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Mixture of both...

Enchantment
&
Disenchantment
Poems/Book I

by

Paul Ramnora
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Table of contents:-

Book cover................................................................................................................................................1
Table of contents:-...............................................................................................................................2/3
INTRODUCTION..................................................................................................................................4
ACROSTIC: Meaning.............................................................................................................................5
ACROSTIC: WORD: LOVE..................................................................................................................6
1) College dropout......................................................................................................................7
2) LOVE, FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS..............................................................................8
ACROSTIC: WORD: WAR...................................................................................................................9
1) Wicked,..................................................................................................................................10
2) Warrior,.................................................................................................................................11
HAIKU: Meaning..................................................................................................................................12
HAIKU: THEME: LOVE......................................................................................................................13
1) Endless Rain..........................................................................................................................14
2) Rejection................................................................................................................................15
HAIKU: THEME: INSECTS................................................................................................................16
1) Morning Moth: Variations: 1/2/3......................................................................................17
A) Woke up this morning,.........................................................................................17
B) Woke up this morning,.........................................................................................17
C) Finding in the fridge,.............................................................................................17
2) Moth Kill...............................................................................................................................18
3) Dreadful flies........................................................................................................................19
4) Patient spider........................................................................................................................20
5) Spider post............................................................................................................................21
6) Ladybird................................................................................................................................22
7) Bed bug/(beetle)...................................................................................................................23
HAIKU: THEME: DOMESTIC...........................................................................................................24
1) Burnt Milk: Variations: 1/2................................................................................................25
A) Suddenly, gas...stinks;...........................................................................................25
B) Escaping gas...stinks;.............................................................................................25
HAIKU: THEME: NATURE...............................................................................................................26
1) Fair flower.............................................................................................................................27
2) Long riverside walk at night...............................................................................................28
HAIKU: THEME: HUMAN................................................................................................................29
1) Egotism..................................................................................................................................30
2) Itchy skin...............................................................................................................................31
3) Writers blues.........................................................................................................................32
4) My meditation technique...................................................................................................33
5) My 1st bike............................................................................................................................34
HAIKU: THEME: SPORT....................................................................................................................35
1) The art of boxing..................................................................................................................36
HAIKU: THEME: DEATH..................................................................................................................37
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1) Death Salute..........................................................................................................................38
2) Overslept...............................................................................................................................39
FREE VERSE: Meaning........................................................................................................................40
FREE VERSE: THEME: PRAYER......................................................................................................41
1) O kind God, I serenely Thank You,..................................................................................42
FREE VERSE: THEME: COMPARISONS........................................................................................43
1) Devil/Shoes...........................................................................................................................44
2) Marilyn Monroe, A Memoir .............................................................................................45
FREE VERSE: THEME: EMOTIONS................................................................................................46
1) The NEED for Anger Management..................................................................................47
2) Agony...!................................................................................................................................48
3) SEEING really quite BLIND / (fear).................................................................................49
FREE VERSE: THEME: Feelings of ESTRANGEMENT................................................................50
1) 1 line poem...........................................................................................................................51
2) ...impossible to love self/others.........................................................................................52
3) I'm living a purely illusory life...........................................................................................53
4) And, God made Alien beings.............................................................................................54
5) Rebellion..........................................................................................................................55/56
6) Rejection vs Acceptance.....................................................................................................57
FREE VERSE: THEME: LOVE...........................................................................................................58
1) Buried girl treasures............................................................................................................59
2) Misery..............................................................................................................................60/61
3) Love is....................................................................................................................................62
4) Ode to everlasting love........................................................................................................63
FREE VERSE: THEME: Life/Death....................................................................................................64
1) Life - the endless Battle to survive.....................................................................................65
2) Dependence and Departure...............................................................................................66
FREE VERSE: THEME: Mental Illness..............................................................................................67
1) Depression's Song................................................................................................................68
2) Living with PTSD/Post Traumatic Stress Disorder........................................................69
FREE VERSE: THEME: RELATIONSHIPS......................................................................................70
1) Hypnotism session.........................................................................................................71/72
FREE VERSE: THEME: OTHER........................................................................................................73
1) Procrastination conquered, at last.....................................................................................74
FOOTNOTE(S)......................................................................................................................................75
COPYRIGHT NOTICE........................................................................................................................76
Blank page...............................................................................................................................................77
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INTRODUCTION

Hi, my name is, Paul Ramnora. I was born/brought up/and, do live in UK/London. My
current age is 47 years old.

Right throughout my life I've had the good fortune of being able to read poetry; indeed, my
favourite poet of all time is, Shakespeare; but, I never had the good fortune of being able to
write it; I might very rarely try a quick experiment or two; but, I never before in my life tried
creating a whole entire book full of poems; mainly, I guess, through believing that nobody else
would ever wish to go read it...?! However, now, that I've grown considerably older; I'm
starting to feel like everything is worth a try, at least, once; and, if you fail you fail; and, if you
succeed you succeed; and, either way, so what?!

My apologies if my poetry doesn't seem to follow any type of strictly 'fixed' format; but, that's
because I'm still working away on experimenting; trying to teach myself which is the best
format to use; for example, which visual layout does truly work best to suit which particular
poem.../or, should I write either formal/or, informal poetry...structured/or,
unstructured...rhymed/or, unrhymed...???/-Etc.

Finally, I would like to say, thanks very much, indeed, for sparing enough of your precious
time and effort to go read through these; and, hopefully, you will find the mental exercise to
be both enjoyable and worthwhile. ;-)
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ACROSTIC

Meaning...

An acrostic poem is a composition where the sequential position of letters...say, first letter/or,
last letter...forms a word/or, even, possibly, forms a phrase; that is, when the poem is being
read going in strict order...say, vertically downwards. For example,...

T...
H...
I...
S..

I...
S....

A...
N...

A...
C...
R...
O...
S...
T...
I...
C...

P...
O...
E...
M...
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ACROSTIC: WORD: LOVE

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1)

College dropout...

Less and less, I do

Open up my books to go and study, now…; truly, so
Very sorry that I stopped…;
Even when I know I really shouldn’t have!
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2)

LOVE, FREEDOM and HAPPINESS

Light as a Feather,
Open as the Sky,
Veritably FREE is
Everyman!
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ACROSTIC: WORD: WAR

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1)

Wicked
Atrocious
Reckless
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2)

Warrior
Asshole
Rape
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HAIKU

Meaning...

A Haiku poem, -first originating from inside of Japan,- employs a pattern of using a certain
number of lines/with each line containing a fixed number of syllable sounds; usually, it is
written in the form of 3 lines with each line containing fixed syllable format: (5,7,5).

This-is-a-simp-le (5)
Form-of-the-Hai-ku-type-of (7)
Po-em,-not-ea-sy! (5)
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HAIKU: THEME: LOVE

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1)

Endless Rain

Loving kind heart,

gives;
Piss taking little fart,
took;
Result:
Endless rain!
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2)

Rejection

You're beginning to
Bug me, now...; kindly, please, leave!
True love, unwanted!
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HAIKU: THEME: INSECTS

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1)

Morning Moth - Variations: 1/2/3

A)

Woke up this morning,

Found in the cold fridge; lying
Upside down...a moth!

B)

Woke up this morning,

Found in the defrosted fridge;
Stone cold…a soft moth!

C)

Finding in the fridge,

defrosted yesterday; dead,
A warm bodied moth!
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2)

Moth Kill

Light as gossamer...;
Come! Both hands open and close;
Crushing tight the moth.
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3)

Dreadful flies

Fast as Superman;
And, as fickle as dry wind;
Runs the fly...hiding!
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4)

Patient spider

Patient spider waits,...;

To see fast flying insect
still inside it's web!
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5) Spider post

Spider, sat on wall;

Sent to glass cup; closed fast
with an envelope.
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6)

Ladybird

Red/yellow flower,
With green leaves; all along which
The Ladybird climbs.
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7)

Bed bug

Uncovering sheets,...
Dark as night; bright and shiny, lies
Beetle in my bed!
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HAIKU: THEME: DOMESTIC

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Burnt Milk

Suddenly, gas…stinks;
I forgot?! Rush down…milk stains
Still spilling over…!

Escaping gas...stinks;
Oh no! I forgot??? Find pot...
Still spilling over...!
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HAIKU: THEME: NATURE

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1)

Fair Flower

Fair flower, wouldn't

Last long on a Rugby field;
Blooms in Gardner's room!
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2)

Long riverside walk at night

Dark shadowy night,

With river bright as silver;
Reflecting the moon.
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HAIKU: THEME: HUMAN

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1)

Egotism

Big shot, with ego

Growing like tall skyscraper...;
Small things matter, too!
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2)

Itchy skin

Dry nails, digging in

itchy skin; can cause deep cuts;
Needs water real bad...!
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3)

Writers Blues

Write, thinking, alright!

Wake, thinking, all wrong! Morning
Blues have gotten you...!
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4)

My meditation technique

On the bus, thinking...;

Thinking this...; thinking that... Mind,
Just shut the fuck up...!
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5)

My 1st bike

Bike running downhill...

Without pedalling...still I'm
Doing thirty plus...!!!
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HAIKU: THEME: SPORT

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1)

The art of boxing

Polishing both fists,

On another man's head; 'til
when they shine blood red!
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HAIKU: THEME: DEATH

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1)

Death salute

Though you're no longer

With us anymore; your memory
Lingers...eternal...!
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2)

Overslept

Wake not the living

dead; when we are lost in dreams;
Otherwise, ghosts shall SCREAM...!
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FREE VERSE

Meaning...

In this book , the term 'free verse' refers to poetry that is 'unrhymed'/as opposed to poetry
which does 'rhyme'.
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FREE VERSE: THEME: PRAYER

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O kind God I serenely Thank You

for this Love, this Life,
these your Blessings of this Day,
with All it's Food. -Amen!
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FREE VERSE: THEME: COMPARISONS

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1)

Devil/Shoes

If I were the Devil's shoes,

I would be a Dominatrix's Black High Heels;
Piercing straight into, and, through
The Eye of a Pervert...!
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2)

Marilyn Monroe, A Memoir

Rich and golden

Like the truly splendid Sun,
You shone,
Both beautifully and brilliantly.

Then, as Evening came along,

You were, all of a sudden,
GONE!

But, still your warm and precious memory

LIVES
On…
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FREE VERSE: THEME: EMOTIONS

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1)

The NEED for Anger management...

My hurt feels far worse

than being struck by a nuclear bomb;
more like a million suns
all exploding together, at once!

When I'm angry,

if I could destroy
the whole wide world;

then, I'm pretty sure,

I damn well would;

...and, live to
very deeply regret it, afterwards...!
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2)

Agony...!

Every day
Just one same thought
goes running through my mind
...Agony...!
Always, agony
...

And,
I seem to be
LIVING
in almost
Endless Agony
...!

Yes, this is, in fact,

punctuated by 'good times', as well;
but, then
The Agony
Returns...
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3)

SEEING really quite BLIND

If there is danger going on all around me...;

And, I am feeling, well and truly, SCARED!!!

Then, if I were to go and shut both of my eyes;

Does this prove that the danger really isn't there...?!

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FREE VERSE: Feelings of ESTRANGEMENT

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1)

1 line poem

Feeling the weight of sheer Emptiness,

...
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2)

...impossible to love self/others...

It is impossible to love others;

If you cannot truly learn to go love yourself;

Because you must accept yourself, first;

long before you can ever learn to accept anybody else.

Realise, the one universal truth,

that no human being is, 'perfect!'

Having patience, understanding and forgiveness,

is, therefore, the secret of life.

Easy to say, maybe...;

But, ever so damned difficult to do, in reality!
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3)

I'm living a purely illusory life

All Life is an ILLUSION,...;

Therefore, really quite madly,
I choose to turn my back on it;
And, do ever so silently, close
The door,
...BYE!
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4)

And, God made Alien being's...

Trying my best to make sense out of

worry, fear, confusion, doubt, disaster;
but, of course, I never ever could?!

Thus, the only choice I had left

was simply to just go live with it, instead.

Forevermore, feeling both

really sad and sorry for myself…
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5)

Rebellion

We are not from this or that same planet;

We are not from this or that same country;
We are not from this or that same race;
We are not from this or that same family;
We are not from this or that same religion;
We are not from this or that same political group.

Instead, I only want to be

FREE
To be
ME…!
And, follow
my own mind/heart
wishes.

Therefore,
My looks/thinking/feeling/behaviour/acting/tongue
are all entirely different
to the rest of you;
because I was born to be
a total outsider.

Personally speaking, I got no problem

with any of that at all;
but, then, again,
do you?!

You who do always want/

indeed, seem to need
everybody to be
exactly the ‘same’;
so that, I guess,
you can ‘control’ them.

Well, I’m afraid,

I’m just completely different;
and, also, utterly uncontrollable;
right up until the very day that I
DIE!
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And, all because God made me that way…

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6)

Rejection vs Acceptance

In some ways,
I kind of like rejection;
and, being all alone;
because, it sets me free,
to be exactly who it is that I do truly wish to be;
as opposed to how others do wish me to become,
which is a lot more like them;
by either conciously/or else, unconsciously
forcing me to go fit in
with others.

And, yet, still another part of me

does really and truly wish to fit in;
because it feels far more ‘natural’
to be a part of the group;
they say that in a group of goldfish,
the one that you find swimming entirely by themselves
all alone,
is, usually,
a sick fish!
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FREE VERSE: THEME: LOVE

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1)

Buried girl treasures

There are certain girl(s) who have become

almost like being a ‘total obsession’ to me;
such as those who I’ve met, and, can never forget;
because, I’m not willing to surrender up
their really far too precious memory;
like a jewel that’s buried deep inside of my mind
for all the rest of sweet Eternity to come…!
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2)

Misery

Misery is loving you...;

and, just not knowing what on earth
I'm going to do about it;
Because you make me feel far too shy?!

Misery is caring so much that it,

well and truly, hurts
me
anytime when you are not near.

Misery is being willing

to give you all that I got;
whilst, at the same time, fearing that I
honestly don't have enough to give,
that could make you feel
well and truly satisfied,
or, happy?!

Misery is to over-idealise you;

which I can't seem to stop
myself from doing, continually, all the time;
as I feel you are high and I am low;
therefore, I'm just NOT worthy!

Misery is just worrying far too much

about what could ever go wrong between us;
when I do so desperately want everything to go
totally right, instead.

Misery is knowing that I don't believe

I could ever live without you;
and, even if I lost you in Reality;
then, I must still be able to find you, again...;
even if it's only in my Dreams, alone.

Misery is all this and more...;

The sheer misery of falling in love
with somebody who you do
absolutely
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WORSHIP and ADORE!

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3)

Love is...

Love is, truly,

a many splendid thing...;

though it have no ears;

yet, it hears...;

though it have no eyes;

yet, it sees...;

though it have no hands;

yet, it touches...;

though, it have no tongue;

yet, it talks...;

though, it have no nose;

yet, it smells...; and, only of pure 100% roses!

Both silent and invisible...;

Yet, how sweet and complete is love!
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4)

Ode to everlasting love...

Grabbing a whole bucket full of Eternity,

So that I can go dump it at your feet; then,
Let’s both practice running around it together;
Only until whenever the sands of Time runs dry!
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FREE VERSE: THEME: LIFE/DEATH

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1)

Life - the endless Battle to survive...

The truth is,

Life is Agony;
And, of this…
I simply cannot say more.

There are those who Fight;

Those who Surrender;
And, those who give up/
QUIT;

...without any Return Ticket!

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2)

Dependence and Departure

Heart strings un-severed,

Whenever it is that you do leave my side;
Creating such a raging huge wide gap there,
Through which the wind whistles well...!
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FREE VERSE: THEME: MENTAL ILLNESS

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1)

Depression's Song...

Sad

Sad sad

Very sad

Even sadder sadness still

THE saddest sadness

SAD

!!!
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2)

Living with PTSD/Post Traumatic Stress Disorder...

It hit me;
And, when it hit me,
It hurt me awfully hard;

Struck me
through and through;
like I’d never ever been struck before;

Struck me
Somewhere near the very core
Of my being;

Repeated strikes,
All aimed straight into
The Unconscious!

Leaving my ego very badly bruised;

Heart a-bleeding;
Self-confidence all battered
Right down to the ground;

I felt evil, bitter, sick for revenge!

Very slowly, and, gradually

I healed up…a-fresh.

At least, on the outside;

But, inside
I remained very deeply wounded.
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FREE VERSE: THEME: RELATIONSHIPS

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1)

Hypnotism session

I'm afraid!
But, afraid of what, though?
Afraid of absolutely everything,
and, more..!

Hypnotize him,
Relax each muscle, one at a time,
Until when the body has been left totally limp;
Down, deeper down we go,
Into the pitch black darkness,
turning back through all the pages of Time;
that have been eternally etched
inside the endless groves of ones mind.

There he is,
My first cousin;
My mum's sister's son;
And, best friend;
As an only child
He is as close to me
As being an actual brother;
after all, we both grew up
inside of the one same family house.

Because he is 5 years older than me,

And, we both go to the same Primary school
Me to the Junior's/and, him to the Seniors;
therefore, I also looked up to him
as being my ever faithful friend,
and, true protector.

He held a knive in his hand,

Which he seemed to be playing with
Rather angrily.

I took one good look

and, said,
"You wouldn't kill me with that?"
and, his reply to me was
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"No, but, I would stab you!"

Staring really hard into both of his cold eyes

I could, quite clearly, see
He wasn't kidding me, neither;
The face of a true psychopath,
Fiercely lacking in all empathy.

From ever since then

No man ever got close to me
ever again;
I think, I might have been
aged somewhere around 8
or, possibly, even less...

1, 2, 3,
Fingers suddenly snapping,
And, a calm and gentle voice,
musically commands...
WIDE AWAKE!
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FREE VERSE: THEME: OTHER

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1)

Procrastination...conquered, at last!

to do
to do
toooooooooooooooooo do

don't want to,

don't want to,
don't want toooooooooooooo

do want to,
do want to,
do want tooooooooooooo

Will do, too

Doing

Did

Done

Remembering...

;-)
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FOOTNOTE(S)

NOTE(1):

This is my very 1st book of poetry; which, so far to date, I've decided to go build and publish
only online. However, in future, it is quite likely that I will change it into becoming 3 entirely
separate books, instead; namely...

1) Acrostic poems
2) Haiku poems
3) FREE Verse poems
...and, I might also add a book containing...
4) Rhyming poetry

NOTE(2):

This entire ebook was created with the FREE to sign up for, and, use Adobe Buzzword word
processing software; which allows you to create [.pdf]files from anywhere that there is both a
computer/internet connection; the software is downloaded just like you were downloading a
normal web page; and, then, can be used directly from inside of your own web browser; it also
gives you the ability to be able to save files, externally/and, store these inside of folders whilst
still being online; as well as, you can export files to use or share with others whilst being
offline. If you care to learn more; then, please, go and visit the following URL address...

http://www.acrobat.com
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COPYRIGHT NOTICE

(c)2008-2010, Mr. Paul Ramnora./All rights reserved.

Email: pramnora@yahoo.com
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