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Greg Perreault
RITTER'S FUNERAL
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suits, black dresses and probably just to piss Ritter off. Ritter would
have preferred a thunderstorm or an overcast sky for his funeral,
but instead the birds chirped like it was May even though everyone
felt like winter. Standing next to the girlfriend, I entered the viewing
area and saw my cousin lying in deaths silent black box. His skin had
paled from afternoons spent sleeping and evenings spent dancing
and shooting up. The funeral home walls were bare and there were no
hypocrites with white collars because his note said he didn't want a
church service,
I remembered the way he sauntered home after he ran out
of money and had to drop out of college. He could blow Camel
smoke into his mother’s face and tell her to piss off without having.
to take the cigarette out of his mouth. I never had what it took to
leave college and everything else behind for a smoky bar—but he
did. Everyone formed a line behind the casket to say goodbye, but
I waited behind them all. I didn't want to see him. The silence was
broken when his mother began to sob her way to his casket. I turned
to look at his girlfriend and half-expected her to pull her reporter’s
notebook. It was her second purse and she kept everything from
quotes to phone numbers to her diary entries inside it. One timereg Perreault RITTER'S FUNERAL
in the newsroom, | flipped through her notebook and found pages
and pages of poetry about Ritter. Hearts and stars surrounded every
mention of his name. After he cheated on her the first time, I poured
her coffee in the kitchen and patted her hand. “Faith I said, “why did
you stay?”
She said, “Beauty” and took her hand away the same way she
drew away from me now. Shed stared at me with bright, watery blue
‘eyes and lowered her head. My eyes traced the room, falling on pale
town outcasts who shared his evenings in clubs and dirty, windowless
apartments, All of them were there: Jenny from the bar, Colleen from
the Coco Bermuda, Bullet the guy who could do that trick with his,
tongue and Navy Jack, who could kick back more Scotch than any
three construction workers. Tears began to fall as they stared at his
body in silence. Their eyes shifted around as if they were waiting for
last rites from a priest who had never been invited. No priest would
dribble holy water over his body to see if it would hiss and steam, and
then say his prayers, as if they do any good. Finally, Faith turned to
‘me with her rosy cheeks and tear-stained eyes. She creased her brow
and pointed with a fingernail, toward Ritter, toward the wooden box.
“Why?” I asked.
“Look” she pleaded, her voice cracking, I didn't want to get
any closer to the mannequin or the box or the smell of embalmed
flesh, but the funeral director motioned me forward and I felt my feet
shuffling up the carpet anyway. Red velvet disappeared beneath my
shoes and I could see Ritter again when we both wore overalls and
watched Darkwing Duck and climbed on old Ms. Petrie's roof. Hed
been right—everything did look better from her roof—the sky was
bluer and closer and the pine’ snowy covering could be knocked off
to reveal green. When the cops pulled us off the roof, Ritter smiled
like a freshman after his first joint. But now his mouth was taut after
years of eatly afternoon cartoons, video games and watching his mom
drink her way into walls. His hair had once been blonde when wed
spent afternoons in the pool with Grandma, acting like Darkwing
Duck and Launchpad as we fought off Steelbeak’s minions.
‘Then I sensed the silent anger in his limbs that slowly killed
the sidekick who fought crime with me in my grandma's swimming
pool. But as they closed the top and I got one last look at his eyes, I
‘witnessed in his face what I had missed for years.
Beauty.