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LIFETRAPS
Are you repeatedly drawn into relationships with people who are cold
to you? Do you feel that even the people closest to you do not care or
understand enough about you?
Do you feel that you are at your core somehow defective, that no one
who truly knows you could possibly love and accept you?
Do you put the needs of others above your own, so your needs never get
met—and so you do not even know what your real needs are?
Do you fear that something bad will happen to you, so that even a mild
sore throat sets off a dread of more dire disease?
Do you find that, regardless of how much public acclaim or social ap-
proval you receive, you still feel unhappy, unfulfilled, or undeserving?
We call patterns like these Hfetraps. In this book, we will describe the
eleven most common lifetraps and will show you how to recognize them,
how to understand their origins, and how to change them.
A lifetrap is a pattern that starts in childhood and reverberates
throughout life. It began with something that was done to us by our
families or by other children. We were abandoned, criticized, overprotected,
abused, excluded, or deprived—we were damaged in some way. Even-
tually the lifetrap becomes part of us. Long after we leave the home we
grew up in, we continue to create situations in which we are mistreated,
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ignored, put down, or controlled and in which we fail to reach our most
desired goals.
Lifetraps determine how we think, feel, act, and relate to others. They
trigger strong feelings such as anger, sadness, and anxiety. Even when we
appear to have everything—social status, an ideal marriage, the respect of
people close to us, career success—we are often unable to savor life or
believe in our accomplishments.
Jep: A THIRTY-NINE-YEAR-OLD STOCKBROKER WHO IS EX-
TREMELY SUCCESSFUL. HE CONQUERS WOMEN, BUT NEVER
REALLY CONNECTS WITH THEM, JED IS CAUGHT IN THE Emo-
TIONAL DEPRIVATION LIFETRAP.
When we were first developing the lifetraps approach, we began treating
an intriguing patient named Jed. Jed perfectly illustrates the self-defeating
nature of lifetraps.
Jed goes from one woman to another, insisting that none of the women
he meets can satisfy him. Each one eventually disappoints him. The closest
Jed comes to intimate relationships is infatuation with women who sexu-
ally excite him. The problem is that these relationships never last.
Jed does not connect with women. He conquers them. The point at
which he loses interest is exactly the point at which he has “won.” The
woman has started to fall in love with him.
JED: It really turns me off when a woman is clingy. When she starts hanging
all over me, especially in public, I just want to run.
Jed struggles with loneliness. He feels empty and bored. There is an empty
hole inside—and he restlessly searches for the woman who will fill him up.
Jed believes he will never find this woman. He feels that he has always been
alone and always will be alone.
As a child, Jed felt this same aching loneliness. He never knew his
father, and his mother was cold and unemotional. Neither one of them met
his emotional needs. He grew up emotionally deprived, and continues to
recreate this state of detachment as an adult.
For years Jed inadvertently repeated this pattern with therapists,
drifting from one to another. Each therapist initially gave him hope, yet
ultimately disappointed him. He never really connected with his therapists;Liretraps 3
he always found some fatal flaw that in his mind justified terminating
therapy. Each therapy experience confirmed that his life had not changed,
and he felt even more alone.
Many of Jed’s therapists were warm and empathic. This was not the
problem. The problem was that Jed always found some excuse to avoid
the intimacy with which he was so unfamiliar and uncomfortable. Emo-
tional support from a therapist was essential, but not enough. His thera-
pists did not confront his self-destructive patterns often or forcefully
enough. For Jed to escape his Emotional Deprivation lifetrap, he had to
stop finding fault with the women he met and begin to take responsibil-
ity for fighting his own discomfort about getting close to people and
accepting their nurturance.
When Jed finally came to us for treatment, we challenged him over
and over again, trying to chip away at his lifetrap each time it reasserted
itself. It was important to show him that we were genuinely sympathetic
with how uncomfortable it felt for him to get close to anyone, in light of his
extremely icy parents. Nevertheless, whenever he insisted that Wendy was
not beautiful enough, Isabel was not brilliant enough, or Melissa was just
not right for him, we pushed him to see that he was falling into his lifetrap
again, finding fault with others to avoid feeling warmth. After a year of this
empathic confrontation, balancing emotional support and confrontation,
we were finally able to see significant change. He is now engaged to Nicole,
a warm and loving woman:
JED: My previous therapists were really understanding, and I got a lot of
insight into my grim childhood, but none of them really pushed me to
change. It was just too easy to fall back into my old familar patterns.
This approach was different.
I finally took some responsibilty for making a relationship work.
I didn’t want my relationship with Nicole to be another failure, and I
felt like this was it for me. Although I could see that Nicole wasn’t
perfect, I finally decided that either I would have to connect with some-
one or resign myself to being alone forever.
The lifetrap approach involves continually confronting ourselves. We will
teach you how to track your lifetraps as they play themselves out in your
life, and how to counter them repeatedly until these patterns loosen their
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HEaTHER: A FORTY-TWO-YEAR-OLD WOMAN WITH TREMEN-
DOUS POTENTIAL, TRAPPED IN HER OWN HOME BECAUSE HER
FEARS ARE SO CRIPPLING. ALTHOUGH SHE TAKES THE TRAN-
QUILIZER ATIVAN TO TREAT HER ANXIETY, SHE IS STILL STUCK
IN THE VULNERABILITY LIFETRAP.
In a sense, Heather has no life; she is too afraid to do anything. Life is
fraught with danger. She prefers to stay home where it is “safe.”
HEATHER: I know there’s lots of great stuff to do in the city. I bke the
theater, I lke nice restaurants, | lke seeing friends. But it’s just too
much for me. I don’t have fun. I’m too worried all the time that
something horrible is going to happen.
Heather worries about car crashes, collapsing bridges, getting mugged,
catching a disease such as AIDS, and spending too much money. It cer-
tainly is not surprising that a trip to the city is no fun for her.
Heather’s husband Walt is very angry with her. He wants to go out
and do things. Walt says—and rightly so—that it is not fair for him to be
deprived. More and more, he goes ahead and does things without her.
Heather’s parents were exceptionally overprotective of her. Her par-
ents were Jewish Holocaust survivors who spent much of their childhoods
in concentration camps. They treated her like a china doll, as she put it.
They continually warned her about possible (but unlikely) threats to her
welfare: she might catch pneumonia, be trapped in the subway, drown, or
be caught in a fire. It is no wonder that she spends most of her time in a
painful state of anxiety, trying to make sure that her world is safe. Mean-
while, almost everything that is pleasurable is draining out of her life.
Before coming to us, Heather tried several anti-anxiety medications
over a three-year period. (Medication is the most common treatment for
anxiety.) Most recently, she went to a psychiatrist who prescribed Ativan.
She took the pills every day, and the medication did provide some relief.
She felt better, less anxious. Life became more pleasant. Knowing she had
the medication made her feel more able to cope with things. Even so, she
continued to avoid leaving the house. Her husband complained that the
medication just made her happier to sit around at home.
Another serious problem was that Heather felt dependent on the Ativan:
HEATHER: / feel kke I’m going to have to stay on this for the rest of my
fe. The idea of giving it up terrifies me. I don’t want to go back to being
scared of everything all the time.Lirerraps 5
Even when Heather coped well with stressful situations, she attributed all
her success to the medication. She was not building a sense of mastery—
the sense that she could handle things on her own. (This is why, particu-
larly with anxiety treatments, patients tend to relapse when the medication
is withdrawn.)
Heather made relatively rapid progress in lifetrap therapy. Within a
year, her life was significantly better. She gradually started entering more
anxiety-provoking situations. She could travel, see friends, go to movies,
and she eventually decided to take on a part-time job that required com-
muting.
As part of her treatment, we helped Heather become better at estimat-
ing the odds of bad things happening. We continually demonstrated how
she exaggerated the risk of catastrophe in harmless situations; and we
showed her that she overestimated her own vulnerability and weakness
outside her home. She learned to take reasonable precautions. She stopped
asking her husband and friends for reassurance. Her marriage improved.
And she got more pleasure from her life.
THE IRONY OF REPETITION
Jed and Heather illustrate two of the eleven lifetraps: Emotional Depriva-
tion and Vulnerability. As we discuss other patients, you will read about
the other lifetraps: Subjugation, Mistrust and Abuse, Abandonment, Defec-
tiveness, Entitlement, Dependence, Failure, Unrelenting Standards, and
Social Exclusion. You will probably recognize elements of yourself in
several of these.
That we keep repeating the pain of our childhood is one of the core
insights of psychoanalytic psychotherapy. Freud called this the repetition
compulsion. The child of an alcoholic grows up to marry an alcoholic. The
abused child grows up to marry an abuser, or becomes an abuser himself.
The sexually molested child grows up to be a prostitute. The overly
controlled child allows others to control her.
This is a baffling phenomenon. Why do we do this? Why do we
reenact our pain, prolonging our suffering? Why don’t we build better lives
and escape the pattern? Almost everyone repeats negative patterns from
childhood in self-defeating ways. This is the strange truth with which
therapists contend. Somehow we manage to create, in adult life, conditions
remarkably similar to those that were so destructive in childhood. A
lifetrap is all the ways in which we recreate these patterns.
The technical term for a lifetrap is a schema. The concept of a schema6 REINVENTING Your LIFE
comes from cognitive psychology. Schemas are deeply entrenched beliefs
about ourselves and the world, learned early in life. These schemas are
central to our sense of self. To give up our belief in a schema would be to
surrender the security of knowing who we are and what the world is like;
therefore we cling to it, even when it hurts us. These early beliefs provide
us with a sense of predictability and certainty; they are comfortable and
familiar. In an odd sense, they make us feel at home. This is why cognitive
psychologists believe schemas, or lifetraps, are so difficult to change.
Let us now look at how lifetraps affect the chemistry we feel in
romantic relationships.
Patrick: A THIRTY-FIVE-YEAR-OLD BUILDING CONTRACTOR.
THE MORE HIS WIFE, FRANCINE, HAS AFFAIRS WITH OTHER
MEN, THE MORE HE DESIRES HER. PATRICK 1S CAUGHT IN THE
ABANDONMENT LIFETRAP.
Patrick is acutely unhappy. His wife keeps having affairs with other men.
Whenever she has an affair, he becomes desperate.
PATRICK: It’s ike I'll do anything to get her back. I can’t stand it. I know
tf I lose her I'll fall apart. I can’t understand why I put up with this; it’s
as if [love her more when I know she’s not there for me. I start thinking,
“Tf only I could be better, she wouldn’t need to do this. If only I were
better, she would stay with me.” I can’t stand the uncertainty.
Francine keeps promising to be faithful, and each time Patrick believes her.
And each time his hopes are dashed.
PATRICK: J can’t believe she’s doing this to me again. I can’t bekeve she’d
put me through it. After last time I was sure she would stop. I mean,
she saw what she did to me. I was almost suicidal. I can’t believe she
would do it again.
Patrick’s marriage is a roller coaster. He rides, out of control, from wild
hope to despair, rising and crashing again and again.
PATRICK: The hardest part for me is the waiting. Knowing what she is
doing and waiting for her to come home. There have been times when
I have waited days. Just sat there and waited for her to come home.Liretraps 7
While Patrick waits, he alternates between sobbing and rage. When Fran-
cine finally comes home, there is a scene. A few times he has hit her,
afterward always begging her forgiveness. He wants to get off the roller
coaster. He says he wants some stability and peace. Yet this is the irony
of the Abandonment lifetrap: the more unpredictable Francine is, the more
he is drawn to her at a deep emotional level. He feels more chemistry when
she threatens to leave.
Patrick’s childhood was fraught with loss and unpredictability. His
father abandoned the family when Patrick was only two years old. He and
his two sisters were raised by their mother, an alcoholic who neglected
them when she was drunk. These feelings are familiar to him, and he
has managed to recreate them by marrying Francine and tolerating her
infidelity.
Patrick was in psychoanalysis (Freudian therapy) for three years. He
saw his analyst three times a week for fifty minutes each time—at consid-
erable expense.
PATRICK: I would go in and ke down on the couch and talk about whatever
came into my mind. It was very lonely for me. My analyst said very Kittle
in the whole three years. Even if I was crying or yelling at him he usually
wouldn’t say anything. I felt ike he wasn’t really there.
He talked a lot about his childhood, and about what it felt like to lie there
on the couch.
He became frustrated with analysis. He found his progress very slow.
He understood his problems better, but he still had them. (This is a common
complaint about psychoanalysis: Insight is not enough.) He wanted a
therapy that was quicker and more directive. He wanted more guidance.
The lifetrap approach offered Patrick the guidance he needed. Instead
of being distant and neutral with Patrick, we collaborated with him. We
helped him see exactly what his pattern was and how he could break it. We
taught him how to become more selective in his relationships with women.
We warned him of the danger in romantic relationships of being drawn to
destructive partners who generate a lot of sexual chemistry. He was con-
fronted with the painful reality that he, like many of us, had fallen in love
with a partner who reinforced his lifetrap.
After a year and a half of lifetrap therapy, Patrick decided to end his
marriage to Francine. In that time he had given her every chance. He had
tried to correct his behaviors that were destructive to the relationship—and
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her. He had given her more freedom. He had asserted himself when she
treated him badly. But through it all Francine had not changed. In fact,
things had grown worse.
When we first asked if he had considered leaving Francine, Patrick
insisted that he was too afraid he would fall apart. But when he finally left
her and ended his marriage, he did not fall apart. Instead, he became calmer
and more self-confident. He saw that he could have a life apart from
Francine. We think he was right to leave the self-destructive relationship.
Patrick slowly started seeing other women. At first, he dated women
who were just like his wife—unstable and unable to support him. It was
as though he were running through the whole cycle again in fast motion.
We gradually helped him to make healthier choices, even though the
chemistry he felt was not quite as high. He has been living for six months
with Sylvia, a very stable and reliable woman who seems devoted to him.
While she is less glamorous than Francine, for the first time in his life
Patrick is learning to be content in a consistent, nurturing environment.
The lifetrap approach shows you exactly what types of relationships
are healthy for you to pursue, and what types to avoid, given your particu-
lar lifetraps. Often, this is not easy. Like Patrick, you may have to make
choices that are painful in the short run and even go against your gut
feelings in order to escape a rut that you have been mired in throughout
your life.
CaRLTON: THIRTY YEARS OLD, WORKS FOR HIS FATHER IN A
FAMILY TEXTILE BUSINESS. HE IS NOT VERY GOOD AT MANAG-
ING OTHER PEOPLE AND WOULD MUCH RATHER BE DOING
SOMETHING ELSE. CARLTON IS CAUGHT IN THE SUBJUGATION
LIFETRAP.
Carlton is a people-pleaser. He puts everyone’s needs before his own. He is
the one who always says, “I don’t care, you decide,” when other people ask
him what he wants.
Carlton tries to please his wife by saying “yes” to everything she says
and wants. He tries to please his children by never saying “no.” He tries
to please his father by going into the family business, even though it means
doing a job he does not like.
Ironically, despite the fact that he tries so hard to please, other people
often feel irritated with Carlton. He is so self-sacrificing. His wife is angry
that he has no backbone. Although the children take advantage of his
permissiveness, at some level they are angry that he fails to set limits. His