In Search of My Destiny

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 There I was, lying on the ground with my face pressed beneath the grassy surface. I

tried to move but my body ached. After several minutes, I finally regained my full

consciousness. I sat up and looked around hoping things would make sense to me. But all that

I knew was that I was stranded on top of a small hill all by myself. It felt like I have just been

born into this world and opening my eyes for the very first time in my life. I did not have a

clue of who I was or what I was doing at that place. When I saw the reflection of myself on

the surface of the small puddle of water beside me, I realized that I was a man who is in his

mid 20s. My face was scarred while my hair was untidy and my beard slightly overgrown. I

tried standing but then a voice in my head started sounding and I could not bear the agony it

gave. I fell back to the ground. It kept on saying, follow the light and you will be fine.

In a split second, the voice stopped and the whole scene changed.

Now, I was near a lake and this time, the reflection showed that I was still in my mid

30s but no scars were present on my face and I had a neat hair while my beard was

completely gone. I saw many people around me. I was puzzled but I knew the only way to

figure out what was going on is by following the light. I tried connecting with the people

around me but I was like a hologram and they walked through me. I looked for the hill I was

at just now, but then I was at a completely new place. Then, I saw something peculiar. An

extremely bright beam of light illuminated the whole place but I was the only one to notice it.

As I tried taking a step towards it, a strong force pulled me into it and it felt like I was in

space. However, the only difference was that I was surrounded by light instead of darkness.

The force was so strong and I confidently knew that I was moving faster than the speed of

light. That leads to only one possible explanation: I was travelling back in time. I kept

moving and the further I went into the tunnel of light, a sound was growing louder and louder

in my head. I felt as though my head was going to crack into two.

 Then, suddenly everything went blank. I felt the morning sun shining brightly against

my face when I slowly opened my eyes. I was in my comfortable bed at my apartment. Now,

I knew who I was, I had memories of me living my normal life and what had just happened

recently like getting zapped into the light tunnel.

I am James Harris, a father of two kids and a husband of a lovely wife. Everything felt

like a bad dream the moment I opened my eyes but I was proven wrong. I got out of my bed

and into the living room. My house was not as the way I imagined it to be. It was in such a

mess and the more shocking thing was that nobody was in my house. I was stranded alone

once again. I was startled but then, I heard it again - the same voice was in my head again.

This time it said, you have what it takes to be the hero of this battle, but you have to

remember the past. The moment I heard this, my head felt as though it had been split into

two. The pain that came along with this was unbearable. I shouted back, who are you and

why are you making this happen to me?, but there was not an answer. I grew impatient and

shouted, WHY CANT YOU GIVE ME ANY CLUE?. Nothing happened for a moment,

but then, books started flying all over the place. A thick and heavy book fell at my footstep,

and I picked it up. It was an old album and I had never seen it before in my entire life. I

opened it. I saw myself in the pictures and I was left puzzled for several minutes. Those were

not my real parents. I could not believe my eyes, so I went and searched for another album in

which my parents have stored pictures of every precious moment we have spent together. I

was stunned again. The pictures in both albums were the same except for the individuals who

were my parents. At the end of the album that fell at my feet, there was a picture of a place

which was very familiar to me. I have had loads of dreams of me being there but only to

realize that I have not seen it even once.

I set out on a journey all by myself without a direction to where I was heading. When

I took my first step out of my house, I realized that I was the only breathing creature in the
whole city I lived in. There was a clue this time, and it was in the form of a living figure. It

looked at me and as I approached it, it started running faster. I chased it into a dead end

where it had nowhere to run anymore. I approached it and I could clearly tell that it was

scared of my presence. I threatened to strangle it if it didnt speak. Finally, it did speak. When

it had done speaking, it vanished into thin air. Now I was confused over two things. If it had

the ability to disappear, why didnt it do so earlier? Second, I was confused of myself.

Before I could do anymore thinking, I was in another world but there was no bright

illuminating light this time around, everything around me seemed to dissolve. I was standing

at the place in the picture I had seen earlier. Before me were my two parents who had passed

away five years ago in an accident. Tears started flowing down my cheeks and both hugged

me. I was happy to see them but this added up to the mystery I was facing. I asked them what

was going on and they explained it patiently. I am not who I thought I was. I am not James

Harris. I am William Carson, and they are just my guardians. My real parents are those whom

I had seen in the pictures earlier. To my greatest disbelief, I AM THE DEAD ONE. I had

died five years ago in the exact car accident that I thought had killed them. They were alive.

This is not a dream but it is my re-awakening to be whom I was before I had started to live an

ordinary life.

The moment I died five years ago, I was sent to a world where I was before I started

living with my parents. I was put in a machine to preserve dead humans and I have been

living a dream life up to this very moment as James Harris, only to make me feel fulfilled and

satisfied unconsciously. There was still one very big question mingling in my mind: if this is

a dream, why cant they just invoke me into reality in the first place? Before my parents

could answer my question, two voices answered from behind me. I turned and was surprised

due to the presence of my real parents whom I had never met before. They said, You were

engaged in your dream world so much that rejuvenating your conscious world had created a
scar in you forever. Thats why we had to make you realize in your dream world. When you

were born, we had to stay in The Darkness to take care of it but it was not safe for you over

there. Both of us sent you to the so called real-world to the only earthlings we trust. When

you were old enough, we wanted you to come back but before we could do it, you died and

you were very much into your old life that any sudden changes would affect you in such a

way that is not imaginable. I was shocked. All the things that I had thought to be real were

just all in my head. I looked at my guardians. I fell at their feet crying. I didnt want to be

parted from them. Although I am not the same as them, the closeness between us overrides

the differences. I am grateful for all their care and love they have given me. However, I know

I have a calling and I must fulfill it.

I closed my eyes and when I opened it again, I was in the preservative chamber. I

could see people smiling and laughing when I regained my consciousness. I was equipped

with armors and shields before I was set free. Everything seemed new to me and I am sure

that I have a lot of learning to do, especially about myself. My father escorted me to all the

places and introduced me to many new people. Wherever I went, I realized everyone seemed

to have a great reverence towards me.

Five months had passed in this new world and all my doubt are fully cleared by now.

I have learnt many new things about myself, and Im still discovering new things daily.

People in this world refer to me as the charmed-knight. I have a special charm that had been

implanted in me ever since I was an infant. I begin to know that every millennium, only one

individual will have this charm in them and its me now. People with this charm have

supernatural abilities that will transform the world of darkness that I live in into the world of

light. It all depends on the way how I use my gift on the battlefield. The experiences with my

guardians are the very strength of me right now. If I had not met them, I doubt whether I

would be carrying out my role as good as I am doing right now. If I could sum everything up
into something that I have learnt throughout my personal journey, it is that our past and

future, memories and experience, hopes and dreams are the six ultimate factors that influence

the present, who we are right now.

Journey can be in all sort of ways. Back when I was living an ordinary life, my friends

would regard their visit to various places as the best journey of their lives. I thought so too,

but now I am sure that journey can also mean a personal one which excludes all the

extravagant expenditure. My journey is very personal and it shaped my present. Being a

normal human without realizing all the supernatural abilities I had, living a dream, being

dead and not knowing it and finally discovering it all is my journey that has evolved me into

the brave warrior who I am now.