PERSONAL HISTORY ALTERED STATES olive on a day-to-day basis is plata ante oe on we eed osc over al pce furs, We ed hope te ene offi ture. And we aad dom a eas, the ison of fresdom) to get yond nck wheter wit teleope ard {bicrosopes and our ever-burgeoning techno orinsttes omit ‘eto tae other wed ore above immediate mounds "Wermay sdk 0, a relaxing n- hibition that makes easier to bond witheach othr or transports that ke bur consdoveness of ie and oral ity eter to bear, We seck a hlidey fiom our inner and one esto, 2 more intense rene ofthe here nd no the betty and value ofthe werd we lvein ‘Many of ws find Wordsworthian “intimation of immoral” innate, at, cstv thinking o religion: some people can teach transcendent tates through meditaon or similar tance nding ehaiques, dough prayer and spital exerises. But rug fea Shortt they promive transcendence on demand, These sheets ate poas= be becae certain chemicals cin d rectly simulate many complex bain very ula fund sah hemi of wanscendence, and a some Instone at « magical ores ‘ment lee Tessas ef oy ‘hoacie plant subetnces has gh tory a eons tothe preset dey es shaman nd egos so he eh ‘Ahab eee reed not ‘ocho det or pnd cc Centra the mind bt forte se of esr and cpa thy on pie Eset pone Mormons tea on thi Sef experiments in cemiry By OUVER SACKS ah ond thera asimple hi Morn wow hiss wee ol simulated the weary pilin. Tis ‘Sen and pharmacy akino ‘he ampherines Many people expsnent wih igs hallucinogenic and otherwi, in he teetvageo alge yea 1d ot ty Shen I ws thi and nergy rete, Thi ong viii was ot doe totic of fret Thad ead the rest clasics—De Ques “Confesion of fan English Opium Este and Bade Ines "Arif Panis —at acho 1 red abot the French witer Toph (Gautier, who in 1S paid a vit the recent founded Chib des Heshischinn is quet comer of tefl Sait-Loie ish in the form ofa greenish paste, tad eel en odie em Age finan wat al here in Pai At the talon, Gate consimed substantial peach At ft ee thing nt ‘ofthe aay, button, be wt, ceything seemed lrgt, cher, more ‘plead hen maespsti change By the eighties, Westerners were a ging to empleo pot, previo ed ony a8 ac ment in cerain Native Ameen tra Sons. Av freshman nt Of ie t0 roam the es othe Radi Sceree [itary ead he fn ped cons of ese ntenction inking tho of Hoelck ls an Ss Wee Michel They were pinay redial men, not ast ery nes ana th seemed wo ead ‘mest weight and cei tied Sexipon. Tas eptatel by Miachlls ingot asthe en unknown dug th known efits ‘Atone point, Michell wrote fn an 1896 ati othe British Maal or ral be oles Bie poton ofan exact. rae mesa ton a lle up with anata dove. Algh hen tht his ice wae ip lb ere diated he als tedcy total andweand then... mips wend heneretles wen oom oe ‘als and ear seer patents After Slsng te ite does ely down ulead rom, wherepon bee sence "an enchanted wo outs fl [throm effects Twraspatkingaverbeloretheege Unlike Michal who had asd on ‘colored, geometric alhinaions which becompared in pat tthe of gine Aldous Fludey, writing of mesclie in the nineteen fife, focused on the transiguation of he visa wo aie ‘estment with imino, divine bey nisin. He coped ch dg, "perenes those of get visonaie nt at, lf he page ‘perience fone chzopheic Beth estan madness inley hinted, yin these exeme sat of aida tought ot odferent from thse eres by DeQuiny Coleridge and Baul in ran tote own ambiguous ep ces wit pt a hi (dl lore tng in Mores 1845 bok "ashish and Mental Hes, [read hokey "The Door of Pepin” and "Heaven and He when they came ot, ‘che ninetieskinsonian ben wat larger wile at the same time moving See aetion und it ultimate lowin dopamine abit ving dop- ava om me Finally seemed ome, ae ieendpade ofthe mine” ine pressor L-dopa, could alleviae could ses nde acest ui- the symptoms of Parkinson's disease; verse, ight yeas or panes in ng. Te Fox done a gat dea of eadig but while tangle, introduce inthe tlloked ke ring man and yet Reno cence of my own with eal ninten-Sies could depress dopa- tis cosmic hand smebow alo seed Sach gs we 1953, when mychld- rine ndcausen sor ofchemical pain Hk the hal of God. My fn por espe Foicnd Ese KorncameupeoChdd, saan, For about eat, che staple since was marked by a miu of the ce yh sping ofthe gengaplay stance, hat the Werrea! excitedly abou Albert Hof tpedaatio fo anno hd era eudgial and the die. ocithcoweyet LAD, wooed snr dup, Howie dope” On he West Cont nth xy rne Hipnigogemsct ition termi mined eacegitine ytemeint tent, LSD and moring-ony tecinSeistlndGewaciieginde act Why di opatervorcnmabir= secdewere relly elo sped tm fibe), Soleo een satumen- ve sch soy ese? Di th bath a Bei anal at Ua wenided tans credo have pce ope worried ke pees? my ends on Mech tnigramsach--ntkrowing wat opis cw? War thes diary Aan ei Iplendos or honos anvatedur—but, mechani for aonabs receptors and ing for Koew tat Aran, a sathtc vy, ithadabsltey no ect oneither cannabinoids? Why was LSD eno dg led wo belladonna, wae red in of (Wesbold have ordered fe un-rouay poten? Wereallitsefectsep-—mne does (wo debt dy) et ean, ot fi) {able intermsof ering the serotonin infor he treatment of Parkins diese, Byte tne Tuli a dtr, at thebesn? What tamer pee rand that uch dings ange unt, theendof 958, fnew wanted bea ered wake-seep yes and what might could case «dls. (Sach dele newrlog, to know how the bran em be the neurochenel background of have lng been observed wth acetal ove cmon and ec'andtoun- dreams orhacnatone? ington of plan ie deal ightsade, dered it smasing overs of ereep- Strtinganeurlgyrkencyn1962, thomapple, and black herbane) But fin-imgey,cemonandialvteiee. [found the anoaghere heady with ach — would ein ben? Or informatie? Ancworenatonwaventingreology questions. Newochemisty wae plsinky Wo onebeina poston cbaaye the tnd psjehiatry at that tine; i yas thei" and so—dangerouly,sducsivly,sberantfnetioning of ones bran—t0 ‘opening ofa neurochemical age, ith a expecially n California, where Iwas appreciate its wonder? "Go on ay inp of the ange of hemi gents, shing”-were the dag thersches fears Tust take ony of hen euctanmnittes, which allowed ne youl sll be in arial corr hinlitiearpenofexonagr Taatelthonnbis Atkin Tor Soon Saying tla temipcammunicaewidhoncanone In panga Canyoa, where Lived atthe twenty pill swallowed them with a Scatter dais ve Snmokeederspinl mie puseulllt cana do one ts wer coming fom af seton, and usta! y what npened the efece Weal te mol ere thou a om dary ey thc atny Dn ad cde eon ay Sas a falter atin nr wo i ing ge md “The Bef ep oly ‘aa pce ei ed SD? Watd thee be waves of decoy, tal Wal eee Tibepetatn pene pe pal fra tit ft cemliisariea ones pind wea ea Sr all Thre were no pcos eros depp Lalot Chow cacy wit] pene atl Twinn pig et set enters fon doce Nv my end snd they fen doped od on Teel dhl ees tate gm fhe “How you Theyre el nay tp fell Katy petra en ot Sy, We ied sy wie Sel Ronse ac Ceres eregereerye “Whoo lady conrad” ‘inn doo ec i ices ed i hoversing ne rie yet ed the ony tin i) ta As BARGES PR RE the sing room 10 we could ea each other ey. They fie ines ter, 1 Shout, “Bret eady put hs fam aed ego ty, wale nthe living oman fund i enpty. No iyo Kathy, sgn that thy al ever ben thee vat 0 ager! Talnost dropped he ty. ‘ad not tcured to me ran in- stant tat Jim and Kathys wes thee “presences” were unreal, ality. ‘Webi hnd en ori come ‘ation tase lh, Tees ‘were the ee a lager re in nT opened the swig doors andfund tel rcm en hat he wiwlecomenatan teat hereof Sn een invented yy br, Tos noe only shocked bt rather {agent too, With LSD ad ober deg a ht or apni The wereld daca Elden, thee would be ene hace ft ‘peak oxreme made of epee, Bat try "naveration wih Jinan Kay td nog gai was erie come mpl, with nothing eo nk a hatlaioaton thought abot schizo phrenic comenng wth the "wie fut ply the ces of chia sermngor sag rx lg abot In an eg nthe weather “Care Oey Tid o mye “Takeyouneiinkand, Dit ishap- enagin’ Sunk in hong, slowly te ‘yh ane gs him ad Ky oo) tren ded ogy dm otto, here would the elm ed Kathy And al ny indy and enjoy seve at imideatsnoon. Twas pondering his hes Tec const faking vere It Dedede foramen andthe Ie Mia hat welt paig deca ont parent, ‘wo, ating make apd own on Loco ay inh Los Ange dhe oper ‘singh eo Topangy Canned inthe batho, Bad shoes, al pt on a ce aie ar ent ‘st cul inde dc foe ine ese thy aed The tb ofthe txgine ms alos dealing 01 ite atthe beeper onde ock eae yb. Trace tn excel, get my pts theres emp he ws lop tein sigh and he hg uly sive of engine warps tof The ene and erptinesy, the dzapointment, re Ahoced met tear Thad een 5 jo nd no here ws nothing atl. Tent back the hase and pon helen foranotheeup oe, es ay tention was ugh y a pide on the Lichen wall Ae ew neater to ok ig thespiercallal on, Tel Tedd seem all tanger me that a spider Should sy hallo anymore than teen Strange Alc when the White Rabbit spoke) Tosi “el, our and with inv sned contender, monly on ‘ater tecnica mateo aly pi soph. Paap thie dieton wa ested bythe spiders opening armen ‘EAT dink tht Berrand Rossa e oda Fe panda? Orphans fs viee—pimed nse and jas He sels vee wich had ean he radio, Decade lates, mentioned the ‘pia Raelian encom iced ‘Tom Ese, an catalogs here sagan si Yes,Thow tespce) Ditigemst attncitnan, ingararesident CLAS eco deparent [was azed and ‘ove, aTlnd een a medal ude Jn London by henge patient et ‘ological experiences, spd found hat 1 Cull aot eompecend thee mie, fceometo tems with them emainaly, Unless Latent to dese ot serie them. Iwas the that Tree my St pblsed papers and ny at book (yeas neve pel oe ortho mame) But on the weekends Ife expe mented with dug Lely one ‘odeinwhicha magealcolor ape to roe had been taught, a hla there mee seve clin the spectrum, Including indig. (Newton had chosen, thers somewhatabizay, by analogy ‘wi thesonn none heal ae) Bute people cn wat iii Tha lng etd seeing, and thghe dre might be he wy ‘odothisSoone umy Satan 964 T develope a pharmacalg lunchpad consisting a's haw of amphi oe general arousi), LSD (rhage {tte and och of mab ora ltdeuded dein). About twenty a utes afer aking this, faced a white ‘walland exe, Tanto send rowan” And then, a if thrown by a giant pind, eer appeared hag, et bing gear shaped bb ofthe paestin- igo, Lumina, nuns, fled me ‘wth apres the coo of heen, the cla, dash that Gio spent 2 ete ying getter accel — ee achied elapse color fhenen isnot abe scen on eth Bat Ireristed ones thought as he calor ofthe Plone ste enor the ocean ued tbs. Teaned towed iia sorte. Au than ten di Sys ering wen neo ity sense of a ard ade ht iad been sched aay. Bur coal my SE yes iio exits ait can be co jmed op inch rain. Forrmontsaferward searched for indigo tuned over Bite stones and rocks near my house. Hokad a spec ‘nes ofan te ti story seara—but even ha va nity fi fom the eso Td sen. And then in 1965, whe had mowed 9 New Yor went # concer at the Metopolt, ‘Mca of Art Inthe ist hal « Mon ‘ever piece was performed and I wae ‘uaspored. had taken no dg, but | ‘ta rious ver of muse hans of yen Tong owing from Monterer's ‘nin ino ny own fh etc mood, Tandered ot dring the nese andlooed athe objets on dplyin he Epps gles eal ets jewelry and so forehand Las en hated nse int fing ought ‘Thank God ire es! ‘Dating the second aloft concer, 1 goe abit bored and ests, but Tea sel nyse owing that ogo ot Sd ake apf indigo afterward Te wou be there ing forme But when went out to fa at the alley afer the coer finished, Louden bie fd pple rd mauve and pace—n0 (igo Tht wf seven Ysa Thave never sa igo agi, Wits entatatzgs oy parente—Augusta Bonnard, pychoanaae—came to Loe Angee fo | eas abate n 1964 far ata that we sould meet. Liter oy lite howe in Topanga Canyon and we hd gen dinner tei, Ove lite and cigarettes (Augusta was 4 chine Smoker, I wondered if she smoked ‘ven ding ana seson), er tonechange and shes neg rok ‘hdened voi, "You need hey, Olver. You inwoble” "Nome Tepid "exo Be 1 fave no compli lis we n wok tnd owe" Augusta let out a skeptical fg bt id opt ater, Thad started aking LSD a his point, anc that was ot aval T wl a ‘moming glory sede instead. (This wat bere moming-gloy eed were tested ih pti they are an prevent dg se) Sonay momings ere so Myon ng, eee ae bone ‘wo a three months afer msing Avs (gotta ok ay dose ofHesrely Be moming ghey seed, Thescls wee Jet lick nd of gee hares, Pera thera witha morta pede fnd then mised them with ails ce ean, About ent ites ering ‘hs Lan nese nase, but when ‘abide ound mina ream ofp ‘esi tlle aed eau al ut Side ins which ws adele into by ‘tan dig and acing 2 vay ap the step el to my house An elderly ‘woman pot cut ofthe alanine Imo acon Tan toward ey, sbuting, Jen who you are—yon ae aren of ‘Aysts Boor Yu lok ls es, you ave er posture and movement, but yo scoot her Tam at deve an ment” August asd her hard to her temple ansaid "Oy! This is oe than rez” Sh ot bck into he tx and took of witoat another wer "We had plenty otal abe the next, ‘ewe met My Ble to eosin: er, amy ecng her ar reps hough, ‘wasn compe form of defense dsc ‘hon that cou nly be ele yc 1 Sige and mine thet my se ing her a4 dupliete or impstor wat ‘erent adscometionbe- ‘heen percption and eng The sbi yt ney bch ait) wa nt “ompanied by the appropri feting ‘of warmth and fui and i wat this edison that ed othe atau conchionthetshe wa 8 “dopicte” (This condition, vhich can cesta sehizopeni bt ab with de ‘mentor delim, known @ Capes Sypdione) August si tht, whichever ‘ew wes caretaking mind-aleing rag every weekend le ain high loses, surly testified to some intense inner eds confit and tht souk EDWARD HOPTER'S “IAM,” 1926 Shes make et wearing shoes rd happyin her body. ‘Wants eo think nde ‘Thowgh tha sy aging ody. And es poste inthe chair—leaning forward arson kes, out the window—makes her belly alge, ‘but what the bel set What the hel, eis here Lived in this damn drab apartment a Thind Aven, ‘Twenty-third Street, Manhattan, how many damn years has tobe atleast fifteen. Moved to the ity from Hackensack, needing to breathe. Shei never looked back, Sue they called he sels, ‘xu What he hel the use theythave made of het, shed be sucked dry like bone marrow. Fistjob was fleclerk at Trinity Trust, Wasted three year of her young if wat {rR aleve howe and woul ou thik ‘ont gi ike her woul know beter Scunib a fleck thes ian promoted toMs ast’ secretarial staff at Lyman Typewriters The Teast the old bastard ould do for her and she have done aloe batter except for fit-face Stella Cuchi ‘Third joy Tvek Realtors 8cInsurance and shes ells prtate secretary: What ould do ‘without yon my dear one? ‘Aslongas Twekpays her decent. And be doesit let her down Hike ast Christmas, she'd wanted to de. "This damn rom she hates. Dink a region ofthe soul tino which ight does penetrate Soft-shabby od arituze tn nggng matte ike those bodies in dreams we fel ‘burda see. Butshe keps herbed made ety Goddamned day, visitors not He deen ite dzone, Hetold hoe how he learned ‘omake a properbedin the US. Armyin 1947 plore these with thera set Spec Lam sureshewas igh and began ‘eengan anata yar er Picante anti ecween time: Thad completed sy seideny at UCLA. and bd Cal but ad tee months ahead of mebslie aking up aresearch llowshp Sn New York. This shold ae been 2 tine of delicious feado, a wondefl and nested holiday afer the it~ and ‘ometneseighey- our wowed Thad fad at UCLA. Bat id no fle When Tam act wdng, Lge unre fave a sense of empines and srt Jones: Wednds ere tie dangers, the dg times when Ted it Calorrf tnd re, for ‘The ticks, esays, you make the bed as soon a you getup. Detaches himself fom her as soon ais over, Sticky skin, hairy eg patches of satya on his shoulders, chest, bully She'd ke him to sold her and hey coal dit into sep eogether but rarely this happens. Crazy wanting her, then abrupely is over—Behside his head, tnd bens hers. [Now this moming she's thinking God-darmned bastard, this as sotto be thease tine, Waiting for him tell explain, thy he hada come lat night And there the chance he might come here bef aling, which he has dave more than once. Conley. Ga, Pn ery for you She's hinking she will ve she bastard ten more mites Skcso Hoppe vith erp hex fice sted nh Bey alata ai bata ‘Selva tn weckecme tic er tt Dallas bc dit oom he ade love Scharber eer gout lo a na dor Hmon hep plinth the sundae plsning oe fet alt coceen ok ‘lscotinpe stalin Yet dey hess aly, he ire unshis hands vt aly ks nd man ing tose Ad the radiance in his face thar’ pted and scared, be noes hein the waya starving man neds Fod, Di ido yu, Don? Tevce me, Held wo rit wast wha she shought: Washi family thar kept hm from loving heel could but is ie hed never told anyone aout in the warn the infin, in Fence, What creeps though i, ‘Things shathad happeed to him and cings that hed witnessed and things hat he'd perpetrated himself ‘with is own hands. An hed taken his hands and kid ther, ane brought them agaist her reat that wer aching ke the ‘breasts ofa young mothe venous to give sic, sand sustenance. And sho sil No That your old if Tom yur ne if ‘She wil ier new i five move mis Joe Cart Oates nin—and now an enize sumer in my 1 decided to explore the rag cabinet in hometown, Lenn stetchedbefoe net surgey, othe ground oo of our lkea hre-montvong veda owe, fr something spec chat ‘Woarding hide mschinonstine my tity econ bteday [had ave that descended decprio ding, taken morphine of any opts before, olongerconning to wekec tute Large sysiage-vhybothe with Inmenous injection, which Thad never piling does? Ard afer ting mel one bre. My pcs bt ans, Snfoabyn bd Tew wp the cons ‘wereavayand ving hehowetomel, of sera val, hanged the needle into 4 scinanded se moine yb "Wins mite ory ateton ved et fon on te ‘Letina hi argon Ser go ty find Gi wit reed nl amine bet may ede bee code can etof diene gett ich Bigs pent “Thee we gy ope ay dies onontinde i emer gn tesnyanl men gfowe er es th lg ve ppc eng the ‘ei heyy ead the png to a Pty he ‘se meso Ftuing date cal ee hi Eile ot on te done fy dng fev tet hos inte {fT Loon ar fore shooting op the morphine ad teen efng Fears Cd "Henry Vand now these became con yl 1 eed thc Toee pga gna ain 5, {dg dor onthe amieot Erghodan anced upodobate ‘Aad ind get pane The, west tani ott ‘inant atlanta ‘Ara wete coe srl fe andl cme dynein oo Shee ar Lend ered cn ing Aecaron the of yng sn Ie bad ben an echt traning eprint ow wat tre Te ge ing its A inmate nowt posed snr Th od he agin ti ys iw ad ‘ews omen dit nd en ‘tien tothe ening shed now be der Barat ws tinge rox der one Te ‘nn ein rein tg Trad bem ping money sy A in ra eb br Ts ‘tock eis wale ese ie ove old end ee dps ni srs cee afc sh pn ‘apo Twellman ft cpm eens wr ya he end of ha sume f 1955, 1 moved to New York tobi apr igadut fellowship in neuropathology {nd peurochemisty. December, 1966, ws bad ane Ta finding New Yorie tattle my yarn Cal- mi alove fra one sous y= seach easing diy and Twa som ting that was otc aut tobe bench ‘ent. Depressed and insert, as ‘aking evernereng dose ofcheraly Adetogern dep, ands up Been ‘se the nal dose every night. And hgh ad managed to stig hige mont ofthe dras— ied th chem= fea supplies in the lb at wotk—this Sallam oon abe Tex aie blest and he i ie in ‘Sarl mathe rat mb tt ny ‘sual rockon dose. My deep ves poo, broken by nightmare and bizaedea, sn upon waking foun marc Magi senave to sounds, There werea- ‘ws tks rimbling slong the cobble ond stent ofthe Wes Vilas wit ‘ound rif they were crushing cob snes to power a they pas, ‘esing sit sly, dd oti ay motor o wor usa bu tok a ‘ein ads. Wnesday wat rin ‘ting dyin the neropetlogy depart- ‘ent ais mya toate bn no nea hina ses, oda the ‘main rare a Tid oy and observe hee there were any depute fr ona as usally prety goo atch buttdiy Turd yan engi iy, emburasngly and the anneal rues wz down coming ome. ‘When the ssba endl eat acs ‘herman di frac effec and sandwich, Ae i was sting the ‘of suena ren te pus ple Toke py tty and tat 2 "ustomer paying blac the ea eis ‘eras huge prboscidean ek an ae Danced ni san | vedo bill the able nd ra ‘eros the oad to bus, Buta he ps ‘engeronthe buseemedtohmesmnath hte hese gine egy wih ge ‘ting ee the ted compra tyes of inochi eer seamed to move in sudden jes which eres the feeling oftheir exrsomeness and Peeetiernteleineed some bir peep tl dcrder ht Veo not sop we ves happenin rion hat a to maintain ee an external contol nd not panic or seam or becae at ‘oni, iced by the bug-eyed nonsters sound me. The best way of dig thi found, ws toe, a deebe reals ‘nation in la, lost lnc dai, and, inso doing, become an observe, ‘en an explorer not alles vt of theerninaiide me Ta ever wile ‘ut pen and notebook, and now I wot Fee deal ar wave fier wave hala tioned ovr me. ‘Dessipton wring a aby een ay bet way of ding with complex feghteningstunons—thoogh it had ever ben tre ao ering uae tion. Butt worked by dese ay Ib notebook hat wa going on an seplin iin seen fot, ‘hgh che halaman coined a tating ll he whe Somehow gt offtthe right busstop socom theta, een hough nein owwasin moto, wh tkigand ren suming upside dow. And inanagal to getff athe ight ona ny neighborhood in Gren Vilge ‘At Leserel fn the aay, the ll ing arcane were toning nd apg from se ie ike lags lowing in 9 high wind. Twa enorme tn make bck o my apartment without ‘ringed raed ole bythe hing acon thew. Assoon as ot kt ado cota snebody— Someone who knew me wel who was Toth doctor and a end The peda ‘un Cal Bunettwar the peso wea interned together in San Francisco fe yeu ear, and resumed a doe Ben Ship no that we wee beth Ne Yk (Caf wuld ued she would now svi nd Tiled her rmber with ow gry emule hand, "Carol? 1 ‘sis oon a he ike up,“ want 29 Say godly Trego mad pay a- ‘ane Teta thi morning and i tig wone lth wile” * Olive” Cao sid, “What have you jet? “Nothing” Lid, “Tate why Tin 10 fighter” Carl thought fra mo- rent hen asked, "What hat you just spp king” “Thali Tsd. “Twas tanga age mount ofc hy and in ou oF ieleaighe™ “Oliver, you chump! You slays credo thing” Ca said. "Ye got tesiceneofthe ITs deliiam tremens” "This was en ence elef—each tester DTs than schizophrenic psyho- sis Ba Tae ite ware of the dng ofthe DT: confusion, disorientation, Iullcnation, delusion, dehydration, eve, ap eae, exlaastin, ey oon median, bt faye ‘raed toh ont, experince it {othe fill Cao endo sit with fc ‘heft dayand he, faeshoughe an sale by mpl, he would Wok by or hone mea intra, caling in ude Jp jue necery Given his say et ost much f ya, and sondeve na wey nj thephantssms li tenes (ugh he iad of small anima and nec were any ‘hing ut pen) The bllciations contin fo amos sets hous, and whe hey fly stopped Tl ino seine spor _Aitiortat inom cen ei in the say of chemist andthe etn up of oy cr chet ab Thi (Bightscemed to dsr meat the age of fifeen os; n my yeaa chon uni ‘ess, medial shoal and thn inten Ship eden, kept my head above ‘we butte aljets Tua neverex ‘ted me inthe same intense way a8 ‘hist had when T waa. Te fot unt arived in New York and ‘gan seingpatintsina migraine ci in the summer of 1966 that [gan 10 fea ite sing ofthe ieee ex sStemeat and emotional engagement 1 Jd known in my eater yeas I the ope of whipping up tho nec ad ematonal exctements etn ures, Tuma amphetamines T would ake the suf on Fda ee rings after geting back fom work and ‘wold then spend the whole weer 0 ‘igh hae images an ehoughts weal be ‘oer lke controll alain. tion, imbued wih ecstatic emotion. ‘len dete thse “dbl to ‘mantic daydeaing, bt one ayn Fun of 1967 whe elon mre book ssn of he mal Hyitor rays ma nach i ra a Iva oF ride his ad ra say ous, ie ight in ul fod nd tok ot thera book on ‘tigine cated “On Magi, Ske Hes, nd Some Ald Dido: A Contaton oh Pahl Nove Sto ten 1873, by oe ad sing MD. Tae eng f= crlmottbein amiga wm fein ye gs of rons and Benoa tht col oc ie tock, Ts stacks fe nde ‘ odome in chabert ef perception and even allcnins o- tne They were eotilybagn snd ‘woul it sow inte et re Ew imtes pve window x fencing he bin and ot cad Break down andthe tg. In thi rt ey ata pd Cielo an nxycopeta fea. 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