YOU ARE ALWAYS BEYOND

hina is originally from singapore, a dancer by profession.

she first met whosoever at the second 40-day osho meditation intensive in 2004-05.
at the time of writing this letter, she was travelling with manish and joshua
doing music concerts around the world.

hello gurudev !
heard about the move from pune to mysore.
it sounds great ! ...would love to visit soon.
joshua and i are staying in mnich with manish
in his uncle himanshu's house... for a few days.
these days while going through a lot of stir-up,
confusion and turmoil... and i thought about you.
manish also suggested why not write to gurudev.
your guidance and insight would be of immense help.
in the last few weeks, i have been feeling so mixed-up,
told joshua that i need a break from the tour... the band,
concerts, performances, make-up and costumes...
a change from all the routines and the set lifestyle.
but a break from the band to josh means a break from him
...and i also feel the same.
there are certain things which i dont want to see... or not able to see.
what do i want, manish asked me.
i told manish i dont know and i do.
i am so afraid, feeling a need to jump...
to have a life of not knowing... when or where i will be next.
hankering for a change... this has been the situation.
have also talked to myself to be happy with whatever is,
and stay with my beloved josh... dont keep running for
that which is not there accept... just be !
was possible for some time, now this is beyond me !
so many things to tell... but this is all i can say for now.
thank you for your time, i feel, you know the state which i am in.
without more words, love... hina sarojini

whosoever's response
hello gurudev !
heard about the move from pune to mysore.
it sounds great ! ...would love to visit soon.
hello hina ! ...you are most welcome.
joshua and i are staying in mnich with manish
in his uncle himanshu's house... for a few days.
these days while going through a lot of stir-up,
confusion and turmoil... and i thought about you.
manish also suggested why not write to gurudev.
...yes, manish is a great suggester !
your guidance and insight would be of immense help.
in the last few weeks, i have been feeling so mixed-up,
told joshua that i need a break from the tour... the band,
concerts, performances, make-up and costumes...
a change from all the routines and the set lifestyle.
but a break from the band to josh means a break from him
...and i also feel the same.
there are certain things which i dont want to see... or not able to see.
...when one is indentified, one cannot see... one is unable to see.
what do i want, manish asked me.
i told manish i dont know and i do.
...i don't know is a perfect state... be in that state.
prolong it as much as possible... and you will be blessed.
don't say, i do... that is assumption !
i am so afraid,
...nothing is wrong in being afraid.
feeling a need to jump...
to have a life of not knowing... when or where i will be next.
hankering for a change... this has been the situation.
...always follow the feeling.
jumping into the unknown is the only virtuous act.
change is the very law of life.
change brings growth, maturity, ripening.
have also talked to myself to be happy with whatever is,
and stay with my beloved josh... dont keep running for
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that which is not there accept... just be!

was possible for some time, now this is beyond me !
...don't even say, this is beyond me.
the truth is : you are always beyond... even beyond of the beyond.
because you are, everything is.
everything needs you to have their existence... you are prior to all.
stay put there ! ...remain as you are silent and still...
again and again until the state is stabilized.
so many things to tell... but this is all i can say for now.
...this much is enough... thanks for writing to me.
thank you for your time, i feel, you know the state which i am in.
...yes, i do.
but you are assuming and believing that you are in that state.
actually, you are awarer of the state, knower of the state...
and the knower is always at a distance.
just notice and realise the fact... just see and find your self out
perfectly intact... whole, holy, joyous, ever and infinite .
without more words, love... hina sarojini
...same to you! ... with his blessings whosoever.