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Journal Section On Peter Kurten, 'The Dusseldorf Vampire'
Journal Section On Peter Kurten, 'The Dusseldorf Vampire'
Now, when I think on it, the more central notion of the anger there would be on
the crowd’s part comes to mind. That instead of feeling guilty in any way, Kurten
would see and use their own homicidal outrage as a means to justify his own sense
of being a victim, even to see himself as having been treated worse than the
murder of the girl. That at least it had been relatively quick. He hadn’t
inflicted any pain on her through a prolonged assault, but had 'simply' slit her
throat and stabbed her a number of times. (A lot). Later, as it said on the
poster, he had attempted to set her on fire. The body was described as partially
burned, but in actuality there were a few scorch marks on her torso. The fact she
was partially naked only contributed to the sense of outrage.He’d attempted to
immolate her soley to horrify and outrage, as psychologists later surmised, as
well as admitted it himself. The real victim, he believed, was himself. There was
nothing that would make up for all the years stolen from his life, the eternal
hell of solitary, alternating with the living hell of being among other
degenerates. The worst and the most dangerous ones were the self-righteous ones
who used his crimes, his degeneracy, his living hell of a life, to sanctimoniously
cover their own, to make themselves clean and unsullied by comparison. Their
negatives could be turned into a positive. The joke was they still had no inkling
of the real extent of his crimes, of the extent of his savagery, his murderous and
destructive ambitions, his “degeneracy.”
But though he had avenged himself on some of those in prison who had stirred up
the hatred of the rest of them, nothing would ever satisfy him or extricate him
from the vicious circle of hatred he was in, from as long as he could remember,
and that only compounded the need for hatred and revenge.
None of this was wholly conscious. There was only a dim recognition he was somehow
trapped in an 'objectively' real situation beyond his abilities to either fathom
or forgive.The world had somehow contrived to steal his life by stealing his time
and making him suffer for it into the bargain. Nothing so solid, so final, so
real, as the concrete walls
that circumscribed his existence for months on end, then years, as his resentment
increased exponentially with each sentence, each lengthy period of stealing
another part of his life away. Years and years to fester, to brood, to consider
how he might get his own back on these liars, these hypocrites, these murderers.
Hadn’t he once been a child himself? Life had destroyed the child in him, from his
bastard of a father
and mother onwards. Society was dense and stupid and brutal. He would be more
brutal. They would pay for how he had been treated through their nearest and
dearest. His victims were dear to someone.
They would experience the pain he had, in all its merciless incomprehensibility. A
solid, as unforgiving, as unmoved and immovable as those four concrete walls that
pressed so relentlessly in on his mind until he began to feel he and the walls
were of the same substance, the same being, trapped in an eternity of negation,
punctuated only by the need to destroy when theimpulse came again. He could try to
put it all behind him, but it only needed something to spark it off, like the
jumped up little waitress and her stupid boyfriend, and the anger would flare and
rage in a torment until he had to act on it, and back he would be behind another
four walls. It got so he would paradoxically andmasochistically enjoy his periods
of solitary confinement, as it gave him the freedom rom distraction he needed to
brood, to plan his future campaign of terror. That he was beyond the point of no
return was a given. He knew that. The thought gave him a vicarious thrill. He
would fantasise of poisoning the whole population by contaminating the towns water
supply. That his life, his dreams, had come to this.
He knew he wouldn’t be getting those years back and no amount of riches or sex or
murder would ever make up for it. The sex and murder he had already experienced,
from his youth onwards. It was a way of life. Brooding on the possibility, the
certainty of future mayhem he was again also, dimly aware of the odd paradox
involved in the exhilaration he would feel at the thought of the destruction he
intended. That consciously he knew he was throwing his life away, but it was the
only logical and even rational response to such a situation. Here he was already
in the midst of having his life wasted, thrown away in the midst of living it.
This was mere existence reduced to its lowest form. He would throw away their
lives as they had thrown away his. Society had no interest or concern in his life
save to punish him, to make it morethan the misery it had been up until then, only
to repeat the offence. Often-times the severity of the punishment had borne little
relation to his crime. Was it any surprise he felt aggrieved – that someone had to
pay for it, and the fault lay on their own head – the very society that had
colluded in it?
They were no better than he; they only believed they were, when in fact they were
better at disguising the corruption of their own soul. The only difference between
them was he refused to play the game. They had burned their boats long ago. There
were no boats to burn. They had never offered him any. But when he found any, he
would burn them, and anyone in them, as he had when he came across haystacks,
setting them alight, hoping some tramp might be sleeping in one.