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1. System addicts

There is only one life one God and one truth all else is misinformation,

misunderstanding, mistranslated or just complete fabrication of truth and facts. There

are no chosen people, for one must choose and overcome to be chosen. No man has

ever or could ever translate neither the thoughts of God, neither the words nor the

behavior; not the mystic nor the prophets hold the pure message not the secrets of

Hermes or pan can ever bring one closer to the wisdom of the unknowable first cause.

If it has been written, or if any man says he has spoken for God he is a liar, insane or

delusional, or even worse, a wolf ready to pounce on the weak and ignorant.

Truly I say, not the holy books, nor the preachers lips, not the burning bush,

can translate the unknowable absolute, power of the unknowable first. Now, their has

been and will be many who have given great thought and knowledge to the

understanding of what God could be like or what the will of this creator could desire.

However all are just opinions of man and in the end nothing more. Wars and famines

and destruction without end have been given in the name of some personal chosen

people’s egoistic fanatical belief systems that they alone know the deity. In truth

conditioning brainwashing, powers of deceit for dark motivation and corruption of the

people lead to beliefs with not much thought in the facts. People are easily led astray

by others with strong perceptional false authority ideologies. Hitler, Paul the self
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appointed apostle, politicians, and the media which is full of false statements with little

or no facts to follow on these are just to name a few.

The system has been around perfecting itself molding and creating through

trial and error for thousands of years. What works for the past will and can be

reproduced for the future and the key to understanding is in the past Books like Brave

new world by Aldous Huxley and George Orwell’s book 1984, seem to be what is

becoming our future. A system run by an oligarchy government powered by falsehoods

and propaganda leading the world into a system of blind sheep with a matrix base

system to make it complete. Education has and will be the way of controlling the

thoughts and behaviors of the masses. The educational system has been lowering our

education for fifty years easy. Teach a man not to think and erase rational command

sense and you have yourself an old dog who will not learn new tricks, a robot a delta,

kind of television junkie ready to go to war or buy a product from his TV screen

without a moments thought or question, We are becoming a system of little thought

and even littler questioning abilities. The government has been dumbing us down little

by little for two hundred years, creating a mass consumer race a middle class of

shoppers with little discernment ability. This matrix of thought control is the old way

made new there is nothing new under the sun. Manipulation propaganda and mass

hypnotizing the race has been and will be the tools of these dark energies. A mass

controlled populace consumer is in the making, keeping up with the Joneses is the

norm, its not as important to have what one needs as it is important to have what one

desires is the normal way of thinking being created by the world matrix. Or better
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world capital system of government or better operational mass power system, The

Matrix.

To be saved or not to be saved is the question…

“Shine on shine on forever and some”… Tool--

The only personal savior is within. Neither external God nor any belief in a

God can or will save the creature. It is in the choosing and reflecting upon ones

mistakes that transmutes the human into something more then an animal, meditate on

this and awaken to the truth. The only one who can save us is ourselves threw our

moment to moment choices we become more or less powerful, through our deeper

perceptions truth becomes apparent or is ignored by arrogance and ignorance and

denial we stay dormant as animals or ascend, evolve to higher consciousness. Truth is

rational and like a mountain keeps growing and widening our perspective of what is

and what is not. Like climbing a high mountain each level brings a new perspective

and view in Plato the cave shows a narrow minded perception because of being in the

darkness and only seeing shadows, however, a mountain still has different levels of
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view, so as one climbs understanding improves and knowledge is obtained slowly as

one presses on, the morning of seeking god, we grow in wisdom. Only conditioning

and loss of the capacity to think for oneself can lead to the state we are all in, Plato and

his cave is real for millions upon millions who just prefer to be asleep.

The proof is in the pudding, we are on the brink of destruction because of the

mass insanity of follow the leader, who of course is blind as a bat. The seed of divinity

is within it must have the proper foundation and nutrients to grow as the muster seed

metaphor states.

The only elect are the ones who break through to the other side and chose to

awaken to divine thoughts and actions, and of course to the lame dump and vulgar this

will all sound corny and unable to hold within them for the master said it well when

asked why some were given the mysteries in parables and why others were not.

Awaken to the truth, we are being led to the slaughter by our own egos and pride to

admit failure in the system, failure in our parents and teachers and false gods. The

master said it best when he denoted the priests with his wise words “you can not serve

to masters for you shall love one and hate the other.” Who are these two masters?

Pride and humility ego and self obsession, selfish desires to please only self me my I

want I need, gives me… Try and try and one will find they can not live in the same

house. We will only destroy ourselves by dividing, just stop reading this, and reflect for

a moment. What is happening outside your window…? What is happening in your

mirror?
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“Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding is all you see”

John Lennon---

Power is within

The power behind this confusion is our key to open the doors of our

perceptions, what did William Blake mean by these words? What was Lennon

suggesting to us? There seems to be all throughout known time a few who awaken

individually, who did not buy into the delusions and the mass hypnotized conditioning.

When further looked into it seems the ones who are most awake are the few who self

edified their way out of the deep sleep or better the insanity. Our educational system is

based on reward and punishment, Pascal’s bell, as is our laws and family design.

Trained from birth we believe we are free because we are told we are, we believe we are

the greatest country because we are told we are we are not taught to think just

remember, dates and names and timelines when things happened why they happened

and reasons for these things. We are trained to remember not question we are trained
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to remember dates and times and places and names, Meaningless crap that will and is

useless to the student. Meaningless dates and names forgotten in time as if we were to

follow the path of these made up heroes and villains. When has anyone taught us how

to question religion or the education we are given or the government we have been

thrown within? Who still believes their vote matters? Think; think for one moment,

does a bloody sacrifice need to appease a universal quantum divine entity? And if so

who said this? Prove this to me that it is truth this is correct not some mythology

created thousands and thousands of years past for some ancient purpose that died with

the reason. Again what god in his as if it would be male would design such a bloody

appeasement ritual? What god would desire his son to suffer? On top of this what

suffering does an immortal being truly do anyway? W e hear he gave his only son to

be handed over and killed … What this is so far in fantasy worlds it scares this writer

that some would still have such small narrow minded conceptual mind sets to still

believe such silly ignorant fairytales. Remember the words of Jesus, when he told a

story about a son asking his father for bread, what father would give his son a stone

who asked for bread? Further what good is it for a divine immortal being that never

could be destroyed play a role or better pretend for what purpose is this insanity

needed? Has anyone questioned the words Yeshua supposedly said? All we need to do

is love to have eternal life. Easy simple, why all the man made deception? Maybe for

power and control… Not those loving others or self is easy work, however, easier then

believe in another’s crazy stories about a jealous blood thirsty god who is appeased

only with spilled innocent blood of his creatures.

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The Jews and there relationship with their tribal god YHWA personal

communication chosen prophets demands punishment murder rape commands from

the god of Moses wow has anyone read this supposed holy book? If you were to walk

into a court of law to swear in, you are told to put your right hand on this book, god

forbid.

Every religion has deep psychological crippling dogmas and redundant rituals

that are suppose to bring there flock closer to the god they declare ruler of all. More to

the truth would be they bring the “sheeple” closer into their churches grip. Why

should I believe anyone without proof of facts? If it sounds too good, too insane, too

wild, unrealistic, irrational, and if I use my brain and think for a minute, then

rationalize does it still sound right? Knock, search, seek, and ask, question, everything

that is not experienced in your own life. Alcoholics anonymous and all the other self-

help groups and all the other twelve step programs are just belief based programming

like all the others, so do they work? Well the research says a few maybe, for about one

percent of all members. Then again it retracts this statement because further

investigation says the percentage that it works for would have stopped anyway they just

gave credit to the one they stopped on, so goes the same for all recovery based

treatments. Church and doctors and their med bags pharmaceutical companies all

mass lies. When the pain becomes unacceptable to live, some just stop, others don’t

these are the facts. We have and are being programmed by a matrix of brainwashing

systems since the moment of conception to the last breathe. This is the cause to the

consequence we face, symptoms addictions chaos stress insanity. Ego is being molding
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sculptured by family friends society, we have fallen, but not in sin but in illusion and

confusion and forgetfulness, the big sleep.

Blind Faith

“God is a concept we measure our pain by” What was Lennon trying to say to

us? To break it down we have God as a concept a thought where does the thought

come from? From our parents, books, friends. Why is God always a he? How has this

male God gone from war god to loving messiah? On the other side we have Lucifer the

light giver falling from heaven. Bringing light to the world light is a metaphor for

knowledge, wisdom. Light is an analogy for God also. A serpent tempting eve with

power of choice and being punished for wanting to be like the gods, and having

knowledge, and this is the first of innocents lost, like a babe who becomes a boy and

then a man . If this is falling away from god a god punishing his creation and get this

a needed apostle who without his deed the whole plan fails is dammed for eternity.

Then if this isn’t bad enough not one word of any of this was recorded at the time it

supposedly happened. The only hope would be if it was created to be esoteric deeper
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then the literal way it has been popularly understood. However this way

<metaphorically> would be almost impossible because of mistranslations and forgeries.

For example the word sin originally means off the path or mark.

History can not be trusted, who ever is the victor creates the history of there

own nation and the history of those they conquered. For example if Hitler triumphed

the whole of all he touched would be as he decided it to be remembered. Think about

this, reality is how one believes, not as one perceives, who controls the past, controls we

must grow and learn it is built into our DNA our god stuff to grow ascend ,learn

everything and question the same… well ok the future, the pen is mightier then the

sword. I have not given any references nor great detail to prove what I have written ,

for those minds that become stirred the greatest gift to give oneself is to seek, search

and discover for thyself.

Nothing is fact or absolute in this world

A life unexamined is not worth living---Socrates

Socrates may only be a fictional character created by Plato. Shakespeare a pen

name for Frances beacon, the food, and water we eat and drink deliberately poisoning

us and causing the whole of humanity to dumb down, besides killing us all slowly.

Vitamins worthless vegetation empty of needed nutrients. Milk made with paste and

lethal poisons medications for depression causing more harm then good. Meats and

poultry filled with growth hormones and much more…

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Shadow governments secret societies masterminds behind the seen dark forces

twenty-twelve, end of days new age gurus money making scams grabbing at every

opportunity, murder mayhem plots tourism natural disasters. What is real what is fact

quantum theory micro macro, what is below is above; the kingdom of God is within.

Science is coming to a great moment in history the welcomed theory and focus is on a

strange concept. Everything we see and touch and hear is a projection from within us.

The deeper we go into this subject the crazier it may sound at first, however in the

process of trying to understand it, we may come to a ha-ha epiphany .Is this not what

Yeshua<jesus> was saying all along ? The mysteries of the kingdom that it is within...

If this is true this could only mean one thing we are creating this virtual reality

together all the misery, happiness, sadness, and loneliness, gratefulness, death and

murder,, fear starvation, and all we see and touch and hear at work at play and in bed

with our loved ones. The blue jay and the worm the dead raccoon on the highway

everything we thought was real. We may be closer to the divine then most believe.

Follow me on an assumption please, birds beget birds frogs beget frogs and

father sons… The theory and belief in alchemy cabbala and Mormons and many other

religions have some concept of man becoming divine just look at John the divine or the

many other hints that seem to be very carefully hidden and never spoken of. Jesus

quoted palms when asked by the scribes and Pharisees to explain his statement about

being in the father, he replied quoting scripture stating “ye are gods,” and also in the

Old Testament the tribal jewel makes Moses and his brother gods. The Buddha said

not to believe anything that is not experienced or rational. Great words to live by,

however, what is rational? What do we believe what can one trust as fact or fiction? If
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everything I see touch smell feel hear is an elusion, if everything has been tampered

with distorted changed what is fact what is fiction? Pontius pilots famous words ring

true “truth what is truth?”

Truth what is it?

I know only one truth and many things false. Change seems to be absolutely

constant, all else is conceptual. Do you agree with me The Dao da ching seems to

believe all is change, and what I see in life this rings true, however, if everything is a

hologram and nothing is truly real then is change even real? I hope not? For if

Buddha and Krishna and Christ and science are correct even change is a mystery

unable to conceive, and the Dao da ching that states change is absolute is wrong. The

matrix is all around us everywhere we go and everything we think we have and

understand, it is not as the movie is based on a computer but a collective conscious

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living entity we collectively seem to be controlling like our hearts and organs cells

unconsciously participating in a grand opera as the sage said so brilliantly life is but a

stage we have our entrances and our exits. Again John Lennon hit the spot with his

words: “living is easy with eyes closed”; misunderstanding all we see, and also from

straw berry fields “nothing is real.” The Hindu sacred scripts famous poem the

Bhagavad-Gita samara and Krishna tells his pupil it is all ok not to morn the battle

because it is all illusions nothing can truly harm us.

Jung spoke strongly believing in synchronicity when we search for truth

omens, signs; it’s almost as if the world and the universe may be whispering wake up.

Alcohol anonymous has a saying keep what need and throw the rest away or this

meeting was just for me and it was like he was talking about my story Others say

things like, ‘I was just thinking about you’ these, type of events become so common

that it can be taken for granted. When we in tune or focus we become aware or more

awaken our experience in the unexplainable is consistent. If one chooses to focus on

his/her intent, and then believe it will take place or come to be or manifest it truly

happens one way or another it unfolds. Like the book the secret or down the rabbit

hole the more I focus accept as happened and leave the details to the force or what

have you, it just comes to be. Jesus said ask, and you shall receive, the whole thought

about moving mountains becomes much more realilistic when understood in this way

how powerful, Either metaphorically as troubles and tribulations or truly as stated

literally quantum possible at least in theory if ones belief is strong enough healings

miracles may be possible... Einstein said all is energy transforming into matter and
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back the alchemist claim this truth also that all the elements in purity are the same

what is in me is also in the planets and stars., Einstein stated, quantum is spooky he

believed like Spinoza as a deist understanding about the creator the fathers of our

nation also were deist Echart the mystic, William Blake, Jefferson, and many more

seemed to understand something mystically beautiful we are gods in the making. The

sleeping prophet who was a devoutly Christian Edger Casey said this also we are gods

in the making.

Gods and baby gods

If we are in the likeness of our creator why do we think flesh mammon

likeness? If god is spirit, if the kingdom is within and if quantum is on to something

this would be the key to understanding the matrix the hologram the collective

consciousness? Man knows them self and the mysteries of the gods and the universe

will be revealed.

A life unexamined is not worth living Socrates said this with the help of Plato’s

pen, also he was known to say he new nothing and would go as far as prove know one
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else did either. The end result is all those who challenge the system from prophets to

philosophers to mystics end up dead. The masses do not have any desire to awaken.

This would mean becoming responsible for ones behaviors, and actions. This would be

in opposition to a childish mind, remember the master’s words to enter the kingdom

one needs to be as a child not childish. A child is giving trusting humble forgiving,

willing open-minded innocent of course this would be in contras to Christianity

believing we are all of sin at birth, and this belief is opposite of their supposed leader,

unless of course Jesus is not the founder but a another a imposter a wolf in sheep’s

closing named Paul.

Yeshua true pronouncing rather then the Greek Jesus or who ever inspired his

supposed words were very in tuned to something powerful and pure, if we followed his

teachings instead of this fanatic Paul and if we would have followed the theories of

Hermes instead of Aristotle and Thomas quanta we may have all transformed into gods

by now. Too many this concepts will sound completely out in the ball park, insane

insanity Edger Casey believed this, and the more you search the more you will find

thinking this kind of thought. What is it to be an ascended master an avatar a god

man? Well we have preconceived concepts that god is not a capability for a creature as

us to become as I am a father however I will never be my father, I will never be the

absolute first cause or what ever you call it however, I am the son of the father,

therefore I am in the father and the father is in me. God begets god, as I grow and

learn and perfect my ways and thoughts <behaviors are thoughts>”remember even if

you think it is as it has happened.”

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The priest and powers that be have blinded us lead us astray from the path

calling us sinful from birth and step children or clay vile of flesh and blood not worthy

weak powerless only hope grace from a vengeful jealous murdering Yahweh, Jehovah,

elohim. Only way possible of this grace the slaughter of his only begotten son to die a

painful suffering death. This is not it then we two-thousand years later better except it

as gospel truth cause Paul said so damn it. Believe or perish. Remember this divinity

made gods of Moses and his brother, before sending them to demand< His> wishes or

else.

Blake said everything is holy, I love this concept. After thousands of hours

reading thinking trying to put it all together, I became sick and horrified at first as if I

swallowed bad food. I feared I panic I became stoned immaculate, drunk with sober

understanding. Then I refused to accept, such a belief. Tried to whisper it by

subterfuge using scripture in a paraphrasing way, to know avail talked about it in

metaphor tried to reach others of like mind, know contact. Much anger did I breed

from some, frustration from others. Then silent, I became an observer of my brothers

and sisters, learning to listen and trying to understand them instead of pushing my

theories and conclusions on others, I tried to understand there ways, there thoughts

and their needs. Those in whom I thought balanced I found sadness and pain and
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exhaustion. The many I found confusion insanity self center ness, self obsession.

Blind leading blind believing in systems proved wrong like the twelve step fellowships,

group therapy’s. I could see the leaders helplessness and arrogant so mixed like oil

and water. So deeply rooted in the way it is. Acceptance know leaders or true teachers,

“Oh are the ancients of days” I would think. The elder’s teachers of mysteries so

long ago lost destroyed forgotten Burned in the library at Alexandra perhaps.

Who would listen to the new way anyway? Brainwashed robots programmed to

death. I would scream abstinents is death, seek balance manageability self control I

would cry man know thyself. I would scream the masters words new whine will burst

the old skin, become new change transform your seed of divinity awaits your yearning

stir men awaken to the truth that is within. Then they would banish me, with mock and

some in sadness, they would whisper he has mental problems so sad poor boy he had

come so far. Some would blame devils and daemons others maintained as if psychosis

had been stirred. The multitude after hearing would say as if they had facts “he

relapsed.”

Foreknowledge through vision had been granted however, and to avoid this self

prophesy a silent has been kept. The vulgar and sick need not such affirmation

revelation, the sleeping desire only sleep, and the ignorant their ignorance. I keep

watch for the elect who chose to awaken, oh so slow they stir, wiping elusion and

illusions and confusion from there brow. For what is I to force this responsibility on

anyone ill equipped to take? This torch of Lucifer, Prometheus, oasis, Isis and the

Christ, his counter part Krishna Sheba Buddha krishmaharti and Gandhi and mother

Teresa Joan of the ark and trice over Hermes who is all as one is in all. These god
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man avatars messengers of truth, perfection not equal neither should one care, or

judge for it is the message not the messenger that is of important need. Poor mankind,

have you not been warned always desired the messenger and killed the message then

made into an idol the corps with the blood stained message made confused as a tower

of Babel.

Married men, virgin women who cares few if any wavering in< perfection>

translated originally meaning whole or balance. Some made into Gods, others still

human. Divine inspired not likely, divinely awaken most assuredly. Egos in check self

giving towards others forgiving to self and all, kind mostly sad unlikely angry

frustrated tired and stirred definitely. Have these way showers been completely

spiritual not likely, trial and error most likely. Practices of spiritual principalities yes

through practice and reflection. I have only named a grain of sand compared to the

millions who made the path passable and possible, through blood and anguish

isolation and hunger for the human race to unite as one family as one brother and

sisterhood devoted to life, protector of all creatures great and small givers not takers

lovers not haters, one family within God. Harmony maker’s peace makers,

understanding and concerned with empathy and altruistic service, to those in need and

those in want. Equal as family unto each other like is a father son and daughter and

infant. The new earth is the new human race and the new vibrant mother we have

hurt so needlessly forsaken by ripping and cutting and biting and stabbing her

dragging her with fences and pulling her down. The new heaven is our conscious

awakening divine human race living as one law love above all. Then shall the lion lie

down with the lamb. Or mystery revealed ego summiting to the higher selves will.
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True balance, demarcation resolved, chaos ordered, awakened transmitted unto

the light. Marriage of heaven and earth god and women united a new dawn emerges,

birth pain ended life reborn resurrected. South meets west east to north, light dwells

with night creating a new birthing called the first ray of night and day. Man and

women become as one unit compound in their elements as pure as one again complete.

The New Jerusalem is our united body. Inside becomes outside, parts reunite as truth.

Connection so powered by delight of wholeness so giving and full endlessly releasing

unto the whole of all. The first man is born anew creature of goodness pure intent

strong as gold and solid as energy. Initialized once more to become aware and more.

Then when full of omniscience, omnipotence, and pure gnosis the bang of birth.

Deprecation division and solitude of thought once more to travel the eons and

universal domains pharaleaping from generation to the watered pollution of the fall

and the story of creation and the darkness of forgetting his truth has called. This is the

days of absolution and self willed beget to understand and experience self and

separation as known as well as the fall. This self induced sleep so needed to become

complete, once more. These are the days of the eternal resurrection when universes

are born and gods are amongst man to inner mate and teach and to help become once

more awake. Repeat the past undo the wrongs and incarnate the god so pure and

divine, as the body of wo-man at the first fruit of desire creating once again the eternal

divine fire. The fist shepherd harishon the Man splits his whole into two and two into

four and so again we march the path of endless learning oncemore. Female has

breathed and man full of thirst follows her down the wayward journey she has freely

chosen. She is the tamer of the wild brute man, the calmer the lovelier and giver so
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this round she tryst once more again to lead the beast within her lore to have him

summit to her will be the faster reward. Man summit to the wo-man and become as

one united and lead not thy way for all transgressors to follow. As it is true the bear is

the stronger of the two and the lion would and can devour the man animal. Strength is

know power of truth, be not of the lower elements again, to be self controlled and

willed focused. OH WO to the man who forces his sick will on the flesh of goddess so

gold and fine. Remember man power is not strength nor might of conquering your

path so chosen from self. To conquer your desires and emotional envelopes so

complex and tangled, as webs so define, is not the king of a kingdom ruled by

another’s behavior when so lucid and angered he becomes so still a slave. Wisdom oh

son of divine spark self to master is the making of a god and a king of kings. Oh

innate within you seeds of priest poets philosopher warrior gods, so loved and beloved ,

remember awaken, the time to waste the dawns new day has ended, become once more

as one soul or fall deeper into the empty deep sleep.

Path of the seeker,

Search not for wisdom or gold nor for power or control, neither travel afar

distance from home. There is know need for any of these things, to walk the path that

is hidden, to isolate is mad and to celebrate not bad, to know when to hold and keep

what is told is more then a virtue to be needed. Silents and understanding will come as

it will to the one who is listening. Observe your kind and lose not your mind, not to
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judge without facts or believe anything told is the key for the secrets to unfold. Love

all, be kind and giving, however, select carefully who to like, few who are worthy of

trust and fewer of who will not covet, and disturb, and distort the mysteries of spirit.

The beast in man is stronger then the seed of potential divinity.

To be with peace one has to become peace, to be of love one must become love,

there is know trying or wanting powers. One must become the chosen powers and will

the path as his own self. There knows external path you must become the path within.

As it has been written man is as he thinks, therefore think pureness and calmness and

the spirit of the forces will be as you are attracting. You will be a force of power

mastered by will and focus and intent. The potential of all lies within the process of

focus and intent, creation is in the eyes and will of the one who has the keys to the

mysteries of peace.

Watch for signs of darkness they are always influencing you, as they creep and

force themselves upon your spirit as a rapist they violate and corrupt your way,

Causing murder, rape, hate, anger, and despair, depression and jealousy, addictions of

endless destruction and host of other ills. They cling to those who are easily persuaded

and will attach to anyone who comes close, or open to their cause patiently they await

your slightest weakness.

We all shine on, like the moon, the stars and the sun---------John Lennon----
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I have lived within the silents, between the cold walls of concrete, suffered the

unkind ways of men. Witnessed the demise of children abused by those who ignorant

of their own thoughts destroy and lie to steal and make blind. There is knowing truth

that hides behind you or under you or in the dead words of your big mouth pastors

priest or politicians. They are not in your supposed Holy books or behind the secret

orders. They whisper from the trees and shine in the skies and on the tongs of children

they spill their wisdom and secrets only. The truth is within the mysteries of your

being. We are all made of Gods DNA, every entity that is, is part of a whole complete

creation, stars plants, and solar systems included. Planets and dust and birds and all

you can and cannot imagine. We have and always will be a part of our mother, since

the beginning of life and when the whole thing hits the fan, we shall be part of the

whole of all that is and was and will be. Beyond the stars and within the heart there is

know distance God the personal is closer then your thoughts and further then you can

see.

It is utterly impossible to beget from nothing, so it only makes sense that from

the fist cause or what ever one desires to call the whole, we have poured forth from.

We are made of God stuff, so be it true we are gods in the making as was will be.

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Divine rebel

Raise me unto the light; break these chains I hold

These half truths I told

Slay my way o bringer of dawns

Harmony through conflict my only path,

From this darkness comes the harbinger

Unto thee I sing this arduous path has always been mine by choice

Sacrifice humility and demise of character for man

To serve the whole, the mind is given to the beast. RCL

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This emptiness these raw dark laminating dreams that never end cold and still

the shadows keep to themselves. Always reminding me who and what I am. Under the

guise of someone new, some one better, oh still the morning of my pain where all the

horror was in vain lost is the tempest the storm and the winter night gone forever in the

morn of this cold brisk but still facade of loss innocents. Light is to wisdom as night to

ignorance am I wrong to whisper my longings into the dearth are they all just lame

dumb asses? Television children so lost with stupidity. When will they transmute?

What hour do we become god for the devil is lucid in the eyes still. I suffered until

purified, I was washed in the fire I ate the apple and lived.

Have I not been nailed to your material world lost in your ego mind, your Yahweh self

interest? Have I not been veiled in chaos and confusion between Jew and gentile, up

and down lost and found? I gave them your steps of higher ascension, your inner man

ways the spirituality you swayed, still the dark night still the salt less savor…

One more hour grant me sir, one more eternal night to sulfur and lament imagining

heavens pure rain and earth’s mother’s waste. How could the sage say all that lives is

holy, has he not seen the evil in his brothers heart?

RCL

Dark energy
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Star wars is a most interesting movie, one must feel the ring of some what a

familiar feeling in such a movie, also the matrix and other movies seem to ring true to

some. Fiction has a way of becoming nonfiction, what has been a dram somehow

becomes a reality. Quantum physics has a way of potential zing all imaginary thoughts

remember Yeshua when he says if one thinks it is as if it happened. Thoughts have

power, great potential and are full of elements. Man is what he thinks; also Descartes

said “I think therefore I am.” So we should be wise and watch our words they become

our thoughts and thoughts become actions and actions become our destiny.

My experiment is that everything I put my intent into comes about, not in my

time, like fruit on a tree in its own time it ripens. Jesus supposedly cursed a fig tree for

not having ripe fruit. This of course was a metaphor to teach the need for purpose in

life, or one would be worthless, however, truth be said, it was not the figs season ,and

Yeshua would never do such a negative ignorant act.

More is unknown then is known everything on Earth, everything ever observed

with all of our instruments, all normal matter - ads up to less than 5% of the Universe.

We use very little of our brain and this is in sink with what we observe and understand

also. Synchronicity, at its finest seems to parallel with brain and universe, god and

man.

To see a world in a grain of sand,

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And heaven in a wild flower,

Hold infinity in the palm of your hand

And eternity in an hour-----William Blake---------

Blake wrote all is holy, I believe this as a truth. In fact, there is neither light

nor darkness in the realm of truth. Absolute light is absolute darkness, and vice versa.

Everything is relative to comparison of something else. Evil, holy, goodness all have a

point of degree, to be compared. Everything is relative, only change is absolutely fact.

If man is god seed potential, god is also potential. Man seed, with every people except

the Christian nations, the Devil is to this day no worse an entity than the opposite

aspect in the dual nature of the so-called Creator. This is only natural. One cannot

claim God as the synthesis of the whole Universe, as Omnipresent and Omniscient and

Infinite, and then divorce him from evil. As there is far more evil than good in the

world, it follows on logical grounds that either God must include evil, or stand as the

direct cause of it, or else surrender his claims to absoluteness. The ancients

understood this so well that their philosophers -- now followed by the Cabalists --

defined evil as the lining of God or Good: Demon est. Deus inverses being a very old

adage.

Esoteric philosophy admits neither good nor evil per se, as existing independently in

nature. The cause for both is found, as regards the Cosmos, in the necessity of the

contraries or contrasts, and with respect to man, in his human nature, his ignorance,

and passions. There is no devil or the utterly depraved, as there are no Angels

absolutely perfect, though there may be spirits of Light and of Darkness: thus LUCIFER
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-- the spirit of the Intellectual Enlightenment and Freedom of Thought -- is

metaphorically the guiding beacon, which helps man to find his way through the rocks

and sandbanks of Life, for Lucifer is the LOGOS in his highest, and the "Adversary" in

his lowest aspect -- both of which are reflected in our Ego.

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I do not accept any absolute formulas for living. No preconceived code can see

ahead to everything that can happen in a man's life. As we live, we grow and our

beliefs change. They must change. So I think we should live with this constant

discovery. We should be open to this adventure in heightened awareness of living. We

should stake our whole existence on our willingness to explore and experience. Martin

Buyer
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Every civilization believes they are immortal and can teach the world how to

live. Every one also crumbles like sand on the beach in the end.
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3.

4. Like castles made of sand slip into

the sea eventually. Jimmy

Hendrix
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The Russell-Einstein Manifesto

Issued in London, 9 July 1955

Bertrand Russell and Albert Einstein

IN the tragic situation which confronts humanity, we feel that scientists should
assemble in conference to appraise the perils that have arisen as a result of the

development of weapons of mass destruction, and to discuss a resolution in the spirit of

the appended draft.

We are speaking on this occasion, not as members of this or that nation, continent, or

creed, but as human beings, members of the species Man, whose continued existence is

in doubt. The world is full of conflicts; and, overshadowing all minor conflicts, the

titanic struggle between Communism and anti-Communism.

Almost everybody who is politically conscious has strong feelings about one or more of

these issues; but we want you, if you can, to set aside such feelings and consider

yourselves only as members of a biological species which has had a remarkable history,

and whose disappearance none of us can desire.

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We shall try to say no single word which should appeal to one group rather than to

another. All, equally, are in peril, and, if the peril is understood, there is hope that they

may collectively avert it.

We have to learn to think in a new way. We have to learn to ask ourselves, not what

steps can be taken to give military victory to whatever group we prefer, for there no

longer are such steps; the question we have to ask ourselves is: what steps can be taken

to prevent a military contest of which the issue must be disastrous to all parties?

The general public, and even many men in positions of authority, have not realized

what would be involved in a war with nuclear bombs. The general public still thinks in

terms of the obliteration of cities. It is understood that the new bombs are more

powerful than the old, and that, while one A-bomb could obliterate Hiroshima, one H-

bomb could obliterate the largest cities, such as London, New York, and Moscow.

No doubt in H-bomb war great cities would be obliterated. But this is one of the minor

disasters that would have to be faced. If everybody in London, New York, and Moscow

were exterminated, the world might, in the course of a few centuries, recover from the

blow. But we now know, especially since the Bikini test, that nuclear bombs can

gradually spread destruction over a very much wider area than had been supposed.

It is stated on very good authority that a bomb can now be manufactured which will be

2,500 times as powerful as that which destroyed Hiroshima. Such a bomb, if exploded

near the ground or under water, sends radio-active particles into the upper air. They

sink gradually and reach the surface of the earth in the form of a deadly dust or rain.
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It was this dust which infected the Japanese fishermen and their catch of fish. No one

knows how widely such lethal radio-active particles might be diffused, but the best

authorities are unanimous in saying that a war with H-bombs might possibly put an

end to the human race. It is feared that if many H-bombs are used there will be

universal death, sudden only for a minority, but for the majority a slow torture of

disease and disintegration.

Many warnings have been uttered by eminent men of science and by authorities in

military strategy. None of them will say that the worst results are certain. What they

do say is that these results are possible, and no one can be sure that they will not be

realized. We have not yet found that the views of experts on this question depend in

any degree upon their politics or prejudices. They depend only, so far as our

researches have revealed, upon the extent of the particular expert's knowledge. We

have found that the men who know most are the gloomiest.

Here, then, is the problem which we present to you, stark and dreadful and

inescapable: Shall we put an end to the human race; or shall mankind renounce war?

People will not face this alternative because it is so difficult to abolish war.

The abolition of war will demand distasteful limitations of national sovereignty. But

what perhaps impedes understanding of the situation more than anything else is that

the term "mankind" feels vague and abstract. People scarcely realize in imagination

that the danger is to themselves and their children and their grandchildren, and not

only to a dimly apprehended humanity. They can scarcely bring themselves to grasp

that they, individually, and those whom they love are in imminent danger of perishing
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agonizingly. And so they hope that perhaps war may be allowed to continue provided

modern weapons are prohibited.

This hope is illusory. Whatever agreements not to use H-bombs had been reached in

time of peace, they would no longer be considered binding in time of war, and both

sides would set to work to manufacture H-bombs as soon as war broke out, for, if one

side manufactured the bombs and the other did not, the side that manufactured them

would inevitably be victorious.

Although an agreement to renounce nuclear weapons as part of a general reduction of

armaments would not afford an ultimate solution, it would serve certain important

purposes. First, any agreement between East and West is to the good in so far as it

tends to diminish tension. Second, the abolition of thermo-nuclear weapons, if each

side believed that the other had carried it out sincerely, would lessen the fear of a

sudden attack in the style of Pearl Harbor, which at present keeps both sides in a state

of nervous apprehension. We should, therefore, welcome such an agreement though

only as a first step.

Most of us are not neutral in feeling, but, as human beings, we have to remember that,

if the issues between East and West are to be decided in any manner that can give any

possible satisfaction to anybody, whether Communist or anti-Communist, whether

Asian or European or American, whether White or Black, then these issues must not

be decided by war. We should wish this to be understood, both in the East and in the

West.
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There lies before us, if we choose continual progress in happiness, knowledge, and

wisdom. Shall we, instead, choose death, because we cannot forget our quarrels? We

appeal as human beings to human beings: Remember your humanity, and forget the

rest. If you can do so, the way lies open to a new Paradise; if you can’t, there lies

before you the risk of universal death.

Resolution:

WE invite this Congress, and through it the scientists of the world and the general
public, to subscribe to the following resolution:

"In view of the fact that in any future world war nuclear weapons will certainly be

employed, and that such weapons threaten the continued existence of mankind, we

urge the governments of the world to realize, and to acknowledge publicly, that their

purpose cannot be furthered by a world war, and we urge them, consequently, to find

peaceful means for the settlement of all matters of dispute between them."

Max Born

Percy W. Bridgman

Albert Einstein

Leopold Infeld

Frederic Joliot-Curie

Herman J. Muller
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Lines Paulding

Cecil F. Powell

Joseph Rotblat

Bertrand Russell

Hideki Yukawa
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Be a lamp unto yourself, be a refuge to yourself. Take yourself to no

external refuge. Hold fast to the Truth as a lamp; hold fast to the Truth as a

refuge. Look not for a refuge in anyone beside yourself. And those, who

either now or after I am dead shall be a lamp unto themselves, who take

themselves to no external refuge, but holding fast to the Truth as their

lamp, and holding fast to the Truth as their refuge, shall not look for refuge

to anyone beside themselves, it is they who shall reach the highest goal."

Awaken, man know thyself and the gods and the universe will be revealed

THE PATH IS WITHIN< WE MUST BECOME THE PATH TO WALK IT

The path to divine Truth is not what people expect it to be.

We may look at the fundamentalist believers of various religions who follow the literal meaning of their

sacred texts, and laugh at their narrow-mindedness. We may imagine that we are more open-minded than

most people. We may feel that we have a source of knowledge that is far beyond what other people have.

Yet as long as we look to books, gurus, and teachers, we have only gone, perhaps, one more step closer to
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Truth, but have not actually gone all the way.

We all know people who take the "word of God" literally. Sometimes we have been one of those people

ourselves, and have come to realize that the sacred word of God is more than a prop for a narrow sect or

religion. We have seen, perhaps, that there are essential truths within all the religions. We may have

concluded that there is only one Source behind them all, and thus looked to each religion as being only one of

many outer appearances or forms.

Nevertheless in all of this the pure, unadulterated Truth itself has remained elusive. The "truth that sets us

free" of this world of illusion is something that many people claim to have but very few people actually

demonstrate. We may suspect that the liberating Truth remains something that is a mystery and a secret

which, perhaps, we feel that we may one day uncover. We may imagine that when we become worthy and

wise, a teacher will arrive to inform us of the greatest secrets of the world — secrets of initiation and the

hidden teachings of the mystery schools.

But is this so? Is not divine Truth ever-present? It may be that we are unaware of Truth not because we are

inadequate, unworthy, or because our karma does not permit it, but because we are not in a mental place in

which such things may be told to us. We are cut off not because of any fault or inadequacy, but because we

have — unknown to ourselves — chosen to cut ourselves off. How is this possible?

People grow in their spirituality and thus enter wider and wider spheres of thought. They graduate from

narrow-minded fundamentalism or skepticism to teachings that promote unity, brotherhood, and unselfish

service to humanity. They may then feel that they have arrived at some place of truth that they were not

otherwise in, and to the certain extent this is valid and understandable, for surely the vast nature of TRUTH is

not accessible to the narrow dogmatist. And yet, even as they have chosen a wider sphere of thought, they

have — chosen a wider sphere of thought. And unknown to themselves, that sphere is still not wide enough

in order to access the whole Truth of Life.

Universal Truth has no boundaries, spheres, or limits. We may become more and more inclusive, more and

more open, but until we see the emptiness and inherent falsehood of everything that we know, divine Truth
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will remain unknown to us.

It is easy to see, as we have said, the foolishness of the narrow-minded fundamentalist of any faith. But in

the sight of God, all teachings, all religions, and all philosophies of every kind are equally narrow, for they all

shut out the light of Truth, which is well beyond all mental conceptions and understanding. They all establish

a human substitute for Truth in mental knowledge. By its very nature, that mental knowledge cannot enfold

or encompass the divine, limitless Reality. The conceptions and ideals of the dualistic mind can never grasp

or approach the non-dual, transcendent Truth.

Thus if we claim to be a follower of religion "X" or philosophy "Y" or teaching "Z" we are simply describing

the mental limitations that we have accepted for ourselves, the prison house that we choose to live in, and

the barrier we have set between ourselves and God. Therefore the very first step that any person needs to

take to approach Truth is to give up all of our cherished and long-held mental conceptions.

There is a Truth for which all acquisition of knowledge is a waste of time and energy. There is a Wisdom that

is beyond all the words that have ever been spoken on earth, It is only when all outer institutions, religions,

philosophies, and teachings are dropped that this inner Wisdom is accessible. It is only when our human

knowledge is let go that the Divine inspiration may flow.

Most people, of course, do not see it this way. They feel that they will obtain divine Wisdom by means of

their philosophy, and obtain salvation by following their religion. But the proof is in the results that they

obtain. The scholars continuously read book after book, the new age seekers listen to teacher after teacher,

the religious followers pour over every word in their sacred texts over and over..., and what does it gain

them? As a result they spin round and round within the sphere of the mind, pretending to make progress,

pretending to evolve, pretending to release themselves from karma, and pretending to be liberated.

Surely one would think that all these people would actually listen to the great teachers of the ages. It is said

that Go tama Buddha taught people to search for the Truth alone. We are also told that Jesus said, "the Truth

will set you free.” But who will look for the Truth alone? Instead people are really looking at Buddha, at

Jesus, and whatever other teacher or master they follow instead of Truth. People build a mental construct of

philosophy, dogma, and thought. People continuously believe that their minds can know Truth when the
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human mind is totally incapable of knowing Truth. And by this false belief they build a wall between

themselves and Truth. A wall that they do not see. A wall that they lovingly cherish and build stronger. A

wall that shuts God out.

The whole Truth of Life is only knowable when all human constructs are let go, when all philosophizing is put

to rest and when the mind is no longer trusted to impart knowledge. Truth is only known when we are

continuously dissatisfied with every human construct and ideal, and unwilling to accept any substitute for

God whatsoever. Only then can we come to the door through which Truth may appear.

The Path to Truth starts with awakening from the

deep sleep of ignorance

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Androgynies human the perfect goddess, god in one, the ascension

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Or be as a mammon or animal, and descend

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Man is what he thinks.

TEACHINGS OF THE MASTERS

What is the Pathway? The Pathway is you yourself. Therefore the call from the

Teacher comes to you: Awake, my Brothers, and sisters awake to the god within

yourself, not outside, not in me, but in you -- the Master supreme! Where is the

fountain-head of your understanding? Where arises the flame of your intelligence?

What is the wellspring of love within you? Where is the sun of compassion and pity

and self-forgetfulness and peace? All within you. That therefore is the Path.

And powers? Shall we talk of powers? Look at the powers that these Great Men had.

See the works that they wrought, the deeds that they did, the teachings that they taught.

And every one of them said unto his followers: "Come up. Come up higher. Come up.

All that I do, shall ye do likewise.” Self-conquest, self-discipline, self-study -- the study

of the Higher Self -- self-understanding, self-evolution, and self-growth: there is the

teaching. Forget the self in order that ye may find the Self. A paradox, but how

wondrous true! Forget the lower, circumscribed man of limited self so that the

consciousness of that self may expand into the fields of the Universe, its native home.
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Expand your human consciousness so that it may become the consciousness of the god

within you.

INNER WORLDS

Furthermore, these Wise Men taught of the reality of inner and invisible worlds. They

taught from what they themselves had experienced in the initiation-chambers: taught

not only because someone else had instructed them, but because they had been on the

mystical Adventure to these interior realms. And because they had been there, and had

seen, and felt, and contacted these realms, they knew and therefore could teach Truth.

How can a man really know anything at all which he himself has not been through?

They taught that it is the inner worlds to which all the better part of man goes when he

lays aside the physical body -- the interior realms and planes and spheres of the cosmic

life. They taught that the journey after death is made upwards through nine other

planes or spheres, until the acme or top of the hierarchical ladder is reached; and then

comes the return journey downwards through the same planes, until the earth-sphere

is again entered upon; and thus a man is reborn, each time a little higher than before,

let us hope -- because there are certain cases of retrogression -- with each new birth

learning a little more and becoming somewhat more than he was before. For the root

of each one of us is a divine being; and human hood today is but a visible and

imperfect manifestation in this world of gross substance, of the powers and faculties

that are locked up within. The real roots of things are in the invisible worlds; the real

causes of all things lie there. There from spring forth the entities that compose the

variety of our physical world; and today ultra-modern scientific thinkers, and the
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greatest of them, are talking more or less vaguely but intuitively about our 'dimensions

of space'; instead of which phrase, we, having the same idea although much more

developed, speak about the superior worlds or realms or planes of space.

OUR EVOLUTIONARY JOURNEY

Existing in the very beginning of this present stage of cosmic evolution in the bosom of

the super spiritual Source and Root of all that is, leaving IT as unconscious god-

sparks, we have passed through many existences and lives on various spiritual spheres,

as also in various material spheres, among these latter our own planet Terra; in them

all learning, growing, expanding, evolving, manifesting forth outwards what we are

intrinsically and naturally within our inmost center. This is the procedure of

evolution: becoming or manifesting what we are latently within; for in the name of

truth, what else can a man or woman, or any other being for the matter of that,

become, except that which lies in the evolving entity itself? After the passage of many

axons of evolution in this manner, we shall re-enter, mystically speaking, or ribosome,

or self-consciously recognize our kinship with, the All, and thus find ourselves again in

the bosom of the Universal Life, but no longer as un-self-conscious god-sparks, but as

fully self-conscious gods.

This thought of the spiritual unity of all beings is at the foundation, is in fact the basis,

of every great religion and philosophy of the past. Every great Sage has taught that the

human being has, indeed is, in the core of the core of himself, a spark of the Central

Fire, of that bright Intelligence which infill the Universe; and that the pathway to

unutterable wisdom and peace and bliss and love is the following of that still, small
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pathway within leading ever farther inwards, upwards, until self is lost in the All-Self,

and the pilgrim becomes at one with the Divine Fire which vitalizes and infill and

guides the Universe.

We see, therefore, the natural basis that ethics has in such thoughts as these: the basis

that morals naturally have in right and noble living, in high thinking. These are the

teachings of the Sages of old, and are the very basis of every world-religion that exists;

the very basis of every great philosophy: the very basis of the facts of science. The facts

of Nature which are rooted in the fundamentals of the Great Mother likewise repose on

the same spiritual substratum of being.

In the beginning of our evolutionary journey in our present Universe, we entered this

present Universe as Elementals therein, and we have grown through all the stages

upwards until at present we are human beings. And we are still growing, still evolving,

still pressing forwards; for never must we forget that evolution is bringing out what is

within, unfolding the latent powers locked up within the deathless center which every

human is at the core of the core of himself. Infinitude lies there; deathlessness lies

there; and therefore the pathway of growth is endless and beginning less.

The way by which to grow is to shed the personal in order to become impersonal; to

shed the limited in order to expand. How can the chick leave the egg without breaking

its shell? How can the inner man expand without breaking the shell of the lower

selfhood? How can the god within manifest itself until the imperfect, the small, the

constricted, the personal in other words, has been surpassed, overpasses, left behind,
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abandoned, cast aside? It is in impersonality that lies immortality. In personality lies

death. Therefore expand, grow, evolve, become what you are within!

NO UNCHANGING PRINCIPLE IN MAN

There is not a deduction, a very important one, to be drawn from this, nor should we be

affrighted at it: All evolution is change; all change in evolution is growth, expansion.

You cannot become something better than what you are now without leaving this

present behind. Consequently, as this law applies as much to the spiritual and

psychical realms as it does to the physical and astral, we draw the following deduction:

There is no immortally unchangeable soul in man. Do you understand? Thank the

gods that it is so! Because if there were a genuinely immortally unchangeable soul in

me that soul could never grow, because it could not change; I should be for ever in

crystallized imperfection; because, if I changed in one atom, and by one iota,

immortality would instantly vanish, because I should have become something else by

the degree of that change for betterment; but evolution, which is change, is

uninterrupted and continuous and has proceeded throughout eternity. Do you now

understand the idea? That is the heart of the explanation of the teaching of the Lord

Gateman the Buddha, who was the very incarnation of love and wisdom on earth

because manifesting the powers of a divinity, his own inner God, the human

expression or vehicle. And Jesus the Syrian Sage and Avatar said exactly the same in

substance when he taught: "I and my Father are one."

THE HEART OF THE UNIVERSE IS HARMONY

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If your instincts and your thoughts and your desires be earthwards, earthward will you

go, for earthwards is your attraction. If your instincts and your will and your

understanding and your aspiration are upwards towards the stars and the immortal

suns, thither will you travel in the evolutionary course? These are facts.

The same rule applies even in the common affairs of life. The things upon which a

man sets his heart he struggles for, and gets them; and precisely the same rule holds

man in Nature's unerring balance of justice. In the pan of the balance into which you

have thrown the strongest elements and affections of your character, will you be found

yourself when you are weighed in life's balance? That is the meaning of the ancient

Egyptian symbolic picture of the man's heart being weighed in the balance.

Therefore the Great Men, the Seers and Sages, philosophers, true religionists, natural

scientists, have taught that the very nature of the heart of the Universe is beauty,

harmony, therefore order, law, love and peace, and that the expression of these cosmic

attributes throughout Nature is the cause of the orderliness that the observant eye sees

everywhere. They taught also that the disorderliness that one sees likewise in Nature,

the things that go wrong, the warped things, the things dying before their time, and

human beings in especial, are merely the proof of the vast hierarchies of evolving and

therefore imperfect Intelligences in Nature, which Intelligences, collaborators as they

are in the great universal work, produce imperfect results because they themselves are

as yet imperfect.

Therefore did they say that the immortal gods, in all their evolutionary grades: highest,

intermediate, and low: are nevertheless not perfect, although incomparably more
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perfect than men. On such reasoning as this was the true polytheism of the ancients

based.

Every entity and every thing in the Universe is a learning thing: every entity therefore

is on its upward evolutionary way. The Universe is divisible into numberless hosts of

beings in all phases of evolutionary progress: endless hierarchies of beings and things

and entities, graded in steps and stages; and this principle prevails in similar fashion

on our earth. We are all in a process of evolutional growth towards becoming

something greater. Men are the handiwork of cosmic gods and spiritual beings; and

each such god or spiritual entity expresses itself through the human tabernacle which

it has built up. Each one therefore is a conglomerate constitution builder by the

faculties and powers flowing forth from the heart of the heart of his very being, which

is his inner god, his cosmic spirit The Secret Doctrine

Collectively, men are the handiwork of hosts of various [cosmic] spirits; distributive,

the tabernacles of these hosts; and occasionally and singly, the vehicles of some of

them.

It is thus that men are builder up into humanity, into possessing the human

constitution including of course human physical bodies; each such constitution more

or less, and usually less, expressing at least a little of these sublime, these divine,

powers and faculties. But, occasionally and singly a human being becomes the vehicle,

the self-conscious temple, of the divine entity within; and then such a man walks the

earth an incarnate god. Such was the Christ, such was the Buddha. Such were many

if not most of the great Sages and Seers of the past.

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There is truth in the Universe. That truth can be had, and the way to have it is by

willpower and perseverance in following the Path, and by self-forgetfulness, so that

you will not have your feet clogged by the mire of selfish desire, holding you fast on the

pathway. There is but one fundamental Truth in the Universe, simply because there is

but one Boundless All. All the great Sages and Seers therefore of necessity taught that

one Truth; felt it, experienced it; and hence the teaching of all of them was one in

every essential characteristic. No matter in what age these great Sages taught, no

matter what the language they used, no matter what the figures of speech that they

employed, in each and in every case the essentials of their teachings were the same

because the Truth was one. This Truth regarding the nature, structure, operations,

and laws of the Boundless All, visible and invisible, not only was but today is the Secret

Doctrine of the Ages, the Archaic Wisdom-Religion of Mankind, of which faint echoes

even today are heard in every human mind which is not wholly asleep, and in every

human heart which is not dead.

Even today the great Sages and Seers have their schools of initiation into which men in

the outside world can enter, provided that these Great Ones see in the hearts and minds

of the men in the outside world the qualifications for initiation. This procedure is not a

selfish one. It is not a policy directed by an ignoble wish to keep truth for oneself, but

is directed by Nature's own law. You cannot teach a child lessons in Sanskrit, nor how

to deliver a lecture on astronomy or chemistry, as instances. You must wait until the

child grows, grows up, until its faculties evolve, which is the same thing as inner

growth.
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What a wondrous picture of hope and consolation we have here! Any man who will

show the necessary qualifications is acceptable to these teachers -- not only acceptable,

but he is helped, is taught; and every great Sage and Seer throughout the ages has had

the same wonderful Message to give to mankind: "Come unto me, all ye that are weary

and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest, and peace, and light;" as said Jesus the

Avatar.

Any son of man has a right to these sublime teachings as his heritage as a human

being. But his heart must hunger for them; his mind must be ready to receive them.

Otherwise how can he take them? His moral instincts must be sufficiently developed

so that the development of the wonderful but latent power within him can be brought

about with an assurance that these powers will not be debased to ignoble uses.

And laws of the Universe. It also includes teaching a man to find himself, i.e., to

discover and uncover from its enshrouding veils, the god within him.

In every human being there is his inner god, having found which he will enjoy

communion with the divinities, and will understand the Universe in which he lives and

moves and has his being and of which he is an inseparable part. Receiving this

Wisdom means the broadening of his consciousness, the deepening of his being, the

evocation of his latent intellectual powers and self-acquaintance with his 'soul,' so to

speak -- call it by what name you like. It also means to become self-consciously at one

with the All.

MEN NEED TEACHERS

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There is a teaching current in the world today to the effect that a man does not need

teachers, that a man should be sufficient unto himself, that he has it within him to find

his own path; and this is said to be a manly course of life. Verily so it is: "Truth abides

within in fullness.” But why haven't you found the path? Why aren't you what you

claim you can be? For the simple reason that you don't know how to be it and because

you have not been taught. You need a teacher.

Men need teachers. Truth is within, in very fact; as Browning has set forth in his

Paracelsus:

Truth is within us; it takes no rise

from outward things, whatever you may believe.

There is an inmost center in us all,

where truth abides in fullness; and around,

Wall upon wall, the gross flesh hems it in,

this perfect, clear perception -- which is truth.

A baffling and perverting carnal mesh

Binds it, and makes all error; and, to KNOW,

Rather consists in opening out a way

whence the imprisoned splendor may escape,

than in effecting entry for a light

supposed to be without.
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1. The universe is an infinite agglomeration of energy fields,

resembling threads of light.

2. These energy fields, called the Eagle's, or the

Indescribable Force 's emanations, radiate from a source

of inconceivable proportions metaphorically called the

Eagle--the Indescribable Force .

3. Human beings are also composed of an incalculable

number of the same threadlike energy fields. These

Indescribable Force 's emanations form an encased

agglomeration that manifests itself as a ball of light the

size of the person's body with the arms extended laterally,

like a giant luminous egg.

4. Only a very small group of the energy fields inside this

luminous ball are lit up by a point of intense brilliance

located on the ball's surface.

5. Perception occurs when the energy fields in that small

group immediately surrounding the point of brilliance

extent their light to illuminate identical energy fields

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outside the ball. Since the only energy fields perceivable

are those lit by the point of brilliance, that point is named

"the point where perception is assembled" or simply "the

assemblage point."

6. The assemblage point can be moved from its usual

position on the surface of the luminous ball to another

position on the surface, or into the interior. Since the

brilliance of the assemblage point can light up whatever

energy field it comes in contact with, when it moves to a

new position it immediately brightens up new energy

fields, making them perceivable. This perception is known

as seeing .

7. When the assemblage point shifts, it makes possible the

perception of an entirely different world--as objective and

factual as the one we normally perceive. Sorcerers go into

that other world to get energy, power, and solutions to

general and particular problems, or to face the

unimaginable.

8. Intent is the pervasive force that causes us to perceive. We

do not become aware because we perceive; rather, we

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perceive as a result of the pressure and intrusion of intent

9. The aim of sorcerers is to reach a state of total awareness

in order to experience all the possibilities of perception

available to man. This state of awareness even implies an

alternative way of dying.

* * *

A level of practical knowledge is included as part of

teaching the mastery of awareness. On this practical level

are taught the procedures necessary to move the

assemblage point. The two great systems devised by the

sorcerer seers of ancient times to accomplish this are

dreaming , the control, and utilization of dreams; and

stalking , the control of behavior.

Moving one's assemblage point is an essential

maneuver that every sorcerer has to learn.

Sorcerers consult their past in order to obtain a point of reference. Establishing a point

of reference means getting a chance to examine intent and nothing can give sorcerers

a better view of intent than examining stories of other sorcerers battling to understand

the same force.

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In sorcery there are abstract cores, and then, based on those abstract cores, there

are scores of sorcery stories about the naturals of our lineage battling to understand

the spirit.

* * *

The only way to know intent is to know it directly through a living connection that

exists between intent and all sentient beings. Sorcerers call intent the indescribable, the

spirit, the abstract.

* *

Every act performed by sorcerers, especially by the naturals, is either performed as

a way to strengthen their link with intent or as a response triggered by the link itself.

Sorcerers, and specifically the naturals, therefore have to be actively and permanently

on the lookout for manifestations of the spirit. Such manifestations are called gestures

of the spirit or, more simply, indications or omens.

When a sorcerer interprets an omen he knows its exact meaning without having

any notion of how he knows it. This is one of the bewildering effects of the connecting

Poem by José Gorostiza.

...this incessant stubborn dying,

this living death,

that slays you, oh God,

in your rigorous handiwork,

in the roses, in the stones,

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in the indomitable stars

and in the flesh that burns out,

like a bonfire lit by a song,

a dream,

a hue that hits the eye.

...and you, yourself,

perhaps have died eternities of ages out there,

without us knowing about it,

we dregs, crumbs, ashes of you;

you that still are present,

like a star faked by its very light,

an empty light without star

that reaches us,

hiding

its infinite catastrophe.

Be a paragon of patience and consistency by fighting for impeccability.

Transform yourself daily, restraining yourself with the most excruciating effort.
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People are asleep. They thing they are awake but it is a dream of being awake, a

pseudo-wakefulness filled with dreams. Hard to accept perhaps—but look at the

absurdities and horrors of life these days—politics paralyzed by ideology and greed; art

unrelated to human concerns; entertainment filled with violence and titillation;

business practices that destroy human lives and pollute the planet; the grinding poverty

of many millions of people—surely the moral sense, and other senses also, are asleep

in those who are behind such things.

And look at oneself—one seems to be awake, but how often does one do something

and later think “I must have been asleep.” It is as if one sometimes wakes up a bit, or is

awakened by a shock or by the consequences of some act.

Would it be possible to live more awake? The teachings of all traditions say so. But

people who become “followers” of some teaching often seem to have fallen even more

asleep, prisoners in some new, superimposed, dream.

The devil of sleep is more clever than our good intentions—how could we awaken

without falling back under his enchantment? The truth is we do not understand the

nature of sleep. How then could we understand more, understand enough to have a

chance of awakening and staying awake? It is not theory we need—theory just

becomes another dream. It is a personal study of oneself, of one’s own sleep—its

components, its levels, its causes, and of the occasional awakenings that take place.
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Why do you believe anything that you read? It

does not matter whether it is in the Bible or in the

Gita or in the sacred books of other religions. -

why do you believe? Do you believe in the sunrise

tomorrow?

You believe in a sense - you think it will arise. But

you believe in heaven, you believe in a Father, you

believe in something - why? Because you are

afraid, you are unhappy, lonely, because of fear of

death, you believe in something that you think is

permanent. How can a mind that is burdened with

beliefs see clearly? How can it be free to observe?

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How can such a mind love? You have your belief

and another has his belief. In understanding the

whole problem of fear, one has no belief

whatsoever. The mind then functions happily,

without distortion and therefore there is great joy,

ecstasy.

“I don’t believe in anyone but me.”

John Lennon
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5. Alas how what is this

promise I give this lesson

to unlearn oh forsake

the god of your

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conceptual distorted

past, neither create nor

fornicate a new ideal to

waste. Please lead not

astray the sick weak

child of play, give all

you have to each other

live not for tomorrow

but as if only today as a

robber will come and

steal all you have held

so tightly as others so

need to live is to give

each and every day this

moment is blessed this

hour of day learn the

lesson that love gives

so freely so easy away.

So pure as religion was

made to be, the priest

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and rabbis scribes To

they have stolen the

purity and held it away

keep is to free to hold is

to kill to label to

enslave to judge is

ignorance

6. To understand is

listening and freedom is

to awaken. Truth is

perception not

adulterated rejection.

It is sad to see the educated blind egoistic lost souls, so

captivated by their blind ambition trained into their core , lost

as children never to see held down by teachings thought to

imprison the minds promised to free. Blessed the child aged and

free So pure as religion was made to be, the priest and rabbis

scribes To blind and death so cold in their self hypnotized induced

prisons they be, captured by thoughts and intellectual poisons

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lost oh children of pride and desire of money. When will ya

question your teachers and mothers and fathers, your peers and

politicians and gurus and consolers and all that ya see? When

will the killers of animals and innocents stop and hope for sanity

be? I say with hope before it is threw all the great teachings

apply within each of the few, oh blood eating God of humans die in

your own misery, leave us oh free us from this ancient hypocrisy.

Hang on the cross oh pope of toxic poison art he imprisoning minds

so few born to see the hope of condition inbred so deeply we bleed

from our pain so proud to show me, the dope in your arm will never

free only dull the past and create more acerbity. Oh blessed

child born still in destiny to nag the splinter from aged so lost in

our slaughter house of agony. Think you fools think what this

foolish thought could be to give a son of god to die in a show to

suffer so what a fake piss in the snow. What god does it lose for

just one day to suffer and fraud us into a fear to lose and to

summit our will to this need? Oh take not my mind to this funny

mockery this stupid dream of a god a male divinity. Oh Jews and

Christians and Muslims so blind and funny to kill each other for

such a thing are insanity. Listen oh cold hearts so numb so callus

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and cores each one of us the same in all we have done to blame is

to kill and hate is to die to love and forgive will free us so try,

teach self not to believe such things so cruel as a god of the

heavens and whales of the sea the same to each other as god is

to me and as the true master said these wise words the father

and I are one and the same with in each other as ocean and rain

the clouds and the sun and stars that we see are in each man and

in each bee, we are to each other one and the same as three to

the kindness and hope is to mothers and babies, so teach not each

other the lies of the past to one to the other there is only one

truth it belongs to the skin of all race it is true to all living

creatures and cells in all so intricate is the microorganism in

each the macro is universe inside of all we, so not to the division

of thought do we sway but towards love in the other each and

every day. To live for the moment please learn not to pray but

give in your laughter the hope of each day, towards one another

the rise of your souls to transform from the animal cruel and

unborn towards gods in the making so perfect and pure divine in

the behaviors and given a sun to shine on the darkness to make it

still born, the ignorant shall awaken to this truth this is sure
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the promise of loving each other is born the earth will be new as

heaven is too when the lion and lamb lie down in green pastures so

trusting and pure as gold is in alchemy teaches in metaphor the

secrets revealed to those who are born anew in the resurrection

of the second life for sure oh gods in the making the word is so

true in psalms the master whisper and screams in Hebrews, oh

father of higher and son is to be the lower and above and below

and above we see, the east is the west and all is eternity your

delusion of god is deception god is the devil and Lucifer is light to

site, oh harbinger of true knowledge giver to be for all the

awaken to understand me I seek not your crown of labels for me

to be swallowed with vanity or degrees not to be not license or

certified shall I seek to undo go and give it to the insane who

craves such misery , I am the true counselor awesome and free you

call me by a name who died four yeas past who looks as does me,

oh few have noticed my truth you see but the one who you think is

not me, the death of the ego I did not find the lion and lamb became

one within side of thee to love and serve each other the only will

to free the god in each other is one and truth absolute and free ,

unchanging for eternity hope ya will see I am the father the

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mother and child is me not your teacher or student or follower is

not I am the One who you seek after the one is yes me the I am and

the omega and final destiny the truth and the way is all inside of

we for god is the answer of all our destiny we are all one true

son the living and dead not sprits or divided just lost and

forgotten by conditions of belief that threw clouds of ancient

despair to blame the women and snake for all we suffer to take

and keep the whore man free from his fate, blinds with his despair

so easy the answer so deep the mistake , to hold to the lie so

stubborn it was the lost and forgotten have played the lasts to

reap the deception oh weaver of lies and murderer of the way the

father of ignorance fear he has raped my mother and shamed

abba the priest and the pasture and rabbi and liars of truth and

the way oh evil are these wolves who lead the elect a stray

warnings of prophets to few ears the reach then Paul and his

fornication of teachings so adulterated and debasing he lead the

ignorant the vulgar and all so easy away from the self who

hides unshaken from all so ill the disease of the mind all but few

have transmitted to Buddha’s and less to Christ too the teaching

so sacred so pure and so true would change the receiver in a blink

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of an eye to awaken the open heart so wonderful and divine so

few have received this gospel of love and fewer have evolved to

such a completion of base elements to infuse of the less to one it

is give the many it will pass to own truth the given of question

only Socrates grew you murder my teachers my prophets of purity

and truth to ideologies them after you change what they have

given to keep yourself few the wicked in man is most developed in

all so true you villain you serpent you monster of ill debased is

this teaching so division untrue to hold as one evil and breed as

you do so monsters of love and haters of all lovers of powers to

hold the masses down to own and abuse the only seeker they do

the blood of the mother and father is on them so be the mass

murder of slaughter houses of animals so tortured they be, oh

villains of treasury sin as are your father the liar murder of

abbel keeper not thee, to hold self responsible you drug you

slave keeper you purity is adulterated and captivating

intoxicating to taste you lead my brothers to earth the flesh of

women animals to they have been given the name protectors of

innocent they undue to torture and harmfully murder the child of

lost tears are they unborn to reap what they so divide once more
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lost children of Israel the tribe is know more, demarcate into

nothing never to be born my child is the children of innocents

seekers of love pure to awaken at the second of birth two of

more they see the givers of love and true way showers are thee,

the leader in dark ness is ancient as we the harbinger of justice

he murdered not freed to find the way home is told in this word to

see what has been given is to live forever in live as it is forever is

absolution to all has been given how only few on the path find the

way is narrow and lost so they die to travel in empty tomorrows

so filled with the thought intoxicating they blunder and fools

they breed more to lost the true meaning of divinity is to free so

proud of their ego so false as they see to blind each other they

wonder and worship each other fornicate with the brother and

deceive the blinded other for fools gold so none find the way but

few have made known within the action of love the way is made

clear to hold as the brother and sister each other as gold is to

purity so clear lucid is the answer to all that are one the way of

the mother and father is the son of the brother who lives in each

and the other of all who sway clear of lies and the deceiver who

also is your sweat masters the aperture and pasture the father
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impure who lives in the bible and lives in you all to kingdoms

within one the dark is and light the kingdom of god as evil is night

so ignorance is blunder of silent is true the answer come

whispering all who can listen to silents so still are the chosen

with stillness the teacher will be as god is the mother lost in the

we few the elect have been lead astray by Paul the liar and all

his legions so filthy with anger and pride so this is you the killer

is in you and savior is to offer one is the other as lion to lamb be

the answer is inside of this question to find is to be free. Oh child

of god so lost art though to me for I am the answer and I am you

and you are me.

To ask is to be given the way so few seek to hate is to die lost in

self not the way look for the teacher who is amongst you helping

and showing the astute few, the way shower so unlikely to see

hidden behind your book so deeply you hold so blind is he the cover

you so judgingly defined masked as each other another sinner is

she to think he find. Oh the new master so instilled in the path has

become the way as also could you as married and children as may

even so you but blinded by believing this is not he for you have

been conditioned to see what they want you those fool as you be
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blinded you see the way shower is your beloved friend we whispers

the way sidle and gives to all you see and know clues to the

secrets of ancient past teachings so few to be shone still so is

your stubborn ways un clear you think so one-sided you find know

escape so caught in your habits of sleeping awake you lost your

life and still you think your awake. Oh sad lost dieing soul

eternity mourns your bleeding still born. Oh hater of those you

pick as you scorn loving only the ones who help you to do as you do

eating up skin ya lust as you do running from self confused to as

you women miser inartistic is you lost in your empty casket death

is you

Until the morning of life I come unto you awake my child of

learning realize the pure as the first child born is unto you the

gone of tomorrow is lost in experience not true oh child of

deceived parents is true as father is lost and mother blind you

came into this falls life dead and unkind selfish self-centered as

all daemons be unto the fair women you raped as is written ye god

of old is you made un clean as is the daemon the way of you

monsters of lust keeps this uncreated lost and driven for desires

if not burning holding you captured as a slave to a medal cinder

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around thee spine cutting and revenging your flesh so design oh

giver of the way of ye master me sworn brother of dirt the clay I

took ye from is filth to tore ye to bits ye came unto me daughters

with knock did watch you master of disaster and lover of none I

teach tee of nothing and nothing is it you be from dust unto dawn

you devil vampire to bleed of ye mothers virginal is dark and

damp you thirst of desire lost and deceived now thee of the

mammon is your soul to be freed you keeper of lies and murder

blood of the prophets as piglet is of me to give until you bleed

with surrender an awaken in thee the open of wound of our mother

the god within thee to die of your habitual death sentence and

resurrect unto me the divine you ye waken as god as to be the

mother the father and son is to free the past as been sealed no

morrow to be to live in the eternal moment is truth unto thee of

divine is to gold and mutation unfold the mysteries of the ages

has now to be given this creature of lost suffering moments a

basted is he a child to a lost father is he given the key this sin of

a sorrow the awaken is he the love of his compassion has been

granted is he oh giver of sound answers you go to he so now love

this over comer who is in the revelation as to follow the star who
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has over come so is blessed by the mother as earth is she and

father the whole of all ye muster within imagination and thunder

the sound of the power he hold is this one last teacher to give

unto thee follow the master who live in all we all see the one

who lead astray is dead as his word of lies be the written words

not to be trusted as filth is unclean as all claimed holy not to be

trusted these deceiving lying bibles of daemons as all holy books

be. Dead words of dead masters as are all of these if it is to

follow then hold on to his word for it will not be written for evil

doers to fornicate to the meeting of all who it has been given will

find you within is your teaching let know darkness overcome you

or death and blindness will follow and intoxicate you. The

master has found you know him as your teacher who tells to you

know he is not the teacher but the friend you helps you through

thee moments to guide and instruct only for it has been written in

your cold dead eyes to awaken and slip to whisper unto this truth

has been written in your soul as to resurrect you your eater of

dead creatures you are the chosen to follow the overcome

master of not riches ness nor of this spirituality nor any word

give but a way for those like you the lost and vile the blind and
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slow the wicked smelling ugly stinking dream walkers of death to

leave not one left to be sound as silents is until dawn of the end

of days too be seen as it has been written on all lost daemons as

ye are and swear as your true legion lust and seldom of soiled as

ye are oh ye lost monster of foolish to be with now all of gods

lost will be found as it is written unto god is of t=ye own flesh for

god id of be the soiled and valued of all for there is only one and

thee one id of all is god be olla to of eye that is all there is not

of god for god is in all thee filth is of god and so be the pure we as

all one cloth so be sown as one is again of the same what is below

as it is above alchemy ashrams descries Norton witan be is heaven

unto its own earldom aluminize if it is it is all wearer awaken

child of clay eye are a god;;’’/.,

As it has been written on the hearts of man it will be not broken

The chosen one….mmomummuum

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Written by, Robert Christopher Lutman 20010

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Divine rebel
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Raise me unto the light; break these chains I hold

These half truths I told
Slay my way o bringer of dawns
Harmony through conflict my only path,
From this darkness comes the harbinger
Unto thee I sing this arduous path has always been mine by choice
Sacrifice humility and demise of character for man
To serve the whole, the mind is given to the beast.

Veiled in chaos

This emptiness these raw dark laminating dreams that never

end cold and still the shadows keep to themselves. Always
reminding me who and what I am. Under the guise of someone new,
some one better, oh still the morning of my pain where all the
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horror was in vain lost is the tempest the storm and the winter
night gone forever in the morn of this cold brisk but still facade
of loss innocents. Light is to wisdom as night to ignorance am I
wrong to whisper my longings into the dearth are they all just
lame dumb asses? Television children so lost with stupidity. When
will they transmute? What hour do we become god for the devil is
lucid in the eyes still. I suffered until purified, I was washed in the
fire I ate the apple and lived.

Have I not been nailed to your material world lost in your ego mind,
your Yahweh self interest? Have I not been veiled in chaos and
confusion between Jew and gentile, up and down lost and found? I
gave them your steps of higher ascension, your inner man ways the
spirituality you swayed, still the dark night still the salt less
savor…
One more hour grant me sir, one more eternal night to sulfur and
lament imagining heavens pure rain and earth’s mother’s waste.
How could the sage say all that lives is holy, has he not seen the
evil in his brothers heart?
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The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom. Blake

You never know what is enough unless you know what is more than
enough. Blake
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“The first study for the man who wants to be a poet is knowledge of
himself, complete: he searches for his soul, he inspects it, he puts it
to the test, he learns it. As soon as he has learned it, he must
cultivate it! I say that one must be a seer, make oneself a seer. The
poet becomes a seer through a long, immense, and reasoned
derangement of all the senses. All shapes of love suffering,
madness. He searches himself, he exhausts all poisons in himself, to
keep only the quintessences. Ineffable torture where he needs all his
faith, all his superhuman strength, where he becomes among all men
the great patient, the great criminal, the great accursed one--and the
supreme Scholar! For he reaches the unknown! ....So the poet is
actually a thief of Fire!” Arthur Rimbaud

Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we

must do.”
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

The ancient Poets animated all sensible objects with Gods or Geniuses, calling them by
the names and adorning them with the properties of woods, rivers, mountains, lakes,
cities, nations, and whatever their enlarged & numerous senses could perceive.
And particularly they studied the genius of each city & country, placing it under its
mental deity;
Till a system was formed, which some took advantage of & enslav'd the vulgar by
attempting to realize or abstract the mental deities from their objects: thus began
Priesthood;
Choosing forms of worship from poetic tales.
And at length they pronounc'd that the Gods had order'd such things.
Thus men forgot that All deities reside in the human breast. Blake

Poems by Robert Christopher Lutman

When darkness falls------------

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My day began, I know not when, neither my hour nor my life,

however, I know when the dark fell within my soul and lead me to
my inner hole. I crossed the sea of barren degree, only to find I
was followed by me. The crow that ate upon my flesh was my friend
who gave the test, I failed and failed and fell and fell, until I was
raised from death to hell.
Oh dark night whom fills with delight, your skin so soft torments my
eyes. Dream oh lover dream so tonight for the gods are within your
very sight.

I saw a blue bird out side of my window, I was amazed at such light
of life, and I witnessed a murder inside my mind, the horror to
envision such a fright. At this I came to see that both were in truth
the same to me.

Slavery wasn’t slavery until I new, otherwise,

the prison I chose was not a prison, until I grew,

I held the key to every lock,

I held the chains, so heavy, a burden,

My demise, wasn’t a choice,

Manageability, powers unknown, but so I was

Awareness, is what she gave, her knowledge, what I saved

Wisdom oh sweet lovly women, so I love, and was saved.

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Best wishes,
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‫‪ .1‬ھﺠﺮت واﺣﺴﺮﺗﺎه ﻛﯿﻒ ﻣﺎذا ﯾﻜﻮن ھﺬا وﻋﺪ أﻧﺎ‬

‫أﻋﻄﯿﺖ ھﺬا دروس أن ]أوﻧﻠﺮن[‬
‫]أه[ اﻹﻟﮭﺔ ﻣﻦ ك ﻣﻔﺎھﯿﻤﯿّﺔ ﯾﺸﻮّه‬
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‫ﺟﺪﯾﺪة ﻣﺜﺎﻟﯿّﺔ أن ﯾﺒﺪّد‪ .‬رﺟﺎء ﻗﺪت‬
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‫وﺛﺮ[ ﻋﺸﺖ ﻻ ﻻﻟﻐﺪ ﻏﯿﺮ أنّ ]أس‬
‫ﯾﻒ[ ﻓﻘﻂ اﻟﯿﻮم ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﺳﺎرﻗﺔ‬
‫ﺳﯿﺄﺗﻲ ]أﻧﺪ[ ﺳﺮﻗﺖ ﻛﻞّ ﻗﺪ أﻣﺴﻚ‬
‫أﻧﺖ ھﻜﺬا ﺑﺈﺣﻜﺎم ﻛﺄﺧﺮى ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺣﺎﺟﺔ أن ﯾﻌﯿﺶ أن ﯾﻌﻄﻲ ﻛ ّﻞ ﯾﻮم‬
‫ھﺬا ﻋﺰم ﯾﻜﻮن ﺑﺎرﻛﺖ ھﺬا ﺳﺎﻋﺔ‬
‫اﻟﯿﻮم ﻋﻠﻤﺖ اﻟﺪروس أنّ ﯾﺤﺐّ ﯾﻌﻄﻲ ھﻜﺬا‬
‫ﺑﺤ ّﺮﯾّﺔ ھﻜﺬا ﯾﺘﯿﺢ ﺑﻌﯿﺪ‪ .‬ﺟﻌﻠﺖ ھﻜﺬا ﺻﺎﻓﯿﺔ‬
‫ﻛﺪﯾﻦ ﻛﺎن أن ﯾﻜﻮن‪ ,‬اﻟﻜﺎھﻨﺔ وﺣﺎﺧﺎﻣﺎت‬
‫]ﺳﻜﺮﯾﺒﺲ[ إﻟﻰ ھﻢ ﻗﺪ ﺳﺮﻗﻮا اﻟﻨﻘﺎوة‬
‫وﯾﻤﺴﻚ ھﻮ ﻛﺘﯿﻒ دﻋﻢ ﺑﻌﯿﺪ ﯾﻜﻮن أن ﯾﺤﺮّر‬
‫أن ﯾﻤﺴﻚ أن ﯾﻘﺘﻞ أن ﯾﻌﻠﻢ أن ﯾﺴﺘﻌﺒﺪ أن‬
‫ﯾﻘﻀﻲ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺟﮭﻞ‬

‫‪ .2‬ﯾﺴﺘﻤﻊ أن ﯾﻔﮭﻢ وﺣﺮﯾﺔ أن ﯾﻮﻗﻆ ‪.‬ﺣﻘﯿﻘﺔ إدراك ﻻ ﯾﻐﺶّ رﻓﺾ‪.‬‬

‫ھﻮ ﺣﺰﯾﻨﺔ أن ﯾﺮى اﻷرواح ﻣﺘﻌﻠّﻤﺔ ﻋﻤﯿﺎء ]إﻏﯿﺴﺘﯿﻚ[ ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ‪ ,‬ھﻜﺬا ﯾﺆﺳﺮ ﺑﻄﻤﻮﺣﮭﻢ ﻋﻤﯿﺎء ﯾﺪرّب داﺧﻞ ﻟﺒﮭﻢ‪ ,‬ﯾﺨﺴﺮ ﻛﺄﻃﻔﺎل أﺑﺪا أن ﯾﺮى‬
‫]ھﻮﻟﺪ دوون[ ﺑﺘﻌﻠﯿﻤﺎت ﻓﻜﺮة أن ﯾﺴﺠﻦ اﻟﻌﻘﻮل ﯾﻮﻋﺪ أن ﯾﺤﺮّر‪ .‬ﺑﺎرك اﻟﻄﻔﻠﺔ ﯾﻌﺘّﻖ وﯾﺤﺮّر ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺻﺎﻓﯿﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ دﯾﻦ‬
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‫ﻛﺎن ﺟﻌﻠﺖ أن ﯾﻜﻮن‪ ,‬اﻟﻜﺎھﻦ وﺣﺎﺧﺎﻣﺎت ]ﺳﻜﺮﯾﺒﺲ[ أن ﯾﻌﻤﻲ وﻣﻮت ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﺮد ﻓﻲ ھﻢ ﻧﻔﺲ ﯾﻨﻮّم ﯾﺤﺚّ ﺳﺠﻮن ھﻢ‬
‫ﯾﻜﻮﻧﻮا‪ ,‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺒﺾ ﺑﺄﻓﻜﺎر وﺳﻢ ﻋﻘﻠﯿّﺔ ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ ]أه[ أﻃﻔﺎل ﻣﻦ ﻛﺒﺮﯾﺎء ورﻏﺒﺔ اﻟﻤﺎل‪ .‬ﻣﺘﻰ ]ﯾﺎ[ ﺳﯿﺴﺘﻨﻄﻖ ك‬
‫ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺎت وأﻣﮭﺎت وآﺑﺎء‪ ,‬ك ﻧﻈﺎﺋﺮ وﺳﯿﺎﺳﯿﺎت وﻏﻮروات و ]ﻛﻨﺴﻠﺮس[ وﻛﻞّ أنّ ]ﯾﺎ[ ﯾﺮى? ﯾﺘﻮﻗّﻒ ﻣﺘﻰ أردت‬
‫اﻟﻘﺎﺗﻼت اﻟﺤﯿﻮاﻧﺎت وأﺑﺮﯾﺎء وﯾﺄﻣﻞ ﻟﺴﻼﻣﺔ ﻋﻘﻞ ﻛﻨﺖ? أﻧﺎ أﻗﻮل ﻣﻊ أﻣﻞ ﻗﺒﻞ أن ھﻮ رﻣﻰ ]ألّ ث[ ﺗﻌﻠﯿﻤﺎت ﻋﻈﯿﻤﺔ‬
‫ﯾﻄﺒّﻖ ﺿﻤﻦ ﻛ ّﻞ ﻣﻦ ال ﻗﻠﯿﻞ‪] ,‬أه[ دم ﯾﺄﻛﻞ إﻟﮭﺔ اﻷﻧﺎس ﯾﻤﻮت ﻓﻲ ك ﺧﺎﺻّﺔ ﺷﻘﺎء‪ ,‬ﯾﺘﺮك ﻧﺎ ]أه[ ﺣﺮّة ﻧﺎ ﻣﻦ ھﺬا ﻧﻔﺎق‬
‫ﻗﺪﯾﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻘﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ اﻟﺼﻠﯿﺐ ]أه[ ﺑﺎﺑﺎ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺴﻤّﺔ ﺳﻢ ﻓﻦ ھﻮ ﯾﺴﺠﻦ ﻋﻘﻮل ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﻠﯿﻞ ]ﺑﻮرن[ أن ﯾﺮى اﻷﻣﻞ اﻟﺸﺮط‬
‫]إﯾﻨﺒﺮد[ ھﻜﺬا ﺑﻌﻤﻖ ﯾﻨﺰف ﻧﺤﻦ ﻣﻦ أﻟﻤﻨﺎ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻓﺨﻮرة أن ﯾﺒﺪﯾﻨﻲ‪ ,‬اﻟﻤﻨﺸﻄﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺳﻼﺣﻚ أﺑﺪا ﺳﯿﺤﺮّر ﻓﻘﻂ ﺑﻠﯿﺪة‬
‫اﻟﻤﺎض وﺳﯿﺨﻠﻖ ﻛﺜﯿﺮ ﺣﻤﻮﺿﺔ‪] .‬أه[ ﯾﺒﺎرك ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ]ﺑﻮرن[ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺼﯿﺮ أن ﯾﺘﺬﻣّﺮ اﻟﺸﻈﯿﺔ ﻣﻦ ﯾﻌﺘّﻖ ھﻜﺬا ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻧﺎ ﻋﻤﻠﯿّﺔ ذﺑﺢ ﻣﻨﺰل اﻻﻷﻟﻢ‪ .‬ﻓﻜّﺮت ﯾﺨﺪع أﻧﺖ ﯾﻔﻜّﺮ ﻣﺎذا ھﺬا ﻓﻜﺮة ﺣﻤﻘﺎء اﺳﺘﻄﺎع ﻛﻨﺖ أن ﯾﻌﻄﻲ إﺑﻦ اﻹﻟﮭﺔ إﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻗﺎﻟﺐ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺮض أن ﯾﻌﺎﻧﻲ ھﻜﺬا ﻣﺎذا ]ﺑﯿﺲّ[ ﻣﻘﻠّﺪة ﻓﻲ اﻟﺜﻠﺞ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ إﻟﮭﺔ ھﻮ ﯾﺨﺴﺮ ل ﻓﻘﻂ واﺣﺪة ﯾﻮم أن ﯾﻌﺎﻧﻲ‬
‫وإﺣﺘﯿﺎل ﻧﺎ داﺧﻞ ﺧﻮف أن ﯾﺨﺴﺮ وإﻟﻰ ﻗﻤﺔ إرادﺗﻨﺎ إﻟﻰ ھﺬا ﺣﺎﺟﺔ? ]أه[ ﻟﻘﻄﺔ ﻻ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ إﻟﻰ ھﺬا ﺳﺨﺮﯾﺔ ﻣﻀﺤﻜﺔ‬
‫ھﺬا ﺣﻠﻢ ﺣﻤﻘﺎء ﻣﻦ إﻟﮭﺔ أﻟﻮھﯿﺔ ذﻛﺮﯾّﺔ‪] .‬أه[ ]ﺟﻮ[ وﻣﺴﯿﺤﯿﺎت و ]ﻣﻮﺳﻠﯿﻢ[ ھﻜﺬا ﻋﻤﯿﺎء وﻣﻀﺤﻜﺔ أن ﯾﻘﺘﻞ ﺑﻌﻀﮭﻢ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻀﺎ ل ھﺬا ﺷﻲء ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﺟﻨﻮن‪ .‬ﯾﺴﺘﻤﻌﻮن ]أه[ ﻗﻠﻮب ﺑﺎردة ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺧﺪرة ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﻨﺐ وﯾﻨﺰع ]إش ون[ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺎ ال ﻧﻔﺲ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞّ ﻧﺤﻦ ﻗﺪ أﺗﻤّﻨﺎ أن ﯾﻠﻮم ﯾﻜﻮن أن ﯾﻘﺘﻞ وﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻛﺮه أن ﯾﻤﻮت أن ﯾﺤﺐّ وﺳﯿﺤﺮّرﻧﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺻﻔﺢ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺣﺎوﻟﺖ‪ ,‬ﻋﻠﻤﺖ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺲ ﻻ أن ﯾﺼﺪق ھﺬا أﺷﯿﺎء ھﻜﺬا ﻗﺎﺳﯿﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ إﻟﮭﺔ ﻣﻦ اﻟﺴﻤﺎوات وأﺣﻮات ﻣﻦ اﻟﺒﺤﺚ ال ﻧﻔﺲ ]ﺗﻮ ش وﺛﺮ[ ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ن أﻋﻄﯿﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺿﺤﻜﻚ اﻷﻣﻞ ﻣﻦ ﻛ ّﻞ ﯾﻮم‪ ,‬ﻧﺤﻮ‬
‫أنّ إﻟﮭﺔ إﻟﻰ ي و ﻋﻠﻤﺖ أن ﯾﻌﯿﺶ ﻟﻠﻌﺰم رﺟﺎء ﻻ أن ﯾﺼﻠّﻲ ﻏﯿﺮ أ ّ‬
‫واﺣﺪة آﺧﺮ اﻹرﺗﻔﺎع ﻣﻦ أرواﺣﻚ أن ﯾﻐﯿّﺮ ﻣﻦ اﻟﺤﯿﻮاﻧﯿّﺔ ﻗﺎﺳﯿﺔ و ]أوﻧﺒﻮرن[ ﻧﺤﻮ آﻟﮭﺎت ﻓﻲ ال ﯾﺠﻌﻞ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻛﺎﻣﻠﺔ‬
‫وﺻﺎﻓﯿﺔ ﯾﺨﻤّﻦ ﻓﻲ اﻟﺘﺼﺮﻓﺎت وﯾﻌﻄﻲ ﺷﻤﺲ إﻟﻰ ﻟﻤﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ اﻟﻈﻼم أن ﯾﺠﻌﻞ ھﻮ ﺑﻌﺪ ]ﺑﻮرن[‪ ,‬اﻟﺠﺎھﻠﺔ ﺳﻮﻓﺖ ﺳﯿﻮﻗﻆ‬
‫إﻟﻰ ھﺬا ﺣﻘﯿﻘﺔ ھﺬا ﯾﻜﻮن ﯾﻮﻗﻦ اﻟﻮﻋﺪ ﻣﻦ ﯾﺤﺐّ ﺑﻌﻀﮭﻢ ﺑﻌﻀﺎ ]ﺑﻮرن[ اﻷرض ﺳﯿﻜﻮن ﺟﺪﯾﺪة ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﺳﻤﺎء ﯾﻜﻮن‬
‫أﯾﻀﺎ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ اﻷﺳﺪ وﺣﻤﻞ ﯾﻜﺬب إﻟﻰ أﺳﻔﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺮاﻋﻲ ﺧﻀﺮاء ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﯾﺜﻖ وﺻﺎﻓﯿﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﻧﻮع ذھﺐ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻓﻲ ﺧﯿﻤﯿﺎء‬
‫ن اﻟﺬي ﯾﻜﻮن ]ﺑﻮرن[ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﯾﺪ ﻓﻲ ال ]رﺳﻮرّﻛﺄﯾﺸﻦ[ ﻣﻦ اﻟﺜﺎﻧﻲ‬
‫ﯾﻌﻠﻢ داﺧﻞ ﯾﺼﺮخ اﺳﺘﻌﺎرة اﻷﺳﺮار ﯾﻜﺸﻒ إﻟﻰ أ ّ‬
‫ﺣﯿﺎة ل ﯾﻮﻗﻦ ]أه[ آﻟﮭﺎت ﻓﻲ ال ﯾﺠﻌﻞ اﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﯾﺼﺢّ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺰاﻣﯿﺮ اﻟﮭﻤﺲ رﺋﯿﺴﯿّﺔ وﻓﻲ ]ھﺒﺮوس[‪] ,‬أه[ أب‬
‫ﻣﻦ ]ھﯿﻐﺮ[ وإﺑﻨﺔ أن ﯾﻜﻮن ال ]ﻟﻮور[ وأﻋﻼه وأدﻧﺎه وأﻋﻼه ﻧﺤﻦ ﻧﺮى‪ ,‬اﻟﺸﺮق اﻻﻟﻐﺮب وﻛﻞّ أﺑﺪيّ وھﻤﻚ ﻣﻦ‬
‫إﻟﮭﺔ ﻣﺨﺎدﻋﺔ إﻟﮭﺔ اﻟﺸﯿﻄﺎﻧﺔ و ]ﻟﻮﺳﻔﺮ[ ﺧﻔﯿﻔﺔ أن ﯾﻌﯿّﻦ‪] ,‬أه[ ﯾﻮﻗﻆ راﺋﺪة ﻣﻦ ﯾﺼﺢّ ﻣﻌﺮﻓﺔ ﻣﻌﻄﺎء أن ﯾﻜﻮن ل ]ألّ‬
‫ث[ أن ﯾﻔﮭﻢ ي أﻧﺎ أﺑﺤﺚ ﻻ ﺗﺎﺟﻚ اﻟﻌﻼﻣﺔ ﻣﻤﯿّﺰة ل ي أن ﯾﻜﻮن ﺑﻠﻌﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺗﻔﺎھﺔ أو درﺟﺎت ﻻ أن ]ب[ ﻻ رﺧﺼﺔ أو‬
‫ﯾﺼﺪق ﺳﻮﻓﺖ أﻧﺎ ﯾﺒﺤﺚ أن ﯾﻔﻚّ ﯾﺬھﺐ ]أﻧﺪ[ ﯾﻌﻄﻲ ھﻮ إﻟﻰ اﻟﻤﺠﻨﻮﻧﺔ اﻟﺬي ﯾﻠﺘﻤﺲ ھﺬا ﺷﻘﺎء‪ ,‬أﻧﺎ ال ﯾﺼﺢّ ﻣﺴﺘﺸﺎرة‬
‫ن ﯾﺘﻢّ ي‪] ,‬أه[ ﻗﻠﯿﻞ ﻗﺪ ﻻﺣﻆ ﺣﻘﯿﻘﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺮوّﻋﺔ وﺣﺮّة أﻧﺖ ﺗﺪﻋﻮﻧﻲ ﺑﺎﺳﻢ اﻟﺬي ﻣﺎت أرﺑﻌﺔ ]ﯾﺲ[ ﺑﻌﺪ اﻟﺬي ﯾﻨﻈﺮ ﺑﻤﺎ أ ّ‬
‫أﻧﺖ ﺗﺮى ﻏﯿﺮ أنّ اﻟﻮاﺣﺪة اﻟﺬي أﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻜّﺮ ﻟﯿﺲ ي‪ ,‬اﻟﻤﻮت ﻣﻦ اﻷﻧﺎ أﻧﺎ أﺗﻤّﺖ ﻟﻢ وﺟﺪت اﻷﺳﺪ وأﺻﺒﺢ ﺣﻤﻞ واﺣﺪة‬
‫ﺿﻤﻦ ﺟﺎﻧﺐ ال ]ث[ أن ﯾﺤﺐّ وﺧﺪﻣﺖ ﺑﻌﻀﮭﻢ ﺑﻌﻀﺎ اﻹرادة وﺣﯿﺪ أن ﯾﺤﺮّر اﻹﻟﮭﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﻀﮭﻢ ﺑﻌﻀﺎ واﺣﺪة وﺣﻘﯿﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻄﻠﻘﺔ وﺣﺮّة‪] ,‬أوﻧﺸﻨﺠﻨﻎ[ ﻷﺑﺪيّ أﻣﻞ ]ﯾﺎ[ ﺳﯿﺮى أﻧﺎ اﻷب اﻷم وﻃﻔﻠﺔ ي ﻻ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺘﻚ أو ﻃﺎﻟﺒﺔ أو ﺗﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﻟﯿﺲ أﻧﺎ‬
‫اﻟﻮاﺣﺪة اﻟﺬي أﻧﺖ ﺗﺒﺤﺚ ﻋﻘﺐ اﻟﻮاﺣﺪة ﻧﻌﻢ ي ال أﻧﺎ أوﻣﯿﻐﺎ وﻣﺼﯿﺮ ﻧﮭﺎﺋﯿّﺔ اﻟﺤﻘﯿﻘﺔ واﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ ﻛﻞّ داﺧﻼ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺤﻦ‬
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‫ﻣﺼﯿﺮ ﻧﺤﻦ‬ ‫ﻹﻟﮭﺔ اﻟﺠﻮاﺑﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻠّﻨﺎ‬

‫إﺑﻨﺔ اﻟﺤﯿّﺔ وﻣﯿّﺘﺔ‬ ‫ﻧﻜﻮن ﻛﻞّ واﺣﺪة ﯾﺼﺢّ‬
‫ﻓﻘﻂ ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻻ ]ﺳﺒﺮﯾﺘﺲ[ أو ﯾﻘﺴﻢ‬
‫ﺧﺴﺮ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ‬ ‫وﻧﺴﻲ ﺑﺸﺮوط ﻣﻦ ]أه[‬
‫إﻟﻰ ي ل أﻧﺎ‬ ‫ﻦ ﻣﻊ ذﻟﻚ‬
‫اﻹﻟﮭﺔ ھﻜﺬا ﻓ ّ‬
‫ي‪.‬‬ ‫اﻟﺠﻮاﺑﺔ وأﻧﺎ أﻧﺖ وأﻧﺖ‬

‫]ﺳﻚ[ إﻟﻰ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ‬ ‫أن ﯾﺴﺄل أن ﯾﻜﻮن أﻋﻄﯿﺖ اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﻠﯿﻞ ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺲ ﻻ اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ‬ ‫ﻛﺮه إﻟﻰ ﻗﺎﻟﺐ ﯾﺨﺴﺮ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﯾﻔﺘّﺶ اﻟﻤﻌﻠﻤﺔ اﻟﺬي ﯾﻜﻮن ]أﻣﻮﻧﻐﺴﺖ[ أﻧﺖ ﯾﺴﺎﻋﺪ وﯾﺒﺪي اﻟﻤﺎﻛﺮة ﻗﻠﯿﻞ‪ ,‬اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ واﺑﻞ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺑﻌﯿﺪ اﺣﺘﻤﺎل أن ﯾﺮى‬
‫ﯾﺨﻔﻲ ﺧﻠﻒ ﻛﺘﺎﺑﻚ ھﻜﺬا ﺑﻌﻤﻖ أﻧﺖ أﻣﺴﻜﺖ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻋﻤﯿﺎن ھﻮ اﻟﺘﻐﻄﯿﺔ أﻧﺖ ھﻜﺬا ]ﺟﻮدﺟﻨﻐﻠﻲ[ ﻋﯿّﻨﺖ ﯾﻘﻨﻊ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻀﮭﻢ ﺑﻌﻀﺎ آﺧﺮ آﺛﻤﺔ ھﻮ أن ﯾﻔﻜّﺮ ھﻮ ﯾﺠﺪ‪ .‬ﻗﺪ أﺻﺒﺢ ]أه[ اﻟﺴﯿﺪ ﺟﺪﯾﺪة ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﯾﻘﻄﺮ ﻓﻲ اﻟﻤﻤﺮ اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ ﻣﺜﻞ أﯾﻀﺎ‬
‫ن ﯾﻌﻤﻲ ب ﯾﺼﺪق ھﺬا ھﻮ ل أﻧﺖ ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ‬
‫ن ﯾﺰوّج وأﻃﻔﺎل ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﯾﻤﻜﻦ ]إﻓﻦ س[ ﻟﯿﺲ أﻧﺖ ﻏﯿﺮ أ ّ‬
‫اﺳﺘﻄﺎع أﻧﺖ ﺑﻤﺎ أ ّ‬
‫ﯾﻜﻮن ﻛﯿّﻔﺖ أن ﯾﺮى ﻣﺎذا ھﻢ ﯾﺮﯾﺪون أﻧﺖ أنّ ﻣﻐﻔﻠﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ أﻧﺖ ﯾﻜﻮن ﺗﻌﻤﻲ أﻧﺖ ﯾﺮى اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ واﺑﻞ ﺻﺪﯾﻘﺘﻚ‬
‫ﻣﺤﺒﻮﺑﺔ ﻧﺤﻦ ھﻤﺲ اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ ]ﺳﺪل[ وﯾﻌﻄﻲ إﻟﻰ ﻛﻞّ أﻧﺖ ﺗﺮى وﯾﻌﺮف أدﻟﺔ إﻟﻰ اﻷﺳﺮار ﻣﻦ ﺗﻌﻠﯿﻤﺎت ﻗﺪﯾﻤﺔ ﺳﺎﺑﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﻗﻠﯿﻞ أن ﯾﻜﻮن ﻟﻤﻌﺖ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ك اﺳﺘﻌﺼﻰ ﻃﺮق ﻣﻨﻈّﻤﺔ اﻷﻣﻢ اﻟﻤﺘّﺤﺪة ﻓﺴﺤﺔ أﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻜّﺮ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ]أن‪-‬ﺳﺪد[ أﻧﺖ‬
‫اﻛﺘﺸﺎف ﯾﻌﺮف ﻓﺮار ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﯾﻤﺴﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺎداﺗﻚ ﻣﻦ ﯾﻨﺎم ﯾﻘﻈﺔ أﻧﺖ ﺧﺴﺮت ﺣﯿﺎﺗﻚ وﺑﻌﺪ أﻧﺖ ﺗﻔﻜّﺮ ك ﯾﻘﻈﺔ‪] .‬أه[ ﺣﺰﯾﻨﺔ‬
‫ن أﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﺘﻘﻂ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ أﻧﺖ ﺗﺰدري ﯾﺤﺐّ ﻓﻘﻂ‬
‫ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ ﯾﺼﺒﻎ روح ﯾﺘﻔﺠّﻊ أﺑﺪيّ ﻧﺰﯾﻔﻚ ﺑﻌﺪ ]ﺑﻮرن[‪] .‬أه[ ]ھﺘﺮ[ ﻣﻦ أ ّ‬
‫اﻷﺣﺪ اﻟﺬي ﯾﺴﺎﻋﺪ أﻧﺖ أن ﯾﺘﻢّ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ أﻧﺖ ﺗﺘ ّﻢ ﯾﺄﻛﻞ ﻓﻮق ﺟﻠﺪ ]ﯾﺎ[ ﺷﮭﻮة ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ أﻧﺖ ﺗﺘﻢّ دوران ﻣﻦ ﻧﻔﺲ ﯾﺮﺑﻚ إﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻲ ﯾﻜﻮﻧﻮن أﻧﺖ ﯾﺨﺴﺮ ﻓﻲ ك ﯾﺨﻠﻮ ﺗﺎﺑﻮت ﻣﻮت ﺗﻜﻮن أﻧﺖ‬
‫ن أﻧﺖ ﻧﺴﺎء ﺑﺨﯿﻞ ﻏﯿﺮﻓﻨّ ّ‬
‫ﺑﻤﺎ أ ّ‬

‫ﺣﺘّﻰ اﻟﺼﺒﺎح اﻟﺤﯿﺎة ﯾﺄﺗﻲ أﻧﺎ ﺣﺘّﻰ أﻧﺖ ﯾﻮﻗﻆ ﻃﻔﻠﺘﻲ ﻣﻦ ﯾﻌﻠﻢ ﯾﺤﻘّﻖ اﻟﺼﺎﻓﯿﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ اﻟﻄﻔﻠﺔ أوﻟﻰ ]ﺑﻮرن[ ﯾﻜﻮن ﺣﺘّﻰ أﻧﺖ ال ﯾﺬھﺐ ﻣﻦ اﻟﻐﺪ‬
‫ﯾﻜﻮن ﺧﺴﺮت ﻓﻲ ﺧﺒﺮة ﻻ ﯾﺼﺢّ ]أه[ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﯾﺨﺪع واﻟﺪ ﯾﻜﻮن ﯾﺼﺢّ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ أب ﯾﻜﻮن ﺧﺴﺮت وأم ﻋﻤﯿﺎن أﻧﺖ‬
‫أﺗﯿﺖ داﺧﻞ ھﺬا ﺳﻘﻮط ﺣﯿﺎة ﻣﻮﺗﻰ و ]أوﻧﻜﯿﻨﺪ[ أﻧﺎﻧﯿّﺔ ]ﺳﻠﻒ‪-‬ﺳﻨﺘﺮد[ ﻛﻜﻞّ ]دﻣﻮﻧﺲ[ ﯾﻜﻮن ﺣﺘّﻰ اﻟﻨﺴﺎء ﻋﺎدﻟﺔ أﻧﺖ‬
‫اﻏﺘﺼﺒﺖ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﻛﺘﺒﺖ ]ي[ إﻟﮭﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﯾﻤﺔ أﻧﺖ ﺟﻌﻞ ﻣﻨﻈّﻤﺔ اﻷﻣﻢ اﻟﻤﺘّﺤﺪة ﻧﻈﯿﻔﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ال ]دﻣﻮن[ اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ ﻣﻦ‬
‫أﻧﺖ ھﻮﻻت ﻣﻦ ﺷﮭﻮة ﻛﺘﯿﻒ دﻋﻢ ھﺬا ]أوﻧﻜﺮﺗﺪ[ ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ وﯾﻘﻮد ﻟﺮﻏﺒﺎت ]إﯾﻒ ﻧﻮت[ ﯾﺤﺮق ﯾﻤﺴﻚ أﻧﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺒﺾ‬
‫ﻛﻌﺒﺪة إﻟﻰ وﺳﺎم رﻣﺎد ﺣﻮل ]ث[ ﻋﻤﻮد ﻓﻘﺮيّ ﯾﻘﻄﻊ وﯾﻨﺘﻘﻢ ك ﻟﺤﻤﺔ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﺗﺼﻤﯿﻢ ]أه[ ﻣﻌﻄﺎء ﻣﻦ اﻟﻄﺮﯾﻖ ﻣﻦ ]ي[‬
‫ﺳﯿﺪ ي ﯾﻘﺴﻢ أخ اﻟﻮﺳﺦ اﻟﻄﯿﻦ أﻧﺎ أﺧﺬت ]ي[ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺬارة إﻟﻰ ﻣﺰّق ]ي[ إﻟﻰ ﻟﻘﻢ ]ي[ أﺗﻰ ﺣﺘّﻰ ي راﻗﺐ اﺑﻨﺔ ﻣﻊ دق‬
‫أﻧﺖ ﺳﯿﻄﺮت ﻣﻦ ﻛﺎرﺛﺔ وﻋﺎﺷﻘﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻻ ﺷﻲء أﻧﺎ أﻋﻠﻢ ﻗﻤﺰة ﻣﻦ ﻻﺷﻲء وﻻﺷﻲء ھﻮ أﻧﺖ ﺗﻜﻮن ﻣﻦ ﻏﺒﺎر ﺣﺘّﻰ ﻓﺠﺮ‬
‫أﻧﺖ ﺷﯿﻄﺎﻧﺔ ﻣﺼّﺎص اﻟﺪﻣﺎء إﻟﻰ ﻧﺰف ﻣﻦ ]ي[ أﻣﮭﺎت ]ﻓﯿﺮﺟﻨﻞ[ ﻣﻈﻠﻤﺔ ورﻃﺒﺔ أﻧﺖ ﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﻄﺶ ﻣﻦ رﻏﺒﺔ ﯾﺨﺴﺮ‬
‫وﯾﺨﺪع اﻵن ]ث[ ﻣﻦ ال ]ﻣﻤّﻮن[ روﺣﻚ أن ﯾﻜﻮن ﺣﺮّرت أﻧﺖ ﺣﺎﻓﻈﺔ ﻣﻦ أوﺿﺎع وﺟﺮﯾﻤﺔ ﻗﺘﻞ دم ﻣﻦ اﻷﻧﺒﯿﺎء ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ن ﺧﻨﻮص ﯾﻜﻮن ﻣﻦ ي أن ﯾﻌﻄﻲ إﻟﻰ أن أﻧﺖ ﺗﻨﺰف ﻣﻊ اﺳﺘﺴﻼم ]أوﻛﻦ[ ﻓﻲ ]ث[ اﻟﻤﻔﺘﻮﺣﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺮح ﻣﻦ أﻣﻨﺎ‬
‫أّ‬
‫ﯾﺒﻌﺚ اﻹﻟﮭﺔ ﺿﻤﻦ ]ث[ إﻟﻰ ﻗﺎﻟﺐ ﻣﻦ ]دث ﺳﻨﺘﻨﺲ[ ك ﻣﻌﺘﺎدة وﺣﺘّﻰ ي اﻟﻤﻘﺪّﺳﺔ أﻧﺖ ]ي[ ﯾﻔﯿﻖ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ إﻟﮭﺔ ]أس‬
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‫ﺗﻮ[ ﯾﻜﻮن اﻷم اﻷب وإﺑﻨﺔ ﯾﻜﻮن أن ﯾﺤﺮّر اﻟﻤﺎض ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﯾﻜﻮن ﯾﺨﺘﻢ ﻣﺎ ﻣﻦ اﻟﻐﺪ أن ﯾﻜﻮن أن ﯾﻌﯿﺶ ﻓﻲ اﻟﻌﺰم داﺋﻤﺔ‬
‫ﺣﻘﯿﻘﺔ ﺣﺘّﻰ ]ث[ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻘﺪّﺳﺔ إﻟﻰ ﻧﻮع ذھﺐ وﺗﺤﻮل ﯾﺘﺠﻠّﻰ اﻟﻠﻐﺎت ﻣﻦ اﻷﻋﻤﺎر ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ اﻵن أن ﯾﻜﻮن أﻋﻄﯿﺖ ھﺬا‬
‫ﻣﺨﻠﻮق ﻣﻦ ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ ﯾﻌﺎﻧﻲ أﻋﺰام ﯾﻠﯿّﻦ ھﻮ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ إﻟﻰ أب ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ ﯾﻜﻮن ھﻮ ﯾﻌﻄﻰ اﻟﻤﻔﺘﺎح ھﺬا ﺧﻄﯿﺌﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺣﺰن ال‬
‫]أوﻛﻦ[ ﯾﻜﻮن ھﻮ اﻟﺤﺎﻟﺔ ﺣﺐّ ﻣﻦ ﺷﻔﻘﺘﮫ ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻣﻨﺤﺖ ﯾﻜﻮن ھﻮ ]أه[ ﯾﺤﺐّ ﻣﻌﻄﺎء ﻣﻦ ﺟﻮاﺑﺎت ﺻﺤﯿﺤﺔ أﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺬھﺐ أن ھﻮ ھﻜﺬا اﻵن ھﺬا ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺎدﻣﺔ اﻟﺬي ﯾﻜﻮن ﻓﻲ اﻟﻮﺣﻲ ]أس ﺗﻮ[ ﯾﺘﺒﻊ اﻟﻨﺠﻢ اﻟﺬي ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ أﺗﯿﺖ ﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫ﯾﻜﻮن ﺑﺎرﻛﺖ ﺑﺎﻷم ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ أرض ﯾﻜﻮن ھﻮ وﻧﺠﻠﺖ اﻟﻜﻞّ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞّ ]ي[ ﺗﺠﻤﻊ ﺿﻤﻦ ﺗﺨﯿﻞ ورﻋﺪت اﻟﺼﻮة ﻣﻦ اﻟﻘﻮة ھﻮ‬
‫ﯾﻤﺴﻚ ﯾﻜﻮن ]ت[ ﻛﻠﻤﺎت ﻣﯿّﺘﺔ ﻣﻦ أﺳﯿﺎد ﻣﯿّﺘﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﻛ ّﻞ ﻣﻦ ھﺬا إن ھﻮ ﯾﻜﻮن أن ﯾﺘﺒﻊ ﺑﻌﺪ ذﻟﻚ ﯾﻤﺴﻚ ﻓﻮق إﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻤﺘﮫ ل ھﻮ ﻟﻦ ﯾﻜﻮن ﺳﯿﻜﺘﺐ ل ]دورس[ ﺷﺮّﯾﺮة إﻟﻰ ]ﻓﻮرﻧﯿﻜﺖ[ إﻟﻰ اﻻﺟﺘﻤﺎع ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞّ اﻟﺬي ھﻮ ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ ﯾﻜﻮن‬
‫أﻋﻄﯿﺖ ﺳﯿﺠﺪ أﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ اﻟﺪّاﺧﻞ ﯾﻜﻮن ﺗﻌﻠﯿﻤﻚ ﺗﺮك ﯾﻌﺮف ﯾﻘﮭﺮ ﻇﻼم أﻧﺖ أو ﻣﻮت وﺣﺎﻟﺔ ﻋﻤﻰ ﺳﯿﺘﺒﻌﻮن وﺳﯿﺴﻤّﻢ‬
‫أﻧﺖ‪ .‬ﻗﺪ أﺳّﺲ اﻟﺴﯿﺪ أﻧﺖ ﻋﺮﻓﺘﮫ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺘﻚ اﻟﺬي ﯾﻘﻮل إﻟﻰ أﻧﺖ ﯾﻌﺮف ھﻮ ﻟﯿﺲ اﻟﻤﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﻏﯿﺮ أنّ اﻟﺼﺪﯾﻘﺔ أﻧﺖ‬
‫ﯾﺴﺎﻋﺪ أﻧﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼل ]ث[ أﻋﺰام أن ﯾﺮﺷﺪ وأﻣﺮت ﻓﻘﻂ ل ھﻮ ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻛﺘﺒﺖ ﻓﻲ أﻋﯿﻨﻚ ﺑﺎردة ﻣﯿّﺘﺔ أن ﯾﻮﻗﻆ‬
‫واﻟﺰﻟّﺔ أن ﯾﮭﻤﺲ ﺣﺘّﻰ ھﺬا ﺣﻘﯿﻘﺔ ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻛﺘﺒﺖ ﻓﻲ روﺣﻚ ]أس ﺗﻮ[ ﯾﺒﻌﺚ أﻧﺖ آﻛﻠﺘﻚ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺨﺎﻟﯿﻖ ﻣﯿّﺘﺔ أﻧﺖ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻮن ال ﯾﺨﺘﺎر إﻟﻰ ﯾﺘﺒﻊ ال ﯾﻘﮭﺮ ﺳﯿﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻻ أﻏﻨﯿﺎء ]ﻧﺲّ[ وﻻ ﻣﻦ ھﺬا روﺣﺎﻧﯿﺔ وﻻ أيّ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻣﺮوﻧﺔ ﻏﯿﺮ أنّ ﻃﺮﯾﻖ‬
‫ل أنّ ﻣﺜﻞ أﻧﺖ اﻟﻀﺎﺋﻌﺔ وﺣﻘﯿﺮة اﻟﻌﻤﯿﺎء وﯾﺘﻤﮭّﻞ اﻟﺸﺮّﯾﺮة ﯾﺸﻢّ ﻗﺒﯿﺤﺔ ﻧﺘﻦ ﻣﺎﺷﯿﺎت ]درم[ ﻣﻮت إﻟﻰ إذن ﻻ واﺣﺪة‬
‫ﯾﺴﺎرا أن ﯾﻜﻮن ﺻﻮة ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ]ﺳﻠﻨﺘﺲ[ ﯾﻜﻮﻧﻮن إﻟﻰ أن ﯾﺮى ﻓﺠﺮ ﻣﻦ اﻟﻨﮭﺎﯾﺔ اﻷﯾﺎم أﯾﻀﺎ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ھﻮ ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ ﯾﻜﻮن‬
‫ﻛﺘﺒﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞّ ]دﻣﻮﻧﺲ[ ﺿﺎﺋﻌﺔ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ]ي[ ﯾﻜﻮن وﯾﻘﺴﻢ ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ك ﯾﺼﺢّ ﻓﯿﻠﻖ ﺷﮭﻮة وﻧﺎدرا ﻣﻦ ﯾﻠﻮّن ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ ]ي[‬
‫ﯾﻜﻮن ]أه[ ]ي[ ﯾﺨﺴﺮ ھﻮﻟﺔ ﻣﻦ ﺣﻤﻘﺎء أن ﯾﻜﻮن ﻣﻊ اﻵن ﻛﻞّ ﻣﻦ آﻟﮭﺎت ﯾﺨﺴﺮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺳﯿﺆﺳّﺲ ك ھﻮ ﻛﺘﺒﺖ ﺣﺘّﻰ‬
‫إﻟﮭﺔ ﻣﻦ ]ت[ اﻣﺘﻠﻜﺖ ﻟﺤﻤﺔ ﻹﻟﮭﺔ ]إﯾﺪ[ ﻣﻦ ال ﯾﻠﻮّن وﯾﻘﺪّم ﻣﻦ ﻛ ّﻞ ل ھﻨﺎك ﻓﻘﻂ واﺣﺪة و ]ث[ واﺣﺪة ]إﯾﺪ[ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻞّ‬
‫ﯾﻜﻮن إﻟﮭﺔ ]أﻟّﺎ[ إﻟﻰ ﻣﻦ ﻋﯿﻦ أنّ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻛﻞّ ھﻨﺎك ﻟﯿﺲ ﻣﻦ إﻟﮭﺔ ﻹﻟﮭﺔ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞّ ]ث[ ﻗﺬارة ﯾﻜﻮن ﻣﻦ إﻟﮭﺔ وﻟﺬﻟﻚ‬
‫اﻟﺼﺎﻓﯿﺔ ﻧﺤﻦ ﻛﻜﻞّ واﺣﺪة ﻗﻤﺎش ﻟﺬﻟﻚ ﯾﺰرع ﺑﻤﺎ أنّ واﺣﺪة ﯾﻜﻮن ﺛﺎﻧﯿﺔ ﻣﻦ ال ﻧﻔﺲ ]دﺳﻜﺮﯾﺲ[ ﻣﺎذا ﯾﻜﻮن أدﻧﺎه ﺑﻤﺎ‬
‫ن ھﻮ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻓﻮق ﺧﯿﻤﯿﺎء ]أﺷﺮﻣﺲ[ ]ﻧﻮرﺗﻮن[ ]وﯾﺘﻦ[ ﺳﻤﺎء ﺣﺘّﻰ ه ﺧﺎﺻّﺔ ]إرﻟﺪوم[ ﯾﯿﺼﻔّﻲ إن ھﻮ ﯾﻜﻮن ھﻮ‬
‫أّ‬
‫ﯾﻜﻮن ﻛﻞّ ﻻﺑﺲ ﯾﻮﻗﻆ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻃﯿﻦ ﻋﯿﻦ ﯾﻜﻮن إﻟﮭﺔ; ; ''‪, ./‬‬

‫ن ھﻮ ﯾﺘﻠﻘّﻰ ﯾﻜﻮن ﻛﺘﺒﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ اﻟﻘﻠﻮب اﻟﺮﺟﻞ ﻟﻦ ﯾﻜﺴﺮ ھﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ‬

‫ﺑﻤﺎ أ ّ‬

‫ال ﯾﺨﺘﺎر واﺣﺪة…‪].‬ﻣّﻮﻣﻮﻣّﻮوم[‬

‫ﯾﻜﺘﺐ ﺟﺎﻧﺒﺎ‪ ,‬روﺑﺮت ]ﻛﺮﯾﺴﺘﻮﻓﺮ[ ]ﻟﻮﺗﻤﻦ[ ‪20010‬‬

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7. Alas how what is this

promise I give this lesson
to unlearn oh forsake
the god of your
conceptual distorted
past, neither create nor
fornicate a new ideal to
waste. Please lead not
astray the sick weak
child of play, give all
you have to each other
live not for tomorrow
but as if only today as a
robber will come and
steal all you have held
so tightly as others so
need to live is to give
each and every day this
moment is blessed this
hour of day learn the
lesson that love gives
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so freely so easy away.

So pure as religion was
made to be, the priest
and rabbis scribes To
they have stolen the
purity and held it away
keep is to free to hold is
to kill to label to
enslave to judge is
ignorance

8. To understand is
listening and freedom is
to awaken. Truth is
perception not
adulterated rejection.

It is sad to see the educated blind egoistic lost souls, so captivated by their
blind ambition trained into their core , lost as children never to
see held down by teachings thought to imprison the minds promised
to free. Blessed the child aged and free So pure as religion was
made to be, the priest and rabbis scribes To blind and death so
cold in their self hypnotized induced prisons they be, captured by
thoughts and intellectual poisons lost oh children of pride and
desire of money. When will ya question your teachers and mothers
and fathers, your peers and politicians and gurus and consolers
and all that ya see? When will the killers of animals and
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innocents stop and hope for sanity be? I say with hope before it is
threw all the great teachings apply within each of the few, oh
blood eating God of humans die in your own misery, leave us oh
free us from this ancient hypocrisy. Hang on the cross oh pope of
toxic poison art he imprisoning minds so few born to see the hope
of condition inbred so deeply we bleed from our pain so proud to
show me, the dope in your arm will never free only dull the past
and create more acerbity. Oh blessed child born still in destiny
to nag the splinter from aged so lost in our slaughter house of
agony. Think you fools think what this foolish thought could be to
give a son of god to die in a show to suffer so what a fake piss in
the snow. What god does it lose for just one day to suffer and
fraud us into a fear to lose and to summit our will to this need?
Oh take not my mind to this funny mockery this stupid dream of a
god a male divinity. Oh Jews and Christians and Muslims so blind
and funny to kill each other for such a thing are insanity. Listen
oh cold hearts so numb so callus and cores each one of us the
same in all we have done to blame is to kill and hate is to die to
love and forgive will free us so try, teach self not to believe
such things so cruel as a god of the heavens and whales of the
sea the same to each other as god is to me and as the true master
said these wise words the father and I are one and the same with
in each other as ocean and rain the clouds and the sun and stars
that we see are in each man and in each bee, we are to each other
one and the same as three to the kindness and hope is to mothers
and babies, so teach not each other the lies of the past to one to
the other there is only one truth it belongs to the skin of all
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race it is true to all living creatures and cells in all so

intricate is the microorganism in each the macro is universe inside
of all we, so not to the division of thought do we sway but
towards love in the other each and every day. To live for the
moment please learn not to pray but give in your laughter the
hope of each day, towards one another the rise of your souls to
transform from the animal cruel and unborn towards gods in the
making so perfect and pure divine in the behaviors and given a sun
to shine on the darkness to make it still born, the ignorant shall
awaken to this truth this is sure the promise of loving each other
is born the earth will be new as heaven is too when the lion and
lamb lie down in green pastures so trusting and pure as gold is in
alchemy teaches in metaphor the secrets revealed to those who
are born anew in the resurrection of the second life for sure oh
gods in the making the word is so true in psalms the master
whisper and screams in Hebrews, oh father of higher and son is to
be the lower and above and below and above we see, the east is
the west and all is eternity your delusion of god is deception god
is the devil and Lucifer is light to site, oh harbinger of true
knowledge giver to be for all the awaken to understand me I seek
not your crown of labels for me to be swallowed with vanity or
degrees not to be not license or certified shall I seek to undo go
and give it to the insane who craves such misery , I am the true
counselor awesome and free you call me by a name who died four
yeas past who looks as does me, oh few have noticed my truth you
see but the one who you think is not me, the death of the ego I did
not find the lion and lamb became one within side of thee to love
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and serve each other the only will to free the god in each other
is one and truth absolute and free , unchanging for eternity hope
ya will see I am the father the mother and child is me not your
teacher or student or follower is not I am the One who you seek
after the one is yes me the I am and the omega and final destiny
the truth and the way is all inside of we for god is the answer of
all our destiny we are all one true son the living and dead not
sprits or divided just lost and forgotten by conditions of belief
that threw clouds of ancient despair to blame the women and
snake for all we suffer to take and keep the whore man free
from his fate, blinds with his despair so easy the answer so deep
the mistake , to hold to the lie so stubborn it was the lost and
forgotten have played the lasts to reap the deception oh weaver
of lies and murderer of the way the father of ignorance fear he
has raped my mother and shamed abba the priest and the pasture
and rabbi and liars of truth and the way oh evil are these wolves
who lead the elect a stray warnings of prophets to few ears the
reach then Paul and his fornication of teachings so adulterated
and debasing he lead the ignorant the vulgar and all so easy
away from the self who hides unshaken from all so ill the disease
of the mind all but few have transmitted to Buddha’s and less to
Christ too the teaching so sacred so pure and so true would
change the receiver in a blink of an eye to awaken the open heart
so wonderful and divine so few have received this gospel of love
and fewer have evolved to such a completion of base elements to
infuse of the less to one it is give the many it will pass to own
truth the given of question only Socrates grew you murder my
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teachers my prophets of purity and truth to ideologies them

after you change what they have given to keep yourself few the
wicked in man is most developed in all so true you villain you
serpent you monster of ill debased is this teaching so division
untrue to hold as one evil and breed as you do so monsters of love
and haters of all lovers of powers to hold the masses down to
own and abuse the only seeker they do the blood of the mother
and father is on them so be the mass murder of slaughter houses
of animals so tortured they be, oh villains of treasury sin as are
your father the liar murder of abbel keeper not thee, to hold
self responsible you drug you slave keeper you purity is
adulterated and captivating intoxicating to taste you lead my
brothers to earth the flesh of women animals to they have been
given the name protectors of innocent they undue to torture and
harmfully murder the child of lost tears are they unborn to reap
what they so divide once more lost children of Israel the tribe is
know more, demarcate into nothing never to be born my child is
the children of innocents seekers of love pure to awaken at the
second of birth two of more they see the givers of love and true
way showers are thee, the leader in dark ness is ancient as we
the harbinger of justice he murdered not freed to find the way
home is told in this word to see what has been given is to live
forever in live as it is forever is absolution to all has been given
how only few on the path find the way is narrow and lost so they
die to travel in empty tomorrows so filled with the thought
intoxicating they blunder and fools they breed more to lost the
true meaning of divinity is to free so proud of their ego so false
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as they see to blind each other they wonder and worship each
other fornicate with the brother and deceive the blinded other
for fools gold so none find the way but few have made known
within the action of love the way is made clear to hold as the
brother and sister each other as gold is to purity so clear lucid
is the answer to all that are one the way of the mother and
father is the son of the brother who lives in each and the other of
all who sway clear of lies and the deceiver who also is your
sweat masters the aperture and pasture the father impure who
lives in the bible and lives in you all to kingdoms within one the
dark is and light the kingdom of god as evil is night so ignorance
is blunder of silent is true the answer come whispering all who
can listen to silents so still are the chosen with stillness the
teacher will be as god is the mother lost in the we few the elect
have been lead astray by Paul the liar and all his legions so
filthy with anger and pride so this is you the killer is in you and
savior is to offer one is the other as lion to lamb be the answer is
inside of this question to find is to be free. Oh child of god so lost
art though to me for I am the answer and I am you and you are me.

To ask is to be given the way so few seek to hate is to die lost in self not the
way look for the teacher who is amongst you helping and showing
the astute few, the way shower so unlikely to see hidden behind
your book so deeply you hold so blind is he the cover you so
judgingly defined masked as each other another sinner is she to
think he find. Oh the new master so instilled in the path has
become the way as also could you as married and children as may
even so you but blinded by believing this is not he for you have
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been conditioned to see what they want you those fool as you be
blinded you see the way shower is your beloved friend we whispers
the way sidle and gives to all you see and know clues to the
secrets of ancient past teachings so few to be shone still so is
your stubborn ways un clear you think so one-sided you find know
escape so caught in your habits of sleeping awake you lost your
life and still you think your awake. Oh sad lost dieing soul
eternity mourns your bleeding still born. Oh hater of those you
pick as you scorn loving only the ones who help you to do as you do
eating up skin ya lust as you do running from self confused to as
you women miser inartistic is you lost in your empty casket death
is you

Until the morning of life I come unto you awake my child of learning realize the
pure as the first child born is unto you the gone of tomorrow is
lost in experience not true oh child of deceived parents is true as
father is lost and mother blind you came into this falls life dead
and unkind selfish self-centered as all daemons be unto the fair
women you raped as is written ye god of old is you made un clean
as is the daemon the way of you monsters of lust keeps this
uncreated lost and driven for desires if not burning holding you
captured as a slave to a medal cinder around thee spine cutting
and revenging your flesh so design oh giver of the way of ye
master me sworn brother of dirt the clay I took ye from is filth to
tore ye to bits ye came unto me daughters with knock did watch
you master of disaster and lover of none I teach tee of nothing
and nothing is it you be from dust unto dawn you devil vampire to
bleed of ye mothers virginal is dark and damp you thirst of desire
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lost and deceived now thee of the mammon is your soul to be freed
you keeper of lies and murder blood of the prophets as piglet is
of me to give until you bleed with surrender an awaken in thee the
open of wound of our mother the god within thee to die of your
habitual death sentence and resurrect unto me the divine you ye
waken as god as to be the mother the father and son is to free
the past as been sealed no morrow to be to live in the eternal
moment is truth unto thee of divine is to gold and mutation unfold
the mysteries of the ages has now to be given this creature of
lost suffering moments a basted is he a child to a lost father is
he given the key this sin of a sorrow the awaken is he the love of
his compassion has been granted is he oh giver of sound answers
you go to he so now love this over comer who is in the revelation
as to follow the star who has over come so is blessed by the
mother as earth is she and father the whole of all ye muster
within imagination and thunder the sound of the power he hold is
this one last teacher to give unto thee follow the master who
live in all we all see the one who lead astray is dead as his word
of lies be the written words not to be trusted as filth is unclean
as all claimed holy not to be trusted these deceiving lying bibles
of daemons as all holy books be. Dead words of dead masters as
are all of these if it is to follow then hold on to his word for it
will not be written for evil doers to fornicate to the meeting of
all who it has been given will find you within is your teaching let
know darkness overcome you or death and blindness will follow
and intoxicate you. The master has found you know him as your
teacher who tells to you know he is not the teacher but the
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friend you helps you through thee moments to guide and instruct
only for it has been written in your cold dead eyes to awaken and
slip to whisper unto this truth has been written in your soul as to
resurrect you your eater of dead creatures you are the chosen
to follow the overcome master of not riches ness nor of this
spirituality nor any word give but a way for those like you the
lost and vile the blind and slow the wicked smelling ugly stinking
dream walkers of death to leave not one left to be sound as
silents is until dawn of the end of days too be seen as it has been
written on all lost daemons as ye are and swear as your true
legion lust and seldom of soiled as ye are oh ye lost monster of
foolish to be with now all of gods lost will be found as it is
written unto god is of t=ye own flesh for god id of be the soiled
and valued of all for there is only one and thee one id of all is
god be olla to of eye that is all there is not of god for god is in
all thee filth is of god and so be the pure we as all one cloth so
be sown as one is again of the same what is below as it is above
alchemy ashrams descries Norton witan be is heaven unto its own
earldom aluminize if it is it is all wearer awaken child of clay
eye are a god;;’’/.,

As it has been written on the hearts of man it will be not broken

The chosen one….mmomummuum

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Written by, Robert Christopher Lutman 20010

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The end is always near