TO SNEAK OUT…

I don’t know what to say

I don’t know where to head
I’m just happy I have people by my side
It means that I’m not alone on this day, and have someone to finally confide
The room rings of silence
My book just stares
I look up at the ceiling
God, haven’t I shown repentance?
Scared though, to finally go
Bold though, to really go but know
That I will not be stopped or detain
But my mind says “You really shouldn’t go, no”
But though my heart and gut turn and wrench
I know I will get out
I need to be careful and not blow it through a shout
Sneaking outside though in public
I wonder how obvious I am
And just take it easy, instead of taking ten