Journal 6 In the future, I plan to attend the University of Texas in Arlington. I plan on going into medical.

I dont know whether I want to be a doctor. For sure, I want to become a doctors assistant. I am curious about learning more about chemistry and biology. I dont know what I want to contribute with the world yet, but I do know that I want to learn more about it first. I am very sure that my real calling is history. I have definitely always liked it better. I have always felt like experimenting with poetry when I write these journals. For instance, the short ones. Today, I walked a broken path on my way towards pond. I stopped and saw a treasured youth aborted through his fame. Although I know not what he calls whats destined to remain the same. I saw him dancing again celebrating in the falls.

I also look forward to reading more novels. I am especially curious about novels that provoke a particular feeling in a time and place. I want to know more about myself, so I feel as though I should know more about history and the way my body works first. I might what be a treasured youth. My youngness being my current greatest treasure. I suppose fame would abort the youths treasure. Ive always wanted to try writing a tanka. It is sort of like a haiku, but instead of the 5-7-5 rhythm, it goes 5-7-5-7-7. At least, I think thats how it goes.

I always feel like I am missing something from life. I feel lucky to have lived in America for so long. I know that it is much harder to live in third world countries, in places I have never known. I want to explore some of those places some day. There was this piece of poetry that I was fond of, She is the girl with the sandswept face and the seashell mouth that only echos. This was a wonderful piece of imagery that remained in my mind for so long. The falling sky, that I saw reconstruct in midair, was glass. I would like the words to glue themselves together to make more sense. My friends have been planning a graduation party; we might not all make it to graduation, and some of us have to leave right afterwards. Since thats the case, my friends were planning a farewell party so that we could say goodbye. I dont know if I will ever see anyone of my friends again. I dont know many of my current classmates since I havent been at school for so long. The day has started the flowers bloom in the day time halts abruptly the trees rest in the meadow the day has frozen like time I am realizes just how complicated tankas are to write. I am hoping the explore my possibilities more. I am afraid of not having friends in the future. I am afraid that I wont major correctly. I have to turn in my college applications forms before June

3rd. I really cant afford to miss out on this deadline. Otherwise I wont be attending a university, and that could be terrible. I am fully prepared to address the difficulties of college life, especially with my bad leg. I am afraid I wont be able to do much with my life, but most of all, I am afraid that I will do everything alone. I have lived as an only child, and I have gone through a very hard time in high school. I can see how Fort Worth has changed, I am looking forward to that. And a cruise! My family and I are going on a cruise this summer. I am so excited about it. I want to be in Canada in July to see fireworks. The 1st of July will be interesting; I have the same birthday as my Grandpa. I guess that we are both Canadians. Tomorrow my family and I will wake up early, go eat at Panera bread, go hiking, and tomorrow, will be mothers day! I am looking forward to it. The thing is, I need to give her a nice card, maybe one thats scented in flowery perfume. Its sadly going to be rainy on mothers day, but I think that itll be okay. I was not one hundred percent sure what to get her. I am not so concerned about birthday presents now. It does not matter how much they give me, and I want it to not matter how much I give them. I want to be able to provide for my parents in the future. If there is anything that scares me most in life, it is unfulfilled dreams. I want my family to live out their dreams. Hopefully, they will be able to do that once I send them a lot of money. I am going to be 18 during the summer. I am scared. I dont know where the time has went. I still remember counting my days up to my 8th birthday. Two hours before I turned 10, I knew that those hours would be the last I would ever spend in the single digit age. In fact, I would probably spend the remainder of my life in the

double digits. I think that I saw life I little bit more slowly when I was young. Now that I am older, I dont think that I have been using my time well enough. The summer sky cooling the leaves with a sunsplit eye billowing by into a mighty heave into a sunrise. I wish my poetry made sense. I really want to write something. I want to put my brain to it and write something. Words dont quite touch my tongue though. I was not very gifted with language. I thought that I could pour my heart and soul into writing, but it seems I wont be able to do that as easily anymore. I cant wait to return home to Texas. I am not sure whats waiting for me. I want to be able to study hard and be conftorable at home. I also know that its going to be super hot in Texas, and that I will get acne almost immediately. I miss the Halloweens in our neighborhood. I miss seeing people trick or treat. I remember my parents driving me to sonic, and it was always so hot that wed get something to drink. I know I am going to need sunglasses if I want to go out anywhere. I am still looking for a good pair though. I have these dragon goggles that are actually supposed to cover your eyes when youre skiing. These goggles are so good, that not only does the sun get dimmer, but everything becomes more vibrant, if not magnified. I am looking for a pair of sunglasses that will do that.

I remember San Diego zoo. All the animals where cooperating with us that day. The otter swam by us on its back while barking at us and keeping eye contact. When I was along with my dad in the bonobo outlet, a few bonobos came, one saw us from 100 meters away and as I was standing touching the glass, he came up and banged his fists on the glass. his left one first and then his right and went off. I was in a wheelchair during that time. Once a panther saw me from 20 feet away, it started pacing and stalking me, pacing back and forth with his shoulders haunched. And then a cheetah chased after me, once it saw me it got up, and started stalking me a woman behind me said look out! and laughed. My dad came up behind me and pushed my wheelchair really far hard. As I went zooming, the cheetah started running behind me.