CIP - Kataloni zapis o publikaciji Narodna in univerzitetna knjinica, Ljubljana 821.

111-2 POPOVA, Aneta Drop = Kap-lja = Kapka / Aneta Popova, Jelena Lasan ; [prevod v slovenino J. Lasan, prevod v makedonino A. Popova]. - Ljubljana : Ekslibris, 2011 ISBN 978-961-6838-29-0 1. Lasan, Jelena 257424896

Aneta Popova, Jelena Lasan

KAPLJA/KAPKA

DROP

Ekslibris

DROP

CHARACTERS: Dazbog (DAZ ) LADA Zaria (RIA) HORS Perperun (PERUN) Marzanna (ZANNA) Belobog (BEL) Karewit (KARE)

A play in one act

PROLOGUE Let's brake the bulb! Let's crash it! Let the glass spray around, drilling the air! Let's release the light see it pouring over melting the icicles in the brain, in the heart... subliming our stiff faces with yellow glaze...!

Scene one: THE ROOM Dark room. A light bulb is hanging from the centre of the ceiling. Eight people are entering. Looking around, examining the room.

Zanna enters first. ZANNA: Look at the dust Oh, I hate dust. ZANNA: It makes me sneeze... Sneezes. BEL: No intruders, no messWere lucky! Walks around, delighted. ZANNA: The chairs are here, thats important. HORS: Oh, the world is now officially ours! Sits down, stretches.
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LADA: Have they repaired the water pipes? Takes the cigarette out of the box and leans towards Kare to light it for her. She gazes at Daz as he watches her from a distance. KARE: The janitor said that it would be done by FridayThe latest! LADA: Of course, the janitor. Have you noticed how he is always out repairing something, whenever you need him? He sounds as if he's out on a battlefield, whenever I call him. What is he doing saving the world as well!?
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Laughs uncontrollably. KARE: Well now... he's a sensible man, he's probably just waiting for you to call him again. LADA: Why? DAZ (leaning against the wall): By the time he gets to a place, everything, most probably just becomes funcional agian I mean these things happen and hes well aware of them. It's a pretty smart way of conducting business, if you aks me.

LADA: He's playing hard to get! RIA: They all do... LADA: You really buy your own logic don't you Daz? HORS: I think it's pretty normal. LADA: Nobody's saying that it isn't normal Hors. I was just trying to explain his behavioural pattern. KARE: Let's just focus more on ourselves, shall we? PERUN (panically turning his head around): I could've sworn that Ive heard someone walking, outside... Just this very secondHavent you all ... ? RIA: Are we going to send someone to fix the alarm as well? LADA: There is nothing worth stealing in here... or is there? RIA: What about our ideas?
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BEL: Great point, Ria... RIA: Thank you. (Bows.) Light flashes off and on. LADA: Maybe it's just better not to see ourselves for a while. HORS: You mean each other? LADA: That's what Ive said. Kare steps on a chair, reaches for the bulb and turns it around. ZANNA (to Hors): Hey just hold him would you! DAZ: Don't worry Zan, the man is a real monkey. You should have seen him climbing trees. Like a real professional. (Lights up a cigarette.) DAZ: I wish I had his balance.

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LADA: (whispering to Ria): And his talents... DAZ: I have talents. LADA: Oh, really? Would you care exhibiting any? Perun is singing in the backround. DAZ: I dont trust you with my talents. LADA: He says he doesnt trust me! What are you here for then? I thought TRUST was the main point of us being a part of this?! DAZ: [How can you trust the prattle of children?]* HORS: I have it! Look! He pulls a light bulb from his pocket lifts it up as if it were some kind of a trophy and then passes it to Kare. KARE (observing the bulb): I don't know... It's hard to tell. (Gives it back to Hors.) * Arthur Adamov. Professor Taranne
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HORS: Oh, it's so warm! How wonderful! BEL (trying to sound poetic): Oh, I'm feeling the heat burning my skin, breathing air and excitement I couldve sworn that I see the dripping ecstasy of your naked face! I want to fill myself up with you. With this day Oh! (Exhales.)... To Zanna more seriously BEL: Can you feel it?
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ZANNA: I can see it. They smile at each other. LADA: Ok, are we now officially starting to see things? Why don't we just imagine that we are in a farm house, waiting for milk... I mean what kind of theatre is this? HORS: Farmers, give us our daily milk! LADA: Now, that's what I call aggressive. Hors passes the light bulb back to Kare. Short silence

LADA: Why don't men leave off being practical and be a bit more lovable instead? RIA: You don't find them lovable? (Enjoying her own question.) BEL: Hey! You've just reconstructed Lawrence, I know this one. Yes, yes I do! Lada smiles to Ria in a slightly seductive manner. BEL: His poem Elemental! The part when he says: Why don't people leave off being lovable or thinking they are lovable, or wanting to be lovable, and be a bit elemental instead? You just twisted it around. LADA: Do you memorize all of your homework, dear? (Walks up to Ria and sits in her lap.) I want more out of life, Bel..I want more than just words and explaining them to other people... Explaining sentences and the meaning behind their utterance. Wouldn't you agree that sometimes it takes a lot of silence in order for people to really really get each other? DAZ: He's a man of words, there's nothing wrong with that.

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RIA: Its scary, you know... what if it explodes? HORS: Nothing special, well explode, too. Everybody laughs. HORS: And we wont need light anymore. Well be the light! BEL: I think we should just cover it. ZANNA: Or... why don't we just break it? Go on, Bel, crash it! Let's see some sparkles here! PERUN: I think we need an alarm for your head. ZANNA: Don't be so negative, Peru, I'm releasing a poet in me, can't you see? PERUN: Oh, since this is a POET speaking, I guess I agree with him or is it a she? ZANNA: It's an abstraction, my dear, no gender. Gives high five to Perun.

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LADA: Yes, not like you Daz... You see Bel, words are sometimes a disposal for the silence that they are trying to utter. The only real longing for words is a deep, rooted desire to make somebody else speak. Take me and Ria for instance. Smiles at her, stands up slowly and then walks around the room again. Bulb flashes on and off again. All of a sudden its dark. DAZ (to Kare): Careful, man! ZANNA: Oh! Wretched mortals, open your eyes! DAZ: What must be, must be! KARE: Ah, Rubens again. ZANNA: I dont think so. DAZ: We dont care! (Laughs.) The bulb flashes on again.

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RIA: I need light! HORS: There is also another possible dangerr: FIRE! RIA: I assume that we'll have a fire alarm. PERUN: But of course, of course. ZANNA: Your voice is our alarm Peru. (Laughing.)
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PERUN: You know what... I'm quite musical actually. (Starts singing an aria.) ZANNA AND OTHERS: Oh, shut up! You are harming our ears! PERUN: It's opera! It's music, real music. It should melt you, you rigid stones! BEL: It's useless, Perun. Cant you see? PERUN: I used to sing in a choir.

ZANNA: You're such a jungle boy. Laughter. Bel interrupts. BEL: Why don't we just seat in darkness? Who needs the light anyway In darkness and silence. Let's just ignore the pathetic effects of light and we'll be able to hear our souls, our thoughts, our breathing... the heart of our being, our true essence. LADA: He's doing the meditation thing again. RIA: What a great idea. Sits on the chair. Stretches her limbs. The light bulb starts flashing on and off, evoking some sort of a rhythmical effect. Lada and Daz are staring at each other'. Hors starts dancing. The rest slowly follow. PERUN: I didn't think that this would be so exciting! ZANNA: Don't overdo it!

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PERUN: What? (Touches his ear and says loudly.) I can't hear you! ZANNA: I said that it is better to enjoy things without commenting them. PERUN: But its fun! I love my mouth. Its a golden words factory. ZANNA: Golden or rotten? PERUN: You witchy woman Thats exactly why I like you!
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ZANNA (seductively): Dont like me too much, I can still turn you into a frog. PERUN: Well, if that will be my punishment, Ill gladly accept it. (Smiles.) ZANNA: Hey folks, if you see a frog jumping around, just smash it. They throw a confused look at her. RIA: I hope its a metaphor for something because if I see a frog, believe me, Ill be doing the jumping.

They all laugh. PERUN: It would be me, Ria darling and you know that Im harmless. KARE (dancing alone): It's good for the body as well! And for the brain. Lets shake our thoughts a bit. His dancing speeds up. BEL: Who cares if there is no music, we can imagine our own Our favourite. HORS: It would be a mess of movements. Chaos! BEL: This whole chaos is what works best! (Starts dancing more forcefully.) LADA: Can we stop talking about thermodynamics, please! Oh, its so hot in here! HORS: It just means we have some turbulence in here. A war. Do you want war, Bel?

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BEL (stops): No. But a bit of passion wont hurt us, I think HORS: I agree with you. Taps Bel on the shoulder. KARE: Oh, I'm just starting to feel LOVE in here! LADA: Too much love is like too much water. Your brain can pop off if you have too much too quickly. The body can't digest it.
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Still standing in front of Daz and looking in his eyes. LADA: It happened to one girl. She ran a marathon and drank too much water at once... I guess it was too much. BEL: Weren't we talking about love? LADA: Potassium darling, potassium. Daz takes Ladas hand and leads her to a dance. They are spinning around in the room. They are all silent for a moment.

DAZ (to Lada): Do you like being in here? LADA: I wanted to try. DAZ: But it gets boring after a while, right? I mean tell me do you like going to a caf, sitting down, resting? LADA: Of course I do. DAZ: But just imagine constantly doing itI mean I love to sleep but just imagine yourself lying in bed all day. You get fed up with it and its the same with everything else. LADA: Small quantities then? DAZ: Not when it comes to you. (Spins her around.) PERUN: I think we all love each other. RIA:Me too but we all have different approach. (Looking at Lada.)

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LADA (staring at Daz): I love SECRETIVE loves. ZANNA: That has just rushed the blood in my veins and... I feel like dancing even more. PERUN (to Zanna): Are you hiding your love from someone, darling? ZANNA (looking at Perun): No.
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PERUN: Pitty. They are looking at Hors dancing. HORS: Id like to try this passionate adventure, imagining the music and diving into trance I want to dance like a swan. KARE: (He is spinning around.) First you have to learn how to dance like a lake! Then you can become a swan. LADA: I'd like to see that.

DAZ (to Lada): I want to see you LADA (abruptly): Well, now is your chance, I am in a full visible capacity. My mind is not always present but I now stand materialized as ever. DAZ: Can we go somewhere? PERUN (starts to sing again): I see friends shaking hands... Saying how do you do... They're really saying I love you... I see... HORS (loudly): Nobody is going anywhere! Light bulb flashes. Darkness.

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Scene two: COLOURS The same room. Light is on. Everybody is naked except Ria. Her head is turned to one side so that she can't see others. Refusing to take her clothes off. Paint containers are everywhere.

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Everybody is facing Ria. BEL: Come on, Ria... Don't ruin everything! EVERYBODY: Ria! Please! We've already agreed! It's the project! The idea! LADA: We're all human beings, Ria. You're offending us in some way. RIA: Offending?! Because I want to keep my clothes on? I have an issue with nudity what can I do?! I can't bare looking at nude people. DAZ: Oh, don't make this into a philosophical question, please. HORS: Let's just put something over your eyes, you won't seen any skin, not even a tiny spot. Everybody is looking towards Ria in expectation. She doesn't move. Then touches her head. RIA: Ok. I agree.
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HORS: Great! We all agree, right? Everyone nods. Ria takes her clothes off. Zanna moves up to her from behind and gently ties her eyes with her black scarf. RIA: Thank you. ZANNA (looks up): Hopefully, this 'chandelier' won't kill us all.
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Everybody laughs. PERUN (to Zanna's face): Buu! ZANNA: Get off of me! Fool! PERUN (jumping around): Kill the kids playing! Kill them all! Fire them up. Burn their young, soft ZANNA: Creep!

RIA: Oh, you're full of shit, you know that? PERUN: Yes, I do! Smiles. PERUN: I'm joking! It's my sense of humour. BEL: How about we do a bit of meditation? Lets just sit down in a circle. Ria tries to find a chair blindfolded. They drag the chairs into a circle and everyone picks up a sit. BEL: Ok! Take a deep breath. Turn your faces towards the bulb. Feel the warmth of it. Absorb the light. Lets do a bit of pranayama, thats it take a deep breath and close your eyes. Bel is exhaling and inhaling strongly, demonstrating the exercise. BEL: Come on! Thats it. Feel the sun above you. Inhale the warmth. Imagine it entering your noseand floating in your body. Release your insight! Be your true selves! Keep breathing dee-ep and sloo-ow.
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They are following him, with closed eyes, turning their heads towards the bulb. BEL: Ok. Now you can open your eyes. EVERYBODY (confused): What, thats it? DAZ (stands up and goes to the paint containers): Oh, you people...
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Takes a paintbrush. Then approaches Ria and puts it in her right hand. RIA: Oh, a brush, of course. (Smiles.) ZANNA: I love the smell of paint. Mmm. (Inhaling deeply.) PERUN: Here, take more of mine ZANNA: Yours is red. Im scared of inhaling red. It gives me a strange feeling. Bel and Hors are placing containers in the centre.

HORS: Are you sure this is enough? BEL: I think so... If not I'll call someone HORS: I'm not sure if anyone else should be coming here BEL: You're right. I think it's enough... Yes, it will be ok. They are looking at the paint containers, wondering. Music starts playing softly. Bel puts his brush in white. They all stand up and approach containers. Each of them takes their own brush and dips it in one of the colours. There's a splash. They spray the colours all around. The music becomes vivid, powerful and passionate. They are dancing and splashing themselves with paint and their newly created life energy. After a while the light goes off smoothly. The music also. Theres darkness and silence.
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Scene three: A LIGHT BURIAL The same room. Everybody's painted with colour. Their names are now transmissive of the colours. The words are coming from their deeper selves.

RED: Every single day this fear wakes up my thoughts. It's coming from your mouth, one never misses those sort of vowels. They are mixed with blood, with stranger's blood and now with MINE, because I have deserted my breath, acting upon love, or what I myself call love (Crawling on the floor.) I don't want the shadows on my walls, I don't want them on my liver or in my morning. I want to distinguish myself from shadows and others. God All of this for nothing! Instead of seeing this path, rocking our love, holding it in the hands like a newborn child. No, not our love! The snow is evaporating in this embryo of our love and you are not responsible... You never were responsible... Your head is moulded into a lava of death, your feet are covered in black... Your whole body is drowning in black And your veins are sighing, they want the blue, they want air... But with you this is impossible, you devoured our love, and now you want my blood, do you hear me, LOVE?

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BLACK (examining her body): I don't like this. I don't like this at all. YELLOW: You don't like what? BLACK: Why am I all black? Even my palms are black. (Smiles surprised.) BLACK: It's entering my nose, my mouth. I feel like some rotten worm has eaten my limbs and wants me to feed it. I am not used to this... This is not my colour! It's pulling me down like a heavy stone. I will not accept this. Someone has done this to me.... I can even taste it in my mouth. (Spits.) YELLOW: I guess you haven't been aware of it till now. BLACK: What do you mean?! YELLOW: That your insight is actually drowned in black. BLACK: It's not true. I'm not a black person. Ive never been a black person And now Im almost dead, this is not me, I'm alive, I know that. Look at me! (Dances.)

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only...But no, nothing! Blood that is rushing through my body ... it is also for you... And do you care? Black stares at him. RED: Are you my black swan?... Black swan, scraping in my heart? Black stands up. Looking deeply in Red's eyes. BLACK (confused): I'm a black swan?! But... I couldve sworn that... Am I the mother of the dusk? Black and Red are standing in the very centre of the room. White One, White Two, Yellow, Blue One, Blue Two and Green are surrounding them forming a circle. They are the choir. CHOIR (singing): Wipe the gloom! Wipe the gloom of your soul. Let the blood warm you and make you Eden. Wipe the gloom!
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YELLOW: That's exactly what I'm talking about, you're deluding yourself. Maybe you think you're alive, but you're not. You're totally black. BLACK: Maybe it's just this room. Where's the window? I need air! Running around, looking for a window. WHITE: Stop it! You remind me of... What's he called... Anyway, it's pathetic! We have all accepted our selves. I can't see the reason why wouldn't you.
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BLACK (nervously): This thing... I know it was my decision, but still... I didn't think it would affect me in this way. YELLOW: Just sit down and relax. Over stressing only makes it worse. Just inhale. Black doesn't say anything and sits on the floor dissatisfied. RED (approaches Black): It was for you, everything was for you... The pain muttering every night in my sleep, was for you... I waited for you to call me... To write to me... Just a word or a dot,

Wipe the gloom of your soul. Dive in the red. Let the blood lift you and make you Eden. Wipe the gloom! Wipe the gloom! (Silently at the end.) Everyone from the choir lies down on the floor. Red and Black are standing. RED: Sometimes I can see you dancing on my walls at night. I see your black shadow dancing around and above me. That's hard to stand. BLACK: I assume I have a naughty spirit that runs away at night. RED (loudly): I'm shivering! THE CHOIR (lift their torsos only): He is shivering! They lie down again. BLACK: I've lost... me! (Puts hands on her face.)

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You're floating in the absence. You're diving in the Eternal. You! You, magic dust in the wind! You, foam in our hands! They fall on the floor again. Red lies down closing his eyes. Black is making turns on the floor, her belly is getting bigger by the minute. WHITE ONE AND WHITE TWO (standing and singing vividly):
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We're the twins. Twins who flex your soul. You can't touch us, but oh, yes, you can feel us. You dream of us. You search for us. You don't find us. But we're there. All you need is... Eyes in your heart! Wake up! Open your eyes.

THE CHOIR (lift their torsos only): She's been lost! Drop some grains so she finds her way. Drop some blood so she is revived. She's been lost! She's been lost! They lie down again. BLACK: Do you think I'll ever recolour? RED: I don't know...I couldnt know... BLACK: I will. I'll fly the sky and swim all the waters. BLUE ONE AND BLUE TWO: (standing and singing softly) You flew, now you fly again. You swim the water of the Ancient.
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Don't even blink. And you'll catch a wink of our breath. They drop down and lie again. YELLOW (standing and reciting): Touch me. Inhale the warmth. Embrace the Sun. Its behind your navel. Feel it burning.
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You shine! Yes, you shine! You are the Sun. You shine! You light our thoughts I see them melting on lips. You shine! Drops down and lies again. GREEN (standing and reciting): Step inside.

Step inside your mother again. She is calling for you. Your Mother. Mother of everything. She is the one you should hug. Mother! Chew the grass. Climb the trees. Sit on fire or walk the wire. She is the one you should find. She is in you. Look better and you'll see her bloom. Smell the tulips, stuck in your nose. Don't lose her. Don't lose her. Drops down and lies again. While all the choir members are singing, Black makes some strange moves. A lot like dancing, but a transformation almost. The moves are sharp, not constant, like a robot dancing. BLACK: Oh my, oh my... Well, this is hard. How will I...? Red is acting strangely. Like having nausea.

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BLACK (to Red): What's wrong with you?! The choir members stand up quickly trying to help him. Theyre singing, shaking and turning him around. THE CHOIR: (Singing softly.) What is this pain plucking your flesh? Is it a demon, dark in your blood? Oh, dear child, we feel it, too. Is it poison? Oh, no! What is this pain, picking your brain? Is it the raven laying his seed in your soul of love. (Silently at the end.) They are bending their heads on Red. Red suddenly throws up a heart.

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BLACK: (Touching her chest.) That.... that's my heart. What?! How?! You've eaten my heart! You! You... That's why I'm black. RED: No! That's not true! Not ... It's here! You can see it... I haven't eaten it, I just... I was just... I just... gave it a shelter. BLACK: A shelter?! From whom? RED: From you! And your thoughts... And your seed of suspicion. BLACK: Me? A sceptic? I'm no child of Socrates! And how do you know what's good for me and my heart? It's my heart! You... greedy heart... collector! RED: I'm not collecting hearts. It's a gross thing to say. BLACK: Well, what can I say when you've left me without it! RED: And you haven't noticed anything! If you care for it so much, how come you haven't noticed its missing?

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BLACK: I... was blinded. Look at me! You can even touch the blackness. Black! You can smell it too. Come on, smell it! Taste it! Black is pulling Red to touch and feel her darkness. RED: Ivr saved your heart from what you are at the moment. I prevented it from pain. Red says this and divested turns to the other side. Sits alone. The choir is singing slowly.
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THE CHOIR (singing): Uuu! Uuu! No demon can demolish you. Uuu! Uuu! It's the only truth for two. Uuu! Uuu! Believe our words for good.

Black is also behaving strangly. Goes to the heart. Takes it in her palms. THE CHOIR (singing to her): Black! Black! No black is really black! No light is really light! You see it now. Feel it now. Listen to the song it plays. You'll find out the truth. You'll know! You'll know! (Silently.) Black bends her head to kiss the heart. The choir members are around her, splashing her with colours. All the colors they have. Black is standing, now all colourful looking at Red who is sitting alone in one corner. Approaches him. Red lifts his eyes to Black. There is a glimpse of joy on his face. Black smiles as well and then sits down next to him.
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Hugs him. The choir is singing, first silently and slowly, then the music and the singing become much more vivid and exciting. THE CHOIR: Uuu! Uuu! No demon can demolish you. Uuu! Uuu!
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It's the only truth for two. Uuu! Uuu! Believe our words for good. No black is really black! No light is really light! You see it now. Feel it now. Listen to the song it plays. You'll find the truth, the very truth. You'll know!

You'll know! (Repeat.) The choir members are dancing and singing around. Black and Red are standing in their love corner. BANG! (Sound of something hitting the ground.) All of them fall down on the ground. The curtains fall down.

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Scene 4 LIGHT The curtains are up. Light is on. Everything is as it was in the first scene. Eight people moving around.

RIA: Well, hello, everyone! We have light again as you can see KARE: Aaah! Light Finally light! We should use it. RIA: Oh, leave us to consume it a bit, don't be so harsh, daddy. KARE: Ok, I'm just trying to brighten up the things, I wouldnt want to limit your desires. Bel shows up from left, pulling a trolley with drinks. Stops in the middle. RIA: Well, well, do I see champagne walking? LADA: You see, Bel brought us some refreshments. DAZ: The sun is shining after all.

BEL: Shh! Shh! Its still sleeping. (Winks to her.) Ria smiles. HORS: Oh yeah, Puerto Rico, here we come! RIA: You know, It wasn't that bad, those couple of minutes of darkness and silence. LADA: Noone has died that's important ... How about a toast?
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HORS: Why champagne? I mean I dont mind, but Id prefer something else. BEL: Craving is almost like consuming. And the effects are just as strong. I just felt like we should celebrate, so HORS: I know my taste Bel, one should know their own taste. Otherwise you just end up never having what you really want. I know I really want THIS right now (grabs a bottle of some kind.) LADA: Pour me some! (Lifts an empty glass in front of him.)

RIA: I just wish we could celebrate like this forever. LADA: Tomorrow you wont have the same feeling, trust me. KARE: You believe in parallel worlds, Daz? BEL: I do. KARE: I asked Daz. Never mind. BEL: I don't have the slightest idea. It's just strange Hors, whiskey! (Lifts up a bottle of whiskey, showing it to Hors.) Hors nods. Everybody is again sitting in a circle, enjoying the light in relaxation, holding drinks in their hands. Perun and Zanna are standing aside, looking at each other deeply and with slight grim of satisfaction. HORS: Where is the starting point? We've lost it, don't you think? BEL: And what exactly was the starting point?
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DAZ: What if the starting point never shows up. KARE: No start-no end. Thats a positive way of looking at things, I guess. LADA: Id say thats just walking the easy way. Very passive, Kare. DAZ: He is passive. Look at him, a real phlegmatic. Kare stretches his arms and legs while sitting on a chair.
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KARE: Hey! Who was fixing this damn bulb, eh?! Me, of course. Light is switching on and off. Kare looks at them. Daz and Ria chuckle. BEL: Oh, the sky has gone mad again! KARE: See! Its Artaud! Its his fault. (Smiles.) LADA: Blaming dead people. How convenient.

KARE: It's better. It takes the stress away immediately. RIA: How predictable! (Pokes Kare on his forehead.) RIA (to the light bulb): Hey, dear bulb, please, please, burn, burn! Put your rays inside my palms. (Stretches her arms towards the bulb.) DAZ: (To Ria.) You've gone mad. RIA: I just need a bit of sun. Perhaps a vacation. DAZ: Sun is awful for your skin. KARE: Where're Peru and Zanna? RIA: No it isnt. It turns you into chocolate And you get much sweeter. (Seductively to Daz.) DAZ: Merry a pirate then. LADA: Here they are. (Pointing to Perun and Zanna who are approaching.)
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RIA: Ha-ha! Why not. Ill travel around the world. Daz and Ria are laughing and chasing each other around the room. HORS: (Raising his voice.) Hey, am I only a role here? Is this all I am? Really, tell me! I would like to know. LADA: Nobody is neglecting your position here. Don't be childish.
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HORS: Im being childish? Look at those two chasing around. (Pointing to and Ria.) LADA: Its different. Ha! KARE: What's going on? Zanna? Guys, come here! HORS: You think it's easy. But it's not, I'm telling you. DAZ: Maybe they've lost their heads in the darkness.

LADA: What is not easy, Hors, what do you mean? Wants to speak to Hors but her eyes are turned to Perun and Zanna. Hors is leaning towards her, explaining himself. BEL: Perun! Zanna! What are you doing?! Come over. HORS: It's just a form as they say. It's ever changeable. Our thoughts, our feelings. Nothing is constant. Nobody's paying any attention to him or his words. LADA: You cant get angry over nothing. Why are you upset anyway!? HORS: Lada, you've known me since ever. (Kneels down in front of her.) I know I can talk to you whenever I feel like it. LADA: True. What's the problem, dear? HORS: Everything! You know when Ive asked about the starting point... that we've lost it...
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LADA: Yes? HORS: I wanted to... I meant... I thought... Uh! I was actually trying to reach myself, but I felt lost, you know. I've got this feeling of meaningless... I...Like I've been deceived by my own thoughts, you know. You understand, right? LADA: (Moving the head slightly in his direction, but still facing Zanna and Perun.) You see, darling, we all know what we know. But we like to deceive ourselves. It makes much more sense to us. Hors is kneeling down and holding her as if trying to prevent her from leaving. LADA: We only deceive ourselves and that's the way it is, unfortunately. (Sighs.) This world is a perfect place for liars and cheaters. (Looking at Hors.) and the only difference between you and me is that you are trying to reach your pain, to crawl down to your emotions and give them a momentum, an expression. The thing you don't realize is that it is not your truth or your identity. You want to give yourself a light but in fact you don't really need it.

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HORS (bewildered): What do I need then?! What is your method? LADA: My method I do nothing. I go with the flow. I'm swimming in the sea of life. That's the only way I can get surprised. The others are staring at Perun and Zanna who are standing and looking at each other as if they have realised what their deepest thoughts and feelings are. Hors breaks down in a cry or some sort of agony, now holding on to her legs. LADA: (touching his head from above): You know what is real? Not giving a damn about your fear or your pathetic little emotion, which actually doesn't exist. Leave it aside and you'll understand yourself better. You'll see. Hors is even more confused. Doesn't know wether to stop crying or to drown in tears. Lada is satisfied with her own wisdom and is smiling. Perun and Zanna kiss. Ria and Daz show up from left, pushing a bed with wheels. The others are sitting on chairs, a few are looking at Perun and Zanna and others stare at Lada and Hors.
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Ria looks at Daz and lifts her shoulders. She then walks to the light switch and turns off the light. The curtains fall down.

THE END

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