ThereisAlwaysJoyintheDarkestCorners.

ItwasabeautifulanddrydayinthegenialArizona.Onthisparticularday,Iwasatmy
reverentandferventgrandmother'sterseandurbanehouse,sunbathingatthepool.My
grandmotherwentintothehousetocooksomeacerbiclemonade.Aspetulantandapathetic
asI
am,Iscornfullyyelledathertohurryup.Iamverycandid.Iamverychurlish.Iamvery
condescending.Iamverydisdainful,whilemygrandmotherisveryjovial.Iwascholerically
pacingbythepool,lookingintoitsdeepwaters,whenIsuddenlywaspushedinbymysister.I
gaveheranaccusatoryglare.Hersardonicsmilebackhurtmemorethananything.Shewas
capricious.
luckily,therevacuumcleanerwasnearby.Ithrustedmyselftowardstheoldand
unsturdyvacuum.AssoonasIdid,thevacuumgaveoutandIwentcrashingintothepool.
Sadly,Ican'tswimandwassinkingtomydeath.Underthewaterwasdarkandfrightening.
Moreandmorewaterfilledaboveme.IbecomeselfawarethatIwasgoingtodie.Iwasfullof
fear.Iwasfullofremorse.Iwasfullofanger.Lifeissanguinebutdeathismalicious.AsI
sankfurtherandfurtherdownIwasambivalentandremorsefulaboutmypastactions.Are
peoplereallygoingtoremembermeasasolemn,critical,andselfdeprecatingbeing?My
grandmadespairinglytriedtograbme,butIwastoofardown.Iwasreachingtowardsthesun
tryingtograbontothings.Therewasnothingtograb,allIcouldhearwasvulgarcomingfrom
mygrandmother.Icouldfeelthebottomofthepoolfloor,andcouldhearthestridentsoundof
mycallous
feetpushingoffthebottom.Thebottomwaslikealifeguard.Thebottomwaslikea
savior.Thebottomwaslikeahero.Mygrandmotherwaselatedtoseeme,whilemysister
wasirateandpessimistic.Iblackoutandamsurroundedbydarkness,likeawhaleswallowing
bywhole.
Themorosedarknesswasnothinglikethecheerfullight.ThefirstlightthatIsaw
wasmypetulantgrandmotherpacingthroughtheroom.Myeyesshiftedtowardsmysisterwho
wascontemplatingonwhetherornotsheshouldgivemethepresentshewasholding.Myeyes
widenwithdisillusion.InsidetheboxlaidabeautifulbatteryoperatedHannahMontanapurple
guitar,ThepresentIhadbeenwishingforsinceIsawherinconcertatagesevenandthree
quarters.

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