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Prakashan, 38/2ka Banglabazar, Dhaka.
Web : www.somoy.com E-mail : somoy@somoy.com
Writers E-mail : anisulhoquem@yahoo.com
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Gevii msMvg, Avgv`i gywi msMvg| Gevii msMvg, ^vaxbZvi msMvg|
ZLb UMi hb Avi wKQyZB wbRi ga _vK bv| ^vaxbZv kUv awbZ-
cwZawbZ nq ZvK AvKvk Zzj ai, mgUv Rbmgy` GKevi MRb Ki
DVQ, Zvi XDqi gv_vq Po UMi hb fvmQ Avi fvmQ... ZLb Avh nq
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ewiq Avm, Avi `yUv Lqwi iOi cvwL wegvbi gZv bg Avm AvKvk _K,
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Aviv Aviv cvwL Do IV AvKvk, wewP me cvwL, Zviv GKUv hb AviKUvK
WK ejQ ^vaxbZv ^vaxbZv, UMii mg cw_exRyo ZLb Avi Kvbv k bvB,
Kej ^vaxbZv Qvov...
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KiQb| Avi Zvi m AvQ wKwU, we`wkbx ZiY-AwZw_|
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LvwbK ci Avm MncwiPviK myenvb| Avi mevi kl Avm igx Avi Rvgx|
igx `iRv _KB bvUKxq Kvq`vq ejZ i Ki, Gevii msMvg, Avgv`i
gywi msMvg, Gevii msMvg, ^vaxbZvi msMvg|
dLiwb ejb, fvwe, Pv LvIqvb| myenvb Pv evbvZ ivbvNi hvq|
Zvici i nq wnmve -wbKvk| AvRK KZ jvK nqQ? 20 jvL bvwK 30 jvL?
GK mgq igx gv_v bvoZ _vK| m ej, Avi AvRK GKUv eo myhvM kL
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dLiwb mvne ejb, Pvsov-cvsoviv Kx iKg nVKvix K_v ej bQb|
AvRK GBLvb ^vaxbZv wWKqvi Kij Zv cvwKvwb wgwjUvwi GLbB Suvwcq
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ne... bv hb Kx ejjb bv| Avi kl Kijb Kx w`q... Gevii msMvg gywi
msMvg, Gevii msMvg ^vaxbZvi msMvg| ^vaxbZvI wWKqvi Kiv njv, Avevi
`vq`vwqZ me cwgv`i Nvo Pvcvbv njv| gv_v Mig Ki Zv wKQy ne bv|
wWc-vgvwUK nZ ne...
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AvRK wgwUsq KZ jvK nqwQj?
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kL mvnei fvlY cPvi Kivi K_v wQj, Kij bv Kb?
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Kb?
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MZKvjKi DRbvekZ| KvjKi GZ GZ NUbv NU Mj `k, AvRKi
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AvRK Kx Aev, `Lv `iKvi|
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Zvjv| Zvgv`i hv wKQy AvQ, ZvB wbq ki gvKvejv KiZ ne... Gevii
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wecyjfve eo DVZ _vK Zuvi MZvqy mvbwUB| Zuvi cwicvk, Zuvi Pvicvki
RMr GKRb mvbnviv gvqi GB Mvcb wecyj iqx wbR^ msMvgUvK eySZ
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mvb bvB GB mZUv gb wbZ bv ci gv Ki Pjb Zuvi wbR^ msMvg, wewZi
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gv, wbR wbR aib wewZi mylywi wei GKv RM _vKb| Avi Zuv`i mB
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gvqi Rxebx iPbv Kiv| AvRv` gvK wjLwQj m hw` bvgKiv nq, eo nq,
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gMevRvii evmvUv GKB iKg AvQ, Kvgivgvb gviv MQ cvNvZM nq
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wZ GKv`k Avi knx` gykZvKi bvg Mov nq knx` gykZvK GKv`k, `y`ji
ga AbywZ nq ^vaxbZv w`em wKU UzbvgU|
Rvnvbviv Bgvg Avi euP bvB, wK iq MQ Zuvi GKvii w`bwj,
gywhvviv AbKB AvQb, KD KD bvB, evsjv`k AvQ, ^vaxbZv AvQ, Kx
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Ki ev, Zv`i `yjvfvB knx` gbvqvi nvmbi bvg GKUv wWqvgi
bvgKiY nqwQj wLjMuvI gmwR`i cwg w`K gywhyi cici, mUv Avi
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cvq, Zv`i Avvi `vqvq Zviv GLb mQj, Avi Zviv Zv`i Avvi KeiUv
cvKv Ki UvBjm&-kvwfZ Ki iLQ AvviB iL hvIqv UvKv w`q; AvRI
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(AvM 2002 _K gvP 2003)
1. AvMiZjv gvgjv, kL gywRe I evsjvi we`vn : dqR Avn&g`,
cKvkK : mvwnZ cKvk| 1. AvRv`i QvUgv
2. Avgv`i msMvg PjeB, cKvkK : AcivRq msN| 2. Aveyj eviK Avjfx, gywhvv, wkx
3. GKvii w`bwj : Rvnvbviv Bgvg, cKvkK : mvbx cKvkbx| 3. Bevwng mvei, mveK evUej Ljvqvo, knx` AvRv`i ez
4. Nyg bB, bvwmi Dxb BDmyd evPz, cKvkK : PZbv cKvkb| 4. MvRx Avwgb Avng`, gywhvv, knx` AvRv`i `~i-mwKZ fvB
5. wUUvi ^vaxbZv, bvwmi Dxb BDmyd evPz : PZbv cKvkb| cvb evgcx ivRbxwZK
6. evsjv`ki ^vaxbZv hy, `wjjc : mv`bv-nvmvb nvwdRyi ingvb, 5. MvRx Avjx nvmb, gywhvv, knx` AvRv`i `~i-mwKZ PvPv,
cKvkK : Z_ gYvjq, evsjv`k miKvi| 6. di`m Avng` Rvq`, knx` AvRv`i LvjvZv fvB, 30k AvM
7. evOvwji BwZnvm, W. gvnv` nvbbvb, cKvkK : Abycg cKvkbx| 1971 wjwe
8. fzwj bvB, fzwj bvB : Mvjvg gvZvRv mvw`Z, cKvkK : mgq cKvkb| 7. gywhvv KvRx Kvgvj Dwb Avng` exiweg
9. gywhy, wmwKzi ingvb, cKvkK : XvKv cKvkbx| 8. gywhvv bvwmi Dxb BDmyd evPz
10. gywhvv nvweeyj Avjg exicZxK-Gi jLv gywhy welqK 9. gywhvv nvweeyj Avjg exicZxK
cKvwkZe wZPviY Mi BsiwR cvzwjwc| 10. gymjn Dwb Payix UMi, knx` AvRv`i LvjvZv fvB, 30k AvM
11. kvkZ : Zvngx`v mvC`v, cKvkK : mvbx cKvkbx| 1971 wje
12. mvay MMwii w`bwj : kvnwiqvi Kwei, cKvkK : w`ecKvk| 11. knx`yj-vn Lvb ev`j, gywhvv
13. mvvwnK 2000 cwKvq cKvwkZ nvweeyj Avjg exicZxK wjwLZ 12. kvnv`Z Payix, gywhvv, mv`K mvvwnK 2000
XvKvi wewfb Acvikbi wZPviY| 13. wkgyj BDmyd; Awfbx
14. ^vaxbZv msMvg, XvKvq Mwijv Acvikb : n`vqZ nvmvBb gvik`, 14. mq` Avkivdzj nK, mveK wKUvi, knx` AvRv`i eqtKwb ez
cKvkK : mgq cKvkb| 15. Aviv GKvwaK ew (bvg cKvk AwbQyK)
15. nvmvb nvwdRyi ingvb, wegyL cvi AwbevY evwZNi : wgbvi gbmyi,
cKvkK : evsjv GKvWgx|
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