before the sun had set was the morning after my sisters and I found my mother in that doughboy pool kissing the neighbors son with her tankini top pulled down.
We left for home as the sun rose. It was the first
time Id seen the place devoid of sunshine. The color of landscapes at dawn allows for 7 year-old contemplation. As we drove past that abandoned horse stable, through the apple orchards gates, and onto paved road, I wondered if my dad would find out.
Im not a morning person
Something about that pallid light Reminds me of loss: The earth before its alive or after the night has taken its innocence.