I sat in front of the mirror and cried, it didnt show me my tears, I was looking fine as if I am just sitting

there on the table in front of the mirror. But, the truth was that I was suffering, suffering because of my
decisions, suffering from the feeling of helplessness, from this loneliness, from the inability to do any
good to myself, from the inability to feel obliged. Still I looked well in the mirror!
I feel like my room is not a good place because I feel depressed and heavy-hearted! I grabbed my laptop
and left my room to relax, to write and to open my heart to this notepad. I found the library stairs a good
place to sit and write. But, I felt alone with no one around! Everything was still when two pigs came out
of a bush, they were far on the road but I saw them clearly. Then after a minute, a guy came from the
opposite side, crossing the road to get to his hostel! This caught my interest because, though there was
nothing special in that moment but, what I realized was, I loved looking at the live souls moving around!
However, its the loneliness which makes me suffer! And nothing else!
People say jot down your feelings on a parchment and you will feel good. But, sometimes we need a
living soul to open our heart to, so that he may respond and soothe you soothe your heart from his words.
But never get one , who can pacify you the way you like to.... we never get that one friend to whom we
wholly open our heart to. To whom we could tell the whole truth!

Electronic Engineer Nilofar Saleem

Ghulam Ishaq Institute of Engineering Sciences and Technology Topi, Pakistan