THE FALL

Around the world in thirteen seconds...

By Om Prakash.
(To get the best effect of the story read it slowly like in documentaries) Its 0500 in the morning as I look up at the clock hanging down my wall. We all know twenty four hour makes a day, sixty minutes get together to push hour hand or chotta kata(as we say in hindi) to strike pass one hour and one minute compromise of sixty seconds. Now tell me apart from our call duration when was the last time we cared for seconds? I guess never.. How much thirteen seconds worth to you? How long can you make thirteen seconds last? Its enough time for me to travel my whole life, its enough for me to realize every bit of my life in the thirst of happiness Its going to take me just that much time to die. To kiss the ground off a 108 storey building. Now I don't want to die. I want it to last forever. I want to feel time infinitely. I now know there is nothing further. Endless nothingness awaits me and I am not prepared. Flash! And I am a child eating apple watching my mother kissing my sister gently. Her soft skin seems to glow brightly. I can smell her now. The child is restless and wants his mother. I am crying. The wind blows so hard against my chest now, the force of it tearing my shirt apart. The tears blur my vision. I can't estimate the distance. I want to go back and remember my past. Just like the movies! I want the one last flash, but it evades me. My end is going to be lonely. I am not going to be remembered. This is it, I tell myself. But for what purpose? Sad ten seconds or happy ten seconds, its all going to end. In a hurry and rather abruptly. Flash. I am still a kid. This time I don't want to leave this memory. It's dear. And I am afraid to go back and see the tar road searing back at me. The kid is playing, Indians religion i.e. cricket with a group of friends. They were the people I'd go on to know the longest. A sudden fight follows and the kid is punched and starts bleeding. He stands up and pushes the bully back. The bully was to be my best friend. I want to move ahead in my thoughts, but am trapped. I know now that time is finite and I must rush through my memory and recall the ones most dearly. Still in the memory, a married man smokes his last cigarette and thinks about his child expected to be born soon. The child reminds him of his wife, when he had just met her. The immediate bond they shared and in the eyes he sees acceptance and love.

Flash. I feel a deep burn in my heart now. The heart beats so hard against my chest. All those memories and time seems steady. Nothing seems hurried now. All you have to do is to pay attention; lessons always arrive when you are ready, and if you can read the signs, you will learn everything you need to know in order to take the next step. We humans have two great problems: the first is knowing when to begin; the second is knowing when to stop. Something feels more appealing now. Something about leaving everything I love seems inviting. Crooked and convoluted but true. I want it to end and soon. ' Flash. A door shuts down hard. The sound deafens me. A beautiful woman walks out on me. The child stares at me with keen focus. I feel a deep pain. But time does not rewind. Life never goes in the way we dreamt of rather it makes sure that it happens just the opposite. She walked out on me. All I love is gone now. And time seems infinite, drunk or not, the heart aches. Flash. There is a man at 0445 in the morning with a coffee mug on left hand and a photo on his right thinking. This man hasnt slept for last couple of nights. Who this man is? What is he so worried about? Oh! Shit This man is me. What am I doing? Please think fast I have only couple of seconds left with me before I finally to my destiny, the destiny which I found suitable and param satya to me. Now, I got it. I am thinking about her. I am blaming myself for losing her with tears kissing my cheek and rolling down, thinking more could have been done to hold her back. When I got the job, I thought let me work hard now, earn money, give the best to my dear lady but in return she says I dont love her anymore. My love, this is the last chance I am having so let me tell you something, we both together have shared hard times together, now when I am having opportunity to bring all our dreams to reality, I am trying hard to do so . But everything comes with a price, it took away the times we used to spend together. According to you, I dont love you anymore but you are the one who is conqueror of my mind. Every second when I am away, not finding you there urges me to just run back home and hug you tight as if you cant run away. When I was at my teenage, people often use to say its very hard to hold family and money together. So, when I was getting married to you I thought of myself that I am way better than others and wont let my family shattered in the hunt of money. But just a few feet away from ground I realize this is no fairy tale where everything ends well with a sway of a magic stick rather it happened just the opposite of what I had dreamt of. Everything is getting shattered like shattering of pyramid made up of cards. Without you there is no me. You are only inspiration which pulls me back in the adverse situation. But as you are no more so I preferred to kiss the ground rather than your cheek. The end seems fitting and death inviting. I must go now. I am ready to die.

Things to ponder
Someday someone asked, according to you how would you like to get hold of relations? Relations are like holding a bird in your hand. If you going to holding it too tight, you are going to destroy it and if you having lose control over it, they would fly away. There is a famous saying: All that glitters are not gold. This statement is so true. Never rush into making relations, take your own time. Every person we met seems so nice and kind at the beginning but later realize how wrong we were. We met so many people who, at the first opportunity, try to show their very worst qualities. They hide their inner strength behind aggression; they hide their fear of loneliness behind an air of independence. They do not believe in their own abilities, but are constantly trumpeting their virtues. Emptiness! Hopelessness! This are some common traits of people deciding to suicide. The reason people consider themselves broken could be any of the following: 1. They have had an event or tragedy which has had a lasting impression on them. No matter how hard they try, they cannot get it out of their head and have stopped seeing a point in all things in life. For a short while, they manage to convince themselves that they are over it and world is alright. But its definitely not. Time coats sad memories with dust but it is bound to fly off if we dont find a permanent solution to it. 2. They have been disowned or cheated by someone they loved. They are normal, happy people like rest of us. But then, one act of failure or distrust or deception has left them so devastated that everything else seems waste and empty. 3. Forces of life, or, if you wish to call it God, has a terrible hand to them and all they can do now is wait for everything to end. Someone once said that dream as if you were to live forever. But what if you were going to die soon? How will you sleep peacefully at night? Will you become permanently depressed or excessively cheerful for the rest of life? If you cant give life to someone then you have no right to take it. Its a trait of cowards to give up and trust me you are way better than that. We all need love and hope to live life. We have ups and downs but that doesnt mean to end with. When we dont have enough hope we want to give up. Let me ask you a question, tell me what are three things that discourages you the most? But they are not your greatest discourages its you only because its always you who have make the choice. In life we have choices to make, either we could be happy for what we have or could be sad for what we dont.

Words are powerful and moving but faith is something which kicks in when we lose everything. Faith tell us we are not alone, if god has created us there must be some good in this. Just wait for the right moment and everything going to change. Life is precious and its not determined on how you look? What you do? But what you actual are, from inside. According to Kurt Vonnegut, We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be. So, my dear sirs and madam live life with hope and enjoy it as it comes to you. There is always a better purpose to live for it. I am going to end up my life as well as this story with this beautiful line. Dont add relations to your life rather add life to you relations.

Thanks for reading..