I fell In love for the first time it was in april of last year …

I shanice james was surprise that It could of happen to

me .. after my life was so troublesome before I met him it
was like it was at ease even thought I fail to see him a lot
…I miss him like crazy everyday not one day pass that I
never think of him ..it was like I was in my own world … I
shock myself so much that I use to cry knowing that I use
to hurt him and could not of help myself (sigh) things
happen and i could not of do nothing to solve that one
problem … we use to talk everynight although I was
always vex he use to bring a big bright smile on my face
… he alone could of do that not even my brother could of
… I love him soo much I told my brother that amma be
sexing that boy soon …lol he laugh and tap me … damn I
never feel that feeling never I did in my lifetime since I
live …only on that one day in April and the rest up to this
day ….my mama told me write my feeling so I did it was
the only way I could get out the wiggling butterflies in my
tummy ^_^ …..and the dampness that hold me back from
liking another I never once look at a boy since I was with
him like in a boyfriend way ….. my granny once told me
one day I will find love I never taught it would be this
soon … granny was right I did and I don’t wanna let go
..love really hurts thinking what that person is doing and
hoping that nothing bad ever happen to him on the way
out of his house (god alone knows what will become of
me )…we use to talk a lot ah wholeee lot …hmm (sigh) I
always use to wonder if he was fed up of me and when
he says no I feel relieve ….. today is Saturday and I still
got that butterflies hoping one day amma see him … and
hoping it will be soon im far away but my love is still in
Trinidad :^D ….. I ask god to give me strength to reach my
destination with that boy … he did and up to this day I
love him even if people try to intervene …..i will always
care for that boy and always love him …… I know for sure
he will always be in my heart {me and god knows that }
  JL……sigh he always had me laughing smiling
sometime he could get on my nerves but at the end of
the day I will still come to talk to him …missing him and
not talking to him brings me down ..my granny always
use to tell me (the one you love will accept you for who u
are ) and he did …I think ..lol my god knows I miss him
and love him sooo much 