REGRETS

Breaking the silence,

The drizzle & the breeze played their tunes;
I'd like to dance, but could only stare:
Watch as the raindrops continue their soulful dance
Weaving shining paths of purification
Blissful cold as I lay helpless,
On the metalled blackness, debris surrounding me,
I watch, my blood being washed away
Along with the rivulets of water
Brought down upon the earth, by the heavens unleashed.
These last few moments.. I think back
On all that I had left undone;
Unspoken words, which I feared to use
To confess my feelings to him..
Fearing rejection, Fearing avoidance,
Fearing a deliberate withdrawal;
A break from our happy-go-lucky relationship
Never once looking on the positive side
My regrets are numerous; Profound and deep
Forgotten promises to my parents, Of fulfilling their dreams
Of being by their side, Till the very end,
Of being there to continue their lineage
Memories -- a curse ; Remembrance -- a sin ;
How could I forget my dearest friend
Who was with me through thick and thin
Yet to whom I had never taken a moment
To say or express my love, " Thanks for being there for me"
Or, " I cherish you my dear friend."
Never have been able to bring myself to voice them
Though I'm sure she would have read my mind.
Our hearts and minds were so in sync,
Still that regret remains deeply etched in my mind.
As the essence of my life is ebbing away from my body
I remember that drunkard, whose perfect driving
Was the sole reason in my being where I am
I think of him and couldn't find it in myself
To forgive him ; Just plain anger,
For not giving me a chance, to say all that I'd left unsaid..
And do all that left undone.....
There wasn't enough time for goodbyes, Nor enough words
My life lay strewn around me
Down a ravine, all alone and helpless, I can't do anything about it
Not even to lift my hand in final adieu.
A.Honeylal