Hospital Gang

I woke the room was slightly lit, I could still the presence of some one in the
room. I knew it either had to be Edward because I knew his smell,
It was like honey and rose’s. I breathed in the smell of his skin. Why did he
smell good? That was one of many of the questions that were running threw my head
at that moment. I opened my eyes and looked up at the Television the news was on.
I really wasn’t in the mood to hear about gangs killing random people on the
streets in flint.
I searched with my hand for the controller I found it I flipped two channels up to
the channel I knew the young and the restless would be on. I looked at the clock
just in time, twelve-o-one. Then I forget Edward was probably watching the news so
I turned to looked at him. “ Were you watching that” I said picking up the remote
about to change it. He smile, I lost my mind a little before blinking and looking
back down. “ No” He said smiling more at me. I smiled slightly at him. “ It wasn’t
anything good anyway” He laughed I sighed. I didn’t know what I was going to do
about me , loving him, I wasn’t even sure if I really did. AHHH! I scream in my
head and covered my face with my hands and groaned out loud.
“ What’s the matter?” Edward asked his voice saddened and wondering. “ Nothing,
just have a head ache from confusion” I said shaking my head. Then he asked the
one question that I was screaming to my self that he wouldn’t ask.
“ Do you want to talk about it?” He asked me softly in a voice I didn’t know If I
could resist, it should be against the law. “ N….No..” I stuttered trying not to
burst out loud and embarrass my self to hell. He looked at me like he was looking
deep into my soul. His eye’s so mesmerizing and deep and golden bronze with a hint
of green. I stared I saw my face go blank. “ Are you sure, why can’t you talk
about it with me?” He asked in the most pleading , angelic voice I have ever heard
in my life! I was about to fall of the edge of my silence, but I had to fight it.
“ Yes I…I..am sure, and I don’t want to talk about it” I said fast stuttering a
little. I looked down. He sat up. “ Please….you can tell me anything” He pleaded.
I was dyeing inside!
“ Jesus Edward, your worse then a angel toddler with big blue eyes staring up at
you asking for a cookie” I groaned. He chuckles. “ And how is that?” He ask
smiling at me. I couldn’t breath. I put my hands on the sided of my face closed my
eyes and breathed deeply. What I was about to tell him should be no problem. I
mean tell him he was beautiful wasn’t the same as saying - I love you- right? I
opened my eyes and looked at him.
“ Because you’re the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, I’m dyeing here, it
should be illegal to be so wonderfully angelic that a person has to cling to a
cliff in their mind just to stop from blurting out the things that they are trying
not to say!” I said covering my face.
l looked after at him. He would smile slightly but seem to be thinking hard about
something. “ Are you ok?” I asked looking up at him. He looked saddened or pained,
or happy , Jesus I couldn’t tell his face was so perfect I wanted to jump up and
hug him if he felt sad. He was to amazingly caring to be pained. He didn’t answer
me. I decided to do something that would make him answer me and snap out of what
ever he was thinking of, or just give him more hint to what I was hiding but I
needed to know if he was ok. I looked at his hand and set mine of top of his
looking back up at him.
His hand was colder then normal, skin hard, but it felt good. I was almost burning
up with all the blankets the nurses put on me. He looked down quickly at our hands
and pulled his away fast.
I looked down blushing. “ I’m sorry” I said looking up at him feeling my face go
red. At least he did something. I thought to my self. “ Its ok” He said looking
down. He looked more pained. I wanted to help. “Tell me what’s wrong” I told him.
He looked up I looked straight into his eyes. I need him to tell me. I couldn’t
deal seeing him in pain in some way. “ Nothing” He said. I just stared. “ I’m the
worse liar in the world, you cant lie to me” I said seeing my saddened concerned
face in his eyes. “ I don’t want to talk about it, just like you” He told me. Just
like me, I knew what he meant, but Just like me? Could he, like me the way I liked
him to, was it possible. “ Well, mine pain is probably not the same thing that is
causing you what ever is making you look so sad” I said looking up blushing. He
smiled. I smiled back. “ I mean, cheer up, your making me want to hug you and make
you happy, stop looking so sad” I said blushing down then looking up at him. He a
small smile. “ Ok, I will be happy” He said nodding and laughing a little. I
wanted to touch his hand again. I didn’t look down I just moved my hand fast on to
his before he could move it. He went still. I looked down blushing. “ Thank you
for being happy” I said blushing deeper red at the fact he hadn’t moved yet. I
felt one of his fingers lightly rap around my pinky. I blinked. Had he really
just…
I thought to my self. I looked up he was looking down. His face confused. Happy.
Saddened lightly, but the most was the want in his face. Did he like me the way I
liked him? I asked my self once again.
After a while of watching the stupid T.V I turned it off and laid my head back on
the pillow and sighed. Edward and moved his hand by now. It was around five P.M .
I didn’t know why he was here. Why did he care. I needed to ask.
“ Edward?” I asked he was reading a book next to me. “ Yes?” He said looking up. I
looked up nervous. “ Why do you stay here with me? Why don’t you leave?” I asked
him looking into his eyes. He looked at me his eyes pained. “ I just didn’t want
you to get lonely and I like spending time with you” He said looking down I put my
hand on his, he looked up his eyes full of secrets and different emotions. I
looked at him. “ Well thank you, you’re the only person I want here, every one
else would get on my nerves” I smiled. He smiled back. I felt him once again curve
a finger over one of mine lightly. I blushed looking down. I felt another finger
intertwine with mine. I blushed deeper. I sighed and looked up at him.
His eyes were locked on our hands. I smiled a little. He looked back his face
blank but eyes still filled with something. I closed my eyes gripping his tighter
I didn’t want to let go. I sighed and let my self fall asleep. He wouldn’t be gone
when I woke up. I thought to my self as I fell into a dreamless nervous sleep.
I woke noticing I was still holding Edwards hand I smiled to my self with my eyes
closed. I looked at Edward. He quickly closed his eyes. “ I know your not
sleeping, so open your eyes” I said smiling when he looked at me. He laughed a
little. I looked at the T.V, he was watching a movie I didn’t know what it was
really. Must be a romance or something. Just the thought of that made me feel sad.
I remembered Justin. I felt a tear run down my cheek. Then another. I was crying
but not making any noise I was to worn for that. “ What’s the matter?” Edward
asked, surprisingly holding my hand tighter. “ Just remembered Justin again on
accident” I said looking down a tear running down my arm onto our hands. Well his
mostly. I saw him look down as it fell. In my most under surprise and shock he
lifted his hand and wiped the side of my face. I blushed and looking down. “ I’m
sorry” He said to me, I looked up at him, why should he be sorry for what Justin
did. “ For what, Justin is the one who hurt me” I said to him another tear
dripping downward. “ I just don’t like seeing you be sad and crying” He said in a
almost broken voice, but I couldn’t tell. Then is did something I had been
wanting to do for a while. I lifted his hand and kissed it. “ At least one person
is kind enough to deal with me” I said looking straight in his eyes. He was so
beautiful and wonderful. I was utterly in love with him, and I had no clue what to
do. I looked down and blushed. His face seemed shocked. I laughed. “ You look like
you’ve been hit in the head with a pole and you turned around to find it was your
sister” I laughed. He laughed with me. “ I just wasn’t expecting that” He said
looking down. He was nervous I could tell. Oh we was so cute when he was nervous.
His hand was still on my cheek where I set it after I kissed it. It was cold,
nice, I felt sparks go threw me. I sighed and closed my eyes. I felt him start to
move his hand I smacked it down and held it before he was just about to move it
past the railing. I blushed when our eyes met. I looked down. I didn’t really have
anything to say. He could obviously tell that I wanted to hold his hand, but I
just had to open my big mouth and say something. “ Uhh, sorry” I said blushing
pushing my self downward more.
“ I just need to hold some one’s hand” I said not bothering to look up. “ Its, ok”
Edward said. His hand had moved back on the bed and mine was on top of his. I sat
up a little , at least he didn’t pull away or get mad. I thought to my self. I
looked up. He was once again looking at our hands.
“ I wonder when I am going to be out” I said trying to change the subject. He
looked up smiling. “ Well, not for a couple more days at the least, and by then
we will be on summer break, so you wont even have to go to school” He half
laughed. I laughed also. I hoped I stayed here a little longer, at least three
more days, I wanted to by near Edward. Gahhh! I screamed in my head.
I am hopeless! I plopped my head hard on the pillow and sighed. Closed my eyes,
how was I so post to deal with this. “ What’s the matter?” Edward asked me. I
squeezed his hand and opened my eyes. “ Nothing” I said sighing.
“ Are you sure?” He looked at me once again with those horrible eyes! They were
only horrible because I couldn’t stop looking into them.
“ No” I said, I wasn’t going to lie any more, but I sure wasn’t going to tell him
what was wrong.
“ Then tell me” He said curving his hand around mine more. “ I cant….no, I don’t
want to, cant means I am not able to” I said looking down.
I knew perfectly well I was able to, I just didn’t want to, because I was scared.
“ Ok, you can talk to me when you want to” He said. I wanted to try something. I
slowly with out looking down, intertwined my pointer and thumb with his. He didn’t
move it. I slowly but carefully intertwined all of my fingers with his and
squeezed him hand. He pulled away fast then. I looked down blushing.
He didn’t want that obviously . I knew my face looked sad in some way. I knew what
he would probably do so I wasn’t very mad at him or my self. Suddenly I felt him
intertwine his fingers with mine and squeeze my hand. I had not expected that. I
looked up a little shocked but controlled my face. He looked up at me, his eyes
full of many things I wanted to know. I squeezed his hand.
“ Thank you” I said looking down. I hoped he hadn’t under stood why I couldn’t
tell him, with all the clues I’d given him I was lucky he hadn’t said it yet. He
looked at me and smiled slightly.
“ Your welcome” He said looking at our hands. When he touched me it was so light.
His hands were so cool, and hard, yet he touched so light every time. Jasper
walked in then I looked over a him he smiled I looked down and blushed. He looked
at mine and Edwards hands when Edward squeezed mine tighter. Suddenly I felt I
wanted to fly, I felt happy, I felt even more I love. He was holding my hand! I
screamed inside my head. I felt awesome. I felt confused, but mostly in love.
I breathed slowly in and out. Jasper looked at me with a confused look. Edward
looked at him for a minute then looked at me, I looked away blushing. He looked
back at Edward. I got aggravated after a minute. “ Are you two like telepathic or
something , or are you re acting paranormal activities?” I asked my eye brows
raised. They both looked back at me. “ Well come on, you look like your talking to
each other in your mind or something, I mean, how am I not going to notice, I’m
clumsy not blind” I said rolling my eyes.
“ Sorry, I was thinking and apparently so was Jasper” Edward answered me. “ How
convenient” I said narrowing my eyes and looking back at the T.V holding Edwards
hand tighter.
“ I need to go for a little, do you want to hold Jaspers hand?” Edward smiled at
me. “ No thanks” I said fast. Edward and Jasper laughed.
“ Why does he scare you?” Edward asked his eye brows raised. “ No he doesn’t. I
just like your hand better” I said folding my arms and smiling.
“ Ok then, see you later” He said getting up and walking out the door. Jasper
came to sit where Edward had been sitting. I looked at his and smiled. I missed
Edward already, I was confused, I didn’t know what to do. “ You look confused”
Jasper said his voice soft. I snorted, he made me remember Carlisle saying I
couldn’t hear.
He looked at me confused. “ Cant hear are you kidding me” I said shaking my head
and looking back at the T.V. His eyes got bigger. “ You could still hear?” He
asked. I looked at him. “ Well no duh, why do you think I was acting all weird” I
said smiling and shaking my head again. “ Cause obviously I know your different
now” I said shaking my head again. “ You haven’t told Edward?” He asked. I looked
up at him. “ No, what’s the point, I know he already knows and I am not going to
tell any one because its none of my business” I said to him like is was obvious. “
uhh, ok” He said seeming a little shocked. “ Then it wont be weird to ask you
this, since you already know how I know” He began. “ Why are you so confused and
troubled?” He asked me. I rolled my eyes. “ You think if I didn’t tell your
brother I would tell you?” I asked laughing slightly. “ Well you can tell me, I
wont tell any one” He said softly in a mesmerizing voice, wasn’t was bad as
Edwards thou.
I looked up at him. “ Don’t try that , voice and face crap with me, Edward
already tried that I nearly fell off a cliff, so I don’t think yours is going to
work if I’m still hanging on” I said smiling at him. He smiled back. “ Ok then” He
said. I was very confused, and he could tell, I started thinking about what I was
going to do, how was I going to tell him, if I didn’t tell him how was I going to
get threw not telling him, and seeing him every day.
How was I going to get over him, I had to see him every day. What would he think
if I told him? I started having a panic attack inside my mind. I started breathing
harder. I felt Jaspers cold hand go on my arm. “ What’s the matter, don’t tell me
nothing because , your panicking and going crazy inside your head” He said letting
go of my arm when I looked up at him. Then I let go, I let all my feels go inside
my mind. I let the feeling of love that I had been hiding when ever Jasper came
around, pour into my mind, and soul, and body.
I felt tears go down my cheeks. I looked up at him I could see my big confused, in
love , pained, blue eyes in his. “ Oh” , was all he said. I looked down.
“ Who?” He asked me softly. I just look up and didn’t speak, I looked harder to
make him under stand. “ Oh” He said his eyes getting a little bigger.
I looked down. I didn’t want to do any more. I curled in a ball. I had no I.VS in
any more, just a heart monitor and a clip on my toe. They only gave my the I.VS
every 4 hours for 6 hours. They took them out wile I was sleeping. I took the
pillow out from under my head and turned over to face jasper and curled up into a
ball again and looked at the floor. I felt sad now. “ Why are you sad?” He asked
me touching my arm. “ I don’t know” I said.
I wanted to cry, so I did, I sobbed once and again, for ten minutes till I could
cry no more. Jasper gave me some tissue. “ Thanks” I said looking up at him. “ Was
it you who made me calm, when…when..” I asked not able to say any more. He nodded.
“ Can you?” I asked trailing off. He nodded and put his hand on my arm again. My
eyes started to close and I was sleeping.
I was swimming alone, but the water was dark, I looked up and saw the moon, The
water felt good. I swam deeper and farther. I heard a noise like some one was
swimming behind me. I looked back, there was a figure, I couldn’t see who or what
it was, all I knew was it was swimming closer to me. I swam farther trying to get
away from who, or what it was. Suddenly my foot got stunk in a chain. It twisted
around my ankle. I couldn’t breath, I needed to get up and get more air. I looked
at the shape, I could see it now, I t was a girl, her face with a evil grin and
her hair , black as coal her face paler in the moon lit water. I tried to swim
away but I couldn’t get free. My mouth suddenly came open. Water filed my lungs I
started choking. Trying to scream. I was going to die! “ Olivia!, Olivia!” I heard
Jaspers voice awaken me from my death dream, I opened my eyes and clutched the
railings breathing deeply in and out. “ I ..had. A night mere” I said trying to
breath. “ I know, you were screaming and kicking” He said shaking his head. “ I
was drowning and this,….girl Was coming after me” I said calming down with Jaspers
touch. “ oh, well your not drowning now” He laughed. I laughed breathlessly. “
Thank god.. No Thank Jasper” I said shaking my head. He laughed. “ Do you want to
go back to sleep?” He asked. “ No, can you give me the remote” I asked. It was
eleven and a movie called, Thy England love, was on. It was a love movie, a sad
movie, but I didn’t care, I loved it.
“ No, I love you, never doubt that my darling!” Mary one of the lead people said
to Josh her lover, or her England love I should say. I sighed and set my head
back.
I cried when Mary jumped off a bridge because Josh had been murdered my a gang.
When the movie ended I looked back at jasper, “ I’m bored” I laughed slightly. I
saw some one had brought my laptop here, “ Jasper, will you get that more me and
plug it in?” I asked him. He smiled and nodded then plugged it in and gave it to
me.
After logging in and everything. I went to Micro soft to write more in a book I
was writing called,
“ My souls Angel”. I loved writing after writing about five pages I saved it and
closed it. I went to
you tube to listen to music. I got bored with that and closed the laptop then set
it on the table beside me. I looked at Jasper, I was bored so I just looked at
him. “ What are you doing?” He asked smiling. “ I’m bored so I’m counting in my
head wile looking at some one who is beautiful, I do it to Edward all the time” I
laughed. I closed my eyes once again thinking about Edward. I started to get sad,
I know Jasper could sense that. “ Don’t be sad, I’m sure something good will
happen” He said to me. I opened my eyes he smiled. I smiled a little smile back
and sighed. “ I hope so” I said staring at the ceiling. I sighed again. I didn’t
know what I was going to do, would I tell him, would I let Jasper tell him , I
mean I wouldn’t mind if Jasper told him. As long as they were in a different room,
but I didn’t know yet if , I really wanted some one else to tell him. “ Hey, I’m
back” Edward said, strolling in like he just got back from a run way shoot. I
didn’t smile, I didn’t look at him, or even say anything, I continued to stare at
the ceiling. I sighed when he sat down next to Jasper.
“ She ok?” He asked Jasper. Jasper didn’t answer.
Jasper knew I loved Edward, Jasper knew how I felt right now, and there for he
knew I didn’t want him to say anything right now. Edward just looked at me. I
didn’t say anything. Him and Jasper switched seat. I felt Edward set his hand ever
so lightly on mine. I felt empty right now, Jasper would know that. I saw Edward
glance at Jasper for a minute. He looked at me. I sighed and glanced at him then
looked at the wall. “ You ok?” He asked me holding my hand tighter.
“ Not really” I answered him. Then looked back up at the ceiling. “ Jasper can
you?” I asked him, knowing he would know what I was talking about.
I wanted to go to sleep, I didn’t want Edward asking me any more questions. Edward
looked at Jasper confused, then his face went into under standing. “ Yes” He said
setting his hand on my arm net to Edwards. “ Thanks” I sighed and rolled over in a
ball. I was only half asleep, Jasper took his hand off me, he knew I just wanted
to be calm and sleepy enough to not cry, or feel horrible.
I felt Edwards cool hand go up my arm and down over and over again. I sighed. “
She knows?” I heard Edward ask Jasper. “ Yes, turns out she was able to hear
yesterday” Jasper answered him.
“ How did she know about your mood abilities?”
Edward asked him. “ She guessed” He answered a slight amusement in his tone. “ I
see” Edward said. He was still rubbing my arm when I feel sleep.
I dreamt of nothing at first. Then, I had that same drowning dream from earlier.
Again I woke , by Jasper and Edward saying my name. “ Sorry, night mere, again” I
said sighing and looking at Edward.
“ Again?” He asked looking toward Jasper.
“ Yeah, she fell sleep and had one while you were gone” Jasper told him. “ What
was it about Olivia?” he asked me. “ umm, me drowning, and some girl coming after
me, I don’t know” I said still half awake. “ Well, your fine now” Edward said
smiling at me a little. “ Yup” I said leaning my head back. I smiled at him, I
was feeling better with him holding my hand. I was still confused on what to do,
but I was going to stop thinking about that for a little while , I intertwined our
fingers, he didn’t move this time just did the same and held my hand. Maybe, just
maybe he liked, me to.
Maybe even love me! No. No, don’t get all hopeful. I thought to my self. Just take
what you get. I sighed. I am so hopeless.

Finding out

After about ten minutes of sitting in silence I was beginning to get aggravated ,
I was bored, and confused.
“ What’s the matter? I sense aggravation” Jasper asked me. I looked up, “ I’m just
bored” I sighed. Jasper chuckled a little, “ Well, you shouldn’t have been walking
down the hall with your eyes closed” Jasper said. I was instantly reminded of
Justin. I let go of Edward’s hand and curled up into a ball. A couple of tears ran
down my face.
“ Jasper..” Edward began. “ Sorry” Jasper said his face apologetic. I didn’t
really love Justin anymore, after I found out I loved Edward, all those feelings
toward Justin disappeared. I was just sad because of what he did to me. I would
never forgive him. “ Its ok” I heard Edward say I felt him cold hand on my back
rubbing it.
“ I know, I’m just never going to be able to forgive him, I mean I don’t love him
anymore, all those feelings disappeared , but what he did was horrible” I said
sitting up and curling in a sideways ball facing Edward and Jasper. “ I know” He
said setting his hand next to me. Just then I noticed how hungry I was! My stomach
was like starving, I wanted to throw up because I was so hungry.
“ Jesus!” I said sitting up. “ What?” They both said confused and alarmed. “ I’m
going to throw up I’m so hungry” I said clutching my stomach.
“ Why didn’t you tell any one?” Edward asked his face still confused. “ Because I
just realized it” I said plopping down on the pillow. I hit the call button and
told the nurse I needed food. I am type one diabetic so the nurse has to bring my
food, sugar monitor and insulin. Wait Jasper and Edward didn’t know I was
diabetic, one of them might be a blood fainter, like I used to be. I decided to
warn them. “ You might want to go out if you faint or puke with blood” I said.
Their faces looked confused. I sighed. “ I have to check my sugar, I’m diabetic” I
told them. Their faces went normal. “ Ok, Jasper will leave” Edward said.
Jasper must be a blood fainter. I laughed inside.
“ So you will be fine?” I asked smiling at Edward.
He smiled back. “ I should be” He said and backed up a little when the nurse
needed to get on the side he was on. “ Can you do it or you need me to?” The nurse
who name tag said Judy Clark asked me. I smiled at her. “ I can do it” I said
taking the piece of cloth, strip , lancer and monitor from her. I got the blood
to the top of my pointer finger and set the Lancer, for five. I put it up to my
finger and pressed the button and the lancet in side poked my finger. I put the
blood on the strip and into the monitor. The nurse looked up at, “ Oh goodness.
You need to eat before you pass out” She said showing me it. “ Wow” I said
grabbing a fry off the plate. My sugar level was thirty, that was so not good. “
Thirty is horrible, last time it was that low, I almost when into a coma” I
shuttered. I grabbed like three fries and stuffed them in my mouth. The nurse
laughed at that.
“ Well take your insulin before you eat any more” She said giving me a syringe
with my insulin in it, I still had pants on but a cloth night gown. I kicked the
blanket off and lifted the night gown to show the part of my stomach I need to
insert it at. I put the needle in my skin and vastly pushed the plunger and it was
in. It stung a little. “ Ouch” I said when I pulled it out. “Did it hurt?” The
nurse said taking it and throwing it in the trash. “ Not that much only a little,
my stomachs always been my soft spot” I laughed, she chuckled I hear Edward
chuckle. “ Oh hello Edward, Dr. Cullen will be in soon to do a Doctor and Patient
hour” She said smiling at him and walking out. I stuffed my face with a couple
more fries. Edward laughed. “ What I’m starving here” I said glaring at him. He
laughed again. “ Come back in Jazz” Edward said. Oh so that was him nick name. “
What’s your nick name?” I asked Edward. He looked embarrassed. “ Eddie bear” He
said softly. I laughed and the pop I was drinking came out my nose. “ Crap!” I
said smacking my forehead. Edward and Jasper laughed. “ So not funny” I said
wiping off my face and neck. “ Of coarse not” Edward said still laughing. “ Ok,
stop, she getting aggravated” Jasper said smiling at me. I mock smiled back and
angrily stuffed a piece of grilled cheese on my mouth. When I was done the nurse
came back, checked my sugar, it was good, ninety. I wanted to read, my favorite
books were twilight. I adored them. “ Can you hand me my book out of my bag
please?” I asked Jasper, well I was looking at him when I said it. It was really
meant for any one who heard it. He nodded and smiled at me. “ Which one?” He asked
holding all four books. “ Umm, breaking dawn, it’s the last book and I have only
read it five times” I said smiling. Edward laughed. “ What are all the names of
the books?” Edward asked smiling at me. “ Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking
Dawn” I said Sighing when Jasper came over and have me the book. I opened it and
started reading. I was reading the part were the vampire boy was mad because he
bruised Bella his human wife when they “ Did it”. He was getting all protective
and mad at him self. “ Uh why are vampire husbands so over protective!” I groaned.
I realized I said it out loud. Jasper and Edward were staring at me with, “ What
the….” looks on their faces. “ Sorry, didn’t mean to , say that out loud, got into
the book a little to much” I said looking over them then starting to read again.
I as reading the part where Bella was going to kill her best friend for
imprinting when I did it again!
“ No don’t kill the were wolf!” I screeched. Jasper and Edward looked at me again.
“ Sorry” I said closing the book and setting it down. “ I , just get into the
books very easy, and the girl was going to kill her best friend who was a were
wolf because he imprinted on her half vampire and half human baby!” I said. I
shook my head. “ I’m a crazy person” I said throwing the book down on the floor by
my bag. Edward laughed a little. I sighed.
“ Can I see one of your books?” Edward asked.
“ Well, only if you read then the corrected way I said giving him the first book.
I watched him face while he was reading, it would was blank , some times he would
laugh. Also it was shocked some times. When he was finished he handed it to
Jasper. “ Did you like it?” I asked. he smiled at me. “ It was, interesting” He
said grabbing new moon. Then giving it to Jasper and grabbing Eclipse. The trading
went on till they both read all the books. They looked flabbergasted.
“ You guys look, I don’t know but wow, you read a lot” I said half laughing. They
both just nodded.
“ Haven’t you realized your life is just like the…” Jasper started to say but
Edward looked at him, with a look that told him to shut up. I was confused, what
could be mean, like what? My life was like what!? I gave up, I didn’t know or care
right now. I took Edwards hand he looked up at me. “ You ok? You look, sad or
wanting” I said looking him in the eyes. I didn’t want him to be sad, he was to
wonderful for that, he deserved better, he was kind, caring, and gentle. “ Yeah”
He said his face pained. “ No your not” I stated, he did not look ok, he wasn’t go
to lie to me, even thou I was lying to him. “ Tell me what’s wrong” I half
demanded him. “ I don’t want to” He said I sighed and intertwined my fingers in
his he did the same and squeezed my hand. “ Ok, tell me when you want to” I said
looking up into his eyes. He was so wonderful, I couldn’t stand it! I am so
hopeless! I screamed in my head. I sighed again.
“ Are you ok?” He asked the one question I was begging he didn’t ask. I couldn’t
answer him, emotions flooded threw me. I saw Jasper stiffen, he knew why I was
acting this way. Edward looked at Jasper back at me, then Jasper, then me. He let
go of my hand I looked down face red.
He sat up. He just stared at Jasper. “ Jasper tell me, your hiding something from
me!” He said sternly. “ No, I cant, I promised” Jasper shook his head. “ Who?”
Edward asked. “ Olivia, I promised her I wouldn’t tell you” he answered. “ So she
told you but not me?“ He asked him. “ No, her feelings showed me, and I guessed”
He said gripping the sides if his head. I was confused. What was going on, I was
getting more and more into a panic.
“ Tell me” Edward demanded. I never thought his voice could be mad or angry but it
was, I was getting kind of scared. “ Cant , must think of something else” Jasper
said. “ WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!” I screeched. “ Edward…c..can read minds,
b..but can’t read yours” Jasper stuttered. Now I knew why he was trying to think
of something else. “ Well think if buses! Just don’t think about what I told you!”
I yelled, and I realized I said to much, he must have slipped because his face
went blank. “ I..I’m sorry Olivia” he whispered. I groaned and threw the blanket
over my head. A couple minutes later, I looked up at Edward his face in shock, in
under standing, I didn’t know what to do. “ Uhhhh!” I groaned again throwing the
pillow of my face.
“ What…How…Why…Not....Possible….Possible” Edward said staring blankly at the
wall. I sighed. I wanted to sleep, get away from this mess, Jasper sensed that and
I was covered in sleepy fog, I drifted to sleep. Darkness over powering me.
I couldn’t stay asleep. I was getting more depressed and Jasper sensed it but he
didn’t do anything. He probably thought I was very mad at him. I wasn’t, it was my
fault. I feel in love with Edward, I knew this day would come. I opened my eyes.
Edward was laying on the fold out bed in the corner that the Hospital had for over
nights.
I sighed and curled into a ball. “ I’m sorry” Jasper said speaking to me for the
first time since Edward found out. “ Its not your fault” I said sitting up and
setting my legs on my head. “ Don’t be sad” Jasper said touching my arm, his skin
felt even colder to me, because I was half burning up. I shivered. He pulled away
and sighed also. I was just about to lay back down when I looked at the door,
there in the door way , was my mother, and Noel my step Nephew. “ Mom!” I said
sitting up fast she half ran into the room coming over pushing the left railing
down and pulling me in for a tight hug. I wanted to cry, so I did, I sobbed into
her. “ Shhh, don’t cry” She said rubbing the back of the head, she sat down and I
laid my head on her legs. She rubbed my face for a little. I sat back up and she
sat more to the end and picked up Noel. She set him beside her. Noel is almost
five. He stood up on his cute little legs and walked over to me. He stopped in
front of me. “ Don’t be sad, we here” He said falling into a hug with me. I
squeezed him tightly never wanting to let go.
“ I love you Olive” He said, he called me Olive because he couldn’t yet say
Olivia. I laughed. “ Olive loves you to” I said tears running down my face a
little. Noel put his little hand on my ace where a tear was. “ Don’t cry” He said
looking at me in the face. I looked down and smiled. “ Ok my little babes” I said
smiling and looking up at him. He laughed, his laugh a cute little thing. He sat
down in my lap. He looked over Jasper and his eyes got very big. “ He’s pretty!”
Noel said pointing at Jasper jumping up and down in my lap. I laughed. “ Yes, very
pretty” I said laughing Jasper laughed to. “ Mom, I didn’t know you would be here,
where’s Julie?” I asked her. Julie is my step sister, Noels mom. “ She’s in the
bath room, oh and she had her baby!” My mom said smiling at me. “ Really!” I said,
I was so happy for her, I loved children and babies. “ Boy or girl and what did
she name it?” I asked bouncing Noel on my lap, he was giggling like crazy. “ It’s
a girl and she wants you to name it” She said, I was shocked, I never thought any
one would do such a nice thing for me. “ Really!!!!!!!” I half screamed. “Yes,
because she knows how much you love Babies and she couldn’t decide on just one
name” She said smiling and sitting next to Jasper, she looked shocked also when
she saw him but just looked back at me. “ Remind me to sign up to be her slave” I
said looking down at Noel. “ Olive my baby sister is cute” He said looking up at
me.
“ I bet she is Noels” I said laughing. He soot dup and turned around. “ Patty cake
Olive” He said putting his hands up. I put my hands on his over and over again.
This is what he calls patty cake.
He giggled and I smiled at him, when he got bored he turned to Jasper, “ What your
friend name?” He asked. “ His names Jasper, but call him what ever you want,
because I don’t think you can say jasper” I said holding Noels waist so he didn’t
fall. “ Yes I can, see Japper “ He said pointing at Jasper. Jasper laughed. “
Gahh!” Noel said folding his arms. “ Fine me cant say it, but me call him Japper”
he said un folding his arms nad sitting down his little legs hanging off the bed.
“ Who the other pretty person?” Noel said pointing at Edward. “ That’s Edward, but
call him what ever you can say” I said smiling at him. “ He want to do see him, he
al the way other their” Noel said his voice high with frustration. “ Well take
your little booty over there” I said setting him down on the floor. I looked over
at Edward who seemed to be sleeping. Oh well. I got kind of sad thinking of
Edward, but that went right away when I saw Noel run over there and jump on top of
his attacking Edward. I laughed. “ Noels!” I said laughing. Edward fake screamed
and started tickling Noel. Noel was laughing wildly. “ No more!” He said after a
wile. “ Ok fine” Edward said. Noel stood up. “ Me want to sit with Edwarb” Noel
said sitting down by Edward. “ He more funs when you peoples” Noel said sitting
his chin on his hands. “ Awe” I said making a sad face.
“ Ok, I come over there” Noel said jumping up and running back o the side of the
bed. I picked him back up and hugged him. My mom laughed and stood up. “ Mommies
going to be here with little sister soon so come sit with G” My mom said. She
looked young to be a grandma. I set Noel down and he walked slow motion to her. I
laughed. Julie opened the door a couple minutes later with a blanket in her arms.
I already knew what would be in it. The baby I get to name.
She walked over and stood by me. “ So your mom already told you, I was letting you
name the baby” She said smiling at me. I nodded. “ Yes she did, thank you so much
Julie. I think I’m going to cry” I said a tear slipping out of my eye. I was
laughing at the same time. “ Its nothing, you know how much I love ya sis” She
said one arm hugging me. “ Can I hold her?” I asked holding my arms out for her. “
Of coarse” she said handing me the little bundle. I moved the blanket from my
babies head. She was beautiful , her skin a light snowy white, her cheeks flushed
with light pink. Her hair a light black and mixed with chocolate. “ She’s
wonderful, Julie” I said picking up the little girls hands. “ You don’t have to
name her now, I’ll be here all night, I have no were else to go” She said laughing
and sat down next to Jasper. “ Mom, why hasn’t Mike came yet” I asked, I really
thought he would have come to check up by now. “ Oh, he will later, he’s with
John, probably playing cards or something” She said to me looking at her phone. “
Oh” I said looking down at the wonderful knew niece in my arms. She was small,
tiny little thin, cute and adorable in all her features. Yet she looked humble and
devoting. Her little face showing pureness. “ I know what to name her” I said
looking up at Julie. She looked up from her book smiling. “ What?” She asked.
“ Andrea, because it means Small yet Humble” I said looking down at the baby when
she raped her hind around my thumb. “ That’s cute, I love it” She said smiling at
me. I smiled at her. I was so happy. I loved Julie, she was the best step sister
ever. “ Thank you” I said looking down at Andrea.
“ I want to hold baby!” Noel said running over. Julie helped him up. He sat in my
lap and I set Andrea in his lap. He held her hand. “ Andrea” He said saying her
name perfectly. “ Very good” I said. He giggled. After a couple minutes, he
climbed down. I stared at little Andrea. “ Your so cute” I said touching her
little pink cheeks. She giggled. I smiled. She was so cute, the cutest baby ever
maybe. “ Yes you are” I said in a baby voice.

She giggled again I giggled to. She kicked her little legs a little when I tickled
her chin. “ Little Andrea so cute” I said kissing her on the forehead. She giggled
again. I hadn’t noticed Edward had moved over by Jasper. I felt a cold hand on my
arm. I looked up at him then back down at Andrea. I was getting scared. I still
didn’t know what to do. I let that thought go and decided to stay happy with the
baby. “ She’s so cute” I said looking at Julie. “ Yes, she is” She said smiling
back. I looked up at Edward he was looking at Andrea. “ You want to hold her?” I
asked him. His eyes flickered to my face he smiled a little. “ Sure” He said. I
handed her to him. They looked to cute together. It was heart breaking. I almost
cried. Jasper laughed. I glared at him and he put his hands up in the air I
laughed and looked back at Edward and Andrea. Edward sat on the bed next to me. I
decided to do something. I sat up and leaned against his shoulder. It was hard and
cold , I didn’t care I wanted to be near him. It was unfair, why did I have to be
the one to fall in love with him. I reached my hand out and touched the babies
foot. My mom and Julie kept looking at us smiling. I looked down and blushed when
they looked at each other with. “ They look perfect together” looks on their
faces. I tickled the Andrea’s foot and she giggled I giggled to. Edward just
smiled. I would enjoy this moment. I feared it would not be long till my
depression slipped back and Edward did not like to be around me any more. I was
beginning to get sad, but I pushed it away with all my internal might and focused
on this precious moments. Andrea was so adorable and beautiful. Edward was
wonderful and incredible, and I was hopeless. I laughed at my self. “ What” Edward
asked stilling looked down at Andrea. “ Nothing” I said reaching over and putting
my finger underneath Andrea’s little chin. She giggled and cooed. I looked up at
my mom. She was giving me and Edward, “ Aren’t they just adorable” looks. I looked
down and blushed. “ Stop it mom” I said getting embarrassed. “ What, I’m not doing
anything” She said raising her hands trying to act all innocent. “ Sure you
aren’t” I said smiling slightly and looking back at Andrea. I knew Edward could
read my mothers thoughts and that was making me more embarrassed and
uncomfortable. I started to think about how Edward was just so unbelievable and
flawless, wonderful, beautiful, perfect. It was getting out of hand. I shook my
head trying to clear it. Edward looked down at me smiling. I looked down flushing
red. Breath, breath, I thought to my self before I started to hyperventilate. “ Do
you want her back now?” He asked me holding Andrea toward me. Well I needed
something to stop me from tackling him so I might was well. “ Sure” I said smiling
then getting drowned in his eyes. I looked down as soon as I got Andrea. She was
half sleep. I rubbed the side of her hand wile she fell sleep. I put my legs up
and the bed and covered up and laid against the pillow. Andrea looked so cute
sleeping her little snore like a hum. Noel was watching T.V from the bed in the
corner. I wished I could have saved that moment and locked it in a pocket for when
ever I may need it. I saw Julie and my mom stand up. “ We are going to go get some
food, we’ll be back in a little” my mom said as she opened the door for Julie and
they both walked out. “Ok” I whispered looking down at the sleeping baby angel in
my arms. “ She is beautiful” Edward said reaching over and touching her hand. I
blushed and looked up. “ Yeah” I said stroking the little locks of hair on her
head. “Olive, I’m tired” Noel complained walking over and putting his hands on the
railings. “ Well come up here silly” I said reaching one arm out. He rapped his
hands on it and I pulled him up. He laid next to me and pushed his legs into the
blanket I rapped one arm around him and rubbed him arm. I laughed slightly when he
sighed loud and closed his eyes. He fell sleep fast. After a couple minutes Edward
carried him to the other bed so I wouldn’t be squished. I Held Andrea with both
arms so she wouldn’t roll off me. I closed my eyes so I could rest. I never wanted
this time to end. I felt a cold hand on the side of my face. I opened my eyes.
Edward pulled his hand away and looked down. Gosh he’s so cute! I thought wile
blushing deep red. “ Sorry” He said in his soft angelic voice. I looked up smiling
a little. “ Its ok” I said reaching over and setting my hand on his. He looked up,
his eyes filled with want, pain, sadness, happiness, I put the hand back on the
baby and closed my eyes. Once again he set his hand on my face. He was cold. Hard.
Yet I felt warm and whole inside with every touch and ever breath he made. I
breathed deep in the strange sweet scent of his skin. I was getting very tired. I
was about to fall sleep when , Andrea started crying. I opened my eyes and looked
at her. “Shhh” I said rubbing her cheek. I set her up so her head was on my
shoulder. I patted her back. “ Shhh, don’t cry” I said trying to calm her. I
bounced her lightly. She stopped crying after a couple seconds. I sighed and laid
her back normal. She just stared at the ceiling chewing on her fingers. I rubbed
her little hand and watched her. I felt Edwards hand go on my arm. I looked up
flushing like I always go when I looked at him or he touches me. I heard Noel
whine. “ Olive!” he started crying. I watched as Edward went over and picked him
up and carried him over to me. “ I cant hold both of them” I said laughing
slightly. Edward smiled back his breath taking smile and patted Noels back and
bounced him up and down. “ Shhhh” Edward said in his soothing angel voice. Noel
stopped and rested his head on Edward. Edward sat down. Edward’s different from
boys his age. I thought to my self. Just then my mom walked in with Julie and some
boy. “ Were back and look who’s here, Cole” She said smiling at the boy with
blonde hair who just walked in. I didn’t think I knew him. I took in his face for
a little wile longer. Now I know! “ Hey Cole!” I said smiling at my former step
brother. “ Hey sis” he said coming over and standing by me. I one sat up and one
armed hugged him as he hugged me. “ I missed you so much” I said laying back down.
“ I missed you to” He said sitting down next to Edward. “ Who’s your friends?” He
asked smiling at me. “ Edward and Jasper” I said pointing to each of them. “ Cool”
Cole said pulling out his I-POD. “ Yeah” I said looking down at Andrea. I didn’t
talking to Cole after that, he just listened to his I-POD. I watched as Andrea
drifted back to sleep. I hoped her dreams were good. I set one hand on the bed
because if was starting to fall sleep. I felt Edward take it. I looked up blushing
like always. He looked at me smiling. I smiled back face still flushed slightly.
Of coarse Cole was looking at our exchange. I heard his soft whisper of “ Ok then”
I didn’t pay attention thou. As I was thinking of Edward and all his wonderful
flawlessness. I began to realize a hundred things at once. Jasper had said, “
Haven’t you realized your life is just like the…” after he had just read the
Twilight books. Edward had cut him off. Jasper can change moods! Edward can red
minds! I live in a cold raining place. I am in a hospital. I am in love with
Edward. His last name is Cullen. His fathers name is Carlisle Cullen, his mothers
name is Esmee Cullen. I have a best friend who said he’s hot. My best friend
suddenly was bigger! As I processed this, I was breathing heavily. Oh my god my
life’s like a repeat of Twilight! I screamed inside my head. Is it possible,
could, something like that really come true. Of coarse not, I’m crazy, insane!
Wait, then why do all the clues fit! I felt like I was about to have heart
attack. I could hear ym heart accelerate on the heart monitor. “ Olivia are you
ok?” my mom said getting up and putting her hands on my face. Julie came and took
the baby.
“ No I don’t think I am” I answered being the stupid me. “ What’s wrong” She asked
her eyes frightened. “ I don’t know exactly” I said still turning and churning the
clues, idea’s and possibilities in my mind. I felt weird, pained, confused, sad,
in love, every feeling in the world! I must be going crazy I thought to my self! I
knew Jasper could tell how I was feeling and I knew Edward could read Jaspers
mind. My life really is turning into a book repeat! I screamed in my head. I was
beginning to toss and breath hard. I still didn’t believe my self. I was beginning
to be scared, thou I didn’t know what I was scared for. I felt Edward hands on my
arm. “ I’ll get my father” Edward said letting go of my arm and walking fast and
swiftly yet gracefully out the door. “ It will be ok” My mom said holding my hand
tight. I was beginning to sob and toss in every direction and cry. I couldn’t
control my movements and I couldn’t stop crying. Julie took Andrea and Noel out in
the hall way. Suddenly Dr. Cullen and Edward came threw the door’s Carlisle coming
right up to me as did Edward. I couldn’t stop.
“ What’s wrong with her?” I heard Edward said in a urgent, frightened voice. That
made it worse, I was thrashing now and I heard a ear piercing cream come from me.
couldn’t see threw the tears in my eyes. Suddenly my whole body hurt, like it had
been hit a thousand time with a iron baseball bat. “ I don’t know, I think she’s
having a part heart attack and panic attack at the same time” I heard Carlisle
say. My chest hurt so bad! I clutched it. “ Call the nurse’s “ I heard Carlisle
say in a tone that told me I wasn’t “ Okay”. I hard Edward in the hall yelling for
nurse’s I felt my self being lifted up. I heard my mom beside me. “ You going to
be ok” I heard her cry. I knew she was crying right now. I felt Edward put his
hand over mine. I stopped tossing right away. His touched calmed me and made me
not so scared in a strange way. I started to feel numb, now I couldn’t move. My
eyes started to be covered in blackness. Next thing I knew. I was in the darkness
of my mind. I couldn’t move, I could only see the dark. I tried to move, talk, but
I couldn’t. I tried to pull a picture of Edward up but I couldn’t. I gave into the
darkness. I couldn’t fight any longer. I began to feel like I was in that lake of
glue. It got lighter little by little. Soon my eyes were open. I felt I.V’S in my
arms, neck and tubes in my nose, down my nose. I still couldn’t move. I felt a
cold hard touch. I knew who it was as soon as the touch registered to my brain. I
turned my head slightly for it still hurt and Edwards worried and relieved face
look down at me. “Edward” I said my voice quite and rough. “ I’m here, and so it
your mom, brother, Julie, Andrea and Noel” He said reaching over to take my hand.
Suddenly I felt little hands on my left arm. I looked over and Noel was sitting on
the bed and looking up at me with sad eyes.
“ Are you ok?” He asked me looking like he was going to cry. “ I don’t know” I
answered him. He laid his end gently on my arm and put his legs under the blanket
with mine. I was in a much bigger room, with a bigger bed , more chairs, and more
big machines. I didn’t want to ask what they had to do. “ Mom” I said looking over
to see her sitting beside me. “ I’m here” She said looking sad, and tired as ever.
“ Oh mom, get some sleep please for me” I said letting go of her hand.
“ Ok for you” She said smiling unsure back at me and kissing me on the forehead
then walking over to the couch by the window and laying down.
I looked back over at Edward. His eyes pained , wanting, and confused. I needed to
tell him my self. He needed to know I loved him. I didn’t know how to tell him
thou. I felt tears come from my eyes. I couldn’t tell him right now I would start
crying again. Edward reached over and wiped the tears away. I reached up and put
my hand on his and held it there. I breathed in his scent for a second. I opened
my eyes and he was looking at me with the most, heartbreaking, tear starting
expression. I felt more tears come and I couldn’t see very well. I looked down
starting to sob. I knew My mom would know I was ok as long as I wasn’t screaming.
So I didn’t stop. I partly saw Cole, Julie and the kids go out. After a minute my
mom came over and part hugged me and went out to along with Jasper. “ What’s the
matter?” I heard Edward ask putting his cool, yet some how warming hand on my arm.
“ I don’t know exactly” I half lied and have told the truth. I only knew I loved
Edward and that was part of it, but the other part of me, was scared, hurt,
pained, wanting and I didn’t understand that part. He looked at me, with a pained,
wanting, confused, caring expression. I didn’t know if I was strong enough to keep
in it. “ About what you stopped Jasper from saying earlier” I began to say, I
looked up at him. His face was blank but his eyes full of emotions. “ Was, he
trying to say, that my life’s become a book repeat?” I asked him knowing that it
was, I just needed him to agree or say something. “ Why would you think that?” He
asked his face clueless, but I knew he wasn’t confused, or clueless with this
subject. “ Because Edward” I said my voice hard and annoyed.
“ One, you father is a doctor , his name is Carlisle, your mothers name is Esmee,
one of your brothers in Jasper. Two, you can read minds and Jasper can change and
sense moods! Three your name is Edward Cullen! Four, your whole family is
unspeaking beautiful and your cold and hard!” I said holding the sides of my head.
“ Oh” Was all he said. I wasn’t going to say and you’re a vampire because he would
think I was crazy, I really wasn’t going to believe vampires were real.
“ Now tell me the truth Edward, do you or do you not see that this is just like
the book!” I half screamed aggravated and in love with him at the same time. “ We
shouldn’t talk about this here” He said looking at me with those mesmerizing
golden green and half black tinted eyes. “ You know what fine” I said folding my
arms over my chest.
I felt him put his hand on my arm I pushing it away and turned on my side. A nurse
walked it.
“ It seems you are fine now, Dr. Cullen will be in now” She said as Carlisle
walked in. She walked quickly out. “ It seems your doing fine , and you should be
able to go home now, unless you have another episode you should be fine” He said
smiling wile writing on a clipboard with papers on it. He gave it to me and I
signed where he said to.
“ Thank you” I said sitting up. Two nurse’s came in and started taking the Iv’s
and tubes out.
“Ouch” I said as they pulled the last one out. They said sorry and washed their
hands. I needed to get dressed so obviously didn’t want Edward in here, I was so
embarrassed. “ Can you go please” I said as I stood up. He nodded and walked into
the hall. I put on the gray sweat pants and red tee-shirt that was in my bag some
one brought. After that I brushed my dark and badly needing a wash, hair and put
it up in a pony tail and slipped on my socks and shoes. “ I’m ready” I said
walking up to my mom. I noticed Edward wasn’t there.
“ Where’s Edward?” I asked, she looked around and then looked at me with her “ Oh
I remember” face on. “ Oh, he went home he said to tell you he will see you in
school tomorrow, since it is the last day” She said taking my bags and putting her
arm around my waist. “ Oh last day?” I asked confused, I hadn’t been counting but
wow. Last day. “ Yep” She said. We didn’t talk on the way to Mikes, the only noise
was Andrea’s and Noels light snoring and my I-POD on which I was playing one of my
favorite songs, Shake it by Rediscover. When we got there Mike ran up and hugged
me. “ I’m ok dad” I said before he could worry. “ Hey John” I said going up and
hugging my step father John.
“ have had a long how ever many days I was there, so I am going to lay down” I
said smiling and kissing Noel and Andrea on the head. I walked up the stairs, it
hurt a little I was a little stiff, but when I laid down on my comfy cool bed I
felt better. I kicked off my stupid shoes and socks along with my jacket. I took
my hair down. I didn’t care if I wasn’t that tired. I wanted to see Edward in my
dreams, in a world were I could be with him, and he with me and not worry about
parents, teachers, school’s or stupid book repeats. I fell sleep not to long after
cuddling into the blanket. I sighed when I fell deep into my dark yet happy dream
land.
Talking

When I woke, my head hurt badly. One because all my dreams were of how Edward
would hate me after we talked. When ever that would be. I was getting more and
more depressed by the thought every second. “ Honey?” I heard my mothers voice
come from the hallway. “ I’m awake” I called to her. She walked threw the door and
came over to sit on the side of my bed.
“ I have to go soon” She said sadly, knew how much she missed me. I wasn’t going
to make her chose though, that was wrong of me. I knew better, so I would just do
what I knew is best.
“ I will miss you, but this isn’t the last time we will see each other, I am
coming down in a couple of weeks” I said trying to cheer her. She smiled, but I
knew she was sad inside, yet I knew she was happy also. “ Yes, you will, and I
will email and call you from now to then, and so forth” She said laughing slightly
at her use of words. “ So forth” was one of her favorite things to say. “ Yes, so
forth” I said and laughed slightly also. “ Oh, and since your seventeenth birthday
is in four days and I won’t be here, what do you want?” She asked smiling and half
laying down next to me so we would talk. “ Well, of course , you know I love
books…” I began, she nodded. I started up again.
“ But, will admit, my new obsession in movies has turned to the Pirates Of The
Caribbean movies” I said blushing at saying my new of many guilty pleasures. My
main one was chocolate fudge and coco cake. I could eat five of them and not care
until after words and then just slap my self and eat more. My mom laughed and sat
up.
“ Well alright then, I’ll call you when I get home” She said smiling and hugging
my slightly. “ Love you” I said looking at the floor. “Love you” She said walking
out and shutting the door. I sighed and starred at the ceiling. I was worrying
about what me and Edward would talk about tomorrow and if I would see him after.
God! I need to stop thinking about him! I yelled at my self in my head. I threw
the blanket over me and screamed into my pillow, it was muffled enough that no one
would hear it but me. Suddenly I got a text. I groaned and flipped my phone open
and hit read. It was from Edward, I hadn’t remembered giving him my number but ok,
it said.

Edward Cullen. Area number:248-667-0978

Sorry about earlier, do you want to talk to me, or are you mad? =[ =]

Edward.

I sighed and hit reply, I typed my message, no used avoiding him.

Olivia Kay. Area number: 248-609-0091
I’m not mad. I’ll talk to you I guess. =/

Olivia.

Edward Cullen. Area number:248-667-0978

Ok, thanks, I’m glad your not mad. I don’t really want to talk on Text, what do
you want to do?

Edward.

Olivia Kay. Area number: 248-609-0091

Well, we could go some were, I don’t care.

Meet you at the park in ten.

Olivia.

Edward Cullen. Area number:248-667-0978

Ok. =/

Edward.

I snapped my phone shut, I really, didn’t like text either. Well, I best get ready
for the park. I thought to my self. I got up and got dressed. I put on a pair of
black skinny jeans and a dark blue and black mini tube top. I really didn’t care
that it showed my stomach. I put black socks on and black high heels. I knew I
shouldn’t want to get dressed up for him. Were just going to the park! God, I
thought to my self. I checked the time on my phone, I had five minutes. I could
walk there in time, it was only two streets down, and I had a bike, so , maybe
bike. I knew I shouldn’t walk in these shoes, so riding a bike was a not, but I
didn’t care. I ran down the stairs almost tripping. “Olivia? Where are you going?”
Mike asked me. “ To the park to meet some one” I said turning around.
“ Oh, like a date?” He asked smiling a little.
“ Kind of” I said turning back around, and getting my purse with my I-POD. “ Ok,
be back before nine” He said turning back to the TV. “ Ok” I said walking out the
door. Heels, didn’t hurt my feet, even these ones, that were almost two inches
high and had a cut and show toe to them. I picked my bike up off the ground. It
was a two person bike. I felt weird riding it, I mean, come on its for two people.
I don’t mean, a bike with two seats. I mean a bike with one seat big enough for
two people. One person sits in front and pedals and the other puts there feet on
the bars and rides with you. Weird I know right. When I got there, I had one more
minute left. It wasn’t sunny out today, but it was very warm. I put my bike in the
bike rack and looked around. I didn’t see him yet. I grabbed the scrunch out of my
purse and put my hair in it then, twisted it and took it out so it looked fanned
and slightly puffed. I did this when I wanted to look sexy. I was ashamed of my
self. The wind started blowing a little. That helped me looked more cute. Stop it!
I screamed in my head to my self. I was looking at the water fountain near the
entrance, when I saw him, strolling into view in blue jeans and a light blue
button shirt un buttoned. His hair, messy and sexy as always. I looked away and
breathed in deeply. I turned around careful not to trip. I shouldn’t have worn the
heels, I was scared he would think they were to much. He spotted me and smiled
slightly I smiled back looked down flushing a little. I looked up and walked
toward him. Trying not to shake my hips to much, I was trying to hard! Damnit! I
screamed at my self. We stopped one foot away from each other. “ Hey” I said
looking at him, trying to remember how to breath. “ Hey” He said smiling a
breathtaking smile. I blinked and looked down blushing. “ So want to walk?” He
asked still smiling at me. “Yeah, unless you want to go make sandcastles with the
five year olds, I think that’s what I want to do” I said laughing slightly. He
chuckled. “ Ok, walk then” He said smiling and turned toward the side walk. I
walked beside him. He looked at me for a minutes and looked away. Thinking a
guess. “ So…I feel like my life is becoming a book repeat, have you noticed?” I
asked him. “ Yes” He said looking down his face blank. “ Well, I’m not going to
ask why you didn’t tell me because, that would be stupid. Why would any one tell
some one that, oh hey guess what, your life’s become a book” I said smiling to my
self. I was literally not thinking about what I was saying. I had one question,
that I know would bring us to a hard spot. “ Can I ask you one thing?” I asked
him. He looked at me his face worried. “ Yes” He said looking down putting his
hands in his pockets. “ Is everything about the character Edward in the book, same
with you?” I asked my question like that because , asking.. Are you a vampire?
Would make me uncomfortable. “ Yes” He said simply. “ So…I know I should just ask
you, but I know there’s a 1 to 100000 chance, that I am wrong, but…vampire?” I
asked the question using one word. He nodded and looked away.
“Umm, Ok” I said starting not to be able to breath.
“Well, this went better then I thought. No ones screaming and running away, and no
ones fainting” I said looking down. I heard him chuckle. “ What?” I asked
confused. “ Nothing” He said looking at me smiling a little. “ Don’t you dare say,
what if I’m the bad guy!, I have a whole book telling me what to say and do every
day of my life, so you can’t play that on me” I said nudging him slightly. He
laughed. “I’m worried that your not screaming and running away, but I’m glad for
some reason that you are here” He said looking me in the eyes. I was about to say
something cheesy. “ Oh, don’t dazzle me Edward!” I said putting my hand on my
forehead. He laughed. I looked down blushing a little. “ Can I tell you
something?” I said a little nervous. I was about to tell him how I felt! Epp! I
screamed in my head.
“Sure” He said smiling a little. “ Is it bad. If…I like you a lot?” I asked not
saying it right. “ What do you mean?” He asked confused. “ I..I..really like you a
lot, more then I should” I confessed. “Oh” was all he said. “ Like, in a….not
friend way” I added blushing deeply. Then he looked at me.
“ Is that bad?” I asked still looking down. “ Not really, but yes. But no” He said
his face confused.
I sighed. “ Lets talk about something else” I said.
He looked at me and smiled again. “ Ok” He said. We stopped underneath a tree. “
How about your stomach” He said laughing. “ What about it?” I asked confused
looking down. “ Oh! Yeah, my stomach has a, being under shirt at the park rule” I
said blushing deep red looking down. “Sure” He teased. Suddenly I felt him
tickling me. I laughed. “ hey!” I said hit at him. He kept tickling me. I laughed
more. I fell to the ground he did to. We leaned against a tree. “ My belly’s cold
now” I said frowning. He laughed. “ Here” He said taking off his shirt and handing
it to me. “Thanks Mr. Never get cold” I said play punching him. I put it on and
buttons it up to the last two buttons. I breathed in deeply. “ What are you
doing?” I heard him laugh. “ Sorry, you smell gooood” I said bring out good. He
laughed. I blushed looking down. “Well, that is a part of every one of us” He said
smiling at me. I blushed again. “ You know, when you blush , it makes your look
even better” He complimented. I blushed deeper from embarrassment. I felt him take
my hand. I looked at my hand and this. His perfect and wonderful, my stupid and
human. I sighed and pulled it out and folded my arms and set my head on my knees.
I may have a whole book telling me everything I need to know, but that doesn’t
stop me feeling bad that I like him and I shouldn’t. He would never like me. I
looked at me. “Is something wrong?” He asked his eyes confused. “…I’m just mad at
my self for liking you the way I do” I said sadly looking down. He didn’t say
anything. I continued. “ I mean, your perfect, I’m just..a mere 1 out of who ever
many people on this stupid earth and your..just..” I said sighing getting sadder.
“That’s not true” he said. “Then what is in this cruel world, tell me that” I said
looking up at him. His eyes were showing conflict. “I would trade everything to be
human again” He said his eyes showing sadness as I looked away from him toward the
bushes. “And I would trade everything for this world to be more under standing,
every single person in this world thinks they know something, there’s the people
that think they are wonderful and awesome then they are not, there’s the people
who think they are some stupid monster that no one would ever like or should like,
when they really do not see them self’s, and the only person who see’s them is the
one who loves them, but every day of the other persons like they have to listen to
how much there love hates their self, and no one really ever understands” I said
closing my eyes. Edward said nothing. “I am just one of three people in this
world, who just happens to like a vampire and be so frinking confused that life is
no longer just a roller coaster ride, its like falling off the edge of a cliff
after being stabbed, falling out of a moving truck, thrown in the sea and half
eaten by a polar bear” I said shaking my head. Edward started laughing. I looked
up at him annoyed. “Its not funny” I said seriously , he shut up. “Sorry” he said
his smile apologetic. “Yes and I am sorry I am so hopeless” I said putting my head
in my hands. At the moment I lifted my head, I saw some one with a twilight book.
I groaned. “I swear if I see another dam twilight book, I am going to kill every
one on this insane planet that owns one” I said shaking my head. “Its enough that,
I now I will marry you, almost get killed before that, fall in love with my best
friend before that, almost die from having your child, then my best friend who is
a werewolf might I say is going to imprint on our baby and then I will almost kill
him, better yet! The baby will almost be killed my Aro” I said disgusted. Edward
chuckled. “It will be ok, you can change things” he said. I lifted my head again.
I hadn’t noticed I was crying. “Why are you crying?” He asked. “Oh! I didn’t even
know I was” I said looking at him. He smiled. I was about to wipe the tears away
when he reached over slowly and did it for me. My cheeks flushed under his touch.
I looked up at him, his eyes were burning topaz. He looked up, his eyes once again
made me lose my train of thought. I shook my head. He smiled his breath taking
smile. “Edward guess what?” I asked smiling. He looked at me. “What?” He asked
smiling. “Sparkle Sparkle” I said laughing. He laughing. I pushed him. He fell on
the grass. I laid down next to him. We looked at each other for a while. This was
starting to remind me of the meadow scene. I sighed. I wished there was something
more I could do. But it seemed like everything I did, leaded more to something in
the book. I reminded my self mentally not to play any sports or go out doors and
do something with his family on a thunder day. I laughed and sighed in my mind. I
looked back at him he was looking at me. He smiled slightly and I looked down
blushing red. “ I really really like you way to much” I said embarrassed. He smile
slightly. “ I’m partly glad. Some one wishing you didn’t” He said sighing. I
looked at the ground. I wish I could do something but you can’t help love. Wait. I
said love. I love him. Do I? I don’t know. Gahh! I sighed frustrated. I didn’t
know it I could take it much more. I looked down at Edward and all his flawless
vampire self…