
Sick of it all, sick of it all
We will not follow
Sick of it all, sick of it all
They dont understand how
Sick we are, sick we are
of this bottomless pit of lies
behind closed eyes
Oceans between us
and theres nothing that can change the way I feel
I can still taste the poison
of every thought, every breath I wasted here
Hold on, little girl
The end is soon to come
Sick of it all, sick of it all
We will not follow
Sick of it all, sick of it all
They dont understand how
Sick we are, sick we are
of this bottomless pit of lies
behind closed eyes
Someday youll know the pain
Someday the light will break through
And nothing you tell yourself will save us from the truth
screaming out
Sick of it all, sick of it all
We will not follow
Sick of it all, sick of it all
They dont understand how
Sick we are, sick we are
of this bottomless pit of lies
behind closed eyes
S I C K
I found a grave
brushed off the face
felt your light and
I remember why I know this place
I found a bird
closing her eyes one last time
and I wonder if she dreamed like me
As much as it hurts, aint it wonderful to feel?
So go on and break your wings
Follow your heart till it bleeds
as we run towards the end of the dream
Im not afraid
I pushed through the pain
and Im on re
I remember how to breathe again
As much as it hurts, aint it wonderful to feel?
So go on and break your wings
Follow your heart till it bleeds
as we run towards the end of the dream
Why must we fall apart
to understand how to y
I will nd a way
even without wings
Follow your heart till it bleeds
as we run towards the end of the dream
Follow your heart till it bleeds
and weve come to the end of the dream
E N D O F T H E D R E A M
Ive been believing in something so distant
as if I was human
And Ive been denying this feeling of hopelessness
in me, in me
All the promises I made
just to let you down
You believed in me but Im broken
I have nothing left
and all I feel is this cruel wanting
Weve been falling for all this time
and now Im lost in paradise
As much as Id like the past not to exist
it still does
And as much as Id like to feel like I belong here
Im just as scared as you
I have nothing left
and all I feel is this cruel wanting
Weve been falling for all this time
and now Im lost in paradise
Run away, run away
One day we wont feel this pain anymore
Take it all away, shadows of you
cause they wont let me go
till I have nothing left
and all I feel is this cruel wanting
Weve been falling for all this time
and now Im lost in paradise
Alone and lost in paradise
L O S T I N P A R A D I S E
Dont want to be the one to walk away
but I cant bear the thought of one more day
I think I nally understand what it means to be lost
Cant nd the road to lead us out of this
a million miles from where we burned the bridge
Cant keep pretending everythings gonna be alright
with the whole world falling around me
Cross the oceans in my mind
Find the strength to say goodbye
In the end you never can wash the blood from your hands
Fallen so far from where we were before
Youll never nd what youve been searching for
Someone to ll the void and make up for all of those
missing pieces of you
like I could only dream to do
Cross the oceans in my mind
Find the strength to say goodbye
Everything that we believed in was a lie
Cross the oceans in your mind
Find a way to blur the line
In the end you never can wash the blood from your hands
And we never learn
so we fall down again
heaven help me nd a way to dream within this nightmare
Cross the oceans in my mind
Find the strength to say goodbye
Everything that we believed in was a lie
Cross the oceans in your mind
Find a way to blur the line
In the end you never can wash the blood from your hands
O C E A N S
Way down, Ive been way down
underneath this skin
waiting to hear my name again
Im sorry
nothing can hold me
I adore you still
but I hear them calling
and nothing can hold me
Way down, all the way down
I will hear your voice
but Ill no longer understand
Im sorry
nothing can hold me
I adore you still
but I hear them calling
I was looking to the sky
when I knew Id be swimming home
and I cannot betray my kind
They are here
its my time
Im sorry
nothing can hold me
I adore you still
but I hear them calling
and nothing can hold me
S W I M M I N G H O M E
Everything is so dark and I know theres
something wrong but I cant turn the light on
In that split second change
when you knew we couldnt hold on I realized
I live to love you
Save yourself
Dont look back
Tearing us apart until its all gone
The only world Ive ever known sleeps beneath the waves
but I remember
I wont give up on you
I can feel you in my heart just show me the way
I dont belong here alone
I can still see your face
where its burned into my mind
I die every time I close my eyes
youre always there
Save yourself
Dont look back
Tearing us apart until its all gone
The only world Ive ever known sleeps beneath the waves
But Im the one whos drowning
Without your love I am lost
and I can never go back home
All across the ocean
We are calling, calling
Are you there
Nothing left for me till I nd you because its all gone
The only world Ive ever known sleeps beneath the waves
But Im the one whos drowning
Without your love I am lost
and I can never go back home
N E V E R G O B A C K
Serve your twisted enemy
so you might earn forgiveness
You know your whole world is waiting
so why cant you speak?
I feel it coming over me
Im still a slave to these dreams
Is this the end of everything
or just a new way to bleed
So go and tell all your friends that Im a failure underneath
if it makes you feel like a bigger man
But its my heart, my life that youre calling a lie
Ive played this game before
and I cant take anymore
I feel it coming over me
Im still a slave to these dreams
Is this the end of everything
or just a new way to bleed
by drifting far beyond the edge
freedom, freedom cant you feel the ground caving in?
freedom, give us a reason to believe again
I feel it coming over me
Im still a slave to these dreams
Is this the end of everything
or just a new way to bleed
N E W W A Y T O B L E E D
Hollow, like you dont remember me
Underneath everything I guess I always dreamed
that I would be the one to take you away from all this wasted pain
but I cant save you from yourself
Dont you want to feel
Dont you want to live your life
How much longer are you gonna give into the fear
Holding you down until youre frozen
I cant let you fall apart
You dont even know what youve done to me
but I would be the one to take you away from all this wasted pain
If you could just wake up
Dont you want to feel
Dont you want to live your life
How much longer are you gonna give into the fear
Holding you down until youre
All alone
All alone and drowning in your past
Take it back
Take it back I still believe you can
Dont you want to feel
Dont you want to live your life
How much longer are you gonna give into the fear
I cant go on pretending so give me something real
No one in your way but you
How much longer are you gonna give into the fear
Holding you down till you disappear
D I S A P P E A R
Its taking you too long to decide
and I dont want to be the one, the one
crying over wasted time
If you think youre strong enough to let me in
then come on, stand up and be honest
Im tired of feeling so alone
cause you wont let me understand
I dont want to pretend
I want to feel, I want to live
Say you will or say you wont
open your heart to me
Now or never tell the truth
Is this real, is this real?
Whenever youre around I cant ght it
You get under my skin in a way that I like it
and I cant take anymore
Tell me what you want from me or leave me alone
cause Im all caught up and Im losing control
Im tired of holding on so tight
when you wont let me understand
Now Im falling apart
I never meant to lose myself
Say you will or say you wont
open your heart to me
Now or never tell the truth
Is this real, is this real?
Say you will or say you wont
open your heart to me
Now or never tell the truth
Is this real, is this real?
Like drops of rain
against my heart
cut through like silver
and I want to make you feel that way
and I want to make you feel the way that I do
Say you will or say you wont
open your heart to me
Now or never tell the truth
Is this real?
Say you will or say you wont
open your heart to me
Now or never tell the truth
Is this real, is this real?
S A Y Y O U W I L L
Amy would like to thank: I want to thank everyone at Blackbird Studios in Nashville, for let-
ting us use your amazing place to create, and for making us feel like part of the family.
Special thanks to John and Martina McBride (for running such an awesome studio, and for
the BBQ!) Nathan Yarborough - the best and sweetest assistant engineer anywhere, and all
the interns who gave me rides home. Also, thank you to all our friends at S.I.R Nash- youve
been such an important part of this record. From writing and pre-production to rehears-
ing and performing, it all happened in the big room at the end of the hall! Thank you for
being so good to us. Big love to Nick Raskulinecz, the man with the plan. Thank you for
believing in me, for pushing me, for making me stronger, for cracking me up, and knowing
when to say HELL YEAH!! Thank you Paul Figueroa: Engineer extraordinaire, master chef,
bowling champion! Thank you Terry, Tim, Will and Troy for having my back, for bring-
ing rad, inventive ideas to the table, and most of all, for making it LOUD! Thank you so
much David Campbell, Dave Eggar and all of the string players. Thank you Chris Vrenna,
you rule! Thank you Will B. Hunt for the inspiration, the good times, and the very special
music we made together. Thank you to John Nicholson, one of my new favorite people! Also
thank you to Phyllis Sparks and Mike Simmons. Thank you Dave Fortman, for your advice,
support, and friendship throughout my career. Thank you Diana Meltzer for discovering
me and always supporting me! Thank you Josh, for supporting and encouraging me to
be brave and remember love, above all. Thank you Mom, Dad, Carrie, Lori, and Robby for
being my biggest fans and always supporting me, making me feel safe when life gets hard,
and taking me to Disney World no matter how old I get! Love to all of my wonderful fam-
ily- I am so blessed. Gotta give a shout out to my girl, Beth! Thanks for being someone I
can always count on. I cant wait to laugh around the world with you once more! Thank
you Zach and Stacy Williams, for your friendship and your inspiration. Thank you Eddie
Muscles Mapp (for being awesome). Thank you everyone at Wind-up records for working
so hard for us and putting out this album. Thank you Andy Lurie for all your hard work
and support. Thank you Chrissy Igoe and the rest of 110 Management. Thank you Gary
Haber and Patty Wicker for everything you do for me! Thank you Ken Ewing, Sheryl Rowl-
ing and Steve Baron.
A very special thank you to our fans, for listening to our music, for letting it take a place in
your hearts, for sharing your lives with us, for making all of this possible.
Terry would like to thank: My best friend & love Codi, Mom & Chuck, Alvarez family, Bal-
samo Family, MJ Denton, Adams Family, Amy, Will, Tim, Troy, Andy Lurie & Christina
Igoe @110 Management, Josh Hartzler, Chris Vrenna, Laurie Soriano, Nick Raskulinecz,
Paul Fig, Nathan Yarborough, Warren Riker, Kevin Chief Zaruk, Scotty Wrecked, Tony
Higbee, Blackbird Studio, SIR Nashville, Cold Sam Rivers, Franko Carino, John Otto, Chris
Flowers, Mike Magners, Richie Surrency, Jason Lowe, Mike Vegas, Gregg W. & Ed V. @ Wind-
up, Diana Meltzer, Jonar & Steph, DJ Jenny, Martin Connors, Mark Currie, Jay N., Ibanez,
Mesa Boogie, Gibson, and Amy, its been one hell of a ride but here we are again and it feels
great, love ya!
Timwould like to thank: Ashley Dunlop (for the deep, loving support and constant inspira-
tion), My mother Susan McCord and my father Charles Robert Bass Bob McCord, for
without them I wouldnt exist. Mom, for being the sweetest woman in the world! and Dad,
for putting my rst guitar in my hands. My big brother Matt McCord for being my rst
musical inuence and an amazing brother. My grandfather and hero Harry Bud Latch-
ford. A huge thank you to Amy, Terry, Will, and Troy for the truly humbling experience of
being able to create with such amazing and talented musicians. Andy Lurie and the Lurie
family. Thank you to Nick Raskulinecz - whaaaaaaaaaat? Paul Figueroa, Nathan Yarbor-
ough, and Mike Simmons. John and Martina McBride and Blackbird Studios Everyone at
SIR Nashville, Wind-up Records, Beth Wilson, Eddie Mapp, Todd Wilber and the Wilber
family, Aram Deradoorian and the NYC crew: Andrew Pettit, Robert Medkeff, Benny Bur-
rito Quesnall, and Nikko Nomikos. Gabriel Newborn, Tim T2 Nansel, Kevin Ander-
son, Shawn Carrano and The Artery Foundation, David and Tammy Lasich, Sara Dunlop,
Brett Sublett and Rubicon Brewing Co. Sacramento, Ca. Derek Brooks at Ernie Ball, Steve
Dochraedon, Papalote SF and the San Francisco Giants. Last but not the least, the fans!...
Thank you so much for your years of dedicated support, its awesome to know that we have
the best fan base in the world!
Will would like to thank: My beautiful wife Danielle and daughter Laila for truly loving me
and being the brightest stars in my life; God for strength and being my compass, Mom,
George, Dr. Bill, Ann, and my entire family!!!; All of my friends; my Ev band mates; I play
Pearl Drums, Zildjian Cymbals, Remo Heads, bash em with Vater Sticks, and cart it all
around in Classic Cases because I want the best. So BIG BIG THANKS to Mike F, Kevin
B, Sarah M, Chad B, and Chris for supplying the best!!!; Dave and all at DRUM mag; Rich
at Rhythm mag UK; Nick, Paul, and Nathan for helping to make this EPIC record!! Andy
and Chrissy at 110; The Ev fanatics; S.I.R. Nashville; All the other bands Ive been lucky to
tour, play, and record with the last 4 yrs (and their fans and crews), Everyone that picked me
up when I needed it over the last 4 years- thanks is not enough! God Bless!!! I would like to
dedicate my performance on this album to my fallen friend Scott Schnitzer.
Troy would like to thank: Here we are again. Another Thank You list. Some of you dont
understand how hard this can be to put together. So, I am going to keep it short and sweet.
I would like to thank my beautiful wife, Amy, and my awesome son, Michael, for being pa-
tient and loving me even when I miss some of the important things. You both make me
want to be a better person. Also, I would like to thank Amy Lee, Terry, Tim & Will, Mom and
Dad, Teresa and Brian, Mandy, Zach Porter, Lucky and GG, John, Michelle, Ian and Evan,
Dave Perez, Ray and Janet Colon-Lopez, Everyone at Wind-up records, Andy Lurie and all
at 110 Management, Nick Rasculinez, Paul Fig & Nathan Yarborough, Randy Staub, John
& Martina McBride and all at Blackbird studios, Ray Gonzalez, Paul Reed Smith, Winn
Krozack, Grover Duvall, Beverly Fowler and Len Johnson at Paul Reed Smith Guitars, Andy
Fuchs, Annette Fuchs and Debra Muller at Fuchs Amplication, Scott Uchida and John Fer-
rante at Dunlop, David Lienhard at Dean Markley Strings, The USO and all of our Armed
Forces, Tony Higbee at Guitar Center in Nashville, The Road Crew, The Ev Club and all of
the fantastic fans out there who make it all worthwhile. You are all greatly appreciated. I
know there are a lot of people that arent on here, but you didnt help me make this album,
ha-ha. I still love you!
Turn out the lights
Feed the re till my soul breaks free
My heart is high as the waves above me
Dont need to understand
Too lost to lose
Dont ght my tears cause they feel so good
And I
I will remember how to y
Unlock the heavens in my mind
Follow my love back through the same secret door
Look past the end
Its a dream, as its always been
All life lives on if weve ever loved it
And I
I will remember how to y
Unlock the heavens in my mind
Follow my love back through the same secret door
S E C R E T D O O R
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