Can anybody understand me?

I am a living, breathing and understanding human being. I feel light as all others do, I feel air as all others do, I feel pain as all others do and I wish I too could live normal life as all others do. I am being misunderstood by everyone right from the pregnancy, birth and after delivery including my Mom and physicians. I suffer, not because I want to, but because of my disabilities and inability to explain what I am going through. Many things I want to do, I want to say, I want to show but My cortical area of the brain does not let me to fulfill the task. When I want to talk people around me think, I am drooling. When I want to walk people around me think, I am nervous. When I want to play people around me think, I am mentally retarded with no proper movements. I dont want to laugh, but it is the cortical region which makes me laugh out of no reason. I dont want to limp, but it is the cortical region which causes uncontrollable spasms in my muscles. I dont want to be sick, but my body and brain are incompatible towards new infections and diseases and my immune system never got a chance to grow. I want to be self sufficient but it is the uncoordinated nervous system which doesnt let me to. I see everyday normal people around me and I see how granted they take all those senses and movements for which I spend enough energy to get one. I dont want to be looked after as invalid or handicap, but help me very little to define and learn the movements through continuous physical exercises and therapy. A speech therapist to teach me effective speaking. Last but not least a strong person who can influence me while I work hard to get better. Hope someday people will understand me. (A child with cerebral palsy)