| this bridge we call home radical visions for tragatormation gloria e. anzaldiia ano analouise keating 02Ann tecin oacends Cr A elt erent comet inp. | ‘si Ha ht fen ie es arg pl of oer oe Tad sixty-one Healing Suefios for Acade: | dream, and in my dreams | heal myself Light rene trough th wind, cating feraon shadows on the nd ee Lit surrounded by we of ole ite pape wearing pastel designer fits A hte nan stands front, denaing ancy le nd card ‘re he flashing stag par wher ond shiny Black shes Tam ery ere fg ference ax tents Chic A ting up roght nuh? Unruly onder Yet am uncer engone te ing fo bth ried and ed Tis dream mon mover His mth bt ea no ‘ound. Chachi chest. sen flo he flor: Stl nosound. yer are pred with fear std math wide open. Streaming tof 8 ia slnc that eats wth ch dep eferng thal eergon fees Exes the With coniene hat srry ey fa far Fecal ond place ty lacing roc has above hae mans hart Wah my jr tl in the heat depends i faith mm att he ‘This dream man isthe internalized white man in me. He isthe epitome of prislege T encountered a Stanford University The one who yelled 3 chilling “Wetbacks go home!” at a showing of a United Farm Workers documentary. The one who humiliated me for asking about the role of colonialism in American history The one who organized against Self. Defense Issues for Women, a course about the poitcs of violence. At tunes, Ihave allowed his rast, sexist, homophobic, assist, and ea tal values and definitions of succes. At times, ive also regurgitated ‘hem-—motly agunst myself. Why cant I speak in class? Why cant I wnte area as everyone ele can? Whi can eel this place belongs to ‘me, t00? What i the cost of these interaieations? ody, mind, and spint desirous of sul retrieval (Aa, 169-219). “hie white man ie alo who hei. And Iam his healer Western man needs me-~a brown mestiza woman-—whether he kes tor nt. He also reeds my ways of nowing, Cherri Moraga taught me that when US. dominant society appropriates and commodifies “Other” enpars «nce forthe wisdom of hese ancent ye ami is nd prs Our Eat aes eel de Pepe coving from soil sts Aeuton from sl an communes pert. x threats bation, reset eet forrlt a pls spn wel ool afin So tayo es oie 2s and mets spl Inoeldgesforenporement nove towel not sure Sete patel and clo ot Gearon “Tas wit man ao my retreat grande, the Cafoato Luis Ares, ho arsed ny Chanadh reagent gandmatr co tv other sd. 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My tele amy word Te ol a tei the oppresed or he ppesor nce rl Cat at Simuteneoy a and beyond ban terest thi ara: the spc, landing ii panto 2 tg ors, bt is Sry slo Ke anf il otine fo see oor so 0 dura. inary spestions wound wana" Atal Tes tang yon my ton en deny yxy ts telnet Trent my aloo sence yang Too the epee esages mee Se If yr sat (0 nacre Aheloy your seson conceal Jour emaion,fpmes oor mid fom sourta"A vey eager stant evade ean Mey sons ht eed yea going yay Sting opal ght Prete fet ne when I ten (haa, incon rh But by th end fy tent Saf, Loge enn acoly eet a aed mindy enon an Sing hela th led seen ons. fer Twas byte semen ical asl te dato ol do pre me se logs sess: My eigen geal bay wa tling me someting at Sergi br thane tc suport tls or hngge nota ‘Wi constant pain pling acess my topes, speaing op Aheoghny crown den tompeye and nse. TF that ny bay as betraying my wilt be a good” student. could no longer study af the time. My interalzed white man algo led me secretly to fear that my Iheadache was caused by an inate inability to handle al ofthe ration thinking expect from me—bain overload. At the sae time, Lambiv lent fet sens of elie for finally having what I percived asa vali ju. Lfaton to slow down and rest. My head hurt so mich fr so long thet was compelled to revalute my schooling emphasis on the mind, Tes ‘experiencing the impact of aways thinking and not allowing myselt to feel eaough. I slowly began to heal my fragmented self and move toward wholeness and balance. think and feel at once. Unlesenng the western sind body split and laring to listen tothe wisdom of my whole self my bodymnlpint, i» penpetal proces, ight years ater, a month before my Ph.D. onl qualifying exam, ‘excitedly drive past Stanford on my way to conference in Cupertino where Tam a main speaker Iti ard to believe that T once uncomfortably sat behind seminar tables: Now afew miles south of my alma mater stand center stage and lecture toa predominantly white midle-lass a fc. AS words—inchuding my dream naratve—powerflly flow out of ‘ny mouth [fel tha Iam healing and forgiving my white man. Yow ned me whether you like or not. [need you ehether Lam comfortable witht ‘orn. Blt, Uhead home on Interstate 280, I drive through Ohlone land, 1 retrieve the pieces of my soul lost at Stanford. Thse invisible to most westem doctors’ eyes. My fears, embarrassment, self doubts. My Innocence, enthusiasm, dsites. My silence, loneliness, slepless nights lee! irene freeenee! rent Irene, come back tome, I need you! ALL of you! Tivo nights ater, stil reoing rom the joy of the success of my ‘speech and soul retival, ream another white man dream, and In my dreams 1am a warrior Lamps sped or part rete a deme ator of dark sds. te dV am fri as frond ond Titel card myer tee ead, fran that apace ell al ier tarts for lence Sos ma ‘ppronhing inet move to hag ofthe ides. uly mreey Insuring dont want tobe acre Inline th counge laok up and ma eye contact In fl white man aks pinged From my nose Stunned Begin a fal. He ena aston soe Sill ‘ili song nas ar bred ged Sl fling hs bly eens td aes Bren eye Ince i epee. nena the ered of Sith ed farting yond ea pay fr aly ‘This white man i my “shadow-beae” He reminds me that curanderas rst be vigilant warriors, aware of those threatened by her power to eal45 wells the ways our interalied oppress stage ou airing werk. Beng cred in eng work so means being engaged ina bat te, Ours perpetual sre nls the short Who temp to sain our torn work by iting sey, shame nthe sting vlence. Tis" win and withot save preset Impatigour ay 4s Lr éreremindd me, may rele the os tothe human hyof inte and into. The nos ara mtonyn for gro, ite Snowe in spa mater” (Wbiters New Word Dietonary), aw «ver is dlegitmied In western moder thought. This dominant pa ig, especial since the Ealgtenmeats focus on cence ane nid ey spit inthe seventeenth entry preg the ation ad 3s the ol gn of owl. The low tomy nose Frey eins te of ine invested in maintain the st 1am sare ofthe warming aginst and pedagy nt entegrate he mind ara leimae and enpovering saree of bowed. Yet eso many ther woien of olor before me, [proceed with ath and couragein the sen ‘eof my von” (Lane). 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