Living an Imperfectly Perfect Life

By Jay Ric Mahusay

Hello Everyone! My name is Jay Ric Mahusay, A guy who is living an

imperfectly perfect life. Psychologists says that if a person laughs too much,
even at stupid things, he is lonely deep inside. I saw that quote from
facebook and I believe that its true. To be perfect is something that is hard
to achieve. I thought when you laugh, that is the time that everything is
perfect and falling into the right places but I guess I was wrong.
I was born on the 17th day of July, year 1994 in Baguio City. My parents
are born in Leyte but moved in Laguna before they got married. They have 6
children including me. As I grew up, Ive learned that life is not as perfect as
Ive imagined. Most of the people that I encountered today thought that my
childhood days are wonderful because they are always see me smiling,
laughing and fooling around but they dont know that behind this genuine
smile is a guy with a broken soul.
My story starts when my mother, Cristy Satore Mahusay (but shes now
using Millar as per her new husbands surname) had to leave us to work
abroad for our future. I dont understand how deep the reason is but my
father Romeo Mahusay made me realized that my mom have to do it for us.
That time, Ive felt incomplete knowing that my mother is far away and there
is a big difference when she is the one who is with us.
After 6 months, my mom is accusing my father for having a mistress
but thats not true. So due to misconception, my mother stopped supporting
us for several years. My father found a job. Security guard at daytime and a
factory worker for nightshift. I have 5 siblings so my father have to get an
extra job in order for us to survive. The time came that my father sent us to
school. Due to his hectic schedule, he cant manage to be with us in times
that we need him the most.
A year later, my father won worth half a million pesos from PCSO
Lottery. We discovered that my mother already arrived here in the Philippines
because her contract has already ended. My parents had their reconciliation.
My father is planning to use the money to apply for a work abroad but my
mom insisted. She said that she will borrow my dads money to apply for a
work abroad since she already have an experience and shes confident
enough that she will get hired easily. Since they are already in good terms
that time, my father agreed on my moms suggestion. But then again,
History repeats itself.. My mom stopped supporting us again and little did we
know, she is starting to build his new family there and left us hanging. For

me, that was the most heartbreaking thing that I discovered. She took all my
hopes and dreams away while shes dreaming and hoping for a better life
without us.
When Im in my secondary level, my father also build his new family.
My two eldest brothers have their own family and working together with my
dad. In that situation, Ive felt that all the responsibility is in my arms since I
am the 3rd eldest child. I dont know what will I do in order for us to survive
since I am just 11 years old that time. At a young age, I admit that Im
incompetent to work yet but I tried. I worked as a round rag and pat holder
maker to Simon Molinas aunt but I know that is not enough to support my
siblings and for me to continue my study.
I have many problems that time because of the school fees and
activities as well as our foods. That time, a gay offered me and promised to
take care of my siblings, our food, our school fees and the things that we
need for school but in return, he wants to stay in our house and sleep with
me taking my pride, innocence and dignity. Honestly, Im left with no choice.
Its not easy but I think I can swallow all the dirty acts that he will do than to
see my siblings starve to death. In that time, I loathed myself. I couldnt even
eat. I feel so dirty that I even wish to die whenever I sleep.
My mother came back together with my step brother and my stepdad.
She told my dad that from now on, she will be the one who will take care of
my siblings. I cut my relationship with the gay although I dont considered it
as relationship because actually there are no feelings involve. I admit that
Ive only used his money but I am not an opportunist because every centavo
of his money is paid with my innocence for our mutual benefits.
In my last year In High school, I met Ella May Pradomy partner, my
wife, the mother my child. At first, I dont even want to go near her because I
feel like I am a dirty whore but all of my shame fades when she discovered
about my story. I love her and she accepted me for who I am and she told me
that if she experience that situation, she will never think twice to do the
things I did for my love ones.
Years later, I got her pregnant and I am happy but I am terrified at the
same time for what the people will say and how the people will judge her but
I am standing fearlessly at her side. We ignore what people will say about us
and thats the biggest lesson that Ive learn from her family.
Now I am very happy with my life today. I feel the love that Ive never
felt before. I have an instant mom and dad and its my wifes parents. I am
bless. I may experience that horrible situation but I know God has his great
plan for me that is better than my dreams.

Imperfectly Perfect means perfect to a limited extent. As long as I am

being myself, I know that I am perfect. I may be stupid sometimes and we all
know that nothing or no one in this world is perfect but for me, in able for
you to perfect, you just have to be yourself, accept your mistakes, set it right
and move on. My past experiences are the reason why am I standing here
today. Living an Imperfectly Perfect life doesnt mean everything is perfect
from the beginning up until the end but living it to the fullest as long as
youre with your love ones is perfect. Thank you for listening to my story and
God bless you all. Again this is Jay Ric Mahusay, a guy with an Imperfectly
perfect life.