In one of those cold nights When you wish you were snug in your bed But you couldn't and you have to be In an uncomely railway shed
And the locomotives, the lifeless demons Come and go without a care Wheels turning and whistles blowing With an inhuman forward stare
And you wish your one came Earlier rather than late For the cold is hurting and rain is pouring And you can't care to wait
Somewhere in a faraway sack A tea stall or in a paper stand There lurks a lonely figure With a leg broken or a missing hand
A stray figure, one that seldom matters May be a leper or a whore There are many that you have seen But this one you can't ignore
Somehow in that luckless being You can see a part of you A part of you that you never were A part that was never you
2. An Ode XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
In whispers you come and in dreams you go Not a real thing to hold on to Who cares for reals when dreams suffice Who wants a form for such true disguise
Like that fading shine that is lost in time I subside to this love sublime Not pride not anger not hate nor shame I woo you in peace Oh, whom I can't name.
Every time she looked out of the window She could only see the clouds sailing by No one could listen to what she wanted to say No one looked at her till she began to die The days came and went and nothing happened ever Until the walls came down and it was for all to bear
There stood the frame Which once was human Now it's just flesh and skin In decay it is redeemed
She lifted herself only to fall again She has no hope left she has nothing to gain No one can listen to what she says Everything comes as a silent scream The hours pass like ever before Until she falls down for one last time
There stands the frame Dead and torn in pain It stinks of a life gone by In decay it is redeemed
She sees the story getting old and dear She pleads for death but it refuses to come near In pain she stands as her deeds deride The past comes over and in it she has to bide Look anywhere the sight of flesh is so clear The lyric of death plays the song of a jeer
There falls the frame Never to rise again No one comes to claim As in decay she is redeemed.
4. I Rot XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Everyday that I wake up I can feel the presence of yours
You are there, so my mind reminds Although I have left it all far behind All of you that I was But what of all you that I still am That never left with the passage of time There is still that part of mine So much you that I can't even hide
My dreams they dream of the dreams we dreamt But my numb soul has got none for it I give up in disgust this feeling It is so lost so forlorn Just like this piece of paper That is torn, beyond recognition
In all my moves to reveal the truth Behind what seems today like a fantasy I am lost in an imaginary tapestry And on my path to perdition I realize Everything was possible But then everything was a lie So in the inside, I am lost and I die Everyday I Rot And lose what was I.
5. Kill Me Instead XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
I wake up in the middle of night in a bout of sweat I see around me to find nothing that I expect All my moves are suddenly held by some magic trick I break upon my bindings and keep myself awake
But how can I remain awake when every next breath Is a pain I can't take & I begin to choke In my own breath Life is a pain I cant bear I wish you'd Kill me instead
Still I do get up to end this suspense of frustration I get up for once and for all to break this iron chain But what do I know what I will have to confront It is the me that I find as my deadly opponent
But how can I fight the me How can I hurt What is so surely me Is my enemy but I push myself even more To get myself dead How dearly I wish I was killed instead
My fate drives me forward but is it really ahead I feel like dying and then living like an undead Time stands as witness as I fall to my dark deeds As I am gone, gone and will, I will never rise again
I am gone but I see myself In the mirror of time I have wiped the me completely But not the sins of mine My sins take over me As I am born again How dearly I wish I was killed instead.
6. Let Me Be Gone XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
If only you could have seen What lay beyond and what lay beneath If not my words Could youve heard my thoughts speak
If only you could have felt The feelings that never seemed much If not my embrace Could youve sensed my silent touch
With the dreams that cant be shown And with the thoughts that cant be thrown I drown, in you for once and for all So let me inand let me be gone..
If only you could have known The light that inside me you used to glow If not my face, not myself Could youve loved my soul that lived for your's
If only I could have been Your love and not what you wanted me to be If not forever Could Ive had you for this life to live
With the dreams that cant be shown And with the thoughts that cant be thrown I drown, in you for once and for all So let me inand let me be gone..
7. Look Beyond XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Look into the mirror, are you there Or is it some apparition looking at you What looks so real is it true Or are you being taken on a ride Look beyond the obvious and realize What you were meant to be Answer to yourself answer your eyes Feel the light, the darkness will leave Light up your mind There is no lie that can hide Yourself from you Stand witness to your deeds Wake up the man that is lying inside Wake up before you lose your life.
8. Mother XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
There were days when I was down A tear in my eyes or just a frown And there were those when it was all fun And those when I had to sprint and run There were friends and there were foes There were highs and there were lows Time went fast for me sometimes And it stood still some other times There were crowds but I was alone There was silence but I heard storms That's when mother, I have found you Whenever I've wondered who to turn to For a soothing word or a smiling face For that caring touch, that healing grace In no temple, no church, that I've been to Did I find Mom a God, truer than you...
9. My Inside XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
This is what happens in the end When everything is forgotten down the memory lane A ghost of thought rises up suddenly Clutches my throat until I die of agony Blood sprouts down like from a never ending stream Taking all the life and all my dreams I feel you in the inside of me Pushing me out of my own sanity The bridge breaks down with a banging sound Your presence is a thought but to it I am bound.
This is what happens in the end When there is no one to look back, who I am I am but, a sad victim of time Forgotten faster than a lightening shine You move on with your head held high I live on in a world of sighs Everywhere I go the same prying eyes Get to my inside more than you ever tried All my attempt to close them down Ends in the despair of a defeated clown.
This is what happens in the end I pray for death but it never came Lying on my face on the rotten ground I think of what I lost and what you found World moves on like nothing is wrong Pushed aside I am not game for long The same eyes that once comforted me Tear me apart so surprisingly I am longing for to be back in that time When you were inside me committing your crime.
10. Memoriam XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Has the world lost its colors Is it all in shades of grey That's how it's now for me From you now that I am away
People have come and people will go But not to all you can hold on to I am caught forever in your light I am crowded in your shadows
In my new world and in my old pain May be I will settle down the lane But how can I forget you, my old place Every breath I take will remind me
11. On Time XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Days pass, months pass and pass on years Caring not for who bears smiles and who sheds tears The race that has begun Must go on, reach its conclusion
Memories, some sad and some of joy That this mind stores Only to replace them with each passing moment By newer scores
Those who fall by, the heroes unsung And the villains glorified All give way to newer ones The better evens and the lesser odds
Goods and bads, fars and dears All get buried in time Time is a great healer So the saints chime
Wreaths lay on the silent tombstones And the sons and daughters crave The moments gone by in rapture and dismay But no dead turns in the grave
A moment gone is a moment lost Never will it come So enjoy those figments of time And treasure atleast some.
12. Pipe Dreams XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Living in the worst part of the world It is a crime even to dream So I have decided to keep myself down Live my life just as it seems
I am not worried if the world goes awry As long as I have my bread crumb I am not sorry if you are in a hurry And your train is long gone
Every morning light I enjoy the sight Of a mad running crowd It's my daytime job to watch them all Moving so confidently in doubt
Live Life King Size the cigarette hoarding says Alone, unseen throughout the day I am sitting, watching, maybe waiting To catch the burning butt thrown my way
I am happy and I don't even mind The occasional burn or the little groan The carelessly thrown one has done I'll be glad to have it a second time
Every thing you can see here but the first glance Is often the last chance A fleeting feeling which goes the same way As it comes....to never come back
This life is the time to party high(they say!!) with all your mates Got no company, never mind The flies will join you there
In the downward climb of life you'll find A loser like me so many times But please, don't pity me, I am fine I was like this all the while
I don't care for the niceties that you have I have no use of them My stale bread and cold tea is alright I am no victim of pipe dreams.
13. Scavengers Of Soul XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
There was a time when your soul used to live There was a time when you could see You realized... The truth, the stain, the wrong of your ordain And that was the day, you became a renegade.
To rise above the fruity of this glorious insanity You rise above your destiny to see the world in purity To do away this agony to make way for impunity You scavenge for a soul.
The scavengers of soul Are here So come out of your drool They are here Just stop your aimless stroll Let them tear And go scavenge a soul.
This is the time come out of your deception This is the time, time for your redemption You let go... Let go off the darker side of yours Let's put a soul into the soulless life of yours
Peel off the mask that you have donned See the truth as it beckons in the horizon Take this last chance to survive the ordeal Come out with me and let's scavenge for a soul
The scavengers of soul They stare So let's break the rules Because we dare Rampage this holy sphere And go scavenge a soul.
14. To & From Paradise XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Why do I stand up for what I know is untrue Why do I agree to the lies, the sin that is you Why do I look for what that never was there Why do I live for the mistake that I am..
May be, I am the fool of the century No thought to shed before an action A loose wheel with zero traction Lost in a dream that will never end I will be lost before a chance is on grant Lingering on the threshold of reason While the monsters come and lure me To the other side of sanity I am forever lost in a surmise On a trip to & from paradise.
Why do I do what that I hate so dearly Why do I enter into this guise that hides me Why do I betray the trust of my life Why do I accept this eternal strife..
May be, I am too far gone to be saved My confidants have all but betrayed The broken shreds are all lying about The same that once shone in pride My shrieks, they only deafen me Getting lost within the I that will never be I dream of the life that I long to live As the ghosts of past put me through another deceit Forever lost in this surmise On a trip to and from paradise.
15. Where Am I XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Where was I Somewhere in the sky So much in life, I forgot Just where was I I came back Back on the track But did I get back No, and then I cried
Did anybody hear Did anybody care Did anybody come near Did anybody wipe my tear
Where was I Somewhere in the sky On a roller coaster ride Till I was dying of agony I hung on to my dream Which ended in a scream What did this mean Will somebody explain
Can anybody see I am falling by And this is no lie I am just a failed try
Wherever am I I wish I was not there I just want to be back Back on the ground Not in some uncertainity I want to be back I want the surety To see my life as it subsides
Stop this time I want to stand I am sick of this flight I want to pull back. 16. Woo You Once More XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
I am singing A song of my mind But the words don't seem to flow
I am trying To hold mylelf But I can't and I am letting go
Just let me stay In this dream today
I am praying To freeze this time And hoping there's no tomorrow
I am living Caught in a storm Holding on to a shadow
Will it drift away Will I be alone again
I am coming Out of my sleep And it's so beautiful
I am stealing A sight of your face And keeping it....forever
Hold me and let me feel your presence Catch me in my fall from here again
I am giving A part of me To someone I don't know
I am giving All of me To someone I don't know
17. My Emptiness
My tiny emptiness that you see The little space that none has ever given its worth Even the sky has forgotten to cover it Though it has embraced the entire earth
Off wander the desires wild Over my void , seeking ground to camp on They want no shelter, no cover, no home Nothing from my empty, barren form
My emptiness calls for a soul to share Its agony and the pain of being alone But the desires they ignore, and sail yonder Leaving my emptiness, undesiredunknown
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