Well this is one hell of a way to introduce myself, aswell as a first post. Here goes then.

Before you read on I want you to understand this is not something I enjoy having. It is destroying me.It
began when I was 14. I had just started masturbating and at this stage it was all out of curiosity. At
school I noticed I was attracted to a boy in class. One night I experimented masturbating with him in
mind. I enjoyed it and this continued. After another year I was no longer attracted to this boy; he was
growing. I soon found other boys in the years below for me to fantasize over. Another year later and I
was masturbating over little boys every night. After realising the addiction was only craving more and
more I decided to limit my masturbation to only once a week before it becomes too out of hand. I have
stuck to that up until today, although the urges are starting to get to me. I would literally cut off my
fingers if what I want most were to become completely legal and consensual. 

Even though I only feed my urges once a week I still fantasize every spare moment of the day. I know
where this road leads and I do not want to go down it. ATM I am 17, straight towards girls of my age,
although on the pedophilia side only to little boys who look between the ages of 10-14, with some
exceptions of around 7-8. The worst thing i've done thus far is stolen a boys P.E. clothes. 

What I am trying to ask is what should I do to control my urges? My self discipline/defense

mechanism of only once per-week is not going to hold out much longer and while I doubt I would ever
rape a child, at this rate a few years down the track could be a different story.