Palms and Pockets

COLLECTORS EDITION
Jonathan Paul Diaz

2009

THIS COPY IS NOT TO BE SOLD OR DISTRIBUTED

 Greetings:

For the Collectors edition e-books I wanted to keep them intact. I want
to let them remain as how they were written by me years ago.

The purpose is so that you can see the evolution of my writing. Like I
said I am an accidental writer. I underwent a heart breaking tragedy
which brought me great depression. Before I could hit rock bottom a
friend of mine told me to start writing to release the pain and keep my
mind pre occupied.

I listened to her and I started writing stories to help me forget and

move on. Writing did help me. I let out my frustrations and unfulfilled
wishes through my writings. You might notice that the themes of my first
few stories are quite similar. Pieces of me are in all of my stories and if
you put those pieces of the puzzle together then you can see who I really
am and what I went through.

I must admit I am not a great writer. I am more of a story teller. Please

do forgive me for the syntax errors and wrong writing formats. I am not
perfect and I do not adhere to the proper writing standards. I just want to
share my stories and maybe one day when I consider myself as a true
writer then I might have to use those formats which are needed for
writers.

I am Jonathan Paul Diaz, I am a story teller.

Greetings:
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Contents
Contents.................................................................................................................................................... 4
Prologue.................................................................................................................................................... 5
Chapter 1: A Friend ................................................................................................................................... 9
Chapter 2: Normalcy ...............................................................................................................................17
Chapter 3: New World ...........................................................................................................................27
Chapter 4: A Good Feeling ......................................................................................................................35
Chapter 5: Wish....................................................................................................................................... 44
Chapter 6: You ........................................................................................................................................ 52
Chapter 7: Last Day ................................................................................................................................. 61
Chapter 8: Happy Summer......................................................................................................................69
Chapter 9: Change................................................................................................................................... 77
Chapter 10: Actor................................................................................................................................... 85
Chapter 11: Happiness............................................................................................................................93
Chapter 12: Being Better ......................................................................................................................101
Chapter 13: Hands ................................................................................................................................109
Chapter 14: Being There .......................................................................................................................117
Chapter 15: Reasons .............................................................................................................................126
Chapter 16: Prom Night ........................................................................................................................135
Chapter 17: Second Prom .....................................................................................................................143
Chapter 18: Confusion ..........................................................................................................................151
Chapter 19: Letting Go..........................................................................................................................159
Chapter 20: Scooters.............................................................................................................................169
Chapter 21: Fifteen ...............................................................................................................................177
Chapter 22: Inseparable........................................................................................................................185
Chapter 23: Limit................................................................................................................................... 194
Chapter 24: Post Board .........................................................................................................................202
Chapter 25: Palms and Pockets............................................................................................................. 210
Prologue

The sun was peeking along the curtain spaces and the room was slightly
brightened. The door opened and a middle aged woman walked towards the
bed to wake up her daughter.

Anne, wake up dear. You are going to be late for school she said. The
young woman slowly opened her eyes and immediately frowned and shook her
head. Why did we have to move? she asked. Oh dear, do we have to through
this conversation again?

Your father was assigned to this city, he had to accept it because the
compensation package is better. Look we now have our own home, we dont
have to rent anymore. I know your father does not earn that much but I too will
find a job and I promise you we will be better off in this city her mother
Colleen asked.

I was already doing well and they already accepted me in my last school.
Now a new school, another first day, and I have to go through it all over again.
Do you even know what I have to go through? Its not easy the young woman
exclaimed as she closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

Anne, I know its hard but please I promise this will be the last transfer.
Everything is going to be fine from here on. I know the pain you feel when
people first see you. I too get hurt but if you could just hang on. I promise this
will be the last. If you get past high school they have a good college here so you
dont have to adjust anymore. By that time people would have accepted you
her mother said.

Anne sighed and pouted; her mother kissed her on the forehead and smiled.
So come on get up now. You dont want to be late for your first day she softly
whispered. Annes mother walked out of the room and the young woman slowly
got out of bed and stood in front of a huge mirror.
 Standing in front of her was a young woman; she had a pretty face and
straight shoulder length hair. The right side of her face was partially covered by
her hair so she slowly moved her hair with one hand to reveal a coin sized
birthmark on her cheek. Anne frowned and slowly looked down to look at her
legs and the more depressed she got.

She turned around and shook her head, grabbed her towel and slowly
limped towards the door. Aside from the birthmark on her face, Anne had a
crooked left leg.

A few blocks away, a young man was staring outside his window and
watching his father wipe the car windows. John, come on down and eat your
breakfast. I dont want you to be late for school his mother said. I dont want
to go to school the young man replied.

Whats wrong? Do you feel sick? his mother asked as she moved closer to
feel his forehead. No mom, I just cant go to school after what happened. I
cant face my schoolmates he explained. Is it about Sarah? his mother asked
and the young man nodded.

John that is part of growing up. I know you like Sarah but you cant expect
her to like you back. The good part is at least you tried, you told her your
feelings. Dont get all depressed, getting dumped is a part of a mans life you
know. You should talk to your dad about this his mother explained.

But mom she could have just said no or I dont like you. I would have
accepted that. She told me she had no time for a relationship and that we were
too young. The next day I see her with Barry, holding hands walking around
campus. That just hurts John told her.

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 Linda embraced his son from the back and whispered in his ear. At one
point she was right, you are still young for those stuff. But you are right, she
should have just told you the truth. John sometimes the truth hurts so maybe
just didnt want to hurt your feeling by being honest she said. Still she was
able to hurt me John replied. I know son, but that is part of growing up. You
have to accept it and move on

You will never hear us say that you are too young for love. You will never
hear that from me and your father. We believe that love can happen anytime,
but dont make it your priority for now. Okay? Linda said.

Okay mom. So what am I going to do if I see her? John asked. Hmmm

pretend to act normal as if she doesnt mean anything to you anymore. She
knows you like her so if she sees you all shy and embarrassed she would feel a
sense of control over you. Dont ignore her or else she would say you feel bitter.
Just act cool, act as if she was just another unimportant person she
whispered.

Will that make her feel bad? John asked. I would if I was her Linda
whispered and they both laughed. Mom, maybe I am not handsome enough
for her. Could that be a reason? he asked and Linda immediately turned her
son to face her.

If that is how she looks for love then she bound to fail. I dont want to hear
you say that again. Dont just let your eyes decide for you. Listening to your
heart is what is important. If I did let my eyes choose for me I could have
landed a handsome man but I would not know if I would be this happy she
scolded.

Mom are you saying dad isnt handsome? John asked and they both
laughed. He actually is but there were more handsome men back then who
were courting me Linda explained. So what made you choose dad? the young

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man asked. Linda smiled and didnt utter a word, she fixed her sons collar and
kissed him in the forehead.

Well? What made you choose dad? John insisted. Cant you see the
answer? Its written all over my face. The young man shook his head and
smirked, Dont worry you will get to know the answer when you find your
partner in life Linda said.

Mom! I am only fifteen, that is going to be a long time from now John said.
It doesnt have to be. I was only fifteen too when I met your father his mother
said. You got married at fifteen? John asked and his mother laughed.

Silly boy, of course not. You will understand what I am saying when you
find this exact feeling I have had ever since. And when you do get to feel this
same feeling dont ever let it go. Come on your breakfast is cold already Linda
told him.

John took a deep breath and noticed her mother smiling, he walked towards
the window and saw his father doing the same. He walked towards the mirror
and took out a picture of Sarah from his wallet. He stared at the picture and
tried to smile and looked at himself at the mirror.

Its not the same smile he whispered so he tore the picture in pieces and
walked out of his room.

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Chapter 1: A Friend

It was a sunny Wednesday; John was honking the car horn madly. Dad I
am going to be late!!! he shouted. His parents were locked in a tight embrace
by the door dancing to imaginary music.

Your school is nearby why dont you start walking Bob replied and Linda
giggled. Bob you should go, we can continue when you get home. A lot of
patients are going to get irate when you go in late Linda said as she planted
one kiss on her husbands cheek.

Bob sighed and kissed his wife on the forehead, I think we should go on
another vacation he said. But we just had one Linda replied. I was thinking
a vacation for just the two of us he said and Linda again giggled. Dad!!! I am
going to drive your car now!!! John yelled and the two laughed.

Sixteen years and its as if a day never passed. I am still in love with you
like before and even more Bob said. Ditto. You better get going now and you
are right, you should start planning for our vacation Linda said as she smiled.
The car engine started so Bob quickly kissed his wife and ran towards the car.

Along the way John noticed a young woman limping her way to school. Their
car passed by her but the young man turned his head to look. Hey dad, what
do you think is wrong with her? he asked. I cant say, maybe she hurt her
foot Bob replied.

John felt sorry the girl so he looked at his legs and his father. It bites at
your heart right? Bob asked and John nodded. Well I see those every day at
work. I have been a doctor for so many years and I thought I would get used to
seeing people like that. But you know what it still stings his father related.
 And you would wish there is something you can do to make them better
John whispered and Bob smiled and patted his sons shoulder. If you plan to
take up medicine then you would be a great doctor with that attitude the older
man said. Are there instances where there is nothing you can do for a
patient? John asked and Bob was surprised.

Lots of them. No matter how much you explain to them that there is
nothing more that could be done they wont believe you. They would start to
dislike you and curse you and say its a money issue. At those instances we
stop being doctors because we are supposed to heal, at those times we doctors
feel useless Bob said.

Thats the time when you should take of your white gown and start being a
friend dad John uttered and again Bob looked at his son surprised. Because
most of the time a friend will always be there to listen and comfort you no
matter how big your problem is. At those times they become the healers. Maybe
that is what you should do dad when there is no medical solution left. Be a
friend and heal their emotional pain, its the least you can do to make them feel
better the young man added and stared outside the car window.

As soon as they reached the school, John got out of the car and thanked his
father. Hey John, when did you grow up? Bob asked and the young man
laughed. John looked around and started acting bewildered, How did I get
here? I dont remember anything. You brought me to school? he said and they
both shared a laugh. Later dad the young man said as he waved and turned
around.

Bob was used to seeing his son always being funny but this day was
different. Just minutes ago he had a peek on his sons inner being and along
with the smile on his face was a few tears rolling down his cheeks. Like what
all parents dream of, it seems he and Linda had already achieved, a good and
kind hearted son.

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 John was surprised to see lots of his schoolmates loitering around the main
gate. It seemed that they were waiting for someone to arrive. He saw his close
friend Rick among those in the crowd so he quickly approached him. Okay
guys I am here, you can all go back to class now John said and a few of them
laughed.

You should stay and wait with us Rick told him. Wait for what? Is a
celebrity coming to our school? John asked. No silly. Everyone is waiting for
the freak his friend said. Freak? What do you mean? he asked. There she is,
look! Rick said as he pointed towards the gate.

John turned around and saw the young lady he saw earlier. She had her
head bowed as she limped entering the campus. Several students were
whispering and staring at her as one even imitated how she walked.

I bet you got two heights! one shouted as the crowd burst in laughter. The
girl just get walking and momentarily raised her head. She and John had eye
to eye contact and he could see sadness in her eyes but there was nothing he
could do as the others kept making fun of her.

As the girl passed a lot followed closely limping like her and laughing all the
way. Rick start to imitate the girl and John stopped him. What are you trying
to do? he asked. Oh come on its just for fun Rick replied. John stomped on
his friends foot and his friend grimaced in pain. No you dont have to act he
said and walked away.

Hey John I was just kidding alright? Rick shouted as he limped after his
friend.

Lunch break at the cafeteria was always noisy. John was surrounded by
friends as he was cracking a joke. Suddenly there was silence as the limping

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girl entered. A group of students suddenly burst in laughter as John proudly
smiled as he finished his joke.

The limping girl looked at John who was surprised to see her. Oh shoot
maybe she thinks I was making fun of her he said. The girl flashed a pout and
walked towards the counter, John was about to go towards her but Rick
stopped him. Relax John, I bet she is used to it he told him. No, I have to
explain to her that I was not making fun of her John said. Oh chill out man,
the damage has been done his friend explained.

John didnt feel right as he watched the limping girl carry her tray towards
an empty table. She had her head bowed as she took a bite on her sandwich
and slowly chewed. After a few minutes students started leaving the cafeteria.
Rick stood up and shook his friend who still had his eyes glued to the limping
girl.

Hey man lets go Rick said. She is pretty John whispered and his friend
started to laugh. Yeah right, you should see what she is hiding on her other
cheek his friend said. What do you mean? he asked but for a moment the
girls hair moved to reveal her birthmark and John was surprised.

The girl quickly fixed her hair and covered her cheek and continued eating.
Did you see that? Now tell me do you still find her pretty? Rick asked and
John stood up and stared at the girl. Actually I still do he said so his friend
shook his head as they walked towards the exit. From Sarah to the freak
show, I really dont understand you man his friend uttered.

The school day ended, John and Rick were briskly walking along campus
when suddenly they saw the limping girl exit the gate. See you tomorrow, have
to go John said as he ran towards the gate. You are really getting weirder
each day John!!! Rick yelled but his friend never looked back.

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 John caught up with the limping girl and walked beside her. Hi, my name is
John he said. The girl stopped and slowly looked him and immediately she
recognized him. Why are you here? Are you here to mock me? she asked.

Oh no, I just want to be your friend the young man said and the girl
continued walking. Hey, I said I want to be your friend he repeated and the
girl stopped once again and looked at him. Yeah right, is this a prank? I saw
you at the gate this morning with the others. I saw you again during lunch
time at the cafeteria she told him.

Wait you got it all wrong. This morning at the gate I just arrived. I wasnt
waiting for you to arrive like the others. And during lunch time I was cracking
a joke and I didnt know you were there he explained. Yeah a joke about me
probably the girl said. No, honestly it wasnt about you. I am sorry if you
thought it was about you. I really want to be your friend John said.

If youre doing this to ask for forgiveness then I forgive you. If you are here
because of pity then I dont need it. Leave me alone! the girl yelled and started
to walk away. John shook his head and took a deep breath and continued
following the girl.

A few meters away the girl again stopped and turned around. Why are you
still following me? she asked. I am not following you. It just happens we are
going the same direction he replied. Maybe you are waiting for me to trip so
you could take a photo of me and post it on the bulletin board the girl said.

Hey look I know we started at the wrong footoh crap Im sorry I didnt
mean anything by that. What I wanted to say is that you got the wrong first
impression. If you dont believe me then I am sorry if you think I was one of
them and I am sorry if you think I was cracking a joke about you during lunch
John said.

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 Okay fine, apology accepted so now leave me alone the girl replied. Hmmm
I am leaving you alone it just happens we really are walking towards the same
direction John told her. Your feet are fine, so why are you walking slower
than me then? the girl asked and John held back his laughter as he scratched
his head.

I dont know, maybe I wanted to be there just in case you fall down John
said. See! You are waiting for me to trip! she angrily said and the young man
slapped his forehead. I was trying to say something nice so you would trust
me and let me be your friend but you took it negatively John explained.
Whats nice about falling? the girl asked and the young man sighed.

Okay I give up. I am sorry John said as he started to walk ahead. Wait!
the girl yelled so John stopped and turned around. What now? he asked.
What you saidits supposed to be sweet right? she asked. I guess so. Yeah
maybe it was but I just learned that you can interpret that saying in a negative
manner too he said and the girl started to laugh.

Whats so funny? John asked and the girl pointed at him and continued
laughing. Me? You are laughing at me? he asked. Uh huh, Youre funny. You
talk too much she said and the young man felt embarrassed.

My name is Anne the girl said the young man smiled and was about to
offer his hand but instead hi stuck his foot forward. Anne raised an eyebrow
and pouted but John was quick to explain. Hey, instead of a handshake why
not we do a foot shake. I am not trying to insult you. Actually I am trying to
make a good thing out of your disability. You know instead of thinking of it as a
disability you could just make fun about it. Something like that he said.

Anne took a deep breath and angrily stared at him so John again slapped his
head. You are sticking out the wrong foot. My left foot is shorter so you should
foot shake with your left foot not your right one Anne said and John was
surprised.

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 John extended his left foot and Anne games touched her right foot to his.
Nice to meet you Anne John exclaimed and again she laughed. Shall we get
going? he asked and they both started to walk again.

Oh I get it, you could not shake with your right foot or else you are going to
lose balance the young man uttered. Uh huh Anne replied. But you know
what you could have used your right foot because I told you if you fall I will be
here to catch you John smartly told her and grinned. Anne slightly giggled and
elbowed him.

You really want me to fall that badly? she asked. Of course not. I was just
trying to say something nice again. Still you take it negatively. Whats wrong
with you? John explained. Anne didnt bother to reply but deep inside she was
happy. She felt something different for the first time in her life but she just
couldnt say what it was.

A few minutes later they reached Annes house. This is me, how about you?
she asked. Oh we passed by our place a few block back. I just wanted to see
where you live John said and the girl nodded her head. Well thanks for the
company. I actually enjoyed it Anne told him.

Wow, we can do it every day you know. Oh except Saturdays and Sundays
that is because we dont have classes he told her and again Anne laughed. Of
course its understood when you say every day, you mean school days she
said. Oh right, stupid me then the young man quipped and the more Anne
laughed at him.

Hey, I dont exactly know how you feel with your disability and how the way
people treat you. Instead of sulking you could just make fun of it to show
others that you are cool with it. I know I may be crossing the line but just think
about it John said and Anne looked at him.

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 I have accepted what I have, thanks for the concern the young woman said.
It doesnt show. Anyway just think about what I said. It was nice meeting you
Anne, looking forward to tomorrow. Sorry if I talk too much, this is just me
John said as he waved goodbye.

Dont worry I will get used to it Anne replied as she waved back and walked
towards the door.

As soon as she was inside she quickly closed the door and leaned against it
and smiled. My its been a long time since I didnt see a smile from you dear
her mother said as she came to give her daughter a kiss.

How was school today? she asked. Hmmm happy I guess Anne said.
Happy? Want to share it with me? Colleen asked. I now have a friend the
young lady replied. Oh thats good. Whats her name? her mother inquired.

His name is John and he talks too much the young woman said as she
hugged her mother. So its a boy, is that why you are all smiles? Colleen
teased. Mom! He is just a friend Anne told her.

Well you did have male friends in your last school but I never saw you
smiling that way Colleen replied. Yes I did but they were all classmates that I
met inside the classroom. John is different. He came and introduced himself to
me and said he wanted to be my friend. My friend, do you get it mom? Anne
explained then giggled.

So are you still angry because we moved? Colleen asked and Anne kissed
her mother on the cheek and hugged her tightly. I actually believe this city will
bring lots of changes. I am beginning to love it here already she whispered.

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Chapter 2: Normalcy

Thursday morning John was rushing and his mother noticed him acting
funny. Why do you keep running to window every minute? Linda asked. I am
waiting for someone the young man replied. Is Rick coming over? Its a school
day his mother said.

No mom, a new friend. She lives nearby and she goes to the same school I
go to John explained. A friend and its a girl. Arent you rushing things? I
remember four days ago you were still sulking and being depressed about
Sarah Linda teased. Mom, I said she was a friend John reiterated as he
again went to the window.

Why dont you finish your food and let me wait by the window. What does
she look like? Linda asked and his son sat down in front of the table. She
walks funny, I am sure you wont miss her he said. Thats no good to start a
friendship if you say things like that behind her back his mother told him.

Whats the fuzz all about so early in the morning? Bob asked as he took a
seat in front of the table to eat breakfast. Hurry up and eat dad, I dont want
to be late for school John told him. Hey we still have thirty minutes and your
school is only ten minutes away from here Bob said.

I know but she goes to school early John said and the couple looked at
each other. Oh my. what happened to her, why is she limping? Linda
suddenly asked as she was staring outside the window. Thats her! Dad quick
eat your breakfast. Can she ride with us? Wait I am going to call her John said
as he rushed out of their house.

Anne!! the young man shouted and the limping girl paused to and saw
John running towards her. Hello John she said and flashed a smile. Whew, I
was waiting for you to pass by all morning the young man told her as he tried
to catch his breath. Why were you waiting for me? she asked.
 So we could go to school together John said. Okay but I dont see your bag
with you Anne replied. Yeah I was eating breakfast, come on lets go and get
my bag he told her. Why dont you go get it and I will wait for you here she
told him. No, you have to come with me because my dad is taking us to
school John said.

Anne shook her head and started to walk. That wont be necessary, I will
see you in school then she said. Hey come on Anne, I know you are hard up
walking. Its not good going to school tired you know John said. Dont worry I
am used to it, thanks for your concern she told him.

John frowned and bowed his head, he slowly turned around and started to
walk away. If you dont want me as your friend you could have just said no
yesterday he uttered. What are you saying? That is not true Anne said. You
dont have to lie, it all clear now. I am sorry for wasting your time the young
man added.

Okay I will go with you the young woman said and John quickly turned
around and flashed a smile. Gotcha! Come on now you cant take your words
back, you already agreed he told her. You were acting? she asked and John
laughed. Yep and it works every time he told her. Anne looked at him and
shook her head. So this might be a big act too then she said softly.

What? What are you saying? John asked. You being too friendly to me. Its
all an act. I should have known the young woman said. No! Its not! I really
want to be your friend he told her. Gotcha! Anne exclaimed and she started
laughing. The two of them shared a laugh as they walked towards the car.

Remember the girl I told you we saw yesterday that brought out his serious
side? That is her Bob said as he drank his coffee. So we are good parents
after all, we raised a good son Linda softly said. Exactly what I thought off

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yesterday Bob said. Come on hurry up and we dont want them to be late
Linda told him as she took the cup away from her husband.

Bob and Linda stepped out of the house to meet the two. Oh mom and dad I
would like you to meet my new friend, Anne John said as the young woman
smiled and nodded her head. Oh she has a crooked left leg and she has a
birth mark on her cheek that is why she covers her face much with her hair
John added.

Thats rude to say John! Where are your manners? Linda snapped. Its
okay maam, I am used to it Anne said. No dear, he should not have said it
that way the older woman said. Mom, if I didnt tell you then you would have
not known because she wouldnt say. You too would be ashamed to ask so I
said it. Its nothing to be ashamed about, I just said the truth so there would
be no more awkwardness when you see her John explained.

Anne nodded her head and smiled as Johns parents were surprised with
their sons explanation. Well we better get going then Bob said. It was nice to
meet you maam Anne said as she looked at Linda. Same here dear, please
forgive my son if he says nasty things Linda whispered as she hugged her. Its
okay maam, he is my first friend. So I dont care if he says harsh things, its
better having one friend than no friend at all Anne whispered back.

The car reached the school and John quickly got out to open the door for
Anne. Thanks for the ride sir Anne said. Youre welcome dear. You will be
coming with us every day from now on okay? I wont accept no for an answer
Bob said. The young woman was surprised and lost for words and she shyly
agreed and stepped out of the car. John heard what his father said so he
smiled and Bob gave him a thumbs up sign.

The two watched the car speed away and they saw a crowd of students
gathered at the gate. Come on lets go John said. They began to walk towards
the gate and Anne immediately bowed her head. As they crossed the gate John

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could hear the murmurs and could feel the cold stares. He looked at Anne and
now he understands what she has to go through every day.

Lunch time came and John was with Rick and friends at the cafeteria. Again
there was silence as Anne entered the door. John immediately stood up and
approached Anne and accompanied her to get food. He carried her tray and
they proceeded to the table where Johns friends were. Ah I can eat at the
vacant table over there Anne said. Its boring to eat alone, you will eat with
us from now on John told her.

Hey guys, this is Anne John said as his friends shyly looked at the girl.
Anne, this curly dude is my friend Rick, this thin guy beside him is Jerome,
and four eyes over here is Kevin he added and Anne flashed a smile.

As the two were seated John noticed silence so tapped the table and
everyone looked at him. Anne here limps because her left leg is crooked. She
has a birthmark on her left cheek that is why she hides it with her hair. Anne
show them your birthmark John said and the young woman was surprised.

Go ahead show them he insisted. Anne slowly moved her hair away to
show the others her birthmark. The three guys looked for a moment and then
nodded their heads. Now you know so is there going to be a problem? John
asked and the three shook their heads in unison.

So Anne, your leghas it been that way since you were a baby? Rick asked
and Anne paused and looked at John. He is asking a question, why are you
looking at me. You can speak right? Oh yeah guys she can speak by the way
and all of them laughed.

Nope, I started limping when I was ten years old. We thought it was nothing
so we just ignored it. Then it just kept getting worse, in short my leg isnt
growing straight Anne explained. Yeah my uncle had the same thing. His leg

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was bending outwards so he had a knee replacement. Now he has titanium
knees and his leg is now straight Kevin said.

So why dont you have an operation to fix it? Jerome asked. Hmmm they
said I am still growing. And its quite expensive and we cant afford it yet Anne
replied. Yeah and we are waiting for Kevin to grow up too, he has been short
since grade school John said and everyone laughed.

How about the mark on your face? Rick asked and John shook his head.
Did you hear me say birthmark? You are supposed to have that at once at
birth dude. Thats why its called a birthmark. Its not just something that
grows as you grow up John explained and again they laughed.

For the first time Anne enjoyed lunch at school. She was enjoying listening
to the four guys tell stories and jokes and she had never laughed this much in
her whole life. Amidst the joy she was having still there were lots of students
staring at her that is why she again bowed her head. Hey, focus on us. Dont
mind the others. Keep your head up, I dont want to see you bowing your head
when you are with me John whispered.

Even if those words of his were good to hear, Anne could not just do so. She
still feels shy and could feel the cold stared all around. Didnt you hear me? Or
are you ashamed because you are with us? Is that the reason why you are
bowing your head, because you are ashamed to be seen with us? John asked
and Anne immediately shook her head.

You are using reverse psychology again on me she told him. Guys I think
Anne is ashamed to be with us John exclaimed and the three looked at her.
No thats not true Anne replied. Oh yes it is. Look even if we have accepted
her she still bows her head. There can be only one reasonshe is ashamed to
be with us John insisted and the others nodded their heads in agreement.

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 No, I am not. Its justthe others Anne said. What others? We are the only
ones here John said as he pretended to look around seeing nothing. Can you
see dead people? We dont Rick added as he followed what his friend was
doing. Anne felt happy, she understood what they were trying to do for her.

She took a deep breath and slowly raised her head and smiled. Hey Anne I
know what you are feeling. They call me a geek because I love reading and
doing geeky stuff I guess. I know we dont have the same situation but I know
what it feels like to be different. I was a loner before until I met these guys
Kevin said.

Well said four eyes John said and Anne looked at him. I thought he was
your friend, then why are you calling him names? she asked and the others
laughed. Its alright Anne, welcome to Johns therapy Kevin said. He calls me
curly tops Rick added. Yeah and I got the moniker of flag pole Jeremy
quipped and everyone laughed.

And you guys are okay with that? Anne inquired. Well that is what others
are calling us behind our backs. John just makes sure we hear it every day so
we can get used to it Rick explained. Yeah, it hurts when you hear it from
others but when a friend calls you by that name somehow it sounds as a joke
Kevin said. Yup and eventually we got used to his name calling, and when we
hear it from others it has no effect anymore Jeremy told her.

I see. So what do you call John? she asked. And you had to ask John
said and looked at her. Of course, you call them names so they should call
you names too she explained. They do trust me but you dont need to hear
them he told her. I want to know she insisted. Mega mouth Rick said and
Anne laughed. Yappy Kevin added. Because he talks too much? she asked
and everyone nodded.

So what are the other students calling me? Anne asked and the guys
looked at John. Go ahead tell her he said. Well I heard someone say scar

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face Kevin said and Anne nodded her head and touched her birthmark. And
others call you Rick was about to say but John tapped the table and looked
at him. What? What do they call me? Anne asked but Rick just shook his
head.

John? What is it? she asked. You should finish your food its almost time
he told her and she noticed that he was angry. Lunch time was over, John
walked Anne to her classroom. I am just three rooms away. Wait for me here
after class okay? he told her. Arent you going to hang out with your friends
after class? I can go home alone you know she told him.

We only hang out once in a while but mostly on weekends. You see we have
to adapt to Kevins schedule, his geekiness has rubbed into the rest of us so we
go home after school John explained and Anne laughed. See you later then
John she said and he smiled at her and walked away.

Anne stood still and kept watching Johns back. Every night she wishes that
everyone would treat her normally and even if he is only the one that has done
that so far, she was happy. As soon as John entered his classroom, Anne felt
low again. She slowly walked inside her classroom where her classmates were
again staring. She took her seat and bowed her head, again she felt different.

Anne was listening intently as the teacher in front spoke. Every five minutes
she would check her watch and wished for time to move faster. An hour later
the bell rang and all her classmates were racing towards the door. Anne slowly
packed her things and walked towards the door. As soon as she stepped out
John was already there and the frown on her face immediately turned to a
smile.

Side by side they walked along the campus, she could feel others staring but
she didnt bow her head. She knew as long as she was beside him everything
would be okay. Once they exited the gate she glanced back and looked at the

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students and smiled at them. She bade the world of indifference goodbye for
she was about the enter the world of normalcy.

John, about lunch. Why did you stop Rick from talking? she asked.
Because I didnt want you to hear what he was about to say John told her.
So why dont you be the one to tell me. I am sure it would be okay if you said
it she said. No it wont and I dont like them calling you that since its not
true he explained.

Which is? she insisted. Scarface I could let them call you that because its
true and maybe crippled too but that moniker I am against it John said. Tell
me, if its from you then it will be okay she told him. They are calling you
freak show. You are not a freak, it just so happens you have crooked legs and a
scar on your face. You are still normal like the rest of us. You are not a freak of
nature John told her.

Freak show she repeated and John noticed the sudden sadness on her
face. See, that is why I didnt want to tell you. I knew you feel bad he said.
Yeah it hurts hearing that she softly said. Oh no, I really didnt want to tell
you but you forced me to. I am really sorry Anne. Please dont get hurt when
you hear that, its not true. You are not a freak. You are normal trust me. I can
get my leg injured by accident and start walking like you. I dont think they
would call me freak show. Or if I get my face burned and there is going to be a
scar, I dont think they would call me freak show either

You see they dont know the truth, people are like that. Once they get to
know the truth then they stop calling you names. But we really cant do
anything about how people think. There will always be some who will be
borderline bad and call you names and all you have to do is forgive them and
play deaf John said.

Anne started giggling and covered her mouth. Whats wrong? John asked.
You are talking too much again she said and they both laughed. I want you

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to call me freak show Anne told him and the young man was surprised. I
want to get used to it and if I hear it from you its okay with me because you
are my friend she added.

Halfway from home Anne suddenly stopped and massaged her right hip.
Whats wrong? John asked. Oh its nothing come on she told him. Nope I
dont believe you he said. Its okay its just my hip. It aches whenever I walk a
long stretch she explained and John felt sorry for her.

The young man knelt down on one knee at patted his back. Come on get on,
I will carry you the rest of the way he said and Anne laughed. You dont have
to do that. I will be fine, I just need to rest a bit she told him. Then we rest a
bit he said as he stood up and looked around.

John took off his jacket and laid it on the grass nearby. Come have a sit
here he told her. Anne obliged and sat down and tugged on the young mans
pants to let him sit down beside her. It didnt hurt yesterday? he asked. It
did but I was too shy to say so because I was too busy listening to you talk she
replied and they both laughed.

Hey Anne, I do understand what you are going through. I dont want to
think that I am being a friend to you because of pity John said. Im sorry
thats what people like me would instantly think she replied. Yeah I know
that is why I am telling you he told her.

A while ago you said I am already your friend so help me understand you
better the young man added. What do you mean? she asked. Just like this,
you get tired after a walk. I want you to be honest with me. Of course I will
keep in mind you have a shorter leg but there may be times that I could forget
that because I would be treating you as a normal person, and you would think
I am insensitive. So I want you to be honest with me at all times he explained.

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 Once again Anne did like the words he spoke, her faced was getting achy
already for she was not used to smiling and recently she has been smiling a lot.
How I wish all people were like you she softly said.

The world would be a very noisy place if that happens John quipped and
they both laughed aloud.

The following day at school Anne was beginning to bow her head as they
entered the gate. John cleared his throat and looked at her so Anne
remembered and kept her head up. There were lesser students gathered at the
gate and fewer people staring and Anne was beginning to like it.

John stopped and face the young woman and looked at her eyes. You know
what, you look better this way he told her as he fixed her hair and clipped
behind her ear. But John my scar she whispered. What scar? I dont see any
scar. All I see is a pretty face he said.

For the first time in her life she felt her cheeks get warm. Anne couldnt help
herself smile as they began to walk again. She could not believe she walking
along campus with her face fully exposed to everyone. There were still those
who stared at her and she could still see some who would whisper but it didnt
bother her anymore.

She was with him, he was different, so everything will be okay from now on.

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Chapter 3: New World

The following Saturday, Anne was having breakfast with her parents. Colleen
and Gerard Rivera noticed big changes in their daughter lately, gone was the
foul mood she would have every time they would transfer to a new city.

Their living room was full of boxes because the things they had at their
previous home has just arrived yesterday. Honey are you sure they gave you a
days off today? You just have been at work for two weeks and I dont think your
boss would like the idea of you having asking for a day off immediately Colleen
said.

I didnt even have to ask for it, my boss told me to take a day off Gerard
told her. Did you get fired dad? Anne asked and her father laughed. What
happened? Why did he let you have a day off? Did you do something wrong?
Colleen asked.

Relax both of you. I didnt ask for a day off because I gave myself one
Gerard said and the two ladies looked at him surprised. What are you trying to
say? Its not time to make jokes I tell you Colleen said as she raised her two
eyebrows. Well you see I didnt tell you two about this. I wanted it to be a
surprise. All the sacrifices we had to go through has finally paid off Gerard
told them.

The two ladies were silent and simply looking at him. The company
transferred me here because they saw me fit to take over one of their branches.
Yesterday the manager of the local branch has retired and I will be officially
taking over starting Monday, but yes unofficially I am already the manager the
middle aged man told them.

Are you saying we dont have to transfer to another city anymore? Anne
asked. No more dear unless you want to her father replied. I like it here the
young lady said and Colleen almost in tears hugged her husband. Are you
saying I dont need to work anymore? she whispered. Yes dear but its up to
you Gerard replied as they both looked at their daughter who was all smiles.

I think I will keep my job, I know we are better off now but the extra income
might come in handy. We owe her so much she whispered. Yes I know so that
is why I think she will love the gifts I got her Gerard said as he stood up and
walked towards the living room.

Anne how come I dont see you using our computer? Gerard asked. Well
dad because you keep hogging it his daughter replied as she and her mother
laughed. Well you could have just told me if you needed to use it. Like for
chatting and whatever teenagers do nowadays online her father said.

Its okay dad, I know your work has to come first and I really didnt have
friends Anne replied. I heard from your mother that you do Gerard said as
he finally got hold of two small boxes and walked towards the dining table. Yes
dad and his name is John, he is a good guy Anne said.

Gerard stood right behind her daughter as his wife was surprised to see
what he had for her. This John I want to meet him. Send him a text message
and call him over Gerard told her and Anne laughed. With what dad? My
imaginary phone? she said and her father placed the first box on the table.
With this of course, and now you can also chat with him he said as he lay the
other box on the right side of the table.

Anne could not believe it, on her left side there was a brand new mobile
phone and on her right was a brand new laptop. This are for me? she asked.
Gerard stooped down and kissed her daughter on the forehead. Its long
overdue, sorry it took a long time he whispered. Anne stood up and hugged
her father and then her mother.

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 She sat back down and her parents noticed Anne so happy and confused to
which box to open first. A few seconds later she chose to open the phone but
the smile on her face turned into a frown. Whats wrong dear? Colleen asked.
Dont you like it? I can have it changed Gerard said.

I like it so much dad, the problem is I dont know his number Anne said
and then grinned at her parents. The three of them enjoyed a laugh but
suddenly the doorbell rang. Colleen stood up to check who it was as Anne and
her father opened the second box. Anne, your friend is here to see you!!!
Colleen yelled.

The young lady quickly stood up and ran towards the door. She was almost
near the door and could clearly see the young man smiling at her. Annes left
knee buckled and she lost her balance. Her body was falling forward, she could
hear her mother screaming as she moved her hands forward. With her eyes
closed Anne fell but she the floor didnt feel as hard as she expected it to be.

Anne felt two strong arms embracing her, she slowly opened her eyes and
saw Johns face close hers. Are you okay? he asked. The young man was
kneeling on the floor and he caught her just in time. The two slowly stood up
and Anne could not believe what just happened. You caught me she said
softly. Of course, just as I have promised replied as the two smiled at each
other.

So is this John? Gerard asked as he approach the three. Uhmm mom and
dad this is my friend John Anne said and her father stood beside her mother.
Good morning maam and sir, sorry if I was too early and I am sorry maam if I
pushed you. Everything happened so fast and all I could think of was catching
her John said as Anne began to laugh.

Colleen patted the young mans shoulder and smiled at him. Dont worry
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laughing Anne? Thats being rude Gerard said. Because he talks too much
the young woman said as John bowed and scratched his head.

Why are you here? Anne asked as her parents shook their head with her
question. I came to check on you and maybe ask you if you wanted to go
watch a movie or go to the mall John softly replied. Anne looked back at the
living room and saw the boxes, Id really love to but as you can see we have to
fix our things because they just arrived yesterday she said.

Oh I see, maybe some other time then the young man told her. No, why
not now? Me and your mother can manage Gerard said and the young woman
was elated. Are you sure? she asked. Yes dear, go get a bath first. Im sure
John can wait Colleen said and John nodded his head.

Can you wait a few minutes? Anne asked. Of course, take your time John
replied. The young woman immediately turned around as was about to run
towards the stairs. Dont run! the young man shouted and Anne immediately
froze and turned around to look at him. John was so embarrassed for even
Annes parents were looking at him. Ohdont run please he softly said and
Anne smiled and slowly walked towards the stairs.

Colleen and Gerard were not mad, instead they were happy to see that
someone else was concerned for their daughter. You know girls do take a long
time so are those arms strong enough to carry some boxes? Gerard asked. As
long as those boxes contain cotton John replied and Annes parents laughed.
I already like you John, come on help me move some stuff the older man said
and two proceeded to the living room.

An hour later the living room was clear of boxes, John sat on the couch
staring at a picture frame in his hands. That was me when I was six Anne
said. You looked so happy in this picture John told her. I actually was, and
then we started moving and moving. Its a different world each time we move
she told him.

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 Well this is a new world now, I promise its different from the past cities you
have live in. I just dont know if it will be as happy as this place you were in
this picture though John said. Well see. Ready to go? she asked. John stood
up and was surprised to see her so vibrant.

Anne was wearing a pink collared shirt, jeans and pink sneakers. Aside from
the scar on her face, she was really pretty. Is there something wrong? she
asked. Oh no, come lets go he replied. By the way my dad is going to take us
to the mall. Will that be alright? Anne asked. John would have wanted for
them to walk but he remembered her condition so he immediately agreed.

Twenty minutes later they were at the malls entrance. John noticed Anne
bowing her head as they entered so he reminded her that he was with him.
Ever since she started limping Anne has never visited the mall or any other
crowded places. She faced forward and took a deep breath and walked closely
beside her friend.

Something was different and she didnt know if it was because of John. As
she looked around there were so many people but only a few do stare at her
and this made her happy. So what would you like to do? John asked.
Hmmm lets just walk around and window shop Anne told him.

It wasnt the items on the store windows that Anne wanted to see. It was the
reaction of other people around who saw her. Some would still give her a look
but gone were whispering and the simple tugging of companions to give a look
to. School was a confined place so she was easily noticed but this was the real
world where everyone was too busy minding their own business. Yes there were
still a few but it was bearable.

Anne now knew the stupidity of what she had done. She had enclosed
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might think of her. If not for the man beside her she would have still been
inside that shell so is so thankful that he came to her life.

A few minutes later Anne noticed that they were heading towards a bench.
Im tired, lets rest a bit he told her. The young woman sat down and looked
oddly at John. You are already tired? she asked. Nope, but your hips are
aching he replied. Anne was surprised for he was right, her hips were starting
to ache but she could not believe how he knew.

How did you know? she asked. We have been walking home together for
almost two weeks so I somehow know. Well I actually timed it since I dont
know how I am supposed to measure distance. Twenty minutes and your hips
begin to ache and now I am talking too much again he explained.

Anne laughed for a few seconds but she felt something different inside her
stomach. Her body twitched and she began to giggle automatically, she leaned
her head on Johns shoulder for a second but immediately sat up straight. She
felt embarrassed so she looked away and still didnt understand what was
happening. Whatever it was she wasnt bothered for it felt good.

After the rest the two proceeded to the movie house, John bought the tickets
and Anne laughed at him for he returned with two odd looking glasses. Red
and green lenses? she asked. Oh you have not tried watching a 3D movie?
John asked and the young woman gently shook her head. Oh good then, you
are going to love this movie. They say this movie had already beaten Titanic. Im
glad they are still showing it. Come on its about to start John said.

The movie started and it was Johns turn to laugh for Anne was trying to
reach out her hand. Put your hand down, its just a movie he whispered. It
seems so real she uttered. John had his attention divided the whole movie
because he kept looking at Anne. He could see much the young woman was
enjoying and he knew this was her first time inside a movie house.

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 After the movie there again walking around the mall and Anne could not
stop talking about how good the movie was. John started to limp like her which
made Anne stop and look at him. Why are you limping? she asked. Because
you are talking too much and thats my role. So I decided to take your role too
and limp he explained and they both laughed.

They were both starving so they grabbed lunch at a fast food joint. They had
burger and fries and John was amazed on how Anne would keep talking about
the story. Anne took a napkin and wiped Johns upper lip but still kept on
talking. I knew he was going to choose to be permanent blue guy she said.

The young man looked at Anne so she paused. Is there something wrong?
she asked. Nope, I like the part where he tamed the big flying thing he said as
he intentionally left catsup on his lip. Anne again wiped it off, Yeah me too,
well it was the only way he could have gotten the respect of the other blue
people she said. John like what was happening so he repeated it and again
Anne would instinctively wipe it off.

A few rounds around the mall after lunch and the two decided to call it a
day. It was a long way back to their houses but Anne decided that they walk
the whole way back. After a few stops to rest John noticed that Anne made a
bad decision.

He knelt down on one knee and patted his back. I still can manage she told
him. I know you can but Anne its not a bad thing if you depend on me
sometimes. Thats what friends are for he told her. Anne was hesitant but her
hips were really aching. She got on Johns back and wrapped her arms around
him.

John stood up and held on to Annes thighs that were on his sides. Am I
heavy? she asked. Nope, you can relax and just lean on me he said. Anne
rested her head on his shoulder, she noticed lots of people staring at them but

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all were smiling. Instead of being ashamed she smiled back at the people and
the more hugged John.

Hey John, why do you think the guy chose to be a blue guy? she asked.
Hmmm because he liked the place and he loved the blue girl I guess he
replied. Lovehave you ever been in love? she asked. HmmmI dont think
so, but I do like someone John told her.

He chose to be a blue guy because he was happier that way, right? Anne
again asked. I guess so he answered. Yeah because in his world he feels
useless because of his disability but in that world he could do so many things
Anne added but John didnt bother to answer.

Hey John Anne whispered. Yes Anne? he replied. I like your world much
better she softly whispered. Its not mineits ours from now on. Okay? he
answered. Anne smiled and leaned her head against his and closed her eyes.

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Chapter 4: A Good Feeling

Two months have passed and Anne has never enjoyed school like she was
right now. Aside from Johns group, she had more friends now. She was
already accepted for who she was but there was still one group that never
changed.

In campus there is a group of students who consider themselves the high

and mighty. Most of them are members of the basketball varsity team of the
school and a few students who wanted to be associated with them.

Every morning they would hang out at the gate and they never fail to catch
Annes attention with their name calling and teases. This morning was no
different, as Anne and John were about to enter the campus the untouchables
were at it again.

Morgan, the top star player approached Anne and blocked her path. Such a
pretty face he said and then moved to the young womans left side and acted
all shocked and scared. Oh my what a sudden change! What happened? he
yelled as the so called elite group started laughing.

Excuse me Anne softly said as she smiled at Morgan who let them pass.
John had his fists clenched and his eyes were seething with anger. John dont
get mad. I am okay with it. You taught me how to get over those type of people
and I am not bothered anymore she told him. Yeah but they should grow up.
Why cant they be like the others who have accepted you? John softly replied.

Dont mind them, I dont. We cant change everyone, if we try to then we

would just be wasting time. Honestly I am okay, so cheer up now okay? Anne
told him. John smiled at her but again glanced at the group and saw one
imitating how Anne walks. The young held his face and made him look at her.
John can you see the smile on my face, that means I am okay she said.
 John grinned and scratched his head and began to laugh, For a moment
there I thought you were going to kiss me he said. Anne pinched him and
likewise laughed as they began to walk again. If thats what it takes for you to
calm down then I would she said and John was surprised and looked at her.

I am really mad, really angry! John said and acted all grumpy and Anne
burst in laughter. You really want me to kiss you? she asked. I was just
kidding, you should not be just kissing anyone. Your smile is enough for me to
calm down he told her.

Have you ever kissed someone besides your parents? Anne asked. Nope
he answered. Why is that? she asked and John laughed. Well I just cant go
kissing anyone right? Unlike others who kiss because they just want to, for me
I believe that when I kiss there should be meaning he told her and Anne
nodded her head.

But you know what some say that they kiss because they dont know what
else to say or they dont know how to express themselves. So instead of
speaking, they just kiss. And that kiss would speak for them John added.
Anne paused and looked at him, Whats wrong? he asked. Oh nothing she
said and then smiled.

Classes ended in the afternoon and the two were happily exchanging stories
as Rick and the others joined them. They were about to exit the gate when they
crossed paths with Morgans posse. Hey I dont remember Two-face being a
girl. I am sure he was a guy the ace player said and his group laughed.

John stepped forward and stared Morgan in the face. You want to step
outside with me? he asked and everyone was surprised. It was the first time
someone stepped up and confronted Morgan and everyone on campus was
quick to notice the commotion. Oh please lead the way Morgan replied.

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 John walked out of campus mad as Anne was holding on to his arm. John
what are you going to do? she asked. I cant take it anymore, this has to stop
right now he told her. But John, I told you I am okay with it. It doesnt bother
me. You taught me how to ignore them and you dont have to do this she
pleaded.

The young man was not listening, Rick took Anne aside as John and Morgan
faced each other. Fight! Fight! Fight! shouts were heard all around as the
students formed a circle to surround the two combatants.

Make him stop! Anne shouted but Rick shook his head. We cant, he
cannot back out now he told her. I got 911 on speed dial Kevin said. Oh boy
John is going to need that because he doesnt know how to fight Jeremy said
and the more Anne became frightened. Anne, John isnt a violent person Rick
said. How am I supposed to believe that? Please make him stop she replied.

It was too late, John threw the first punch and missed. The crowd started to
laugh for Morgan was just dancing around him touching his opponents face
from time to time. John didnt know how to fight and it was evident on his
stance, he threw another punch which was easily blocked by Morgan who
retaliated with his own that landed on Johns face.

The latter fell to the ground and Anne screamed and wanted to go to him but
Rick and the other held her back. Morgan was like a pro boxer who kept
dancing around his opponent, landing jabs after jabs which made the smaller
guy all dizzy. John threw another wild punch only to be met by another fist on
his face. Again he fell to the ground and the crowd who were jeering and
cheering suddenly fell silent.

The students started to feel sorry for John as Morgan just stood in front of
him taunting. Oh come on stand up, I cant beat up a fallen opponent. That

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would be foul he said. John slowly stood up wiping the blood on his lip, he
shouted with all his might as he lounged forward.

He threw a left punch that Morgan easily avoided but little did he know John
threw a right punch at the same time. For the first time John landed a solid
blow on Morgans face that made the latter smile. Left and right punches
landed but Morgan retaliated with on strong blow to Johns chest that downed
him again.

John quickly stood up and threw wayward punches from all directions. I am
fed up with you and your group calling her names!!! he shouted as more
punches landed on Morgans face. I get it you are famous but that does not
give you the right to look down on others!!! John shouted. Like a wild animal
he was relentless.

Morgan was not hurt, the speed of Johns punches just made him to busy
defending himself. The crowd started to cheer for the underdog and Morgan
glanced at Anne for a moment and saw her cheering. The ace basketball player
saw a vicious left coming, instead of avoiding it he stood still and braced
himself.

Morgan absorbed a solid blow to his chin, he fell to the ground and lifted his
arm to signal defeat. John stood in front of him seething in anger as the crowd
cheered wildly for the victorious underdog.

The crowd dispersed and Morgan was attended to by his friends. What
happened? one asked they slowly got the top player to his feet. I let him win
Morgan said as he glanced over to see Anne wiping Johns bloody lip but she
was all smiles.

You let him win? Are you out of your mind? What are the others going to
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would guys be happy? Morgan asked. Of course, did you have to ask? one
replied and the ace player shook his head. You are happy because a bully
won? he told them.

Look at her? She seems to be so happy. Will you all feel the same if I won?
Or would you just pat my back? No matter how much I hurt him he just gets
back up even if he knew he had no chance. I have had many fights in the past
but his eyes were different. I didnt see fear at all. I was fighting to defend
myself for being a bully, but he was fighting to defend her

Among all students he was the only one who befriended her. If I won I
would have broken himat the same time it might have broken her. I can
clearly see she needs him, and if he was broken she didnt have anyone else
left Morgan said.

Oh man I dont know what happened to you. His punch might have rattled
your brains his friend said. Yeah, I guess so Morgan replied as he saw John
and Anne walking away. Lets leave them alone from now on he added.

John was silent and Anne was worried and kept looking at him. You didnt
have to do that she said softly. I am sorry, but I just couldnt take it anymore
he replied. But they were not teasing you, they were teasing me and I told you
I was okay with it she explained. Yeah maybe its okay with you but for me it
isnt. I dont want them doing that to you he told her.

Anne felt happy hearing those words and didnt know what to say so she just
bumped her body against his. Has it been twenty minutes? Oh sorry I wasnt
paying attention to the time. Come on lets rest John said. No, I am fine I
just Anne said but John grabbed her arm as they proceeded to the nearby
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 As the two were seated Anne could not help stare at Johns swollen hand.
Does it hurt? she asked. A little but its worth it he told her. Anne took his
hand and started to massage it as the young man bowed his head. Are you
mad at me for what I did? he asked.

Very mad she replied. John shook his head and sighed but Anne started to
giggle. I felt so much pain each time you got hit and fell down. I was so scared
of losing you that is why I was so mad at you she explained. I am really sorry
was all John could say as he kept his head bowed.

But you know what I felt happy at the same time because you were
standing up for me. Really very happy when you knocked him down Anne
said. John grinned and looked at her, I made him surrender, right? he said
but the young woman pressed on his hand and John grimaced in pain. I dont
want you to get violent and fight anymore do you understand?! she scolded
him.

Okay I promise. But if I do I promise to win John said. No John, no more

fighting. I dont care if you win anymore. I just dont like worrying about you. I
dont want to go through that bad feeling of holding my breath and watching
you get hurt. No more fighting John she told him as she leaned against his
body.

Okay, I promise he replied as he too leaned on her.

The following day as John got out of the car, Anne heard metal clinging at
his bag slightly hit the door. As the car sped away Anne touched the bag but
John quickly moved it away from her. Whats inside your bag? she asked.

Its nothing, come on we are going to be late he told her. They entered the
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held his bag in front of him so Anne started to worry. John whats in the bag?
she asked.

I told you its nothing he replied. John! Anne insisted and he started
laughing. Trust me its something good he assured her. Is something metallic
good? Are you going to pick a fight again with them? I saw your angry eyes
again she said. Of course not, I promised you remember? he told her. Show
whats in the bag then she insisted. Sorry but I cant John replied.

Anne fell silent and walked faster. Anne, wait up. I promise its a good thing
but I just cant show you now John said but the young woman didnt budge.
The bell rang and he had to just let her go as she entered her classroom.

Lunch time was different, Anne was not speaking to John and the other
pretended not to notice. John tried to make her laugh by cracking jokes but the
young woman kept pouting. The bell rang again and he barely touched his
food, what made things worse was when Anne left without him.

The final bell of the day rang and as soon as Anne got out of her classroom,
John was already there waiting. Still mad? he asked. Not anymore. I
understand if you dont want to show me. I just wish you good luck she
replied. Shall we go then? he asked. To your fight? No thanks Anne told
him.

John began laughing as they walked towards the gate. What are you waiting
for? There he is and he is even looking at you Anne said. John glanced over at
Morgan, the two nodded their heads and looked away. See, we are not enemies
anymore. I have proven my point to him. And I dont know why the first thing
you thought was even fighting John said. So what is it then? Oh dont bother
I dont want to know anymore Anne said.

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 A few meters away from the gate John stopped and began to open his bag. I
told you I dont care anymore, lets just go home okay? Anne said. John took
out a silver metallic object and Anne pretended not to care. The young man
knelt down on the ground and assembled the metallic contraption. Anne
pouted and looked away as she waited for him to finish.

There its done John said. Anne slowly turned around, one eyebrow raised
as she kept pouting. The young womans jaw dropped and she immediately
looked at John who was smiling at her. A scooter! she exclaimed. I told you it
was a good thing. Sorry I could not show it to you earlier, I wanted it to be a
surprise he told her.

Anne placed her hands at the handle bars but then looked at John. You
have to use one leg to push right? I think I wont be able to do that she said as
she again began to frown. Come on get on, both feet that is and trust me he
told her.

Anne held tightly on the handle bars as got on the scooter. John stood
beside placing his hands on top of her hers. The young man started to push
forward and the scooter began to move. Anne started giggling and holding on
tighter as she enjoyed the ride.

I am sorry I didnt think of this sooner. But from now on you are never
going to get tired going home. Again Anne felt something different inside her
chest, she noticed his hands over hers and still saw them swollen. She looked
at Johns face and noticed for the first time its bruised state. Your eyedoes
it hurt? she asked and John just smiled and shook his head.

Anne moved closer to John and kissed his bruised eye. The young man was
surprised and looked at her in awe. Im sorry, was it wrong? she asked. John
smiled and felt embarrassed then shook his head. Nope, it was something
good he told her. They both smiled at each other and Anne leaned her body on
his. Faster she said.

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 What? John asked. Lets move faster she said. Okay, hand on tight or
you might fall then he told her. No I wont, because your beside me she
replied. Again they both smiled at each other as John began to run.

Anne started screaming and laughing as they sped along the neighborhood.
She removed her left hand from the handle bar and wrapped it around Johns
waist and then shouted.

Faster John!!!

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Chapter 5: Wish

Christmas was around the corner; Anne and John were with their family to
do some shopping. For several minutes Anne was staring at a floral dress and
John was starting to get impatient. Do you like it? he asked her. I actually
love it she replied. Then you should buy it, I am sure it will look good on you
John told her.

Anne shook her head and settled for the new pair of jeans, Even if I want it
so much I just cant wear it she said. You are ashamed to show your leg?
John asked and the young woman sighed. There is nothing to be ashamed of.
Miss she is taking the dress John said and the attendant looked at Anne.

No, I am taking the jeans she said. Okay then I will buy the dress for you
John told her. The attendant was confused and looked at the two. John you
dont have to buy it, I dont want it anymore Anne said. Well I like it so I am
going to buy for you he insisted. He is right, this will look good on you the
attendant said and John nodded.

Okay I will take the dress but John you will never get to see me wear it she
said. How come? he asked but Anne sighed and shook her head. If I buy a
dress and wear it will you wear that dress? John asked and the attendant
suddenly burst in laughter. Are you serious? Anne asked as she started
giggling.

Hell yeah, miss do you have a dress my size? John gamely asked. Anne
and the attendant kept laughing as they saw the young man really serious. It
thats what it takes for you to wear that dress then I would wear one too in a
heartbeat John added. Oh save him the embarrassment and just wear the
dress the attendant told her.

Yes I will, on our family Christmas party Anne said and the young man
nodded. Thats a promise I am counting on he said. You two are such a cute
couple the attendant told them as she took the dress and proceeded to the
counter. John and Anne suddenly felt embarrassed but the two managed to
smile at each other.

A few minutes later Anne accompanied John to buy a new pair of sneakers.
As John paid for the item he noticed that Anne was not with him. He looked for
her around the store and found her staring a violet colored pair of sneakers. If
you want it just buy it he told her.

Anne was surprised to find John beside so she quickly turned around shook
her head. Ive done enough shopping for today and even if I like that pair it still
isnt going to fit well she said. Ah excuse me, can we get a size for her to try
on? John said and the female attendant looked at Annes feet.

Wait one moment she said. John you should not have done that Anne
told him. Whats wrong? You are just going to try it, I never said anything
about buying it he said. Tsk I like it very much but Anne was about to say
but the young man stopped her. Come on sit down here she comes. Just try it
on okay? he told her.

As soon as Anne got the shoes on she stood up and limped towards the
mirror. It was only then John realized what she was trying to tell him and he
felt bad. John stood beside Anne and saw her staring at the shoes on her feet.
I am sorry Anne he said.

Its okay. That is why I dont like buying shoes. No matter how many I fit on
its still the same she softly said as John could see the sadness in her eyes.
Do you want to know my greatest wish? Anne asked and the young man
nodded.

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 For just one day, even if its just one dayI wish I could walk straight she
said as she turned around and limped back to the seat. Anne took off the pair
of shoes and looked at John. Can you return them for me? she asked. John
immediately took the shoes and returned them to the attendant. Im sorry but
she isnt going to take them he whispered. Its okay I understand the
attendant replied.

The two went out of the store but Anne glanced back at the pair of shoes. I
am going to buy them someday when my leg is healed she softly uttered and
the more John felt bad. Im so sorry if I ruined your day he said. No you
didnt, I actually had fun she replied. Yeah but about the shoes I can see you
feel bad John told her. You didnt hear what I said. I will return someday and
buy them. Hope is a good thing right? Anne said and then smiled at him.

John smiled back but deep inside he could feel her pain. He glanced back at
the pair of shoes and then looked at the name of the store.

It was the day before Christmas and the Rivera family was holding a party to
celebrate the new changes in their lives. Colleen entered her daughters room
and saw Anne pouting by the window. Why dont you come out at the
backyard to entertain the guests? she asked.

Is John there already? Anne asked. I have not seen him but his parents
are there Colleen replied. I will go down when John arrives the young woman
said. Your friends from school are there and you should go down now her
mother insisted. I will wait for John Anne repeated.

I am sure he will arrive so come on lets go down already Colleen told her.
Mom I want John to be the first one to see me in a dress. So I will wait for
him Anne replied. Colleen smiled and nodded, Why dont you try and send
him a text message and tell him to hurry up she said.

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 I already did several times but he isnt responding Anne said as she leaned
her head on the window. Then try calling him instead her mother said. Anne
did call John and before he could pick up his phone she shouted in glee as he
saw the young man at their driveway. Hes here! she yelled.

Anne quickly ran down the stairs almost stumbling several times. She
opened the door and John was surprised to see her. Anne held on to her skirt
and swayed several times smiling. Well how does it look? she asked. John
almost lost for words pouted and shook his head. Nah, somethings missing
he said.

Missing? What do you mean? she asked. John placed a gift on top of the
living room table then stood behind Anne. Dont turn around he told her.
From his pocket he took out a violet ribbon that matches her dress, he fixed
her into a pony tail then tied the ribbon to hold the hair in place.

John guided Anne towards the mirror and then smiled. There you go he
told her. Anne smiled for a moment but moved her hand to cover her scar but
John stopped her. Anne instead turned around and smiled at him, You are
very pretty he told her. Anne giggled and pinched his arm and pointed at the
gift on the table.

Whats inside that? she asked. Forget that for now, come on lets go to the
party John said. I want to know now, is that for me? Anne asked. Yes it is,
but it can wait come on I am starving he insisted as he held her hand and led
the way to the back yard.

Before exiting the backdoor Anne paused and took a deep breath. There are
a lot of people she uttered. John raised their hand for her to see, Do you see
this, I am here beside you. What are you worried about? he asked. The two
stepped out and everyone looked at them.

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 John and Anne immediately parted hands as their school friends began
flashing teasing grins. The young womans parents were surprised to see their
daughter so pretty so Gerard approached her. Come my dear let me introduce
you to my employees. Whoa did I say employees? I still have to get used to it
he said.

Anne went with her dad but immediately held Johns hand. Go ahead, I will
just be here with Rick and the others he told her. But John Anne reasoned
but her father started to introduce her around.

Every time Anne would feel embarrassed she would find John and see him
waving at her. It is from him she draws her confidence, the first ever person
aside from her parents who believed in her.

The party went well as everyone enjoyed the festive meal that Anne and
Johns mothers prepared. Three hours later only Anne and Johns school
friends were left and they were gathered at the backyard teasing the two.

Tomorrow is Christmas, so John what gift did you get your girlfriend? Rick
teased. He has a girlfriend? Anne asked and everybody laughed. I dont have
a girlfriendyet John responded and he slowly looked at Anne to which
everyone laughed again.

Okay let me rephrase the question. John, what gift did you get Anne for
Christmas? Risk asked and then grinned. Oh I remembered he did get me a
gift and its in the living room Anne said as she stood up. You are not
supposed to open them yet. Its not yet Christmas John told her.

Christmas or not it does not matter when I open as long as I know its from
you Anne said as she started to walk towards the backdoor. Their friends
again started teasing them as John stood up and stopped the young woman.
Let me get it for you then, have a seat he told her.

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 A few seconds later John came back accompanied by their parents who were
curious. Quickly open it now! Anne told him. I am actually having second
thoughts. What if I let your mom hide the gift for now John teased and the
young woman started to frown.

Fine! But tell me whats inside now she said and everyone laughed. If I tell
you that would be just the same as opening it John told her. I know, I cant
wait to know whats inside. Its either you open it or you tell me. So what would
it be John? she asked with one eyebrow raised.

I got you a miracle the young man told her and everyone was intrigued.
Open it Gerard said and he was elbowed by his wife. What? I just wanted to
know what a miracle looked like he said and everyone again laughed.

Open it, now! Anne said and John took a deep breath and walked closer. I
have no choice do i? First you have to have your eyes closed and you are not
allowed to peek he said. Why do I need to do that? Anne asked. Oh Anne
just do it her mother said and again everyone started giggling.

Kevin will you please cover her eyes John instructed and their friend did
so. John knelt down and opened the gift. He started to remove Annes sandals
and immediately she knew what he got her. John you shouldnt have bought
me those she said.

John didnt reply but wore the two shoes on her feet. After he tied the
shoelaces he stood up and signaled Kevin to release his hands. Anne
immediately looked at her feet and smiled, So you call these shoes miracle?
she asked and everyone laughed.

Come walk with me John told her as he reached out his hand and Anne
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move and just stared at John so everyone became more curious. What is it
dear? Gerard asked as he saw a tear fall down his daughters cheek.

Anne embraced John tightly as she began to sob. The young man patted her
back and whispered in her ear. I think you should show them, we can have
the walk later he said. Anne nodded as the young man wiped the tears on her
eyes.

She turned around and walked towards her parents and everybody was
shocked to see her walk straight. Anne was not limping, her parents jaws
dropped and everyone felt like crying seeing a miraculous sight.

Jeremy stood beside John and whispered. You had them custom made?
Man im sure you spent a lot he said. John nodded and smiled then looked at
Anne who was really happy even in tears. They say you cant buy happiness, I
think I just did. Every cent I spent was worth it he uttered.

After hugging her parents Anne turned around and slowly walked towards
John. The smile on her face was not enough to show everyone how happy she
was. She held out her hand and John grabbed it, without saying a word the
two walked away from the backyard towards the streets.

Bob approached Gerard who was still teary eyed, Have you told her about
the operation? he asked. I was about to but can we postpone it a bit. I
wouldnt want to put to waste what your son gave her Gerard replied. The
doctor nodded and patted his friends back, It might be good for her to get
used walking straight. For after the operation she will never limp again. The
only thing I can say is that I do hope she a strong threshold for pain Bob told
him.

Even if she doesnt as long as he will be there by her side I think she will be
fine Gerard told him.

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 Anne and John walked around the neighborhood tirelessly. The moon was
out and still hand in hand enjoying each others company. A few minutes later
Anne stopped and took a deep breath and faced John. Are you tired? he
asked and she shook her head. Does your hip hurt? he followed.

I am fine John, its like my chest is going to burst. There are so many things
I would like to say to you right now but I just cant find the right words to
justify them Anne said. Those shoes, they are just temporary he softly
whispered. I knowI wished for one day and you gave it to memaybe more.
Temporary or not, you made my wish come true. There are so many people
making wishes and I am one of the lucky ones that have them fulfilled

I may flash my sweetest smile but still it wont show you how happy you
have made me. From the first day we met up to now you keep on surprising me
each day Anne said as John placed a finger on her lips. You are talking to
much, Youre welcome Anne he told her.

Anne embraced John tightly and leaned her head on his chest. Johni
she uttered and the young man froze. Annes heart was beating wildly, a feeling
she felt every time she was with him. But today was different, the feeling deep
inside her was overwhelming that it made her tongue twisted.

John kept waiting for her to finish her sentence, he hugged her tighter and
kept waiting. Anne stepped back a bit and looked at John, she took a deep
breath and smiled. John Iwant you to walk me until I get tired she uttered.

It was not the sentence he was expecting but he smiled back and agreed. As
consolation Anne wrapped her right arm around his waist so he did the same
by wrapping his arm across her shoulder. Anne leaned her head on Johns
body and they began to walk under the moonlight.

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Chapter 6: You

The thirteenth day of the month of love and Anne was worried since John
was not there outside her classroom door. The bell already rang ten minutes
ago and there were only a few students left inside the school. She was tired
waiting so she proceeded to his classroom to check if he was still there.

Anne saw John seated inside his classroom blankly staring at the
chalkboard. John? Anne called out but the young man remained still. She
walked towards John at tapped on his shoulder and immediately the young
man turned around and got back to his senses.

Oh no, what time is it? he asked. Ten minutes past dismissal Anne
replied. Oh my I am really sorry. I spaced out all of a sudden the young man
said. John packed his bag and Anne was looking at him. Are you okay? You
seem bothered she said.

Im fine, come lets go. I am really sorry if I took away your time. I know you
want to get home at once John told her. Me get home at once? Not really
Anne replied as they walked along the hallway. Well I just thought you wanted
to because lately you have been rushing home he said.

Is that whats bothering you? she asked. Of course not John replied but
Anne noticed him being really off. The walk towards the gate was filled with
silence and she knew there was something wrong. John started to unpack the
scooter and Anne tried to stop him. I think we should walk she said.

Nope, you have to get home at once. I dont want you to waste anymore
time, I already took away ten minutes of it John said as he looked at her
holding the assembled scooter. Anne got on the scooter and held tight as John
started running.
 You know what its easier if you asked me why I wanted to go home
immediately lately Anne said and John started to slow down. No, I wouldnt
want to be nosy he replied. If you ask me now I will tell you Anne teased. I
wont ask, your time is your time the young man replied and Anne saw the
sadness in his face.

Stop the scooter the young woman said and John looked at her. The
scooter stopped and Anne got off, Whats wrong? John asked. Pack it up!
she instructed and the young man immediately did as he sensed fear. Hey I
am really sorry if I am acting off John murmured as he placed the folded
scooter in his bag.

The young man was about to stand up but Anne quickly got on his back and
placed her arms around him. John smiled as he slowly stood up carrying his
bag with one hand and securing Anne with the other. Say it she teased. Say
what? he asked.

Say that missed you me and thats why you are acting that way Anne said
as the two started laughing. You could have easily said you missed me so I
would have made time for you. Its as simple as that, you didnt have to act
that way the young woman said.

John took a deep breath and smiled, I missed you Anne he said. Anne
rubbed her cheek against his and embraced him tighter. I missed you too
John. I am sorry if I have been busy lately Anne said. Its okay. By the way
what day is it today? John asked.

Thats odd, you never forget dates. Well today is the thirteenth Anne said
but she knew what he was trying to get at but decided to play along. So
tomorrow is the fourteenth John said and Anne started grinning. Yup, whats
with the fourteenth? she asked.

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 Nothing, its just valentines day John said with a sad voice. Anne wanted
to laugh but resisted it and acted cool. I really dont get it, what is so special
about Valentines day? she asked. I dont know was all John could say and
Anne bit her lip because she was going to explode in laughter anytime now.

John remained silent as he walked slowly, You know I hate balloons. I even
hate stuff toys too Anne said as she observed the young mans reaction. I
guess you hate flowers too John uttered. Exactly, but I do love chocolates
she told him and she saw him smiling.

What type of chocolates do you like? There are so many type of chocolates
John said and his mood suddenly changed. Hmmm I dont like the dark ones.
I do love those with crisps inside especially the ones with almonds. Why do you
ask? Are you going to give me chocolates tomorrow? Anne said and noticed
him walking faster.

Yep thats why we have to hurry home so I can ask my dad to drive me to
the grocery. But John said and again a sense of loneliness. But what?
Anne asked. If you know I am going to give you chocolates then it wont be a
surprise anymore he told her.

John look at it this way, what if I didnt tell you and you gave me flowers or
a stuff toy? Would you even notice the fake smile I would give you upon
receiving them? Of course you wont know I dont like them, I would pretend I
do, right? she explained.

I guess you are right but still there is no element of surprise anymore John
said. You dont get it. You now know what I like and if you are going to give me
chocolates then I would be happy because you know I really like them. If you
want I can pretend to be surprised Anne told him and they both laughed.

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 They reached the driveway of Annes home so the young lady got off Johns
back. If people consider Valentines day to be a special day then I dont
understand why they have to stick to the traditional gifts like balloons, stuff
toys, chocolates and roses? If its a special day then you should give something
really special. Something that the other person will really treasure and
remember Anne said and then smiled at John.

Something really special the young man uttered and again he began to
space out. If you think giving me a balloon would be meaningful then I would
be happy to receive one from you Anne told him. But you said you dont like
balloons John replied. I dont, but if its from you then I will like it Anne said
and the two stared at each other and smiled.

It was Valentines day and almost everything in campus had little red hearts
attached to them. John and Anne arrived in school early and so did a lot of
students. Everywhere they looked red seemed to be the motif of the day which
made the two stand out since they both wore different colors.

Kevin, Jeremy and Rick approached the two and they laughed since the
three were in red. Ah you two are boring. Cant you see love is in the air Rick
said. John and Anne pretended to look up and around, they looked at their
friends and shrugged their shoulders. Where? How come I cant see it? John
asked and Anne began to giggle.

See I told you not to say it Kevin told Rick. These two have a nasty habit of
shooting down whatever we say Jeremy said. We were just kidding. Sorry
Anne told them. Its alright we are used to it. Anyway how come you two seem
not to be in the spirit of Valentines day? Rick asked.

Hmmm Valentines day is supposed to be a celebration of love. Are you

three in love? Anne asked and the three shook their heads. See, then why do
you celebrate if you are not in love? That is why John and I dont celebrate it
Anne said and a group of girls called her name so she excused herself.

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 The three guys looked at John who was frozen like a statue. Ouch that
hurts Kevin whispered and Rick started to pat his friends back. Well at least
you got the answer before you even tried asking he said.

John took a deep breath and swallowed the immense pain he was feeling.
Now I understand why she was distancing herself from me lately he uttered
and the three didnt know how to console him. But yesterday it was likeI
dont know. Wow he added.

Maybe she was just softening you up. Or she was expecting you to ask her
out so she started distancing herself so you wont have to ask anymore Jeremy
said. Yeah I guess so John said as he bowed his head and walked away.

Lunch time Anne decided to join her girl friends for lunch and the more
John sunk into a deep well of sadness. The final bell rang for the day and the
young man slowly walked out of his classroom bowing his head to avoid seeing
the couples all around.

As soon as he reached Annes classroom he noticed no one was inside. He

leaned on the wall by the door and waited and after a few seconds his mobile
phone vibrated. Sorry had to rush. Forgot to tell you dad was picking me up.
We are going to the grocery Anne said in her text message.

Walking towards the gate was like hell for John as he saw couples holding
hands walking around. He kept his head bowed but his three friends found
him. Hey John, do you want to come with us? We are going to the mall and
celebrate Kevin said. Oh yes just for this day we decided to be in love with
each other so that we would have a reason Jeremy joked but their friend just
smirked.

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 Ill pass. Got tons of homework I think John said. You think? Rick asked
but Kevin elbowed him. Oh okay maybe next time then he added and they
watched their semi lifeless friend walk away.

At the gate John began opening his bag due to habit but then realized he
was alone. He put his back at his back and began what seemed like a solemn
funeral march. John used to walk all the way home alone before and it took
him twenty minutes. With Anne it took them twice the time but this time it
took him sixty.

John? Where are you going? his father asked as John turned around and
saw his father standing along their porch. Oh yeah I forgot he uttered for he
already passed their house and was going towards Annes.

You seem off today. Hard day at school? Bob asked. Something like that
dad John said as he entered the door. John, me and your father will be going
out tonight so you just reheat the cooked food on the microwave okay? his
mother said.

I am not hungry. Maybe when I do the young man responded and dragged
his feet up the stairs towards to his room.

Once in bed John saw the box of chocolates on top of his desk, he quickly
turned around and in his head was the voice of Anne repeating the line she
said this morning. We are not in love so we dont have to celebrate he uttered
and began to laugh. But I am in love with you so I will just celebrate alone he
said and the more he laughed.

Minutes later he calmed down and again the voice of Anne lingered in his
mind. The pain started to trickle back into his chest so he closed his eyes and
tried to sleep.

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 John was awakened the vibration of his phone inside his pocket. Before he
could take out his phone the vibration stopped so he fixed his position and
tried to get back to sleep. This time the doorbell rang so he quickly stood up
and ran downstairs.

John opened the door and saw Anne pouting. Why dont you answer your
phone? What took you so long opening the door? she immediately asked. The
young man took a deep breath and shook his head. I was asleep. What are you
here? he replied.

Mom and dad went out so I was left alone. I heard some noises and it crept
me out. Could come and accompany me until they arrive? I am sure they wont
take long she asked. John sighed and grabbed the house keys from the nearby
cup holder and stepped out.

As soon as they reached Annes home, John took another deep breath and
shook his head. Will they take long? he asked. I think so. They had a double
date with your parents Anne told him. Say what? the young man asked.
Yup, a double date. If we went along with them it could have been a triple she
replied.

John pinched himself to check if he was really awake, he felt the pain so he
was confused with what Anne just said. Once inside the house Anne led the
way towards the dining area and John could not believe his eyes.

The dining table was covered with red cloth. There were two candles at the
center and two plates full of steak and chicken. Anne turned off the lights and
lit the candles; John pinched himself again and was really bewildered.

The guy is supposed to see to it that the girl is well seated but this time its
different Anne said as she escorted John to his seat. The young woman took
her seat and looked at John who was still in shock.

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 The reason why I wanted to go home early lately was because I was learning
how to cook from my mother. Your mom told me that your favorite meals were
steak, chicken and mashed potatoes. So I learned to cook them well Anne
explained.

You cooked dinner for me? John asked. Yes but this isnt dinner. Its our
date Anne said. The young man had his jaw dropped and his mouth was
already shaking slowly into a smile. He wanted to say something but he simply
could not get over what was happening.

Anne served mashed potatoes into his plate and then she giggled. What you
are feeling right nowlost for wordsstate of disbeliefyou always do that to
me she told him as she sat down and smiled.

A date? I thought you and I wont celebrate the young man uttered and
Anne laughed. Hmmm it was a set up. Yesterday I was so scared if you had
said yes. I asked you if you wanted to know what I was doing. Its good you
didnt ask or else the surprise would be spoiled and I would not be able to
make you feel what you always make me feel

This morning I said those words to make you feel bad in order to make the
surprise better. The days we missed talking much with each other was planned
so that we have so much to talk about today Anne explained.

I really dont know what to say John said as he scratched his head. I
would be insulted if you dont taste my cooking. I hope you be honest too she
said. John sliced a piece of meat and chicken and ate them. He followed it up
with a spoon full of mashed potatoes and chewed slowly.

Hey Anne, do we really need to talk now? John asked as he took another
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my first time cooking she told him. With his mouth full John managed to
smile, Honestly its delicious, oh my thank goodness I didnt eat dinner a while
ago he said.

John, no talking with your mouth full. How many times will I tell you that?
Anne said as she wiped the excess gravy from the young mans lips. John kept
chewing and smiling and Anne was delighted to see that he was really enjoying.

John scooted over to cut Annes steak into pieces. Thisis too much. I am
so ashamed for I cannot give you a Valentines gift in return he mumbled.
Except for the chocolates I bought and I left them at home even he added.

You dont have to give me any. I already received my valentines gift Anne
said and John looked at her. When was that? he asked. First day of classes
she replied. The young man looked oddly at her and tried to think. I dont
remember giving you anything that day he said.

Yes you did Anne insisted. And what did I give you? John asked.

You the young woman said and John froze and looked at her. With hearts
beating wildly all they could do was simply smile at each other. The two
enjoyed each others company. They ate, they talked, they laughed and even if
they could not truly express to each other how they felt, the mere fact that they
were together was enough for them.

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Chapter 7: Last Day

It was the last day of classes and the seniors were rejoicing in campus as the
juniors enviously watched on. As they take their exit we take over as seniors
Kevin uttered. Yeah, one more year of high school John added. Why are you
guys like that? One more year and we all would be rejoicing like them Anne
said.

Yeah she is right and this coming school year we get to be the bullies
Jeremy said. That reminds me, how is that sophomore guy you had an
argument with? John asked and his friend pouted and sighed. The other
giggled but John kept teasing Jeremy. Who do you say are going to be bullies?
How do you become a bully when you are scared of a younger student? he
added.

Anne tugged at Johns shirt so the young man nodded. Hey guys we are
going to go ahead. Just send us a message whatever plans you have okay? he
told his friends. The two exited campus and immediately the scooter was out of
the bag. Anne got on and John pushed the scooter slowly.

John, how come I dont see you do stuff like normal guys do? Anne asked.
What do you mean? John replied. Oh you know like playing baseball,
basketball or even football Anne said. Football I dont like it, but we do play a
little catch sometimes. We do know how to play basketball too the young man
said.

How come I never saw you play? she asked. Well honestly they are not on
the top of my list. I do like more adventurous stuff like hiking, camping, kart
racing and playing console games John told her. Why dont you do them
then? Anne asked and the young man started to laugh.
 Because you cant do them yet. When your legs are healed then we go do
them together he said. Anne bowed her head and frowned. So its me thats
holding you back from doing the things you like then she said.

Of course not. The guys dont like those stuff and I cant enjoy doing them
alone. Well we do have a small band but we stopped playing. They do like
console games but they like different games so we dont get along. I was not
even sure too if you like them so I never asked John explained. And because
of my disability right? Anne added. Yeah, I also have to think about your
condition but when your leg is healed then I would ask you he told her.

Hiking would be fun and I would really like that. Hmmm I guess for now
you can teach me how to play console games Anne said and John looked at
her. Seriously? You are willing to play console games with me? he asked and
his friend smiled. You have all summer to teach me Anne said and she saw
John happy.

We can start now he said and started to run. The young woman released
her hands on the handle bars and embraced John as she screamed and
laughed. Five minutes later they arrived at the young mans house and Anne
was still laughing as John tried to regain his breath.

What took you two so long? Gerard asked and the two were surprised to
see Annes father on the porch. Uh dad, this isnt our home Anne said. Silly
you of course I know that. We were waiting for you two. Come quickly inside
her father said. Anne looked at John, Whats could it be? she asked. I dont
know, why is your dad here? And why are they waiting for us? he replied.
Come on lets go inside she said.

Anne and John were surprised to see their parents well seated at the living
room and looking at them. Why are you all so serious looking? Anne asked as
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worry. As the two were seated they looked at their parents who had straight
faces.

We are going to take your summer away Gerard told them. Mom! What is
he trying to say? Anne asked. Taking our summer away? What have we
done? John asked. Colleen took a deep breath but suddenly burst in laughter.
Seconds later all their parents were laughing.

We were just kidding you two. But we really are taking your summer away
Bob said. What do you mean dad? the young man asked and the doctor
looked at Gerard. Anne, its high time we had your leg fixed. I showed Bob
your old x-rays and he said there is no need for a knee replacement. All that
needs to be done is to insert a brace and do little corrective surgery the young
womans father said.

Annes jaw dropped and she began to tremble as she looked at her left leg.
Johns father was to kind to offer his services for free dear. And another good
news is that you wont be having that scar on your face soon Colleen said and
the young woman was really surprised and could not believe what her parents
were saying.

You will have two surgeries but you dont have to worry about them. Anne
when your father said we would be taking your summer away he meant it
literally because its going to take one week for your wounds to heal then thats
the time we can start the rehabilitation of your leg. John your summer would
be taken away too since you would be there for her right? Bob said.

Of course John replied as Anne stood up and walked towards her parents.
She bowed her head as tears started falling to the ground. Thank you she
uttered as her parents stood up and hugged her. You should thank Bob here
her father whispered. Anne hugged John father as Linda noticed a sense of
sadness in John.

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 Linda had prepared dinner for all of them so everyone proceeded to the
dining area. Anne you should eat a lot today for you wont be able to eat
breakfast. Tomorrow you shall have your blood work done so we can check if
you may have the operation. Dont worry I can see you are fit, its just protocol
you know Bob said as they all sat down.

Will we have the operation tomorrow? Anne asked and the elder ones
laughed. Someone seems to be excited Colleen said. If all the results are
okay which I am sure they are then we can have your operation the following
day. But Anne, you may not feel anything during the operation but during
recovery its going to get really nasty. You will have to learn to walk again after
that Bob told her.

Anne sat still and she felt a sudden chill down her spine. She could already
imagine the pain and hardship she was about to encounter but suddenly her
cold hands felt warmth. She looked at her hand and saw John holding them so
she slowly looked at the young man beside her. Everything will be okay he
softly whispered and Anne nodded her head and smiled.

After dinner Annes family had to excuse themselves for they were going to
the grocery to do some late buying. Anne approached John and pouted, I
guess its a rain check on the console games she said. Yeah its okay. Dad
said you should get a good night sleep John replied. Hmmm tomorrow clear
your schedule the young woman said. Clear my schedule? he asked. Yup,
just clear your schedule okay? See you tomorrow after the test Anne said.

As the Rivera family left, John sat down on the couch and closed his eyes.
Linda sat down beside her son and caressed his forehead. You should be
happier since she would be able to walk normally after the operation she said.
I am happy for her John murmured.

It doesnt show you know. Whats bothering you? Linda asked. Anne is
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scar is gone his mother said. Thats the problem the young man whispered.
Oh John dont compare her to Sarah. You and Anne have something special
already I can tell so dont think negatively Linda told him.

I sure hope so John said as he stood up and went to look for his father.
Bob was at his study, the young man entered and sat down beside him. What
are you reading? John asked. I was just going through the steps on Annes
procedure his father said. Why? Are you not sure of what you will be doing?
the young man asked and his father laughed.

I just wanted to make sure so I will not commit a mistake. I know how
important she is to you so somehow there is a lot of pressure Bob told him. I
want you to explain everything you are going to do to her leg. From the moment
you put her to sleep up to the point you stitch her up John said and his father
looked at him. And why do I have to do that? You doubt your fathers skill?
Bob asked. No dad, I just want to know what she is about to go through. I
want to make sure you know what you are doing. Tell me what I can do after
especially when she is in pain John said.

Bob saw again the seriousness in his sons eyes but he could also feel the
nervousness inside him. He placed his arm across his sons shoulder and
started to explain. Bob knew he didnt just need to explain but he likewise
needed to calm the nerves of John.

The following day John waited for Annes return at their front porch. As soon
as he saw their car pass by he quickly ran towards his friends house. As soon
as Anne got out of the car she immediately walked towards John showing him
her arm.

They took a lot of blood, did lots of tests and examinations she said as
John held her arm and caressed it. Are you alright? How about the results?
Did you get them already? he asked. Your dad is still in the hospital and he
will call us up once he got them she said.

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 I see. So why did you want me to clear my schedule? he asked. Anne
grinned and held his two hands, Were going hiking she said. Say what?
Hiking? John asked in surprise. Yup but just the small hill nearby for now,
will that be okay? Anne said. It is but can you manage? he asked.

As long as your with me Anne told him. John smiled and scratched his
head, Okay then since its just a simple hike I think we can go now he said.
Wait, I had mom prepare a picnic basket for us she said as they walked
towards the house door. So you planned this day again but you could have
kept the picnic a surprise John told her.

Hmmm I thought of that but I could not keep a secret because you will have
to carry the basket Anne said and they both laughed. With the picnic basket
in one hand and Annes hand in the other, John joyfully sang as the two
headed for the hill.

Anne kept laughing since John kept changing the lyrics to different songs
that pop up in his head. Before they could reach the foot of the hill the two
were already tired from laughing.

The trek uphill was slow, John had his eyes glued to Annes footing making
sure she didnt step in any stones. As soon as they were on top Anne
immediately sat down and massaged her left knee. Whats wrong? Does it
hurt? John asked.

Anne grimaced in pain for a second but immediately smiled. I will be

honest, yes it does hurt but its all worth it. I got to do something that you liked
while I was still this way. Dont worry John when my leg is healed we are going
to go on a real hike she said.

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 John knelt down and massaged her knee, Anne noticed sadness in his eyes.
Is there something wrong John? she asked. I stayed up all night trying to
learn about your operation. Even if my father assured me that you will be
alright, I still am scared he told her.

Oh John, I too am scared but I have to stay positive. Even if something goes
wrong and they have to cut off my leg I am not afraid since I know you will still
be there for me Anne said. Of course I will. If everything goes well, you will be
able to walk normally. I will have no purpose anymore John said and Anne
was surprised.

What do you mean no purpose? I really want this operation to go well so we

could do so many things together. Why would you say you would have no
purpose? Anne asked. John shrugged his shoulders as he slowly sat down
beside her.

I dont know. I wont be needed to push the scooter anymore or something

like that he said. Hmmm about the scooter, who said we are going to stop
using it? I actually like riding the scooter that way. This time you can get the
chance to ride it and let me be the one to push Anne told him and John
smiled. But once a month only, the rest it will be me riding and you pushing
she added and they laughed.

The two ate lunch on top of the hill and while eating Anne asked John to
explain about her operation. She could tell that he really studied about it
because John was able to explain it like a doctor. Anne giggled as the young
man even explained about her rehabilitation, she laughed harder when John
tried to demonstrate some exercises.

If you were only a doctor then I would let you be the one to operate on my
leg Anne said. Can you wait a couple of years? John joked and they again
laughed. I do know everything they are going to do to you. There is one thing I
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during the painful part in a heartbeat I would trade places with you John told
her.

Anne got teary eyed and didnt know what to say. She held Johns hand
tightly and looked at him. When I will be in pain just hold my hand this way.
No matter how painful it would be I am sure I can withstand it with you she
whispered.

Dont worryI will hold both hands

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Chapter 8: Happy Summer

The door opened and Colleen saw John leaning against the wall. You can
come in now she told him. The young man entered the hospital private room
and Anne smiled at him as she did a quick pose with her operation gown on.
Well how do I look? she asked.

Pretty as usual John replied. Hmmm why do I sense sadness in your

eyes? Anne asked. The young man took a seat and exhaled. I am just
worried he said. You are more worried than my parents Anne said as she
laughed. Bob entered the room wearing his scrubs, Are you ready? he asked.

Not yet John replied. I was talking to Anne son his father said and again
Anne laughed. Yes I am but I think you too should sedate John the young
woman replied as she got on the bed. Nurse prep her up Bob instructed and
John stood up and took a deep breath.

How long is the operation? he asked. Two at least but she has to stay at
the ICU for another two hours for observation Bob replied. John I will be fine,
what if you go unwind first then you can come back after four hours Anne
said. A few more nurses entered the room and positioned themselves around
the bed.

Colleen held her daughters hand and kissed her forehead. I will just go to
the office for a while and file my leave of absence. I will be right back she
whispered. John stood beside Anne mother and looked at his friend. See you
after four hours he said. John, come closer Anne said.

Colleen moved away so the young man can move closer. Anne signaled him
to move closer so she could whisper on his ear. What is it Anne? he asked. I
changed my mind. Dont go anywhere. Could you just here in my room? she
whispered. Sure I will stay here John replied. Stay here and dont go
anywhere else okay? she added. I promise to be nearby the young man told
her. No John, just stay here. So I know where you are Anne said.

John nodded his head as the nurses moved the bed out of the room. Anne
smiled at him but she never saw him smile back. Dad make her walk straight
John said as he sat down. I can only fix her leg. You are the one who will
make her walk straight Bob said as he patted his sons shoulder.

For four hours John remained in the room as he promised. He was calm as
he waited for the return of Anne. Ten minutes passed and he became wary and
started to pace the room. Colleen entered and saw John walking around, They
have not brought her back here yet? she asked.

Dad said it would be four hours only but it has gone beyond John said as
he sat down for a second and then stood up to walk around again. Have you
eaten lunch? Annes mother asked. I promised Anne that I would stay here
John said.

The sound of Bobs voice was heard along the hallway so John immediately
ran towards the door. Shes here! he yelled so Colleen approached John and
escorted him away from the door. Come on dear let them pass she said.

The nurses brought Anne inside the room, the young woman was still
unconscious so John looked at his father. The operation went well and all her
vital signs are okay. She will wake up any moment now he told them.

They heard Anne moan so everyone looked at her. The young woman slowly
opened her eyes and Colleen was quick to hold her daughters hand. John
looked at his father and embraced him and exhaled deeply. Thanks dad he
whispered.

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 John Anne murmured and the young man quickly came closer. I am here
Anne, I never left the room he said as he looked at her left leg which was
wrapped up with a brace. Anne was slowly raising her hand so John held it.
Are you in pain? he asked her. The young woman shook her head but gripped
his hand tighter. What is it then? John asked and Anne just smiled.

Colleen wasnt allowed to take a leave so during day time it was John who
watched over Anne. In the afternoon Gerard and his wife would arrive to take
over for a few hours so they could let John sleep. At night the young man
returns to Annes side and watches over her as she sleeps.

One week later John arrived at the hospital after having a full day sleep at
home because Annes parent took a day off. He was surprised to find no one
inside the room so he started to panic. John quickly phoned his dad but
learned that Anne was just having some sunshine at the hospital grounds.

The young man immediately ran outside and saw Anne on a wheelchair
being pushed by her parents. John!!! she shouted and waived at him. Anne
tried to stand up but John ran to her and stopped her. What are you trying to
do? he asked.

Its okay dear, she already can stand Colleen said. She can? Does it hurt
when you do? Can you walk now? John asked as she helped Anne stand up.
Yes it hurts but your dad said I should get used to it. And I cant take steps
just yet. I can only stand and sit she replied.

When are they going to take off the brace? When is rehab going to start?
John inquired. Well she took it off by herself this morning but your dad
returned it and said they will only remove it when she will start taking steps
Gerard said. Why did you remove it Anne? John asked. Well it was getting
itchy and it was too warm. Dad you should not have told him. Look he is now
mad at me Anne said.

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 Colleen yawned and leaned on her husband, Anne looked at them and
smiled. Mom and dad you two should go home. I will be fine since John is
already here and he said he was going to sleep over Anne said. Her parents
looked at John who was surprised and they laughed. We can go and take a
nap and come back in the afternoon. Let John enjoy his summer vacation
dear Colleen said.

Oh yeah I forgot Anne murmured. No its okay. I can sleep over tonight
John said and Anne grinned at her parents. John are you sure? You might
have other things planned. We were just kidding when we said we are taking
your summer away too Gerard said. I have nothing planned sir, go ahead and
get some rest. I will take care of Anne for you the young man told them.

Annes parent bade their daughter goodbye and the young woman sat back
down on the wheel chair. After an hour going around the yard the two were
back in Annes room. Linda dropped by to bring some food for the young lady
didnt like the food that was served in the hospital.

John inclined the bed to Anne could sit up and stood beside the bed so he
could feed her. Anne started giggling and looked at John. I can move my
hands you know she told him. I know, I told your parents I would take care of
you so that includes spoon feeding you he explained and Anne laughed.

Instead of resting, Anne spent the whole day laughing at Johns made up
jokes. The young man went to his fathers office and returned wearing a
doctors white coat which made the young woman laugh even louder. John took
her chart and pretended to make a diagnosis.

A nurse entered the room to check on Annes vitals, John avoided looking at
the woman so he would not be recognized. Are all vital signs okay? he asked
at a low voice. Yes doctor the nurse replied. Prep her up for surgery John
said and the nurse was surprised.

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 What surgery? she asked and Anne burst in laughter. John showed his
face and the nurse laughed for she was fooled by the doctors son. After dinner
that evening the young woman was sleepy. Go ahead and take a rest. Dont
worry I wont go anywhere John told her.

John, mom was right. You should be enjoying summer Anne murmured as
her eyes were slowly closing. I am enjoying summer the young man replied.
Liar. How do you call this enjoying summer? You should go do what you want
to do Anne said.

I am doing what I want he told her but Anne already fell asleep. Being
with you. Making you laugh and seeing your smile. Thats all I want. You tell
me I must go and enjoy my summer. I am just going to come back here and be
with you John whispered as he caressed Annes hand and fixed her blanket.

The following morning therapy started. The leg brace was taken off
temporarily so the doctor could exercise Annes leg. Bob supervised the
procedure as John was beside Anne holding her hand as she grimaced in pain.
After an hour Bob brought in a walker and the young woman was surprised to
see it.

Am I going to walk? she asked. The doctor doing her rehab nodded his
head as he returned the leg brace. The pain you feel are just muscle pains.
You can start to walk already he told her. Anne was excited as they helped her
off bed.

With two hands on the walker, Anne started trembling so the two doctors
stood by her side. You carry the walker and plant it. Then take a step with
your right leg and close with your left leg. Dont use the left leg to lead Bob
explained. With the two doctors guiding her, Anne lifted the walker and planted
it too far. No no no! Mover it back John said and the two doctors laughed.
You should listen to him Bob said.

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 Anne pulled back the walker and stepped her right leg forward and started to
giggle. Here we go she said as she slowly stepped her left leg. John and Anne
were rejoicing for her first successful step, the two doctors looked at each other
joined the fun. Come on you can do better than that John egged her on.

Anne was able to walk out of the room using only a walker and she was
really happy. Now time to turn around slowly. Take baby steps Bob ordered.
Anne did as instructed and managed to turn around. This walker sucks. I
have a better one she said and moved the walker aside and looked at John.

The young man stood in front of her and extended his two hands. Anne held
on to Johns arms and the more she enjoyed taking steps. The two doctors
looked at each other and shook their heads, This is better because each step I
take I wont be scared because you are here to catch me. And I would want to
keep on walking because we are going hiking soon Anne said which made the
doctors smile.

Two weeks after her operation Anne was finally home. The cast on her left leg
had been changed to a lighter one but she could already walk straight with the
help of a cane. The living room was transformed into her temporary shelter for
she was still hard up walking up stairs.

Instead of going back to the hospital each day for therapy, Anne relied on
John for this. The young man learned everything that was needed for Annes
legs rehabilitation, he even wrote it down in a notebook where he monitored his
friends daily progress.

When Annes parents were at work, John was always there with her. It was
this time when John taught Anne how to play console games and he regretted
it because she got a little bit addicted. With Johns help and daily walks around
the neighborhood, Annes leg healed faster than expected.

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 A month after surgery Anne was already walking normally but John saw to it
that she didnt exert herself. The young man was stricter than her parents but
Anne was not complaining for she was the same way when it comes to John.
Anne was already happy but she was going to take her happiness to the next
level.

A second operation, this time for her scar made her excited. They were back
at the hospital and Anne noticed her friend acting weird. John there is nothing
to be worried about. This is just a minor operation she told him. Yeah I know.
Everything will change after your operation he said.

What do you mean? I wont be ashamed of my face anymore. Arent you

happy for me? she asked. I am happy for you of course. You wont have any
more problems John said. That is right. I wont have to bow my head
anymore she told him.

The skin surgeon arrived so Anne had to be taken to the operating room
already. You stay here okay? she told John. Of course he replied. Alone in
the room John pondered on the future. He knew everything would start to
change and there was nothing he could do anymore to stop it.

He stood in front of the window and opened it to let inside a cold breeze. He
heard the door close but didnt bother to turn around. They already took Anne
to the operating room he said. A tap on his shoulder made him turn around,
he was surprised to see Anne.

What are you still doing here? he asked but the young woman placed her
hand on his lips. You were the only one who stared at my face that I saw who
didnt feel pity in his eyes. John, I really want this to happen but if you tell me
now that I dont need to then I wont go through with it Anne told him.

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 John looked at Anne and he took a deep breath. All I want is for you to be
happy. I know this operation will so thats all that matters. If you are happy
then so am I he told her. Annes hand slid from Johns mouth towards his
neck. She moved her face closer to his and their lips touched for the first time.

With lips locked and arms around each other, the two enjoyed their first
kiss. After a few second Anne stepped back and the two smiled at each other.
Wait for me she said. I will always be here he replied.

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Chapter 9: Change

Four days have passed and Anne was raring to go home. Dear you better
keep still and wait for the doctor to arrive Colleen told her. Whats taking him
so long? I want to see my face already Anne said. A few seconds later the room
door opened and Annes skin surgeon entered the room. The young woman
quickly sat up on bed and asked for the mirror.

Someone is in a hurry. Anne I must tell you that you might get
disappointed the doctor said. What do you mean? You were not able to fix my
face? she asked. Oh I did but let me tell you that it does not heal that fast. It
will take time the doctor replied. A long time? Like how long? she asked.

The doctor smiled and took a deep breath, Here let me show you first he
said. Colleen and Gerard gathered around the bed as the doctor started to
remove the gauze covering Annes face. No infections whatsoever, I would say
two weeks he said and the young woman quickly faced the mirror.

It was not the result she was expecting, her left cheek was still dark but not
like before when the scar was there. It hasnt changed she uttered. It
actually did. It is still recovering and you should give it time to heal. The good
thing is that there are no infections. You may go home now but you shall have
to come back for check ups the doctor told her as he started to place new
coverings to her cheek.

The door room opened and Anne burst in laughter as he saw John. The
young mans face was also covered with gauze as he walked towards Anne
holding his buttocks. Why are you looking like that? she asked. Oh the
doctor didnt tell you? I donated the skin on my cheek but they said it was not
compatible so they had to take skin off my butt he said.

Everyone in the room laughed as the young man kept cracking jokes. Hey
doc you should tell her that if she feels the tendency of leaning her face on a
chair, she should not panic since my butt is used to doing that John said and
the more Anne laughed. She tried to pinch him to stop but John just kept on.
Two hours later Anne was home but everyone could see she was not that
happy.

Remember what happened to my eye? John whispered. What happened to

your eye? she asked. Dont you remember the fight? You saw what happened
to my face that time right? It was all black and blue then but look at me now.
Your scar is gone but your face is just bruised. You just have to trust what the
doctor said he told her.

What if it doesnt heal? What if I still get a scar? Anne asked. You dont
have to worry because like before I still wont see it John said. The young
woman smiled and bumped her hip against his. I am mad at you she told
him. For not being with you for three days? John asked. Oh so you know
why, that makes me more mad then she replied.

John took out his wallet and handed it to Anne. The reason is inside he
said. The young woman quickly opened his wallet, she was surprised to see a
picture of them together. Not that picture John said but Anne seemed frozen
staring at the photo. You should throw this away. We are going to take a new
photo soon she said.

No, I actually like this picture John said. Its just going to remind me of
my scar, we will take a new photo when my face is healed Anne insisted. John
took his wallet and looked at the picture, This is still you, this was our first
picture together. Even if your face has changed I still like thisits still you he
said softly.

The young man took out a card and handed it to Anne. A drivers license!!!
You know how to drive? Since when? the young woman asked. Dad has been
teaching me for a long time now. The past three days I took the written exam
and practical exam so I could not come over to visit you John told her. Wow!

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Do you have your own car already? Anne asked. Not yet. I am still saving up
for one. Dad wanted to buy me one but its better if I spent my own money he
explained.

Anne sat back and frowned but Colleen approached the two and handed
John the keys to her car. Be sure to come back in time for lunch she said.
Anne took the keys and quickly ran to the door. Come on John!!! she yelled.
Ah is it really okay? he asked and Colleen smiled at him. I have so much
trust in you, so go on before my daughter gets cranky she told him.

A minute later they were driving around the neighborhood and Anne had her
eyes on John. Why are you looking at me? John asked as he kept his eyes on
the road. Hmmm you seem different when Youre driving Anne told him.
Different? I dont understand he said. You look so cool and dependable
Anne said as she giggled.

I really should have my dad bought me one then John said as they both
laughed. I am not saying you are not dependable on other stuff, you actually
are. But now watching you drive you really look so calm and cool. Whenever
my mom or dad drives I get worried but I dont know why I feel so relaxed now
that its you driving Anne told him.

Hey I just started driving, you should be more worried now John said. I
am not, never will. I just feel so comfortable with you around. I feel as if
nothing bad will happen to me. But I am still mad at you. Three days without
visiting medont ever do that again John Anne said as she moved closer to
lean on him. Im sorry Anne, I never will he replied as he put his arm around
her.

The new school year has started and Anne was so excited to enter campus. A
year ago she could remember how she used to limp and bow her head but this
time it was different. With heads up high, a smile on her face, she graciously
enter the school ground with John beside her.

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 A lot of students looked at her, some stared and a lot did whisper. This time
Anne could feel that they were not insults as lots of smiles went her way. I feel
so happy she whispered and it was Johns turn to bow his head. Welcome to
your new world he uttered.

New world? What are you talking about? she asked as the young woman
could hear her name being whispered by others. This is your world now, I feel
happy for you. Last year I knew it was like hell but now I can feel a big change.
Give me time to get used to your new world John told her. You sound weird
today, I have not changed. This is still me and this is still our world John she
replied. The young man smiled but quickly looked away.

Lunch time at the cafeteria was still noisy but when Anne entered there was
silence once again. Holy cow is that Anne? Kevin asked. Damn she sure is
pretty and its the first time Ive seen her wear a dress in school Rick said.
Yeah and the first time I saw her with someone else besides John Jeremy
added.

Anne was with another guy as she entered the lunch area. The two parted
ways and the young woman approached John and his friends. She sat beside
John and took a bite off his sandwich. Come on lets go get your food John
said. No, I am on a diet. I beefed up last summer she told him.

Why did you part ways with the guy you were with? John asked as his
friends kept quiet. Oh that was Greg, he is my classmate. It sucks that we are
not in the same class. Geez there are four of you and not even one is my
classmate Anne said.

You should eat. Come on lets go get you food John said and Anne went
with him. He got jealous Rick whispered. Yup it was obvious Kevin replied.
Well guys I think John is going to go through tough times Jeremy told them
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 Once the two were back at their seats, the three guys suddenly swallowed
their words. Anne was leaning on John and her right arm was wrapped around
his left arm. There were other couples around the cafeteria but they were not
as sweet as the two. Hey, do you think they are together? Rick whispered. Do
you even have to ask? Just look at them will you Jeremy replied.

Several hours later John was heading towards Annes classroom to pick her
up. The young man suddenly stopped to see her with a good looking guy. He
took a deep breath and started to walk slowly as he was starting to feel
something bad inside him. John!!! he heard her shout. He saw her smiling
and running towards him so the pain he felt inside started to wither. What
took you so long? Anne asked.

Oh I am sorry the teacher asked me to erase the chalk board. So you are
classmates with that guy John said. Who? Charles? Oh no he isnt my
classmate. He just came over to introduce himself. He is a funny guy Anne
replied. The pain started to trickle back inside Johns chest but as soon Anne
walked beside him it suddenly stopped.

Did you bring it? Anne asked and John smiled at her. Of course, will I get
to be the one to ride this time? he teased and Anne bumped his hips and
giggled. Not today she replied. The scooter was out and Anne got on and
immediately embraced him. Run! Fast! she instructed. Are you sure? John
asked. Run like the wind! Anne replied and started to laugh.

With all his might the young man did what she him to do. With her face
close to his and her arms embracing him tightly, John was happy. This day
was a roller coaster ride for him, but he was alright with it for the ending was
to his liking so he ran faster.

John was always seeing Anne with guys on campus but he was getting used
to it. This was her new world and he had to adapt to it because she was happy.

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Being deprived of positive attention almost all her life, Anne was living her
dream and he didnt want to spoil it.

Friday arrived and John was briskly walking towards Annes classroom. He
saw the young woman leaning on the wall all smiling holding a rose with two
hands. John pretended not to notice the flower but as they walked Anne kept
smelling it and there was a different smile on her face.

The scooter ride home was different, she wasnt embracing him and she
didnt either ask him to go fast. I thought you dont like flowers John said.
Hmmm I dont Anne replied. So why dont you throw that away then? the
young man asked.

It smells good, flowers are not that bad Anne said. John fell silent and took
a deep breath as his chest was starting to get heavy. Hmmm if a guy gives you
flowers what does it really mean? Anne asked but the young man didnt bother
to reply.

Hey John I am asking you a question she said. What do you think? he
replied and Anne noticed something different in his voice. You sound angry
she told him. I am not angry he replied.

If a guy gives you flowers that means he likes you and he is courting you
John said and the more pain he felt as she saw his friend blush. So, he likes
me? Charles likes me? Anne asked. Yeah, Charles likes you John answered.

Once they reached Annes home the young woman got off the scooter and
smelled the rose. John quickly turned around as he heard his friend giggle.
Its the first time that someone likes me she said. First time, huh John
quipped as he got on his scooter and Anne looked at him.

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 Oh good you two are here. Come inside quick I made some snacks Colleen
said. John scooted away as if he didnt hear Annes mother call for them. Did
you two have a fight? she asked her daughter. Hmmm no, he has been acting
weird since we left school Anne replied.

Oh did he give you that rose? Colleen asked and her daughter hugged her
and giggled. No mom, Charles gave this to me and I think he likes me she
said. Charles? Who is Charles? Colleen asked. Oh just a boy I met in school
Anne told her.

Wait, does John know Charles gave you that rose? her mother asked. Yes
I told him and he was the one who told me that when a guy gives a girl flowers
that mean he likes her. So Charles likes me Anne said smiling. Colleen sighed
and shook her head and started feeling sorry for John.

Is there something wrong mom? Anne asked. You tell me dear her mother
replied. I dont know. I am just happy because for the first time someone likes
me she happily replied. First time? And what is John to you? her mother
asked.

John is my friend, he is my best friend Anne replied with a smile on her

face.

Later that evening Linda noticed his son playing with his food. Had a bad
day in school? she asked. School is fine mom. May I be excused? John
replied. Bob looked at his wife and they knew something was wrong. Oh sure
go ahead. I can reheat the food when you get hungry his mother said. John
excused himself and went up to his room, What do you think is wrong? Bob
asked.

The last time he was like that was when he got dumped by Sarah Linda
said. So are you saying Anne dumped him? Bob asked. Linda exhaled and

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shook her head, He knew this day would come and I didnt listen to him she
said. Its because he never told her his true feelings her husband said.

You think its easy? John said and the couple was surprised to see their
son standing nearby. You think its easy for me to say I love her before? She
would think that I am saying that because of pity. You think it was easy to say
it after her operation? She would think I love her because of her new look. Do
you think its easy? he asked and his parents fell silent.

John took his bag from the couch and went back upstairs to his room. The
phone rang and Linda quickly answered it. Oh hello Colleen she said. Linda
looked at her husband and took a deep breath. I really cant say he is fine but
I know my son will be okay. You dont have to apologize Colleen Linda said.

Oh Colleen dont be like that. Our children are still young. Change happens
to everyone and we still cannot say what the future holds. It would not be nice
if we interfere, lets just let them cope up with the changes. I know if there is
something special between them, lets just hope that it will prevail and if it
doesnt lets not be strangers Linda told her friend as her husband nodded in
agreement.

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Chapter 10: Actor

Monday morning arrived and the car trip to school was unusual. Bob was
used to the two talking and laughing but this time the car radio was loud and
his son was completely spaced out. They reached the school and John
immediately got out of the car and started walking towards the gate.

John! Wait for me! Anne yelled as she ran after him. With two hands in his
pocket and with head bowed, John walked slower to make her catch up.
Whats wrong with you? You have been acting strange since Friday. Saturday
and Sunday I didnt even see you. Do you have a problem? Anne asked.

John shrugged his shoulders and kept silent but Anne stood in front of him
angry. Every time I have a problem you are always there to help me out. I can
sense you have one so I am here for you. Tell me what your problem is? she
told him. The young man took a deep breath and looked at her. Charles he
said.

Charles? You have a problem with Charles? Anne asked. The two stared
eye to eye but John pointed his hand to the guy approaching who just ruined
his day. Anne turned around and saw Charles a few steps away. Oh yeah you
know him? she asked but as soon as she faced front John had already walked
away.

The young woman did not know why her friend was acting that way. She
wanted to run after him but Charles was already beside her. Hey there he
said. Hi Charles she replied. You two had a fight? he asked. Me and John?
Oh no, although he just isnt himself lately and I wonder why Anne said.

Wait, is John your boyfriend? Charles asked and the young woman
laughed and shook her head. Oh no, John is my first friend here. Him and I
are just close. Hmmm yeah he is my best friend Anne replied. Charles tapped
his heart and exhaled, Whew I thought he was your boyfriend he said.
 The bell rang and the two walked towards the school building. By the way
Anne, I always see you two together during lunch. Do you think you can fit me
in your schedule and have lunch with me today? Charles asked and the young
woman blushed. Ahoh sure. I dont have a schedule, silly you she replied.
So see you at lunch then? Charles asked and the young woman nodded.

Lunch time arrived, John and company were all seated and starting to get
noisy at the cafeteria. Three minutes later they saw Anne enter beside Charles
but John just pretended not to notice. Hey John Rick said. You dont have to
say it. What you see is what you get John replied.

And Youre not going to do anything about it? Kevin asked. He gave her a
rose and she liked it John said. And you are not going to do anything about
it? Kevin repeated. The young man leaned back and exhaled. I think you
should. Are you just giving her away that easy? Jeremy told him.

Ive been with Anne for one year. I never left her side. I tried to show her
how special she was to me. I dont remember doing anything wrong. Before she
had her face operated on she kissed me John said and the three were
surprised. I thought we already had something going on the moment she
kissed me. I said to myself all my hard work paid off and whatever I feel for her
she feels the same way for me. I was wrong

She told me she didnt like flowers. Last Friday she could not get rid of the
rose Charles gave her. If there was something between us she should not have
smiled that way. She would not even keep that damn rose and cling to it. Last
year I took her away from her world. She liked my world so I told her it ours

She had two operations. Now I am in her world and its so hard to breath
John told them. Tell her Jeremy said and the young man looked at him. Tell
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people dont notice your actions, you have to tell them to make them
understand Rick added.

The last time I told someone I loved her she rejected me. I am afraid that
she will do the same John said. Hey man, you two have been super sweet to
each other for a year. If that didnt mean anything I dont what the hell you call
that Rick told him. He is right, we all thought that you two were a couple. I
mean honestly dude, thats what most people would think seeing you two
Jeremy added.

So I guess all of you were wrong then John replied as he stood up and took
his bag. Hey man, tell her Kevin said. John looked at his friends and smiled
at them, If you wont tell her we will Rick threatened. Hey guys thanks but
let me handle it. Dont worry I will tell her the young man replied and then he
left the cafeteria.

The whole afternoon John kept thinking of Anne and what to tell her. He
even didnt hear the bell ring and his classmates noisy as they left the
classroom. When Youre done copying please erase the board his teacher said
but John just stared blankly at her. John are you alright? his teacher asked
and the young man regained his senses. Yes I am fine he replied. He quickly
stood up and started to erase the board but someone tapped his shoulder.

Hurry up slow poke Anne said. Oh sorry. I kinda spaced out again he told
her. You know what John if you have a problem you can tell me she told him.
Yes I actually have something to tell you but I will tell you later on our way
home he replied. Okay, hurry up then she said.

Once out of the gate Anne helped John take out the scooter. Once assemble
she quickly got on and John started to walk slowly. So tell me Anne said. I
think I cant John replied and the young woman laughed. You know what
John I am not like you but I wish I was. You always know when I have a
problem even if I dont tell you. So please tell me she pleaded.

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 John trembled and could not look at her, he started breathing heavily and
the more difficult it got when she leaned on his body. I am waiting she teased.
AnneI like you he softly said and she looked at him. I like you too she
replied and they smiled at each other. Something didnt feel right and John
knew it. He was not contented with what he told her and he knew it was not
what he was really feeling.

What I wanted to say is thatI am in love with you John finally had the
courage to tell her. Anne was a little bit surprised and looked at him and after
a few seconds she started laughing. I get it. You are trying to audition for the
role in the school play! she said.

John felt a pinch in his heart as he watched her laugh. You should have
told me sooner so I could have helped you practice. You really are funny but I
must tell you that you are a convincing actor Anne added. The pinch now felt
like a stab and Johns body felt so lifeless. Oh the audition is on Saturday. I
am sorry I cant go with you. Charles asked me out and I said yes. You know
what I am starting to like him she said.

Tears started to form around Johns eyes, he started to run and Anne
embraced him. John!!! she yelled and started to laugh. This was the only way
he could stop his tears from falling and so he ran faster. Anne embraced him
tighter, her face close to his. Still this was not enough to mask the pain he was
feeling inside.

As soon as they reached Annes home, the young woman got off the scooter
but John got on and sped away. John!!! Where are you going? she yelled but
he never looked back.

Anne and her parents were having dinner when their phone rang. Colleen
answered the phone and Gerard noticed his wifes face go worried. Anne,
Linda is asking if you know where John is because he has not got home yet

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Colleen asked. The young woman was surprised and started to worry. He
dropped me off two hours ago. I thought he was just going to go for a scooter
ride around the neighborhood she replied.

The family finished eating dinner and immediately went to Johns home.
Linda was very worried so Bob took his car keys and decided to go around to
look for him. Let me go with you Gerard offered and the two quickly drove
around the neighborhood.

He has never done this. I cant contact him through his phone Linda said
as she started to cry. Did he tell you anything? A hint maybe? Colleen asked
her daughter. No. He just took off. He has been doing that lately and I dont
know why Anne replied. You dont know why? Colleen asked but Linda held
her friends arm and shook her head.

Anne sat on the porch and started sending messages to their friends. In a
few seconds everyone replied and no one has seen John or heard from him.
There was nothing the three could do but just wait and hope that Bob and
Gerard would find him.

Two hours later they saw John approaching with his head bowed. The three
slowly stood up and approached him. Anne couldnt resist and immediately
hugged her friend but John never hugged back. Where did you go? she asked.
For a walk he replied. I was so worried you know she added. Yeah I am
sure you were John replied and kept walking towards their door.

Anne released him and looked at her mom and Linda. Where is the
scooter? Anne asked. I dont know, I lost it John replied. Young man! Are
you drunk? Linda asked. I am underage and I dont drink. If there is a way to
get drunk without drinking alcohol tell me and I would do it at once the young
man replied. John went inside their home and shut the door behind him.

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 Linda felt embarrassed and shyly looked at the two. Im sorry you had to see
him act that way. I too am surprised because thats the first time he is acting
that way she told them. Oh its okay. Go ahead attend to him. Anne call your
dad and tell them to get back home already Colleen said. Thanks for the
company, please excuse me. He might be hungry Linda said as she too entered
their home.

Linda entered her sons room and saw him lying on his bed. Whats wrong
with you? Why are you acting that way? she asked. John just stared at the
ceiling and then closed his eyes. Is it about Anne? she added. I am sorry
mom, I just needed to blow off some steam. It wont happen again the young
man answered. You can talk to me about it Linda told him. Maybe some
other time, I just want to sleep it off he replied.

Tuesday morning, Bob and John were already in the car waiting for Anne to
arrive. I want to talk to you about last night Bob said. I know I was wrong
and I am sorry John replied. When you have a problem you dont need to go
away and isolate yourself. Its better if you have someone to talk to. You can
come to me or your mom his father told him.

Dont worry dad it was nothing John said. Nothing? Or is it about her
Bob said and pointed towards Anne who just arrived. The young man didnt
reply and just pouted. Good morning Anne greeted the two as she got inside
the car. Good morning, you look lovely as always Bob replied as he started
the engine.

Once in school Anne bumped John several times but the young man didnt
even look at her. John, are you alright? she asked. Of course I am he
replied and smiled. For the past few days you have been acting all weird she
told him. Oh sorry about that. There was just some things on my mind that
was bothering me he explained.

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 I see. I missed you the past few days. I know we were together but it felt like
I was not with you Anne said. Well you can fix that he told her. How? she
asked. Be with me, its that simple he replied. But I am with you she
countered. Be with me, be yourself and I will be me John said and Anne was
puzzled.

For the second day Johns morning was again ruined when he saw Charles
approaching. Look its Charles Anne exclaimed but for the second time John
had already went ahead without saying a word. The young woman didnt know
what was happening to her friend but she quickly bounced back with a smile
as her suitor stood beside her.

Anne and Charles had lunch together for the second time but the young
woman noticed something different about the cafeteria. She glanced at the
table where they used to seat at and she didnt see John and his friends. Is
there something wrong? Charles asked. They are not there today she
uttered. Well maybe they ate outside or had some stuff to do. I am here you
know he told her.

Its just unusual that they are not there Anne said. Yeah I know how that
feels. When you are used to something being there and suddenly its not, you
feel somewhat exposed. You would feel like there is something missing in you
the young man said. Exactly, lately I have been feeling somewhat empty Anne
said and then frowned. Well maybe that is why I am here to fill the gap
Charles said.

Anne managed to smile but deep inside she was bothered. The young man in
front of her was smiling and she hoped that he could indeed feel the sudden
emptiness she was feeling.

It was Annes turn to space out during class. She was trying to figure out
why things are starting to change around her. She looked at her legs and they
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she didnt have a mirror at hand, she knew the scar that has been bothering
her for years is now gone.

Her wishes have been granted and she was expecting to be happy but lately
she was not. Anne saw her classmates getting up and her teacher packing her
things. It was already dismissal and she even didnt hear the bell ring. She
quickly packed her things and slowly walked out of the room. Suddenly she
was scared but as soon as she saw John by the door, she finally exhaled.

Hey John. Why werent you at the cafeteria at lunch? she asked. We were
there he replied. No you werent. I was with Charles and I saw you guys were
not she countered. We were there to get lunch. We decided to eat outside he
told her.

Why didnt you tell me you were going to eat outside? I have always wanted
to eat outside Anne said. Oh sorry, we decided not to bother the two of you
John explained. The young woman bowed her head and John didnt stop her,
thus she knew something was really wrong.

The scooter was gone so the two walked in silence and as soon as the
reached Annes home, John just turned around to walk back. John, tell me.
Are you really okay? she asked. The young man turned around and smiled at
her, Yes I am he said.

How come it does not feel so? she asked and John laughed. Maybe its
because I am a terrible actor. See you tomorrow John replied and walked
away.

She dreamt of change and she got it with some additional changes that she
didnt want.

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Chapter 11: Happiness

Friday during lunch Anne could not eat and was just playing with her food.
Not hungry? Kevin asked and the young lady sighed. Where did he go? Why
isnt he with you? she asked. Jeremy shrugged his shoulders as they all
looked at Rick.

Hmmm havent checked my pockets, he might be there he replied and

Anne frowned at him. Hey I was just kidding. Maybe he didnt feel like eating
so he might be loitering around Rick explained.

Does this table have space for one more? Charles asked and Anne was
surprised to see him. The young man sat down where John used to seat so the
three other guys were quite irked. I guess you all know each other Anne said
and Charles smiled and nodded at the three. Yep sorry we have to go early
Rick said as the three stood up. Why so sudden? Charles asked.

Science project reasons Kevin said and Anne looked at the three oddly.
You two enjoy lunch Jeremy added as the three left. I didnt see John
around, where is he? the young man asked. I dont know Anne replied as she
pouted. You dont know? Thats new, you two are always together Charles
told her. Maybe he is just busy with school stuff she said.

Do you really have to be that said when he is not around? Charles asked.
Anne slowly smiled at him and shook her head. Sorry, I am just used to being
with him during lunch she explained. So tomorrow when we go out will you
be like that? he asked. Of course not! Anne exclaimed. Charles breathed a
sigh of relief and smiled, Good because I cant imagine having our first date
with you thinking about him he told her.

Me think of John? Why would you be jealous? she asked and then laughed.
Well even if you say he is just your friend, everyone else thinks otherwise he
said. And you think like the others? she asked and Charles nodded. Are we
correct? he asked and Anne took a deep breath. If there was something
beyond friendship going on between us do you think I would go on a date with
you? Anne softly said.

Charles was all smiles as he took a bite on his sandwich. Tell me, if you
were John and there was something between us, then you knew I was going on
a date what would you do? Anne asked. Well I would try to stop you and
persuade you not to go he told her. You dont see him doing that right? Anne
asked and he nodded.

Okay then I believe you. That situation was hard though. I just cant
imagine a relationship going that way. I mean something going on between the
two then the girl goes on a date with someone else. Wow that would be painful
Charles said. What if you cant stop her? Anne asked and the young man
leaned back and exhaled.

Well I think I have to change my previous answer he told her. Why? she
asked. Look here, when I learn that she would be going on a date, that enough
says a lot. That is one strong punch on my face I should say. I would really feel
so low and I really dont know what to do. Maybe I would just avoid her or I
dont know. Geez thats a tough one, lets stop talking about it because
thinking about it isnt good he explained as he began to laugh.

Anne laughed with him but deep inside she was beginning to have a clearer
picture of what was happening. For two days John has been asking her if she
wanted to go for a hike but she had to refuse because she had a date with
Charles. Today he was nowhere to be found.

Outside the school building the three guys found their friend seated on the
ground. Rick handed him a sandwich as they all sat down beside him.
Thanks John said as he started eating. She was looking for you Kevin said
but their friend just kept chewing. She looked really sad Jeremy added.
Why? She should be happy, she is going on her first date with Charles. She

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kept talking about it since Monday, what does she need me for? To shove it in
deeper in my head? John asked.

There was a moment of silence and the three looked at each other and shook
their heads. Anyway John we brought you something Rick said as he took out
two drumsticks from his backpack. Hey I have not seen those for two years,
why did you bring them? John asked.

Well you see we wanted to join the talent show competition. We are seniors
and this is our last chance to shine Rick explained and John laughed. And
you think the embarrassment we got two years ago was not enough? he asked.

Last summer you were not with us, we knew you were with Anne so we did
not tell you that we started practicing Kevin revealed. We are better now but
we need you to play the drums Jeremy added. Not interested John said as he
took another bite.

Hey man come on, I promise you this time will be different. I know we will
be able to rock the show Rick said. I think you will be able to find my
replacement if you start looking. Sorry guys I am not in the mood for anything
John told them.

So I guess we wont be joining after all Kevin said. I told you there are
other people who can play the drums John repeated. Two years ago we
started our band. Our band, meaning the four of us. We sucked that time but
still we had fun Rick said. We know what you are going through but that does
not mean you have to stop living. If the shoes you like does not feet you then
look for another one that does Kevin told him.

If that shoe does not fit then I would rather walk barefooted John
countered. The three fell silent, Rick stood up and handed the drumsticks to
his friend. I told you I am not interested John repeated. Yeah I know, but

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this is yours. Its okay if you dont want to play, we understand. I do hope when
you look at them it would remind you of the embarrassment we had to go
through his friend said.

Hours later the school bell sounded and the grounds started to fill up with
students heading towards the gate. John sat down at the back of the school
building and his mind started to wander away. I know a person with a
problem when I see one he heard a female voice say. John was surprised to
see Sarah standing beside him. Hey Sarah he said.

Hey John she replied as she sat down beside him. The young man felt
awkward for he has not spoken to her ever since she broke his heart. Sarah
was a pretty girl with olive green eyes and dark hair. She has been Johns
crush ever since they were in grade school.

I know you dont like seeing me. You have been avoiding me ever since that
day, am I right? she asked. John bowed his head and exhaled, Yeah he said.
Well it does not have to be that way you know. Arent we still friends? Or you
consider me already an enemy? Sarah asked.

John didnt reply but he just shrugged his shoulders. You never gave me
the chance to explain. Barry had been courting me ever since, even before we
became friends. That dayyou caught me by surprise and I really didnt know
what to say or how to say properly that I already am with him. What makes
things worse is the following day he decides we show everyone we were
together, stupid me I should have waited a few more days. I am sorry John, it
wasnt about you she explained.

Its okay I knew I stood no chance anyway John said. Dont say that. I
barely knew you, well compared to Barry that is. You know what you are quite
famous among the girls Sarah said and John looked at her. Me? Famous? For
what? he asked. Well about you and her she said.

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 Her? She has a name you know, its Anne John told her. Yes I know her
name. Most girls dont call her name because they feel jealous she explained
and the young man started to laugh. They just refer to her in the third person
because they treat her as an enemy she added and the more John laughed.

Almost all girls want to be her Sarah said. Why would they want to be
her? he asked. Well we have never seen someone as sweet as you she
explained and again the young man laughed. The way you treat her, just like a
princess. The way you defended her and got your face bloodied. We all know
about the scooter and that made us really jealous. Funny thing is Barry even
tried that once on me but I felt he was a copycat so I didnt bother to get on
she revealed.

Are you saying that you were following us or even watching us the whole
time? John asked and Sarah laughed. Hmmm something like that. You two
were like celebrities, lots of people were spying on you two. Well not on her but
on what you were going to do. When this school year started we all got our
hearts broken seeing her all fixed and so pretty she again revealed and they
both laughed.

And now I guess they are happy John said softly as he bowed his head. I
guess so, they are rooting for him she replied. And you? he asked. I already
saw you hurt before so that is why I am her to tell you I am rooting for you she
said and John smiled at her.

Its okay, I can see her happy with him he said. If she is happy then you
are happy? Sarah asked. I am just following the saying most people say. Even
if I think that is bullshit. How can people even say that line? Being happy
because the one you love is happy? How come I cant feel happiness for her? All
I feel is pain, so much pain he explained.

I am in no position to tell you this but I will say it. You have a choice, you
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until the pain eats you away Sarah told him and the young man closed his
eyes. Eventually the pain would be so much that you just have to let go she
added and John shook his head.

Life has to go on John. Think of the possibilities, what if you two were not
meant to be? I am not saying you two arent but just think of it. If you hold on
long enough, you might not be able to meet the one for you. If you plan to stay
that way then that is your choice but I do hope you still open your mind for
possibilities Sarah told him.

How about you? Do you think you and Barry were meant to be? John
asked and Sarah sighed. At first that is what I thought, that is why I said yes
to him. Then lately I realized that if I could have just waited a little
longerthen I could not have let the right one slip away she replied.

John looked at Sarah but the young woman stood up and turned around.
Its your choice John, she is waiting by the gate a while ago, she still might be
there. I have to go now, it was nice talking you Sarah said with a shaky voice.

John quickly stood up and caught up with Sarah, What you said a while
ago, the right one slipping away he uttered and the young woman started to
blush so she looked away. I wont ask who he is but I want to ask how do you
keep staying with Barry then if you know the right one slipped away? Dont you
ever think about running after him? he asked.

Lately I actually have but he has someone else already and he is happy with
her Sarah replied as she looked at John. So you are happy seeing him
happy? he asked. Just like what you said, pain and very jealous she
answered. Hmmm but I dont see you sad like me John said and Sarah
showed him her hand. No ring yet, there is still hope she said and they both
laughed.

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 But Sarah, is that wrong? I mean you are still with Barry and you are
thinking of mister right. Isnt that unfair to Barry? he asked and she sighed. I
didnt want it to happen this way. I do love Barry, but he started to change for
the worse

I know we have to accept whatever change our loved ones has undergone
but mister right showed his true colors. Then there was regret, call me selfish
or evil but I do think I deserve mister right better. The sad part is that I let him
slip away before he could even show me a glimpse of his true self. Is that
wrong? Wanting something better? Wanting someone better than the one you
have she explained.

Of course not John replied and Sarah saw his face turn gloomy. Wait did I
say something wrong? she asked. No, you are right. Wanting something
better is normal. We cant get contented with what we have if we know there is
something betteror someone better he told her. Oh my God, John I didnt
mean it that way. You didnt have to connect it with Anne choosing Charles
Sarah said as she realized what she had done.

No need to be sorry Sarah. That is human nature John said and Sarah
shook her head. Oh well that mister right of yours is one lucky guy. I can
understand he had to move on, would it be a big surprise to him when he
learns you like him too. Makes me envious. Anyway she is still there, thanks
for the chat Sarah, see you around he told her.

The young woman pouted and smiled. Stupid she uttered. John turned
around and looked at her, What did you say? he asked. I said dont make her
wait any longer stupid. Run! Sarah replied. John smiled and did as told,
Sarah took a deep breath and looked at his back. If I had just waited a little
longerfor you she whispered.

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 At the gate Anne smiled as he saw John approaching. What took you so
long? she asked. Well I had to do some stuff, sorry I was kinda busy the
whole day he replied as the two began walking out of campus.

Anne was happy seeing John back to his normal self. The walk home took
longer since they exchanged stories from the events that happened this day.
Once they reached Annes home, the young woman was cheerful and excited.

Tomorrow, Charles asked me to accompany him for a rehearsal she said.

For what? John asked. Well he can sing and he said he is going to join the
talent show. And the song he is going to sing shall be dedicated to me Anne
explained. Wow thats so sweet of him John said. I know right? she said and
they smiled at each other.

Hey Anne I have to do more stuff so I am going ahead John said.

Ohokay Anne replied. As he walked away she missed the chance to ask him
if he was avoiding her but they had a long talk and everything seemed to be
normal again.

Inside his room, John opened his bag and took out his drum sticks. He
stared at them for a long time then took his phone and started to dial.

Hey Rick, Youre right. Lets do it. Be there tomorrow at your place for
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Chapter 12: Being Better

It was a bright Saturday morning and Anne closed her eyes and let the
sunshine caress her face. She took a deep breath and smiled, she was going to
have her first date today and she was excited. Walking along the neighborhood
she stopped by Johns home and saw the young man stepping out of the door.

Hey John she said. Hello Anne, you look lovely today he replied. Do you
think Charles would like this dress? Anne asked. If he was gay he might like
it John replied and the two started laughing. You know I didnt mean it that
way she told him. Yes I know and I was just kidding. Anyway before he gets
the chance let me say that dress is pretty because you are wearing it. Whatever
you wear will look good because its you John told her.

Anne smiled and pinched his arm and the two began to walk side by side.
So where are you going today? she asked. I cant tell you the young man
replied and grinned. John! Tell me where you are going! she insisted and
grabbed hold of his arm. I am sorry I just cant John said and Anne started to
frown. I wont let go of you until you tell me she threatened.

Really? I dont think Charles would like me tagging around on your date he
told her. I dont care, you have to tell me or else I really am not going to let you
go Anne replied. John started to laugh and the young woman held on tighter
and looked at him. I am going to the library John told her. Liar! Tell me the
truth she said.

Why do you need to know where I am going to anyway? he asked. I want

to know everything you do, I want to know where you are all the time, and I
want to know if you are okay Anne replied and those words touched the young
mans heart. Why? he uttered and the young woman leaned on his arm and
exhaled. I dont know. I just want to I guess she told him.
 I am going to Ricks house. I didnt want to be idle so i might as well join
them John said. Would you like to go hiking with me today instead? Anne
asked and for a moment the young man was happy but he didnt want pity.
You already said no when I asked and you have a date to go to. You have been
so excited and even prepared for this day so you have to go he replied.

John, he is a good guy. He reminds me so much of you at times Anne said

as they began to walk again. John started to feel much pain as Anne kept
talking about Charles. He wished her to stop but until they reached the school
gate it was all about him. Well I do hope you enjoy your date John said. You
seem so sad all of a sudden Anne noticed. Dont be silly, I am happy for you
he lied and forced a smile on his face.

Thirty minutes later John arrived at his friends house. He could hear his
friends voices inside the garage so he quickly entered. Johnny boy!!! Rick
shouted as everyone was happy to see him. We were just talking about you
Kevin told him. Oh yeah? About what? John asked. Why you changed your
mind Jeremy uttered and Rick shook his head.

Hey it doesnt matter what made him change his mind okay? Come on lets
get him up to speed Rick told them. Is it because Charles joined the contest?
Kevin asked. Yeah we saw him place his name on the list Jeremy added. Hey
come look John we shined your drums, come on take out your sticks and give
them a try Rick said as he signaled the two to shut up.

Yes its because of Charles John said and the three looked at him. I am
sorry guys, I know I am being selfish but its true. Yesterday Anne told me that
he joined the contest and he sings well he added. Yep he does and I think he
is going to win a female voice said and standing by the door was Ricks
younger sister, Raven.

But John, me and my friends are rooting for him she said and winked at
John prompting the young man to smile at her. Rooting for John? Is there a

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contest between you two? Kevin asked and the young man laughed. Its a girl
thing John said and Raven nodded. What girl thing? How come John knows
about it and we dont. Did you cross over John? Jeremy asked and everybody
laughed.

And why the hell are you rooting for Charles when you shoot be rooting for
John? Rick asked. Raven played with her hair and rolled her eyes, You
wouldnt understand even if I tell you. John, you know my reason right? she
replied. Well I do but I am sorry I think we are going to win John told her. The
young girl pouted and raised an eyebrow, Its alright, if you fall I will be
waiting she teased and got out of the garage.

What was that all about? Rick asked and John grinned. Your sister likes
me he replied. Geez we already know that for a long time. She even learned
how to play the drums because of you and she is quite good I should say. What
I am asking is that contest thingy Rick clarified.

Its a girl thing so lets not talk about that. I dont want Charles to win, he
may sing well and have her drooling but I want to top that. I want us to be
better to steal the limelight away from him. If he is that good then I want us to
perform right after him so he could not enjoy the spotlight, we are going to
steal it from him right away! John angrily said and his friends were surprised.

And how the hell are we going to do that? Rick asked and John stood up
and took out his drum sticks. Two girls have already said that Charles is good,
and we know Raven, she knows how to appreciate talent. She told us we suck
and we didnt listen to her before Jeremy said and they all laughed.

Guys we have a week to do this. I really need this badly John said as he
knelt on the floor. Please guys help me out. Anne keeps talking about him
which makes me feel useless. I want to be better than him, I just cant let him
win John pleaded. His friends saw the seriousness in his eyes and they could
see he really wanted to win Anne back.

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 Get up stupid, we got your back Jeremy said. Yeah and I have an idea of
how to win Kevin said so all eyes were on him. Spill the beans dude, tell us
Rick egged him. Well if we want to win we cant let Rick do all the singing. We
three have to learn to sing he told them.

Are you crazy? I have a loud voice but I cant sing John said. Same here,
we cant win by making the crowd laugh you know. That is a talent show and
the winner is decided based on talent Jeremy said.

Yes I know and I was serious about the singing Kevin replied and the three
laughed. Guys I think he is really serious Rick said. The whole school knows
we suck, they might think we joined to make them laugh. You said you want to
be better? So we show them they are wrong. The odds are against us which is
good, they dont expect much from us. If we ask to go after Charles I am sure
they wont mind. This is the power of the underdogs Kevin explained.

Youre right. We have the element of surprise on our side. I know when they
see us they would all be laughing. And if we perform well then I can imagine
their jaws dropping in awe Jeremy said. Yeah and we hit them harder and
when its all over we attain redemption Rick added.

Can we really learn to sing in one week? We still have to master the musical
piece John asked. Dont worry about the music, its an easy song. Rick is the
main vocalist, we three just need to back him up. We need to blend with his
voice so we really dont need to learn to sing well, just for our performance
song Kevin told them.

What song is it anyway? Rick asked and Kevin took out his i-pod and
played it. In an Instant John liked it, he quickly played imaginary drums as
they all smiled and nodded. As the song ended everyone was pumped up and
all looked at Rick. So master teach us John told him and his friend laughed.
I think we are going to need some help Rick replied.

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 The four practiced the whole day under Ravens watch and she didnt like
what she heard. Guys you have no problem with the instruments, its the
voice! she yelled and the four laughed. We cant perform miracles, dont
expect us to sing well in a days time John said.

Well if you want to win then you should or else you can sing that way and
you end up in my arms she teased and Rick shook his head. We need more
help he said. Who can help us? Kevin asked and they all looked at John.

Yeah its okay, you can call her he told them. Are you sure? Jeremy
asked. Call who? Raven interrupted. Who else but the one who won two
years ago, Sarah Rick replied and his sister frowned. Oh she is going to get a
lot of bitch slapping if you call her here Raven said and John smiled at her.
Hey, me and Sarah are okay now. She was the one who told me about the girl
thing he said.

Well I am not okay with her being here Raven countered. We really need
her Rick said. Fine, call her tomorrow and I will make sure I am not here his
sister replied. Rick and the others knew they needed Raven so they all looked
at John and winked at him. John smiled and laughed a bit and began to clear
his throat. Raven, I would like you to be here too he uttered and immediately
the young girl smiled and looked at John. You mean that? she asked and the
three carefully looked at their friend.

Yes, I need you here John said and Raven giggled and headed towards the
door. Okay John, for you I willI have to do some stuff. See you tomorrow
she said as she left the garage. Whew! Good job man Rick said. Hey you
made me do something bad, your sister might think that I amyou know
John told him.

Relax, in times of need we all have to resort to all means necessary to get
the job done Rick explained and everyone laughed. Hey guys I dont know

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how to thank you but if you need me to do something I will John said. This
isnt about you only. We too want to be better. We are seniors and we dont
want to be remembered as those fools who embarrassed themselves during a
talent show Jeremy said.

We are not doing this for you alone but we are doing this for ourselves too.
But since you are so dramatic your reason trumps ours Jeremy said and
again everyone laughed.

The following day practice continued but Sarah was already with them.
Raven kept fixing her red hair and everyone noticed that she was intimidated
by Sarahs presence. After one round of practice the guys looked at the two
ladies and they immediately shook their heads.

Rick can sing so you can seat down first. The three of you we have to hear
you sing the song individually Sarah said and the three laughed. Kevin we
start with you she added and everyone saw that she was serious. I cant sing
that good Kevin replied.

Dont worry we are not expecting much Sarah told him so the young man
placed down his guitar and started to sing. Everyone was surprised to hear him
sing, he was not out of tune and he did have a good singing voice. Wow, you
can sing, your only problem is you are scared and shy. Jeremy Youre next
Sarah said and the bass man stood in front and belted.

John felt so low hearing his friends voice because it happened that Jeremy
too could sing but like Kevin he was just shy. You two are impostors, you just
have to work on your confidence. And now you John Sarah said and the
young man giggled. I dont think so he said.

And you would just let him win like that? Raven asked and Sarah nodded.
If they are shy, I admittedly I have no talent in singing John told them. I

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dont believe that, everyone can sing. What did you call me here for then?
Sarah countered and John took a deep breath and stood up.

With his two hands in his pocket the young man tried his best to sing. The
three guys started to laugh but Raven and Sarah glared at them. After a few
lines John bowed his head and stopped singing, I can just play the drums, I
dont want to put everyone down he softly said.

Do it from the top but this time be serious! Sarah snapped. I already did
my best John countered. You were holding back! Sing with your true voice
she insisted and everyone looked at her. This is my true voice John said. You
called me here to help you guys out and when I say you are holding back then
you are holding back! Sarah shouted and the young man started to tremble.

Are you ashamed that they would laugh at you when they hear your true
singing voice? she asked and the more curious the others got. John nodded
his head and started to tap his feet, Sing us your favorite song, even just a
verse but with your real singing voice Sarah told him.

John looked at his friends one by one and then took a deep breath and
turned around. Everyone started shaking their heads but Sarah asked them to
keep quiet as John began singing.

Sarah smiled as the others had their jaws dropped in disbelief. They now
understood why John was embarrassed; he had a high pitch singing voice
similar to late King of Pop. Nevertheless they were still amazed and listened on
as he finished the song.

If you have found someone new, he better be good to you. Coz if he doesnt,
Ill be there John ended and bowed his head. There was silence inside the
garage and they saw Johns shoulders shaking. The three guys stood up and

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wanted to go to him but Sarah stopped them. He wouldnt want you guys to
see him like that she whispered.

She pulled Ravens hand and the two of them approached John and stood in
front of him. The young man tried to hid his face but the two ladies hugged him
and let him cry on their shoulders.

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Chapter 13: Hands

The group decided to hold their vocalization practice after classes so John
had to walk Anne home before he would go over to Ricks place. Everyone
understood why he had to be late, he was keeping it a secret for the girl he
truly loves.

Each day they were getting better but Raven and Sarah would tell them
otherwise to push the four to their limits. It was only during Thursday when
the two girls revealed the truth, they even let the four guys listen to a secret
recording of their last practice and everyone was rejoicing.

Holy crap we sound like the real thing! Kevin said and everyone laughed.
But will it be enough? John asked so they all looked at him. No bias, you
guys are great and I believe you will rock the gymnasium Raven said. Hmmm
but now we must talk about your attire Sarah told them.

Cant we just be ourselves? Jeremy asked. No, if you plan to win then you
have to cover all bases. You guys have to add a little bit more wow if you get
what I mean she told them. So how are we going to add the wow? Have the
word tattooed on our foreheads? John asked and the guys laughed. You guys
need to rest and leave it to me and Raven Sarah said and the younger girl
smiled.

Wait I will need your sizes so list them down she added. Hey you dont
have to spend on us Rick told her. Trust me I wont, my uncle owns a shop
and I think we could borrow some clothes Sarah said. And what exactly are
you going to let us wear? Jeremy asked and the young woman just grinned.

Friday after class the group met at the back of the school and Sarah gave
them their clothes. Dont open them now, dont even complain when you see
them she said. Are we really going to do this? Kevin asked and the guys
laughed. I feel so many butterflies inside my stomach and it isnt even
Saturday yet Rick shared. Same here John added. Losers? Sarah teased
and again they laughed.

Hey we have nothing to lose right? Jeremy asked and John bowed his
head. I do he uttered. Will you four grow some balls! Trust me when I say
you will be great tomorrow. For now you go and rest and get rid of those
nerves she scolded them and the more they laughed.

The five were joyfully walking towards the gate when Raven came running
and blocked their way. You cant go out just yet she told them. Why? Sarah
asked. Uhmmmthey have to practice at the gym the young girl said. No
they dont, that is voluntary and by this time preparations are undergoing in
the gym Sarah told her.

You just cant go out yet! Raven repeated but it was too late. John was
frozen and looking towards the gate. Everyone looked at saw Anne and Charles
holding hands, You just cant go out yet Raven repeated with sad voice as
everyone looked at John.

The young man turned around and headed back towards the back of the
building. John where are you going? Rick asked. I cant go out yet his friend
repeated as they watched him bow and shake his head. Oh boy I guess Raven
is going to be our drummer after all Kevin told them.

No, John will play tomorrow Sarah said. Are you crazy? Dont pretend you
didnt see what he saw Kevin told her. You go ahead and let me handle him.
Raven, just prepare just in case I fail. Wish me luck Sarah told them as she
ran after John. Why does it have to be you? Raven asked and Sarah turned
around and stared at her. Because I broke his heart already and you havent
she replied.

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 The young woman found John seated on the ground leaning on the building
wall. She sat beside him and remained silent. I lost he whispered. I agree
with you Sarah said and John looked at her. You are supposed to be cheering
me up he told her. I am not here to cheer you up, I am here to share your
pain she explained and the young man flashed a smile.

I dont see you crying Sarah said. Its public, I have to hold it in he
replied. Is that how boys do it? she asked. Yeah this is how we do it John
said. You lost John Sarah said. You dont have to rub it in he replied.

I want to share something with you. I remember the day you said you liked
me and how I lied to you. I know you felt much pain but you know what its me
who suffered in the end she revealed. Youre not making sense John said.
Remember when I said I let mister right slip away? I let you slip away Sarah
said and John was surprised and looked at her.

Yes John, you are mister right. If I only had time to get to know you, things
would be different. I said yes to Barry, I dumped you and the sad part is that
you revealed your true colors afterwards. I really hated Anne, every time I see
you two together I just think she could have been me Sarah related.

I lived in regret and its much worse than pain. Every day I just wish I could
turn back time but I know that is not possible. The only thing that cheers me
up is the fact that we have the same hands Sarah added and John looked at
his hands. No rings yet Sarah uttered. Hope? John asked and she nodded.

Anne has the same hands as we do Sarah told him and he smiled. Instead
of feeling pain, feel something much worse. Let her regret her decision, let her
regret choosing Charles over you. You see John pain is something you can get
over with time but regret? You will carry that your whole life. What if questions
will plague your mind everyday but there is nothing you could do but imagine
those what ifs Sarah told him.

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 And what if she doesnt? he asked. I doubt that, but is she doesntjust
remember what you sang she replied. What about it? John asked but Sarah
kept silent. Sarah you told me a lot just now andif you do regretI mean
why are you rooting for me and Anne then? the young man asked.

Sarah grabbed his hand and placed it beside hers, Hope she uttered and
they smiled. You know that I am madly in love with Anne right? John asked.
Of course I can clearly see that Sarah replied. And I would like you to know
that there is one saying that I just found out right now that is so true he said.

What saying is that? she asked. Hmmm I suddenly forgot but I am sure it
has something to do with firsts and never dying John said and Sarah paused
for a few seconds then shyly bowed her head smiling. But John was about
to say but Sarah covered his mouth with her hand. You just made me so
happy so dont spoil it she whispered as she planted a kiss on his cheek.

John closed his eyes and smiled joyfully, Sarah on the other hand laughed
at him. Whats with that pose? she asked. Oh nothing, you just made me a
believer in this thing called hope he replied. And why is that? she asked
further. Well with hope even dead dreams still do come trueone just did he
said as he caressed his cheek. Sarah giggled and pinched him and they both
laughed. Hey Sarah, thank you John said. Coz if she doesnt she cut her
singing short and stood up. Lets get out of here, you still have to rest she
said.

Competition day arrived and Anne was surprised to see John at the
gymnasium. I didnt know that you were coming to watch she said. Oh I
couldnt do anything at home so I just came over instead John replied. I
walked home alone yesterday Anne said and then frowned. Oh sorry, if I
remember correctly boyfriends are the ones who are supposed to walk their
girlfriends home he replied and the young woman was surprised.

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 How did you know? she asked. Excuse me but I have to go check on
something John told her and he immediately left. Is this seat taken? Sarah
asked and Anne nodded her head. John just went to get something she
replied. Oh? Let me keep his seat warm then Sarah said and Anne frowned
and looked away.

You must be Anne Sarah said. Yes I am and I know who you are. You
broke Johns heart Anne replied and didnt even look at her. So its going to
be this way? Sarah asked. Yes it is so deal with it Anne replied. You better
go find another seat she added. Dont worry he wont be back Sarah told her
but Anne was too irked to reply.

The show started and gymnasium roared and cheered in laughter as comic
performances ensued. After an ninety minutes the show was down to its last
two performers and Charles got up on stages. The young man started to
serenade the crowd and everybody loved him.

After his performance everyone stood up and clapped, even though Anne has
heard him sing several times she was still clapping and was full of smiles. As
Charles got off the stage most of the students started laughing as they saw
John and his friends emerge. Anne could not believe her eyes, she stood up
and started laughing.

The four young men wore classic 70s attire with matching dark shades that
made them look really cool. Even if they have not started they already had
captured the crowds attention prompting the other contestants to all come out
of the backstage and see what was going on.

Rick checked the microphone, Were back! he said and the crowd roared as
they could still remember their forgettable performance two years ago. Kevin
and Jeremy tested their instruments as John started to strut his skills on the
drums which made the crowd go wild. Anne clapped her hands wildly as she

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could not stop laughing, Oh my God he plays the drums? I cant believe it!
she yelled.

Rick raised his hands and signaled everyone to calm down. Yeah I know you
remember us. Curly Tops on vocals, Four Eyes on guitar, bean pole on bass
and Mega Mouth on drums. They saysave the best for last and so here we
are he said and the fans of Charles booed him. Silence engulfed the
gymnasium seconds after and John banged his sticks together and they started
to play a song popularized by the Wonders.

You,

Doin' that thing you do,

Breaking my heart into a million pieces,

Like you always do

They played their instruments perfectly and what made the crowd go wild
was the magnificent blending of their four voices. Everyone in the audience
stood up and danced and what made the four happier was when the judges
joined the crowd. This was truly their moment to shine.

And you,

Don't mean to be cruel,

You never even knew about the heartache,

I've been going through

Well I try and try to forget you girl,

But it's just so hard to do,

Every time you do that thing you do

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 I,

Know all the games you play,

And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,

You'll be mine someday

'Cause we,

Could be happy can't you see,

If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,

And keep you here with me

'Cause I try and try to forget you girl,

But it's just so hard to do,

Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl,

But I know one thing's for sure,

It's the love I haven't got girl,

And I just can't take it anymore

John was busy playing the drums when suddenly his friends turned around
and looked at him. They all stopped singing and he what they were trying to do
and he bravely obliged and sang the last part as lead with the three blending
with him.

'Cause we,

Could be happy can't you see,

If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,

And keep you here with me

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 Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,

Around with someone new,

And if I know you you're doin' that thing,

Every day just doin' that thing,

I can't take you doing that thing you do

Just as the song ended, the four bowed and quickly got off stage like famous
rock stars do. The whole crowd was still going wild and calling them back to do
an encore. The four were back on stage and it was clear to everyone who won
the contest. Before they could do an encore the judges took the stage and made
it official. Rick stood proud with the trophy beside him, he calmed the crowd
down and began to speak.

Rick on vocals, Kevin on guitars, Jeremy on bass and John on drums!!!

Dont say we didnt tell you!!! Hit it John!!! he shouted and his friend banged
the guitars like he never did before.

All students ran closer to the stage, Anne was about to join them but Sarah
held her arm. Where do you think youre going? she asked. Let go of my
arm! Anne shouted. Should you be comforting your boyfriend? Sarah asked
as she pointed towards the left side of the stage.

There was Charles with head bowed and defeat written all over his face. On
center stage was John who was smiling, singing and moving his head to the
beat. Anne sat back down on her seat, she felt something new again inside her
and it wasnt good. Confusion started to fill up her mind as she alternately
looked at Charles and John.

She was torn.

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Chapter 14: Being There

Monday at the cafeteria was different, the four were at their usual table but
this time they were like celebrities. It seemed that their win suddenly
transformed their appearances and a lot of girls were paying more attention to
them.

While the four were enjoying a laugh John saw Anne enter the cafeteria, he
was about to stand but a few tables away Charles beat him to the punch. The
young woman noticed her boyfriend first so she walked towards him, John
leaned on his seat and shook his head. Hey man sorry it didnt work out
between the two of you Rick said and John just smiled at him.

We won so we should be happy. Like what you all said this wasnt for me, it
was for all of us he told them. So what are your plans now? Kevin asked.
You should move on, Raven likes you Jeremy teased and Rick shook his
head. What do you thinkbrother? John said as he looked at his friend and
they all laughed.

How about Sarah? Rick inquired and all eyes were on John. What about
her? he asked. You two seem to be close lately his friend said. Well we are
friends, and guys can we stop all this girl talk. I have not had this much fun in
a long time, so whats next? John told them as he glanced over at Anne.

That afternoon John decided to wait for Anne by the gate. They already left
Sarah said and the young man was surprised to see her. I didnt see them he
said. Through the parking lot, Charles has a car you know she explained. I
see, well I am going ahead then. How about you? John asked.

I am waiting for Barry. You know she already has Charles, why are you still
waiting for her? I mean like now Sarah asked. Yeah I know she has a
boyfriend but still I want to be there for her. I dont want her walking home
alone he explained. Johnabout the hope thing, it doesnt mean you have to
wait and be idle. You still have to continue living I forgot to tell you regret
works both ways, if you wait and nothing happens then you would regret the
time you wasted she shared.

Sarah I know what I am doing does not make sense right now. Please let me
be for now. Scold me if you want but I am not listeningI dont want to. I know
what may happen and I still choose to do it. Please dont get mad at me. I want
to be hard headed for once. Maybe what I am doing will pay off, but if it doesnt
then I am ready for that too. Just let me try it my way for now then you can
scold me later, I promise that time I would listen John said.

Sarah could not respond to what he just told her. She just watched him turn
around and walk away. Sarah didnt feel pity for John, instead she envied him.
He was able to do something stupid and was ready to face the consequence
just for the hope of happiness. She wanted to do the same but she was not
brave enough.

A few meters away from home John saw Anne seated by their porch. Hey
John Anne greeted him. Hey Anne the young man replied and sat down
beside her. I came by here yesterday but you were not here she said. Oh I
was at Ricks place, his parents decided to have a little celebration for us he
replied.

Why didnt you tell me? Anne asked. Well I thought you wouldnt be
interested or you might have plans with Charles John explained. Anne felt sad
and bowed her head, Does things really have to change? she asked. I guess
so, I was just respecting your relationship with Charles he replied and the
more down Anne felt.

John noticed her silence and he didnt like seeing her that way. You are now
in a relationship Anne. You two should be working in making that relationship
better. In order to do that you have to sacrifice many thingslike time with
friends the young man explained giving emphasis on the last word.

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 You dont have to tell me that. In just a span of one week I feel so lost when
it comes to you. I didnt know that you guys entered the talent show and what
made things worse I didnt even know you play the drums. It seemed that so
many things happened while I was with Charles Anne told him.

Well I wanted to tell you but like you said you were not around John
replied. But we were there at the gym, you could have told me Anne
countered. We wanted to surprise everyone, and I think we did John said and
Anne smiled.

Yes you did. I could hear others jeering and shouting bad things against
you. I heard one saying how you sucked two years ago and stuff like that. I
honestly thought you four were going to make a comic skit or just make
everyone laugh she related.

But the moment you did that solo in the beginningI had mixed emotions. I
was so happy but at the same time I felt bad because I should have known you
do play the drums. When you all startedI just got blown away. I really could
not believe you all playing so well and the voices, oh my God I screamed so
loud and I dont even know why. I dont know how to describe it, I was happy,
but there was something more that made me jump, dance, scream and I felt so
proud of you

I wanted to celebrate with you guys but I saw Charles sad. I had to comfort
him but I think I made it worse. I just couldnt stop talking about you four so
we had our first fight. But we are okay now Anne said.

The young woman looked at John, he was playing with his hair and pouting
his lips. What are you doing? she asked. Being you he replied and Anne
looked at him oddly. You are talking too much, again being me. So I decided to
be you, am I pretty? he spoke in a gay manner and Anne burst in laughter.

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 John stood up and acted girly, he walked around swaying his hip and acted
all demure. Anne had tears in her eyes from laughing, she was begging him to
stop but the young man continued for he was happy seeing her that way.

A few minutes later Anne had calmed down and John was beside her.
JohnI miss you she softly said. Yeah me too he replied. Does everything
really have to change? she asked as she leaned on him. John took a deep
breath and closed his eyes for a moment. No he replied as he put his arm
around her. Can I join you and your father to school again starting
tomorrow? Anne whispered. I would love that John said and the young
woman wrapped her arms around him.

The following morning Bob and John were already inside the car waiting for
Anne. John are you okay? the older man asked. Of course I am, whats with
the question dad? the young man replied. I heard she already has a
boyfriend Bob said. Yes thats true, his name is Charles John replied.

Bob didnt notice anything on his sons face but he knew he was just keeping
it inside. And you are okay with it? he asked his son. Dad you already know
the answer. Why do you have to ask that? John said. Well son I was just
worried about you Bob told him.

Nothing has to change. I befriended her, she became my friend. I did fall in
love with her but she broke my heart. That alone does not mean we have to
stop being friends. I actually thought about avoiding her but what would that
say about me? That our friendship has a limit?

If someone breaks your heart do they have to be your enemy? The pain
would force to you say yes but that is just plain stupid. We have to remember
the good things we have gone through together and you cant just throw it all
away. I want to be here for her no matter what but of course I wont deny that I

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am praying they break up and eventually she too would learn to love me John
said.

Son, you are contradicting yourself Bob said and the two laughed. I know
dad. I didnt know love could really mess up your brain this badly he replied.
Would you like to come with me to the hospital to have it checked? his Bob
joked but John pointed at someone approaching. No thanks, the only one that
can cure me is here he said as he quickly got out of the car to open the door
for Anne.

Everything seemed to be back to normal, as the two entered the gate Charles
was there to meet them. Anne was used to John vanishing every time her
boyfriend would make an appearance but this time he never left. Charles
John greeted as he extended his hand. The two shook hands and the young
woman was surprised. Congratulations on your win dude Charles said and
John smiled.

Anyway let me leave you two alone. Charles you take good care of her you
hear me? John said and Charles nodded. John nodded back and then smiled
at Anne before he left. Your best friend is scary Charles whispered as John
walked away. Anne angrily looked at her boyfriend, Cant you see he is being
friendly, dont you ever say bad things about him or else I am going to break up
with you she threatened.

Charles apologized and they began to walk, he looked at his hand and he
could still the pain from Johns friendly strong grip.

Rick and Kevin saw what happened so as John approached them they
looked at him curiously. So you finally gave up the curly guy commented and
John laughed. What the hell are you talking about? he asked. We saw you
shake his hand, it was as if you were handing Anne to him Kevin explained
and their friend shook his head. Hell no! I just wanted him to feel my
presence John told them.

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 What?! the two asked in unison. Chill out you two, Anne still needs me so
I will be here for her John told them as they started walking. And you are
okay seeing them together? Rick asked. Nope! his friend replied and the
more bewildered the two got. You are not okay with her being with him but
still you want to be there for her? Kevin clarified and John nodded. Because
she still needs me he said.

John, you are just killing yourself slowly Rick told him. I know that, even
if I die I will still be there for her his friend replied and the two laughed. I
think there was a movie like that with Demi Moore in it Kevin said. You know
what you two should be supporting the happiness of your friend John told
them.

So are you happy that way? Kevin asked. Nope! he replied and the two
gave up. Look guys, I dont expect you to understand because even I dont. I
love Anne, very much at that. I am not ready to lose her or let her go just yet.
So instead of criticizing me for my decision I do hope you guys got my back on
this one John told them.

Nope! the two answered and John looked at them. Rick and Kevin laughed
and patted their friends shoulder. Dude we dont agree with what you are
doing but of course we got your back Rick told him. Well you just made my
college decision easier, I will never take up Psychology. Geez if you are my
patient I surely will go nuts Kevin added and they all laughed.

Friday afternoon as John was about to exit the gate he saw Anne and
Charles. He waived at the two but the young woman signaled him to wait. The
couple approached him and Anne quickly wrapped her hands around his arm.
I have to do some school stuff at the library so can you walk her home?
Charles asked and John nodded.

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 Thanks man, you take care of her you hear Annes boyfriend said and John
grinned at him. I always did and I always will he replied. While the two were
walking Anne could not stop giggling. What gives? John asked. Oh nothing.
By the way what are you doing tomorrow? she asked.

Oh yeah, would you like to come with us? We are going to watch the
basketball game at school then we might hang out at the mall afterwards John
told her and the young woman frowned. I cant she whispered. Oh you and
Charles are going out? he asked and Anne shook her head.

I have to do lots of assignments and I have to review for the exams she
said. Oh I see, so why were you asking me what I was doing tomorrow? John
asked. Hmmmnothing. I just wanted to know thats all Anne replied and
John nodded his head but he knew she was lying.

Saturday morning, Anne started working at her room after breakfast. In

front of her was her laptop and there were lots of books scattered on top of her
study desk. As she was typing, she saw a pair of hands tidying up her desk.
Stop it mom, they are my reference books she said. Okay dear as you wish
she heard John reply imitating her mothers voice. The young woman laughed
and she was surprised to see him there.

What are you doing here? I thought you were going to watch the game? she
asked. John grabbed the other chair and sat beside her. Basketball game?
What are you talking about? he replied. You told me that you were going to
watch the game at school and then hang out at the mall Anne clarified.

I did? I dont remember saying that? John said and he laughed. Anne faced
him and she raised an eyebrow. Dont lie to me she uttered. They can tell me
about the game on Monday, you need me here today so I am here John told
her. I never said I needed your help Anne lied.

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 I know so I will just sit here and watch you. If you need me to do anything
just tell me he said. Anne faced her laptop but she could not hide her smile
any longer so she pretended to look for something. You have plans today so go
ahead John, I will be okay she told him.

Okay John said as he stood up. Anne continued typing on her laptop when
suddenly her swivel chair began to move. John moved her aside, he took his
chair and sat in front of the laptop. He took the book and handed it to Anne,
You dictate and I will do the typing. I type faster than you. We can get more
work done this way he said.

Anne held the book and stared at John. The young man had his fingers
ready on the keyboard and he was waiting for her to read. Their talk days ago
suddenly came back to her mind and she didnt understand why he was
sacrificing for her.

Thank you Anne said. Thank you John repeated and typed. No, I meant
thanks for helping me she clarified. No, I meant thanks for helping me he
again repeated and then typed. John! I was talking to you and not dictating
Anne said and the young man laughed. I know, I was just fooling around he
told her and they both laughed.

Thank you John the young woman said and John smiled at her. Thank
me later, lets get to work he replied. Anne moved her swivel chair closer, John
was ready to type but she leaned on him. John looked at her and their eyes
met, Is this okay? she whispered. Yes he replied.

Anne started to dictate and she saw that he was indeed a fast typist. She
hooked her right arm around his left arm and John looked at her. Anne, if you
do that I would type slower he told her. Anne pretended not to hear what he
just said; she continued reading slower and the young man understood what
she was trying to say.

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 John leaned back and relaxed, Anne wrapped her arm tighter around his
and the young man leaned his head on hers. He was there for her and he was
happy.

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Chapter 15: Reasons

There was two month left and the school year was about to end. John and
Anne were sharing a laugh as they entered the school campus. Charles was
there to meet but he was not the only one waiting for the two.

Hey guys, whats with those happy faces? John asked. Are you ready for
the good news? Rick asked. Charles was also smiling so the two looked at
each other and wondered. We are going to have a prom this year! Kevin said
and John was surprised. This school never had a prom since we were
freshmen, what made them change their minds? he asked.

I dont know but thats not all, we were asked to play at the prom! Jeremy
excitedly said. Anne and Charles were holding hands and smiling at each
other. John momentarily looked at them and then bowed his head. Yey we
have a prom he lifelessly uttered and started to walk away. John we have a
meeting this afternoon with the coordinators Rick said. Sure the young man
replied and shook his head.

Inside the classroom John spaced out and kept thinking about the prom.
What made things worse was every teacher for every subject kept reminding
everyone about. The classroom was filled up with happy faces and John had
the only gloomy one.

That afternoon Anne was walking home alone with a smile on her face. She
was of those students who were excited. Two years ago she never dreamt of
attending the prom even if there was one but this time she was looking forward
to it. Hello Anne she heard Johns man yell as she passed by their house.

The young woman smiled and waved at the older woman. Oh John might be
late, they have a meeting she said. Late? He is already in his room Linda told
her. Anne was surprised so she walked towards his friends mother. He is?
she asked. He is upstairs Linda replied. May I go see him? Anne asked and
Johns mother escorted her in.

You go see him and then you two come down later and I am going to make
some snacks Linda said and the young woman immediately went upstairs.
John was in bed with his eyes closed, he heard his door open so took a peek.
You should be at the meeting Anne said.

The young man closed his eyes and remained silent. Anne sat down on the
bed and shook the young man. Why are you here? You should be at the
meeting she repeated. I dont want to go to the prom John said. What?!!!
But you are going to play at the prom Anne countered.

They are going to play, they can find a replacement for me he told her. No,
you should go to the prom Anne insisted. Sorry I really dont want to go to the
prom John told her and the young woman frowned. Give me one good reason
then she said.

John opened his eyes and looked at her, What do you think? he replied
and for a few seconds they stared at each other. Anne was the first to look
away, she stood up and walked out of the room. The young man closed his eyes
and exhaled, he wanted to ran after her but he decided not to because he was
starting to realize where he really stood.

A few minutes later he smelled fresh baked brownies so he quickly ran down
the stairs. He was surprised so see Anne seated at the dining table sharing a
talk with his mother. Come on John, I just took the brownies out of the oven
Linda said. John took his seat and avoided eye contact with Anne which made
the young woman bow her head.

I heard from Anne that your school has a prom in two weeks Linda told
him as she served the brownies on the table. Yeah thats what I heard too he

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replied. Well you should go his mother told him and John looked at Anne. So
you told her he uttered and the young woman remained silent.

You can only experience the prom once in your life so I think you should go
Linda reiterated. I dont see anything wrong if I skipped it. I am sure there will
be no regrets John replied. Please reconsider Anne whispered and John
looked at her.

If you can give me one good reason to attend the prom then I will go he told
her. Anne could not face him, she stared at the plate of brownies and took a
deep breath. I want to see you play again Anne softly said. Linda knew that
was not the answer her son was expecting that is why she could feel the pain
he was hiding.

You want me to play? John asked and Anne looked at him. Yes, I would
like to see you play again she replied. Then I will play the young man told
her. Anne smiled and again she was happy, You already agreed so there is no
turning back now John she said as she stood up. I better get going, I still
have lots to do. Thank you for the brownies she added.

As soon as Anne left, Linda sat beside her son and looked at him. I am sorry
John, I was not taking her side. I know why you dont want to attend the prom
but it really happens once in a lifetime she explained. Its okay, seeing the
one you love dance with another guy during prom also happens once in a
lifetime John answered as he stood up and turned around.

Mom, starting from now I dont want to see Anne here anymore John softly
said and Linda was shocked. John! Dont be so harsh! she told him. If you
want her here then make sure I am not here. I never asked anything so this
time I am asking. If I am here tell her I am not. Do this for me mom if you do
understand what I am going through he requested.

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 The following day at the music hall the group held their practice. Sarah and
Raven were there again to help the four as they learned the music that they
would be playing and join them as backup singers. Everyone noticed that John
never spoke a word to anyone. When it was required for him to play the drums
he would but when the others were brainstorming he would just stare at his
sticks and keep quiet.

A week passed and Anne started to miss their walks home with John so she
asked Charles to accompany her visit the practice of the group after classes.
The couple entered the music hall just in time as the band was about to start
playing.

John didnt notice the two at first but when he did the music started to go
awry. Rick and Sarah looked at John and signaled him that he was off beat but
the drummer had his head bowed. They stopped playing and decided to start
over, John you are off beat, remember we are following your lead Sarah said.

They started to play again but the result was the same so they had to stop.
Hey dude whats wrong? Rick asked but John angrily looked at everyone and
banged his sticks together. Come on play! he shouted. He now was playing
normally and everything seemed to be flawless. A few seconds later John was
beating the drums too strong and so fast that they were again off beat.

Everyone stopped and looked at him but he just kept playing. Anne didnt
know what was happening but she could see anger in his friends eyes.
Everyone just sat down and watched him go mad. After five minutes he
stopped and looked at the ceiling then exhaled. I need some air he uttered.

John stood up and exited the room, Anne stood up and was about to follow
him but Rick stopped her. Let him be, he is just tired. He needs to blow off
some steam he told her. For thirty minutes they waited but John never
returned. They all decided to call it a day and just continue tomorrow.

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 Sarah stayed behind and looked for John, just as always he was at the back
of the school. The young man was standing facing the wall, Sarah slowly
walked towards him and noticed blood dripping from his clenched fists. Jesus
Christ! John what are you doing?! she asked as she saw traces of blood on the
wall.

Two freaking weeks! Every day I kept praying for them to break up. It has
been seven days and it has not happened. I was looking for a reason to be able
to play on prom day but if they are together I just cant do it! So I am looking
for another reason so I wouldnt be able to play! he shouted as he threw two
punches on the wall. Stop it! If you dont want to play then dont play! Sarah
yelled.

I cant! She wants me to play and I freaking cant say no to her! John
replied as he barraged the wall with more punches. As the young man was
getting ready to throw another punch Sarah quickly got in between him and
wall. Please get out of the way he told her. No, if you want to throw a punch
then hit my face she replied.

Please Sarah, I have to do this John pleaded. No! she yelled. John
clenched his teeth pulled his arm back, Sarah was frightened and closed her
eyes. She never got punched before so she was bracing herself but instead she
felt something she was used but never from him.

John had embraced Sarah and plunged his head on her shoulder. The young
man started to weep so all Sarah could do was to hug him back. Im tired
Sarah. You can scold me now he whispered. No John, I understand you
Sarah whispered as she leaned her head on him. Little did he know that she
too was like him.

The two went to the hospital to have the young mans hands checked. Bob
attended to his son but kept his anger in check as Sarah told a lie. He was
only protecting me she said. I see. I have never seen a person with such a

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hard face that can do this kind of damage though Bob said as he treated
Johns wounds.

Its good there is nothing broken. Wait for me here Bob said. What reason
can I tell her so I would not play at the prom? John asked as he stared at his
bandaged hands. What if you find a reason that would make you play? Sarah
replied and the young man looked at him. Sarah I dont want to play or even
show up at the prom because its going to hurt seeing them together John told
her then laughed.

I know. She would be happy if you play, so play. That is why I am telling
you to find a reason to make you want to play she explained. John shook his
head and went into deep thinking. A minute later he looked at Sarah and
pouted, I cant think of any other reason that would make me play he told
her.

Sarah sighed and caressed John hands, You know what you four were
really great during the talent show. A lot of students kept begging you to play
some more that day but the funny thing is you only rehearsed one song that is
why you had to repeat the same song five times she said and chuckled.

But even though they never got tired of hearing it and watching you guys
perform. They loved you guys. And do you want to know why the school chose
you guys to perform on prom night? Well lots of girls asked for it. Imagine how
many people would be happy seeing you play. Its not only her that wants you
to play, there are lots of people. Instead of thinking about of her, why not think
of the others too? Sarah said.

John nodded his head and flashed a little smile. Well do you have your
reason now? she asked. Yes I do. I am going to play for you he replied and
the young woman immediately blushed. Uhh you are going to play for me?
Sarah asked. Yup, dont you like my reason? he asked.

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 Sarah couldnt stop smiling, that is what she really wanted to hear from him
but was to shy to say. But Sarah John was about to say and again she
covered his mouth. Dont spoil it she told him and they both laughed.

The following day at practice John was back at his talkative self. His energy
level was up and even though his hands were bandaged he played the drums
with full vigor. What the hell happened to him? Rick whispered to Sarah but
the young woman just smiled as John pointed his drum stick towards her.

Hey what did you do to him? Kevin asked and Sarah giggled. Did you two
kiss? Jeremy asked and the young woman laughed. I wish I did she replied
and the three looked at her. Oh shut up you three and lets practice she told
them. With John back to his senses they band played good music.

Two days before the prom after practice, the band decided to visit the mall to
have a snack. After eating, Kevin, Rick and Jeremy decided to go ahead leaving
the two alone at the restaurant.

By the way John, what will you be wearing? Sarah asked. Clothes I guess
he replied and the young woman burst in laughter. Silly you, of course I know
its clothes but what kind? she clarified. John scratched his head and grinned,
Well I dont know, something to just cover me up I guess he said.

I will be wearing a red dress so you should wear something that matches it
Sarah said and the young man looked at her. Me match your dress? Why? he
asked. Because you are taking me to the prom the young woman said and
John was surprised.

John had his jaw dropped and could not believe what he just heard. We are
still students and we have the right to attend the prom. I heard that we shall be
playing after the program proper. We cant just show up without dates she
explained. Yeah but me and you? Together? How about Barry? John asked.

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 Would you like to go with him instead? Sarah countered and John
laughed. No I mean arent you supposed to go with him? he clarified. We
broke up a month ago she answered and again the young man was surprised.
Oh I am sorry to hear that but may I ask why you broke up with him? John
said.

He broke up with me. He had his reasons Sarah answered and the young
man just nodded. For a minute John remained silent and kept tapping the
table, Sarah held his hand and looked at him. If you are not okay with it just
say so and I will understand why Sarah told him.

Actually I am happy. I was just thinking on what to wear to match your

dress. How do I know if it matches? he told her and the young woman
laughed. I am sure your mom will know what to do Sarah said. Cant you
just teach me since we are at the mall already John told her.

Oh no it doesnt work that way. We should both surprise each other on

prom night Sarah explained. Oh boy someone is going to get really jealous
John said and the young woman frowned. Yeah I though you would say that
she told him. I was talking about Raven he whispered.

Oh Raven, yeah she likes you Sarah said. And she has been bugging me to
take her to the prom John revealed. Well you can add another reason for
going, to make her jealous the young woman said.

No, my reason for going has changed John revealed. And what is that
reason? Because I forced you to? Sarah asked.

No, because I want to go to the prom with you John said and Sarah felt
her heart beat wildly and her cheeks burn up. Sarah I am going to the prom
with you and I want you to know that there is no other reason why I am going.

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I will go because I want to go with you. She will be there so I cant promise you
that I will be thinking straight the whole time. Just in case that happens could
you please just understand me a bit John told her. Sarah held his hands
tighter and looked into his eyes.

Dont worry John I will make sure that never happens

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John was standing in front of his parents, in two hours he would be

attending his first and last prom. Linda and Bob were teary eyed staring at
their son as he strutted his sporty black suit. Mom will this really match her
red dress? he asked. Of course, you have a red shirt and dark red tie Linda
replied as he tried to fix his collar.

I am sure Anne will be very jealous when she sees you with Sarah Bob said
and John looked at them. Why would she be? She has Charles and not me.
She has no right to be jealous he told them. And how about you? I know why
you didnt want to attend the prom before Linda teased. I love Anne and yes I
am jealous but I cant remain stuck at being jealous forever. I want to be
happy. If she is happy then I deserve to be happy too John replied.

Its good to see you are moving on then Bob said and the young man fell
silent and looked at himself at the mirror. Right now I am at a crossroad. The
road towards Anne has been blocked but still I try to traverse it. Another road
that has been blocked before is now cleared. Tonight will help me decide John
told them.

An hour later the young man stepped out of the limousine that his father
rented. He started to pace around the car waiting for the door of Sarahs home
to open. The driver stepped out of the car and confronted John. You are not
supposed to wait out here, you are supposed to go get her he told him.

John started to laugh slapped his head. And dont forget the corsage the
driver added and the young man went inside the car to get it. Uh do I just give
it to her? he asked and the driver laughed. You see the ribbons? You tie it
around her wrist he instructed. Which hand? John asked and the more the
two laughed. Whichever she hands to you, now go the driver said.
 John went to the door and took several deep breaths before knocking. The
door opened and a tall middle aged man stood before him. Good Evening
mister Gonzales the young man greeted. You must be John, come inside.
Sarah will be down shortly, that is if her mother keeps her mouth shut the
middle aged man said and they both laughed. John was able to breath
normally, a while ago he was so nervous but Sarahs father made him calm
down.

While seated at the couch he again started shaking as Tod Gonzales looked
at him. Just by looking at you, I like you better than that Barry guy she was
dating the man said. Sarah told me they broke up a month ago John said.
Yes, I too would break up with her if she kept talking about another guy Tod
said. Another guy? John asked.

Yes, she kept talking about you. You are the drummer right? Tod revealed.
The young man was surprised and before he could react he saw someone in red
coming down the stairs. The two men stood up and watched Sarah descent.
Halfway down Sarah stopped and smiled at John whose jaw dropped.

The young woman was wearing a red elegant dress, a little daring with a
plunging neckline but still decent. Tod gave John a little push and the young
man quickly walked towards the stairs to meet Sarah.

Two steps down John reached his hand and Sarah accepted it. Pretty is an
understatement so I would go with beautiful, you look so beautiful John told
her and Sarah laughed. The young man tied the corsage around her wrist and
then stood beside each other in front of Sarahs parents.

I think we still have a few minutes to spare Olivia said as she took out the
camera. The couples picture were taken then John offered to take the familys
picture. After five minutes the couple was ready to leave but Sarah looked at
John. Can we take some more? she asked. John obliged and he noticed that

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the young woman was happy. The words of Tod minutes ago still lingered on
his mind thus inching him closer to take the road that leads to Sarah.

The school gymnasium was the venue for the prom. The event had just
started and the students began entering the venue by couples. The students
barely recognized the place as it was transformed perfectly. The lighting was
dim, there were tables all around and they loved the heavenly motif. Everyone
felt that they were floating among the clouds with the sky blue and cloudy back
drops.

Rick, Kevin and Jeremy were all seated alongside their dates and shared a
laugh as their fellow schoolmates made their entrance. The three gentlemen
suddenly stopped as they saw Anne and Charles enter the venue. If I were
John, I would be really jealous right now Rick uttered as they were
mesmerized by the young womans beauty.

Anne wore an angelic white dress and her hair was tied back to reveal her
pretty face. The young woman noticed them so they smiled and Kevin signaled
them to come over. The couple sat down and the first thing Anne noticed was
her friend that was missing. Have you seen John? she asked. Nope, you are
neighbors and you have not seen him? Jeremy replied.

I actually have not. He is always not there lately. You guys must have been
practicing too hard Anne told them. Well not really, dont worry he promised
to show up so he will be here Rick assured her so they all turned their heads
towards the entrance and waited for their friend.

Twenty minutes later Annes neck was starting to ache and she gave up. As
she face the table she noticed Johns three friends seemingly frozen. Whats
with you three? she asked. He came Rick uttered. With Sarah? Kevin
added and the young woman quickly turned around and saw her friend.

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 Lots of students were clapping and cheering as John and Sarah made their
entrance. All guys were mesmerized by Sarah and the temperature inside the
venue seemed to rise because of what she was wearing. Anne smiled as she
saw John who was looking very sharp and handsome but for the first time in
her life she felt something new once again as she saw Sarahs arm wrapped
tightly around his.

Where would you like to seat? With your friends? Sarah asked and John
looked over towards his friends and waved at them. You decide Sarah he told
her. Lets seat with my friends she said as she saw Anne looking at them. The
young man smiled at her and nodded, Then lead the way to your friends he
replied. Johns friends watched him seat several tables away as they noticed
Annes smile vanish. Well at least he came Kevin said to try to pacify the
young womans feelings.

The program started and Anne kept looking at John, the young man had his
back turned but she was hoping that he would just once turn around and look
at her. Dinner time arrived and the young woman was quite happy for John
had changed seats, this time she was able to see his face but he was still never
looked her way.

Anne barely touched her food and just watched John eat. She could see
sauce on his lip and her hand instinctively grabbed the napkin but she was too
far away from him. What made her feel worse is when she saw Sarah wipe the
sauce out of John lip, slowly but surely the pain she was feeling inside was
eating her away.

Anne are you alright? The food is good you should eat Charles said. The
young woman looked at her boyfriend and noticed sauce on his lip. Wipe your
mouth Charles she replied and continued to play with her food.

Thirty minutes later it was time to announce who were the king and queen.
The venue started to become noisy as each and everyone had their own bets. In

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the end Barry was proclaimed as king and Sarah as the queen. Slow music
started to play and the winning couple had their dance at the center as
everyone watched.

Twenty seconds into the song John stood up and everyone was surprised to
see him walk towards the couple. He tapped Barrys back so the taller guy
turned to look at him. Time is up John said. What are you talking about?
Barry asked. I said time is up, go back to your partner now John repeated as
he took Sarahs hand.

The two men stared at each other as the other students were getting ready to
see a fight. Yeah you are king but she is my date. There is no rule that states
how long the king and queen should dance. She is with me so I have the right
to decide, and I say your time is up.. If you cant understand me then maybe
we can discuss this outside if you want? John bravely said.

The king took one step back, turned around and walked away in defeat. The
crowd started chanting Johns name as he face Sarah. The young woman was
so happy and she could not stop smiling. Sarah you have to help me look
good, I dont know how to dance so you better tell me where to put my hands
John murmured and she laughed.

The two were dancing and a few seconds later the others decided to join
them. Charles and Anne were close by and the young woman wished that her
friend would see her. She wished so hard that he too would cut in and dance
with her but two song have passed and it never happened.

There was one guy brave enough to try to ask Sarah for a dance. John just
stared him down and grinned at him. In your dreams he said prompting his
schoolmate to walk away embarrassed. Sarah was enjoying the night as John
had his eyes fixed on hers. You are too tense, you should relax she
whispered. I cant, Ive been trying to look down he replied and Sarah
laughed.

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 Are you being naughty? she asked and John laughed. No, I wanted to look
at my feet. I am scared I might step on you foot he told her. Sarah held his two
hands and placed them on her hips. She wrapped her hands around him and
pulled him closer. There, you dont have to worry now, just sway she
whispered.

John I just noticed that you never looked at her Sarah said. I did he
whispered and smiled at her. Really? Tell me what she is wearing then? she
asked and the young man stared at her eyes. Well her hair is nice he said and
Sarah raised her eyebrow. She is wearing a red dress and has such beautiful
olive green eyes and I am dancing with her he added. But you are describing
me she said.

I know. Tonight is about you and me right? I wanted to be happy and I

honestly am. If I wasnt then I would have looked at her already. I think tonight
I never will he whispered in her ear. Sarah was floating above the clouds, her
heart was beating rapidly and all she could do was lean her head against his
shoulder.

A few steps away Anne was suffering deep inside. She could not take her
eyes away from the two and the pain she was feeling was getting worse. She
held Charles hand but imagined it was Johns. She saw Sarah leaning her
head against Johns chest and she knew what that feeling was because she
had done it several times. All she could do was imagine that feeling and so she
closed her eyes.

Minutes later a group of students began chanting the word Party and all
eyes were on John and the other band members. Kevin led the way and got up
on stage and rallied his friends. Lets get the party started!!! he yelled and his
schoolmates countered with a chant of Four eyes repeatedly.

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 Once again the four were on stage and even though they have not started the
crowd went wild. They played their winning piece and the pain in Annes heart
started to dissipate as she watched her friends play.

Rick, Kevin, Jeremy and John played differently. They were better than the
last time they performed. Unlike last time where they had to repeat their
winning piece several times, this time they prepared lots of hit songs to
entertain their schoolmates.

Raven and Sarah took their places on stage to the surprise of everyone but
there was one person who didnt like it. Anne who was beginning to be happy
stepped as the pain was starting to creep in again.

The young woman just focused on John who was playing the drums but this
night was not hers. After two songs Raven approached John and took his
sticks away. The young man looked surprised but Sarah pulled him towards
the center stage.

Rick, Kevin and Jeremy started laughing as the young man started
trembling. Raven hit the drums and showcased her skills to the crowds delight
as Sarah explained to John what was about to happen. Everyone laughed as
John looked so shocked and scared, he tried to run away but Sarah held on to
him thus creating a comic scene.

Anne managed to laugh a bit as her friend ran around the stage. John
managed to escape but his schoolmates carried him back. Chants of his name
was heard all around, Anne even joined in to which she was about to regret.

John and Sarah stood at the center as Kevin started to play a love song.
Dont pretend you dont know this John, we heard you sing it Sarah said on
the microphone and the louder everyone chanted the young mans name.

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 Sarah faced John and she started singing.

You and I must make a pact. We must bring salvation back. Where there is
love, Ill be there she sang.

With one deep breath, John grabbed Ricks microphone, faced Sarah and he
started singing with her. The party mood changed and there were couples who
decided to dance again. Charles held Annes hand but the young woman looked
at him sadly, Take me home she said.

What? Its not over yet he told her. I want to go home now the young
woman insisted. Can you just wait till this is all over? Charles asked. Let me
borrow your phone Anne said and the young man gave it to her. A few seconds
later Anne returned the phone and stormed out of the venue.

While waiting for her father to arrive Anne could still hear John and Sarahs
voice. Tears started to blur her vision, the pain inside her was too much and
she could not hold it in anymore. In tears she looked up at the stars, even if
the moon smiled at her, tonight was not hers.

It was theirs.

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Gerard and Colleen arrived at school and they saw their daughter slowly
walking towards them. What happened? Annes mother asked. Please take
me home the young woman softly uttered. Once inside the car Anne bowed her
head and started weeping. You better tell me who hurt you, is it your
boyfriend? her father asked and she just shook her head.

Then what happened? Tell us! Gerard angrily asked. Lets just go home
dear Colleen said. Go home? Seeing your daughter like that and you want us
to go home? I want to know why she is crying. Anne you better tell me what
happened! he snapped. I should have not forced him to attend the prom!!!
Anne yelled.

Gerard looked at his wife but Colleen just caressed his hand and nodded at
him. Lets go home she said. It was a painful drive for Gerard as he could
hear his daughter weeping. He momentarily glanced at his wife and saw her
calm so he nudged her a little. Colleen pressed her finger on the dashboard
and wrote the letter J and immediately he understood and nodded.

Once they were home Anne sat on the couch and her parents sat down
beside her. Gerard and Colleen had been used to see her crying every time they
had moved to another city. During those times they would just let her be but
this time she was crying for a different reason and they wanted to be there for
her.

He looked so handsome Anne uttered as her parents remained silent and

just listened. All night long he never looked at me and he didnt even seat at
our table. He didnt even ask me for a danceI really wanted to dance with
him. I waited for him to ask me but he didnt she added.

That is what you call respect. You have a boyfriend now and he has a date
Gerard told her. Sarahshe broke his heart but why is he with her? She was
so beautiful. He danced with her, she even put her head on his chest. They
even sang together that is why I had to walk away because I was feeling so
much pain! Anne yelled.

You are jealous Colleen said and her daughter looked at her. Jealous?
Why? Why am I jealous? Anne asked. I dont know dear, only you can answer
that question. You dont have the right to be jealous Gerard said and his wife
angrily looked at him.

People have choices. You chose to be with Charles so I dont see why you
are acting that way. The prom was for you to enjoy, you cant blame him for
ruining it. You ruined your prom. Stick to the choices you have made and stop
crying her father said as he walked away. Colleen ran after her husband and
Anne was left alone contemplating her fathers words.

Back at school the party continued, the teachers joined in on the fun which
made the band members wanting to play better. An hour later there were only
a few students left so the organizers decided to call it a day.

John and Sarah walked out of the gymnasium and the limousine was
already there waiting for them. On the way to Sarahs home the young woman
could not hide how happy she was. She wanted to hold his hand but hesitated
instead she just leaned her body against his.

Ten minutes later the two were at Gonzales residence doorstep. Sarah faced
John and smiled at him. I cant find the right words to tell you how happy I
am she told him. You know that I didnt want to attend the prom, you made
me and I am so happy you did. Thank you John replied.

You told me you might act weird because of her. I was expecting you to
Sarah said. Why? What would you have done if I did? John asked and the
young woman shyly pinched him. Something that would have calmed you

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down she replied and then laughed. You are not going to tell me? he asked
and Sarah shook her head smiling.

John got down on his knees and the young woman laughed. Even if you beg
I wont tell you. So I really should have acted weird then John said as he
slowly got up. Well yes but then again no Sarah replied and the young man
was confused.

She placed her hands on his shoulders and pulled him closer. His face was
drawn close to hers and their hearts started racing. If you acted weird then I
would have kissed you to make you stop but you didnt. Still that made me
want to kiss you even more because you didnt she said softly as she gazed
into his eyes.

But John you are not ready yet Sarah added as their nose rubbed against
each other. What do you mean? he asked. You know what I am trying to say.
Its okay I do understand and I want you to know that I am stubborn like you
she said.

You are not making sense Sarah John told her as he placed his hands on
her hips. You dont have to pretend John. How I wish I never knew you and I
just met you tonight. The sad thing is I do know you and I know you truly have
a kind heart. You made this night a memorable one for me because I could see
how hard you tried to make it about me

When you are ready I will know, right now you are not ready to let go of her.
I am not hurt, I know where I stand but John please forgive me Sarah said.
Forgive you for what? he asked but the young woman locked her lips against
his and wrapped her hands around his head.

Five seconds later Sarah let go and John stood frozen looking at her. You
kissed me he uttered and the young woman smiled at him. Yes I did she

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answered. But you said I was not ready yet John added. Consider it a thank
you for a wonderful evening Sarah told him.

The young man touched his lips and smiled. Sarah you have not thanked
me yet for giving you the corsage he teased. Sarah laughed and kissed his
cheek, If I knew I should have brought you lots of things John joked and the
two laughed. John when you are ready I wont hold back Sarah said.

The door opened and the two were surprised. You two have been standing
there the whole time? the young woman asked. Of course not, we thought we
heard a car pull over so we checked Tod replied. That was minutes ago and it
takes one to open the door Sarah told them and her parents just smiled.

Thank you for bringing my daughter home safely the elder man told John.
I should get going the young man said. But Youre not ready yet Sarahs
father softly murmured and he and his wife chuckled. Mom! Dad! You were
spying on us! Sarah yelled as John hid his face in embarrassment.

Sorry about that Sarah said. Yeah its okay, it just dont think I will able to
face them again after they saw me kiss you John replied and they both
laughed. I kissed you and for your information my parents are very strict she
told him and the young man cleared his throat. Yup I am definitely scared
now he said and Sarah laughed at him.

Thats not what I meant. They usually act cold and strict when guys are
around. This is the first time I saw them act that way she clarified. Meaning?
he asked. They like you Sarah said and the young man was all smiles. But
they just met me John told her. Oh trust me, they know lots of things about
you. Its getting late John you better get home. The prom happens once in a
lifetime and you just made mine so memorable. Good night John Sarah said
and the two smiled at each other.

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 Back at the limo the driver opened the door for John and smiled at him. She
isnt the one am I right? he said and the young man was shocked. What do
you mean? John asked. I saw everything and I can say she isnt the one.
There must be someone else the driver clarified. I dont know what you are
talking about the young man said.

You know what come seat with me in front the driver offered so the two got
in front. My name is Edward and let me tell you I have been that road before. I
saw you two and she kissed you the driver said and he saw John smiling. If it
was really her then you should have kissed her. I saw you two staring at each
other for a long time. If there was really something then you should have kissed
her at once and no the other way around Edward added.

She said lots of stuff and told me I was not ready John told him. Even so,
if you really like then you would have kissed her no matter what. Its rare to be
in situations like that, faces close to each other. Whatever she was saying you
would not hear it but I am sure you heard every word she said because it was
not her. She told you that you were not ready? Then she was right Edward
told him and the young man remained silent the rest of the way.

The limousine pulled over and Edward looked at John. Here you are he
said. I have a choice, its either to break Sarahs heart or break my heart. If
you were me what would you choose? John asked. Its never good to break
someones heart Edward replied and John nodded his head as he stepped out
of the car. Thank you Edward he softly uttered and he turned around and
slowly walked towards their home.

A few houses away Anne was standing by the window and was staring at the
bright moon. Colleen walked up to her daughter and embraced her from
behind. Its almost midnight, you should get changed and go to sleep she
whispered. Mom, do you still remember your prom? Anne asked. Oh dear
you dont have to compare Colleen told her.

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 Do you still remember your prom? the young woman repeated. Yes I do
Colleen answered. I want to forget mine but the problem is you could only
have one prom in your life. So whenever I would hear the word prom then I
would remember bad memories. If there were more than one then I could
choose to remember the happy ones, but we can only have one Sarah said.

I know dear. Just think of it as a bad dream and pretend that it never
happened her mother suggested. That is difficult to do Anne said. Just go to
sleep and maybe tomorrow will be better. There will always be better days
ahead. Get some rest dear okay? Colleen told her as she kissed her daughter
on the cheek.

Anne sat in front of her study desk and stared at her computer. She took out
her portable music player and turned on her computer. Arent you going to
sleep yet? her mother asked. Go ahead mom, I have to do something
important Anne replied. Okay then, there will be better days Anne. Good
night dear Colleen said as she left the room.

Several shooting stars have passed and Johns neck started to ache. The
young man was seated on the pavement of their driveway while thinking of
which road to take. He bowed his head and trembled as he looked at his
hands. He already made up his mind and his heart was starting to fall in
pieces and so he closed his eyes.

A few seconds later he felt someone hold his hands. He slowly opened his
eyes and saw Anne standing in front of him. John quickly stood up and the
young woman fixed his tie. Dance with me she whispered and then placed
one earphone on her ear and the other on his. She turned on her music player
and John recognized the tune, it was the exact song that was played during the
prom.

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 Anne placed her hands on his shoulders so John held on to her hips. Under
the bright moon they danced with their eyes fixated on each other. It was not
the typical prom setting but somehow for them this was perfect.

All alone under the moon and stars, the school backdrop did not even
compare. The gymnasium may have had a good sound system and all they got
was a minute music player. It didnt matter for they were not listening with
their ears, the music they were dancing to resounded from their hearts.

John was again torn, moments ago he was ready to let go of her. His heart
even started to crumble but this time she was holding it in place. As he stared
at her eyes he knew that this would not last forever, it was only temporary and
when the sun rises the next morning his heart would start to ache again.

The young man didnt want that anymore and so he mustered all the
strength he had left. Anne, I have to tell you something he whispered. I too
want to say something she replied. Okay, ladies first John said.

The music player stopped and the two stopped dancing. Anne bowed her
head momentarily and John could feel that it was not good so he braced
himself. Its okay Anne, you can tell me. I can take it he told her. The young
woman slowly raised her head and took another deep breath, she cleared her
throat and pulled him closer.

Anne kissed John on the lips and embraced him tightly. The young man
trembled, his lips were stiff for he didnt expect this to happen. He was waited
for five seconds but Anne would not let go. What happened next he could not
control, his arms embraced her back as his lips relaxed and he kissed her
back.

After a minute Anne released her lips and bowed her head. John knew that
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at him. Wait, could you put this on repeat she whispered. John took the
music player and did as instructed and returned the player to Anne. The young
woman placed the player inside Johns coat pocket and placed back her arms
around his head.

Johns heart was pounding madly as he stared at Annes eyes. Their faces
were close to each other and lips barely touching. You were going to say
something? she whispered. Johns lips trembled but Anne pressed her lower
lip against his. A while ago he had decided to let her go but this time he
embraced her tightly and kissed her.

All the pain he felt had vanished, so did hers. Together in each others arms
they danced. John didnt know if this was permanent but tonight he didnt
want to let go. Anne easily forgot about her first prom, this was her second and
this is what she wanted to remember forever.

This night was theirs.

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Chapter 18: Confusion

Colleen entered her daughters room and immediately tied the curtains to let
the sunshine in. The sun rays hit Annes face and she pulled her blanket.
Mom, let me sleep she softly moaned. My God! You slept with your dress
on?! I told you to get changed before you go to bed her mother said.

The young woman got up and sat on her bed smiling. See I told you. All you
had to do was sleep it off and you would feel better. It was just a bad dream
Colleen said as she sat beside her daughter and hugger her. No it wasnt
Anne said and her mother looked at her.

It was so real mom. And if it was a dream, it was a good one and I am still
asleep the young woman said and Colleen was confused. Well I am happy
seeing you smiling and cheerful so I guess you have gotten over what happened
last night then the elder woman said. Nope and I never will Anne replied as
she giggled and hugged her mom tightly.

Oh I dont understand you. Anyway you better go bath and get changed as
we are going to have lunch at Johns place Colleen said and her daughter
quickly got out of bed. Why didnt you tell me? You should have woken me up
earlier. Its already ten and now I have to hurry. I dont know what to wear yet
Anne said as she madly selected clothes from her closet.

Colleen was speechless and she didnt know what was happening to her
daughter. Clothes flew up in the air and she feared that Anne was already
going mad. Dear, are you okay? she asked and her daughter looked at her.
Of course. Mom how about this? Will I look pretty with these? Anne replied as
she held an orange dress close to her body.

Since when did you start worrying about the clothes you wear? Colleen
asked. Mom! We are going to have lunch at Johns place, I should look pretty
Anne replied. Exactly, we have been having lunch and dinner at their place
before but its only now that you are worrying about looking pretty her mother
explained. Anne just smiled at her mother and giggled, she took turquoise
dress and held it close to her body. How about this one mom? she asked and
her mother just shook her head and pointed at the her first choice.

A few houses away, Bob and Linda had just arrived from the grocery. Their
house door opened and John ran out to meet them. I want to cook the steak
he told them. Since when did you like to cook? All you know is to eat Linda
replied and the young man laughed. Dad you have to show me, now! the
young man insisted and the couple looked at each other.

Leave the steak to me, you can help your mom instead Bob told his son.
No! You tell me what to do and then you help mom John said as he took the
groceries inside. Oh boy so thats what a kiss can do to him Bob whispered
and his wife chuckled. Makes me wonder what would happen if the man
was to say but his wife elbowed him.

An hour later the doorbell rang, Linda ran to the door and opened it. Oh
hello! Come inside she greeted the Rivera family. We brought desert, Johns
favorite chocolate cake Anne said. Oh I am sure he will love it. Can you all
wait here at the living room? We started cooking late Linda told them. Its
better if we helped out Colleen said. Oh that wont be necessary. John will be
cooking the steak and Bob will be helping me with the other dishes Linda
explained.

We insist. The more hands the better Gerard told her. Well come this way
then Linda said as she led them towards the kitchen. I will go help John
Anne said as she ran towards the back door. Anne, leave the cake here!
Colleen told her and the young woman laughed and placed the box on the
counter.

As soon as Anne stepped out Colleen stood beside Linda and smiled. Please
forgive her, she has been acting weird since this morning she whispered. Oh

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dont worry, John has been acting differently too Linda replied and the two
women laughed. Bob entered the kitchen scratching his head, Linda you
better have a back up meal, I think the steaks might get burned he said.

Dont worry Bob, Anne knows how to cook them Colleen assured him.
Yeah, I taught John as well but I do hope they focus on the meat Bob replied
and Linda laughed. Focus on the meat? Gerard asked and Johns parents
looked at each other. We may know the reason why Anne has been acting
weird Linda said as she looked at her husband and nodded.

Bob took the video camera and the three gathered around him. Well last
night we were wondering why John has not come in the house even though we
heard the limo arrive. So we took a peek out the window after a few minutes
and this is what we saw Linda said as her husband played the video.

Aw she got her second prom Colleen softly said as tears filled her eyes.
Second prom? Bob and Linda asked in unison. Last night we got a call from
Anne telling us to pick her up. We panicked and had to rush since she was
crying Gerard told them. What happened? Linda asked and Annes parents
laughed.

Well she was jealous for the first time Colleen said. Did Charles dance
with another girl? Bob asked. Nope but John did Gerard told them and
everyone paused for a few seconds and then they all laughed. She was jealous
of Sarah? Linda asked and Colleen giggled.

Well what does this mean then? Gerard asked and Johns parents
shrugged their shoulders. The four took a peek outside and saw Anne and
John standing close to each other. What about Charles? Linda whispered. I
dont know yet. Maybe I should have a talk with her Colleen replied. Dont, let
them work it out themselves Bob suggested and they all agreed.

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 Monday morning and John was back to reality. The moment they entered
the gate Charles was there to meet Anne and the his friend walked towards
him. As he slowly walked away he started to feel pain once again.

Hey John Sarah greeted him with a smile but the young man just nodded
his head for his facial muscles didnt want to form a smile. Whats wrong? she
asked and John looked at her. Can you please wake me up he said. Sarah
was confused but she could tell he had a problem, Meet me at lunch and lets
talk about it she told him. Sarah, I cant. Its about her again John said and
the young woman smiled. I know she replied.

But Sarah John reasoned but his friend raised her eyebrow. I am your
friend. I know what you are trying to say but dont worry about it. Okay? she
told him. John took a deep breath and smiled at her, Now come on walk me to
my room Sarah said and John gladly walked beside her.

Over lunch John and Sarah took out food and decided to eat at the back of
the school. So tell me about it the young woman said. I really dont know if I
should be talking about it after what happened last Saturday John told her.
Why? I dont see any problem Sarah said.

Well it feels awkward and I dont want to hurt your feelings John said and
the young woman laughed. You know what it should be me feeling awkward.
Look, I broke your heart before and here I am talking to you. I didnt like you
before and here I am admitting that I do, it should be me feeling embarrassed
she explained.

Still I cant do it. I really dont want to hurt your feelings John repeated
and Sarah looked at him. Look at me and focus on my eyes she told him. I
didnt like you before. Something happened and I realized that you are such a
great guy and I want to be with you. Now, I cant just force myself to you and
hope that you still like me too. What I did before I do regret but look at me, I

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am here talking to you, heck I even kissed you Sarah said and they both
laughed.

How do you do it? I mean, we almost have the same situation. You know I
like Anne and you are cool with that. Anne has a boyfriend and I dont like it. I
know we two are waiting but how do you do it? John asked.

Acceptance and no expectations Sarah replied and John was confused.

For me I have accepted the fact that you like Anne more than me. I am cool
with that because it was my fault in the first place. Then its true I am hoping
but not expecting. If I expect that you and me will be together then I could have
cried so many times already but do you see me crying? Hope is different from
expectation, you should not have both. If you do you will only get hurt she
explained.

But it should be me with her John said. I do tell myself that sometimes,
that it should be me with you. Then I remember said no to you before so I have
to live with that. How about you? If you say it should be you, did you do
something about it before she met Charles? Sarah replied and the young man
sighed.

John had finally relaxed and told her everything. He was careful with every
word as he watched Sarahs reaction. His story reached the kissing part that
happened with Anne and still the young woman was smiling at him. Well you
are right I expected much only to realize this morning that she was still with
Charles John said.

John after I kissed you last Saturday, if I expected much after that then you
should see me angry or crying after hearing your story Sarah told him. I
kissed you because I wanted to and the chance was there but still I do respect
you liking Anne. Call me foolish or wrong but I dont regret it, I actually made
myself happy she explained and John smiled.

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 You on the other hand, well you expected much after she kissed you. It does
not matter if she kissed you first. She is still with Charles so you cannot think
about her reason why she kissed you. You speculated and now look where you
are. You expected much from that kiss and look who is sad? She kissed you,
you liked it so leave it at that. If she kissed you and she was not in a
relationship with someone then thats when you start speculating she told
him.

John was confused once again so he leaned back. So what do I do now? he

asked. Two choices, let go or hang on but dont expect Sarah told him. Like
you? John asked. Yep, I can let go and forget you but I am just holding on
and look I am happy just like this. No expectations whatsoever just pure
happiness she replied.

And how about your life? Arent you supposed to move on? Other guys
might be better than me you know John told her and Sarah stared at him.
Same question to you she replied and the young man was speechless.

I feel terrible really. I can be stubborn and hold on like you with no
expectations or I could easily let go and be with you but that would be unfair to
you. I dont want you to feel I am settling for the second best. Its confusing
John uttered as he leaned his head on Sarahs shoulder.

Dont be silly. I wont be hurt at all, I would be happy she told him. Why?
John asked and Sarah giggled. Because you would be mine and take note you
liked me first she explained and the two laughed. You know what the driver
saw us kiss and he knew I liked someone else just by looking. He said he knew
because I didnt kiss you John shared.

I knew you wouldnt kiss me Sarah said and he was surprised. You did?
he asked and the young woman smiled at him. Yep, because if you did kiss me
then you would feel guilty after Sarah explained. I would feel guilty? But I
didnt feel guilty when you kissed me John told her.

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 Yes because it was I who kissed you. If it was the other way around then I
am sure you would feel guilty Sarah said. How would you know? he asked.
Based on experience she replied. What? You felt guilty after kissing me?
John asked.

Of course not, I wanted to so I did and I felt happy after. And if there was
another chance I would kiss you again Sarah said. Then when did you feel
guilty? John inquired and the young woman shyly turned to look the other
way. Two weeks before I broke up with Barry. I remember that day I kissed
him and I felt guilty so after that I never kissed him again Sarah revealed.

John laughed at pinched her nose, You are weird, I dont see why you would
be guilty after kissing your boyfriend he told her. Stupid! Because that time I
already liked you Sarah countered and the young man slowly released her
nose and froze. Sarah retaliated and pinched his nose and looked at him, That
is why if you kissed me last Saturday you would be guilty because you like
Anne she explained.

Cant breathe John uttered and the two shared a laugh. The bell rang and
lunch time was over. The two walked back towards the school entrance but
John suddenly stopped and looked at the sky.

Hey Sarah he uttered. Yes John she replied as she looked at him. When
Anne kissed medo you think she felt guilty? John asked and he slowly
looked at her. Sarah took a deep breath and looked around, she saw no one
was looking so she gave John a smack on the lips. The young woman giggled
and playfully walked away, I didnt she said and the John touched his lips
and laughed.

Inside the school among the crowd stood Anne, Charles was holding her
hand but she was facing the entrance. The young woman saw Sarah kiss her

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friend and her gripped tightened. Ouch! Whats wrong with you?! Charles
asked.

Anne angrily looked at her boyfriend and shouted. YOU!!!

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The bell rang and shouts of joy was heard all throughout the campus. There
was nothing special except that it was a Friday and all students love Fridays.
John lazily walked out of his classroom and saw his three friends by the
corridor.

Hey John we are going to the mall tomorrow and watch a movie. Do you
want to come with us? Rick asked. The young man sighed and made funny
faces but they didnt last long since he could not hide his sadness any longer.
Oh boy dont tell me, you have a problem with Anne again Kevin said. If I
become sad you guys think its about Anne? John asked and his friends
nodded.

Wow I can be sad for many reasons and you think its about Anne again?
the young man said. If its not Anne then what then? Jeremy asked and John
laughed. See its about Anne again Rick said and John sighed. Well she has
been acting weird since Monday afternoon. We do walk home together but she
barely speaks. Its been days now and I dont know why she is acting that way
John shared.

Did you try asking her? Jeremy asked and the young man shook his head.
You will never know why until you ask her. John you are making your life too
complicated, just ask her Kevin suggested. Anyway are you coming
tomorrow? Rick asked and John looked at them. Yeah sure, have to take my
mind away from so many things John told them.

Stop torturing yourself John. Whatever pain you are feeling always
remember its your fault Kevin scolded him and the young man smiled. Yeah I
know, I should have dated Raven instead John said and Rick looked at him
and the three laughed. Hey guys, kidding aside now. If Anne is mad at me
then she would not be walking home with me right? John asked as they saw
the young woman waiting by the gate.
 Well it also depends my friend. Just like my sister, when I did something
wrong she just keeps quiet and acts off. Then I start to feel guilty and I say
sorry then we are okay again Rick said. So are you saying I did something
wrong and she is waiting for me to apologize? John asked and his best friend
nodded. But I dont remember doing anything wrong to her. I would not do
anything bad to her and you know that right? he asked. Dude you may think
you have not but even I sometimes am not aware I am hurting someone. I will
never know until they tell me. Think about it that way and dont just think
about what you have done. And Jeremy was right, you should ask her his best
friend told him.

The group met up with Anne and they greeted her. The young woman just
smiled briefly and then started walking. John looked at his friends and shook
his head, See you tomorrow guys he said and ran after Anne.

The long walk home was filled with silence, John looked at Anne several
times but the young woman had her head bowed the whole time. You have
been acting strange since Monday, are you okay? he asked. No I am not she
replied but kept walking. What is it? Do you have a problem? Tell me the
young man told her.

I dont want to talk about it Anne replied and John started to feel guilty. If
you tell me then maybe I can help he said and the young woman looked at
him. I said I dont want to talk about it okay? she angrily said. John fell silent
and started recalling what he could have possibly done to offend her. They have
reached Annes home but still he didnt have any idea of what he did to make
her feel that way.

By the way we are going to watch a movie tomorrow, would you like to
come with us? John asked. No thanks Anne replied coldly and left her friend
at their driveway. The young man watched her enter their house and this is the
first time that she was cold to him. He could still remember the magical
moment they had six days ago and he was wondering where it all went.

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 The following day at the mall were eating lunch and they were talking about
the movie they just watched. Well John didnt seem to like it Rick said as
everyone looked at him. Sorry guys I feel asleep watching he told them. Anne
problem for sure Kevin said and his friends all nodded.

I barely slept last night. I kept thinking what I had done wrong but I really
dont know John said. Maybe you didnt do anything and thats the problem
Rick said. Yeah definitely you didnt do anything and that is why your life
sucks right now so deal with it Jeremy told him.

Look John, we are fed up seeing you that way. You keep on whining and
having mood swings. Basically its your fault, you didnt tell her that you love
her before. Now look what happened Kevin scolded him. I think its time we
intervened dude, so seat back and listened to us Rick said and John looked at
his friends and they were angry.

If it was not meant to be then it was not meant to be Kevin said. Move on
already dude. Does she have a leash around your neck? She has Charles so
swallow the pain and move on Jeremy added. John if you are hurt then you
should know we too are hurting seeing you that way. What you are doing isnt
normal. You are so hard headed and instead of learning your lesson you still
want to hold on his best friend said.

John pouted and looked away but his friends made him look at them. You
are lucky you know. Sarah, you liked her. You tried but she said no but dude
the tides have changed. She likes you too now, I know you still like her. Even if
I got dumped by Irene I still like her. So what is stopping you? Jeremy asked.

Yeah you learned to love Anne but its clear as daylight that you will only be
her friend. Accept that already will you? You have a second chance with Sarah
and she is the one even coming to you. Still you want to hold on to the girl who
does not like you? When will you move on? When Anne is married? Or will you

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still wait until they get a divorce or when Charles dies? Rick told him and
John felt worse.

Okay lets compare the two Kevin suggested. In terms of appearance,

Sarah has the clear advantage although Anne is very pretty too he said.
Sarah is talented in singing and Anne has not shown us what her talents are
Jeremy added. You guys have it all wrong, its not about appearances and
talent. Its how you feel about them and I cant explain why I like Anne better
than Sarah John told them.

There you go! You admit that you still like Sarah! Rick said. Okay then
make us understand why? Tell us why John Jeremy told him and the young
man took a deep breath.

Anne is caring, she is always concerned about me John said. Same with
Sarah, everyday she would drop by my classroom to ask how you are doing
Rick revealed. Anne takes care of me when we are together in her own simple
way. At first I didnt notice but when I am alone at night and remember what
happened during the day, that is the time I realize that even if I didnt notice
she had done so much John told them.

Sarah went beyond means to cheer you up when you wanted to give up. She
made you play at the talent show. She made you show up at the prom. And
yeah we know about the wall punching incident but of course you didnt notice
all of those things because you were too busy thinking of Anne Kevin said.

Everything that John would describe about Anne, his friends had a counter
in defense for Sarah. The young man was now digging deep inside and thinking
what his friends do not know. Anne kissed me. Not just the normal kiss but
the kiss where you can feel they like you John revealed and his friends were
surprised.

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 Victorious, that is what John felt as he looked at the three silent. First kiss
happened before her facial operation. Seven days ago, oh yes after the prom,
we danced under the moonlight and she kissed me the young man boasted
with a wide grin on his face.

Molly and I kissed too at the library Kevin revealed and the attention was
on him now. You all know Molly, the cheerleader. Well I was doing some
research and I finished early. I helped her and we had a snack at the mall
after. We talked and laughed and then I walked her home. I almost died when
she kissed me, it was my first kiss and it was with Molly

I would like to believe that in that moment she liked me but look she aint
with me now. You call that spur of the moment and I think thats why Anne
kissed you Kevin explained and again John felt so low.

Nice one Kevin, he is correct. Sometimes we dont like a girl but for some
strange reason we end up kissing them. And the next day all you could say is
that it felt right. So maybe John when Anne kissed you she felt that it was the
right thing to do. Look at your sides, she isnt with you Rick said.

I am holding on because I love her and she needs me. I know that is with
Charles but there are times I can tell that she does and I want to be there for
her John told them. Yeah right, she needs you when Charles is not around.
Lets admit it we all have flaws and strengths. What Charles lacks you fill the
gap is that it? She needs you when he is not around but when he is where are
you John? Rick asked.

Dont you think she is having too much attention? How about Sarah? Dont
you think she needs you? Oh yes you will never know that because you are not
giving her the chance to need you. You are too blinded by the girl who does not
like you. You swallow the pain and then complain to us Jeremy said.

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 John knew what they were saying and for such a long time now he wanted to
let go but didnt. This time his friends have convinced him and before he could
speak out Ricks phone rang.

Hello the young man said. Rick! Is John with you? he heard Sarah say.
Oh hello Sarah! the young man emphasized and looked at his best friend and
winked at him. Yes John is here with us, would you like to talk to him? he
asked.

I need you to make sure he is calm and take him to the hospital Sarah said
and Rick laughed. Why is he sick? he joked. Stupid its not time to make
jokes! Me and my dad were passing by the park and we saw an ambulance. I
saw Charles standing all bloody and his car was totally wrecked Sarah said as
she started to weep.

Rick was shocked and slowly looked at John. Rick you have to make sure
he is calm, get him to the hospital quick the young woman said. Johns best
friend turned off his phone and quickly stood up. John can you take me to
your dad right now he said.

Why? Is there something wrong? John asked. Rick didnt know what to
say, it was too late for him to act sick so he looked at Kevin and Jeremy. He
wanted to tell them the news but John would hear it so he was lost. Can you
take to him now John? Rick asked.

What for? And what did Sarah tell you? John asked as he started to feel
suspicious. Kevin and Jeremy stood up and looked at Rick, Whats wrong
dude? they asked. Please John there is no time to waste we need to go to the
hospital Rick pleaded. Tell me whats wrong? You are not a good liar John
said.

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 Come on lets go to my car, I will tell you when we get there Rick said.
Kevin and Jeremy knew something was wrong so they went along with Rick but
John stayed behind. Please John come with us Rick said. Why? Tell me why
first he replied.

I think you two better help me on this one Rick whispered as they walked
towards John. Sarah saw Charles by the park, he was covered in blood and
his car was totally wrecked he said. Kevin and Jeremy were shocked while
John managed to have an evil grin on his face momentarily before reality
struck him. Anne!!! he shouted.

The young man was about to run towards the exit but Rick collared him.
John! Calm down! The parking area is this way he told him. The four ran to
the parking area and once inside the car John panicked. What are you waiting
for!!! Start the car!!! he yelled.

Jesus Christ will you calm down! You are making me nervous Rick told
him. John kept tapping his feet, tears started falling down his cheeks and all
Kevin and Jeremy could do was put their hands on his shoulders. Hey Sarah
said she only saw Charles, maybe Anne was not with him Rick said but his
friend was not listening.

They were forced to pass by the park because that was the only route
towards the hospital. They all saw Charles wrecked car with police patrol cars
around and the young man slammed his fists on the dashboard. When I see
him I am going to kill him John murmured. John! Will you think of what you
are saying! Rick yelled but his friend looked at him angry.

Easy for you to say. You think this is easy? She should have been with me!
Me! This is all my fault!!! John screamed. His friends could not do anything to
calm him down so Rick just focused on the road while the two at the back held
on to their weeping friend.

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 A few minutes later the hospital was within view, You are going the wrong
way!!! Go to the back! At the emergency room!!! John shouted for he knew the
hospital better. You dont have to yell! Rick snapped. You know what stop
the car! Now!!! his friend said. John got out of the car and ran while Rick
looked at the two. Go after him!!! he instructed.

Kevin and Jeremy were too slow, John had reached the emergency room
entrance and he immediately saw Charles. You bastard!!! he yelled. The
guards were not able to stop him, John had dashed towards the bloody young
man and threw his strongest punch. His fist landed perfectly at Charles jaw, he
momentarily froze and his legs gave way. The guards were able to pull John
away from the fallen bloody young man but he was still able to kick his
stomach.

Kevin and Jeremy held on to John as the guards sent him out. Let me in!!! I
want to go see Anne!!! he shouted. Bob ran out of the emergency room and
confronted his son, What the hell is wrong with you?!!! he asked. Dad! Tell
them to let me in!!! I need to see Anne! his son shouted.

The young man managed to escape his friends hold but the guards were
ready for him. Jesus Christ such an embarrassment, take him inside and let
him lay on one of the beds. Strap him down Bob ordered. As the guards took
his son in, Johns friends stood in front of the doctor. But sir you have to
understand Kevin said. Oh calm down, he is full of rage right now so I have
no choice to sedate him Bob told them. Dont worry he will be awake in an
hour or so he added.

Two hours later, John felt someone caressing his head. He slowly opened his
eyes and saw a familiar sight. He was lying on the couch of his fathers office
and his head was on Annes lap. Youre awake she whispered. Anne! You are
okay! he said as he got up and looked at her. John pinched her cheek and
touched her arms. You are alive! he added and the girl laughed.

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 Of course I am, why would I not be? she asked. I thought you were with
Charles, I got so worried when I heard his car got totaled John told her and
she smiled. Oh my God I think I killed him! I really thought that you were in
that car so I dont know. I punched him with everything I got he said.

Anne covered her mouth and kept laughing as John started to worry. So
you were not with him? he asked and she shook her head. Why would I be
with him? she asked. Well you two always go out every Saturday he said.
Thats true but this morning I broke up with him Anne said.

Oh great I made it worse. You broke up with him, he almost got killed and I
almost finished the job John said and Anne laughed. Dont worry he is too
drunk to remember anything she told him. After a few seconds John realized
what she just said, You broke up with him? he asked but deep inside he
wanted to jump for joy.

Yes, I finally had the courage to do so this morning. I am sorry John for
acting weird the whole week. I was thinking of the right words to say to him
but you know breaking up with someone is difficult she said. So the whole
time you were thinking? he asked and she nodded.

Well I thought it would be better if I do it on a weekend. Still I didnt know

what to say. This morning he came to pick me up and I told him that I am
breaking up with him. I didnt know he would take it badly Anne told him.
John stood up and paced around the office and looked at her.

Why did you break up with him? he asked. I have my reasons she replied.
Which is? John further inquired and the young woman raised her eyebrow.
Why are you asking so many questions? she asked.

Of course I am your friend, you have to tell me John said as he smiled

widely. Sorry I dont want to tell you Anne teased and John got back on the

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couch and rested his head on her lap. Anne my hand hurts and my dad
sedated me he said. Uhuh, so? she replied. Tell me he said and they both
laughed. If I told you I dont think you would believe me Anne replied. Oh?
Try me John said. They heard the door knob sound so John pretended to be
asleep. Shhhh he is going to get mad at me he whispered and closed his eyes.

Anne laughed as Bob entered his office. Oh he is still out? he asked and
the young woman nodded. I am sorry dear but I had to sedate him. If not he
might have killed Charles the doctor said. Anne looked at John and caressed
his forehead,

I might have done the same if it were me in his shoes she whispered. John
opened his eyes and saw her smiling at him. You Anne said and John looked
at her oddly. What? he asked but the young woman just pinched his nose
and smiled.

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The sun shone brightly Monday morning but it could not match the smile
John had on his face. As they entered the gate he greeted every schoolmate
that looked at them. John, why are you saying good morning to everyone we
meet? Anne whispered. Is it bad? Its a wonderful morning and I am so full of
energy and I want to share it with everyone! Good morninggood
morningand a good morning to you too he said and the young woman held
on to his shirt and laughed.

Someone seems to be very happy today a guys voice said so the two turned
around. It was Rick and Raven and John immediately moved closer to his best
friend. Did you bring it? he whispered. Oh shoot I forgot. Will tomorrow be
alright? Rick replied. Of course its alright. No worried my friend, oh good
morning to you John said and he hugged Rick and kissed him on the cheek.

Anne and Raven burst in laughter as Rick jumped around wiping his face.
And good morning to you too Raven! John exclaimed. Ricks younger sisters
eye grew bigger as the young man hugged. He was about to kiss her on the
cheek but Anne pulled him away. You need to accompany me to the library
before the bell rings she said.

Rick secretly laughed as John was being pulled away. He was backpedaling
but his eyes were sparkling and there was a wide grin on his face. Geez he
really pulled it off Rick whispered and Raven had her eyebrows raised and was
furious. And you are happy for him instead of feeling sorry me, your sister
she said.

You really like him? Rick asked as he looked at her sister. Isnt it obvious?
Do I really have to say it aloud? she replied. I thought you were just kidding.
So you really like him. Well I really dont see why you do like him Rick said.
Dummy of course you are a guy. How should you know his sister told him.
 Oh well you just have to let go now. He is madly in love with her so if Sarah
couldnt win him back, you will just suffer the same fate Rick told her and the
young girl pouted. What does Anne have that we dont? she asked and her
brother looked at her. We are not John, so we will never know he countered.

There was something different at the cafeteria at lunch. The five of them
were reunited after a long time. John dont you want to eat outside today?
Kevin teased and the young man stomped on his foot. You can go ahead at the
back of the school and we can bring you food you know Jeremy added and
Anne started to giggle.

Why did you eat outside John? she asked and the young man almost
choked. The three guys were grinning and John angrily stared at them. Well
food goes well with fresh air he said. Then why are you in here today? the
young woman asked and John started laughing. I dont want to get sun burn,
summer is approaching he reasoned.

Hmmm and if you did eat here during those days you would get heart
burned? Rick gamely asked and Johns eyes grew bigger. Heart burn? Anne
asked and the young man slapped his forehead as his friends laughed at him.
John you have a heart problem? the young woman asked and the more the
guys laughed.

No I dont John replied. Then whats a heart burn? Anne asked and the
young man started laughing. I was jealous and yeah I was avoiding you he
admitted and his friends were surprised. Rick, Jeremy, and Kevin were all
stunned with his admission; they slowly looked at Anne who was frozen.

You were jealous? she again asked and the young man sighed. I actually
was and yes I am admitting it because eventually these three here would
eventually slip up and tell you John said and he looked away. Anne tried to
bite on her sandwich but deep inside she felt so happy. Their three friends were
still looking at her so she shyly looked away and smiled.

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 The walk home that afternoon was full of laughter as John did his best to
crack jokes so that Anne would not get the chance to interrogate him further.
As for Anne, she missed laughing her heart out. Ever since she was with
Charles she barely laughed and as far as she can remember her ex boyfriend
never tried to make her do so.

Anne stopped walking and covered her mouth. John looked at her but the
young woman could not hold it in so she burst in laughter. Did I say
something funny? he asked and Anne shook her head laughing. Then why
are you laughing? I dont get it, I was telling you about what happened in class
and there is nothing funny. Why are you laughing? he asked. John, look
where we are she said.

The young man looked around and was surprised to see that they had
already passed her house. Oh I didnt stop talking again did i? he said and
Anne nodded. Why didnt you stop me? he asked and she playfully covered
his mouth. Because I missed your talkativeness she said. My talkativeness?
he asked and Anne chuckled and poked his chest. And you she added as she
flashed him her sweetest smile.

They turned back and John remained silent. Anne again laughed and kept
looking at him, Why are you not speaking now? she asked but the young man
just looked at her and grinned. What are you up to? Anne asked as she
started to giggle but John kept his eyes on her as they walked. The young
woman was curious, she could not stop laughing because she felt he was up to
something.

She pinched him several times but he didnt stop grinning. John! Stop it!
she yelled as she laughed louder. They reached the driveway to Annes home
and still the young man had was looking and grinning at her. Anne pinched
him the last time and ran towards the door. Whats with you? she yelled and
the young man laughed.

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 Oh that was nothing, I just wanted to stare at you for a long time because I
freaking missed you so much!!! John yelled. Annes cheeks burned up as she
covered her mouth and laughed. Did you really have to grin at me? she
asked. I wasnt grinning. I was smiling; sorry I have not been smiling for a long
time so my facial muscles are stiff. Trust me that was a smile he explained.
Why are you two shouting? Colleen asked and the two kept still.

Good afternoon maam, I have to go now. See you tomorrow Anne!!! John
yelled. What is wrong with him today? Annes mother whispered and the
young woman giggled and hugged her. He is just happy mom she said. And
you? Colleen asked. I have never been happier Anne replied as she kissed
her mother and walked inside the house humming a tune.

The following day at dismissal John was not outside Annes classroom. She
went to check on him at his classroom but there was no one there. She went to
check at the music hall but John was not there either. After twenty minutes of
searching she gave up and walked towards the gate.

Gloom started to fill up her mind but she saw him outside leaning against
the wall holding a scooter close to him. What took you so long? he asked and
the young woman smiled and walked up to him. Without saying a word she
quickly got on the scooter and held on to him. I thought you lost this one?
she asked as John started to walk.

I just hid it he told her. Why did you hide it? Anne asked. Because I
didnt want to see it he revealed. So why is it with you now? the young
woman inquired and John smiled. Remember that night when I said I lost it? I
came from your house then I rode it around the neighborhood. It just didnt
feel right riding it alone and I felt it lost its purpose. Today it feels
rightbecause you are here John explained.

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 The scooter was back and so were the students who acted like spies who
watched them. At the school gate stood Charles and one of his friends, the two
watched Anne and John as they walked away. Dude maybe she dumped you
because you were not that sweet his friend said. Shut up. I bought a scooter
and she just laughed at me Charles replied.

Just friends that what she always told me. Look at them and tell me if they
are just friends he added and Stephen smiled. Very close friends? he teased
and Charles angrily looked at him. I never even had the chance to hug her or
hold her that way. She just let me hold her hand Annes ex-boyfriend related.

At least you got to kiss her Stephen told him and the more angry Charles
got. What would you feel if your girlfriend kissed you and you see her act all
guilty after? Do you think I liked seeing her that way? he asked. And if the
school decides to give a examination and the topic is John, oh boy I sure will
ace that test Charles said and his friend looked at him.

Every freaking day we are together she cant stop talking about him. John
this, John that, and it even came to the point where she calls me John he
angrily added. Stephen burst in laughter so his friend walked out on him. Hey
John come back! he teased and Charles gave him the dirty finger.

The next day at dismissal, John was surprised to see Anne by the his
classroom door. Role reversal? he asked and Anne laughed. Hmmm I just
wanted to. By the way did you bring the scooter? she asked. Yup its in my
locker, why? he replied. Good, dont get go get. We dont need it today she
told him.

But you like riding it John said. Yes I do but today I have something
better Anne said and it was her turn to stare at him grinning. Oh you have a
surprise for me? Where is it? he asked as he touched her bag. Anne ran
towards the school entrance and John chased her. Just like two kids the two

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ran around campus not minding of the laughs and stares from their
schoolmates.

Anne stopped by the gate and John grabbed her backpack. He quickly
opened it but didnt find any surprise there. Where is it? he asked. You really
want to see it now? she asked. Hell yeah! Show me he said. Anne took a deep
breath and took out something imaginary from her bag. John looked at her
strangely as she started to do motions similar to what he does when he
unpacks their scooter.

Anne? What are you doing? John asked as other students started to stare.
Shhhh just a moment she replied. After a few seconds the young woman
stood up and smiled at him. John saw her hands holding imaginary handle
bars. Come closer and I will get on now she told him.

He didnt want her embarrassed so John played along. He stood beside Anne
and placed his hands on the imaginary handle bars. Okay now that the
scooter is steady, now we can walk home she said as she leaned on his body
and wrapped her two arms around him. John understood now what she was
trying to do, his heart almost exploded and his facial muscles almost tore.

John began to walk with Anne clinging to him tightly. He didnt mind the
stares and smiles of schoolmates that saw them because at this moment he
was very happy. John Anne whispered. Yes Anne? he replied. You can put
your hands down now she said.

John released the imaginary handle bars and placed his left arm around her
shoulder. Anne looked at him and smiled, So whose scooter do you like
better? she asked. Yours of course he replied. Me too she whispered as she
leaned her head against him.

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 Charles was once again at the gate looking at the two, he had his fists
clenched but his friend Stephen patted his back. So it wasnt about scooters
he said. Yeah, if she was in love with him why the hell did she even entertain
me? Charles asked. I dont know, ask her that Stephen replied and the
young man started to feel envious of John.

If she gave me a chance then I can win her back right? he asked and
looked at his friend. Dude, do you really know what Youre up against? How
will you be able to enter a fight with an opponent whose weapon or skills you
dont know of? Stephen told him. Whats your point? Charles asked.

Just look at them, cant you see it? You had your chance but you still lost
and the worst thing is he didnt even make a move. When there are two guys
fighting over a girl what happens? The guys show what they are made of and
what they are capable of. When one gains the upper hand, the other one tries
to fight back and win her. You had her but she left you for him, the sad part is
that he never even lifted a finger. He didnt even try to win her back dude but
still she ends up with him Stephen explained.

That is where you are wrong. You just cant give up Charles said. Youre
right but its always wise to know when to quit. Its better to admit defeat from
the start rather than enter a fight that you cant really win. Dont believe such
crap die trying or you lost at least you tried. It takes greater courage to admit
defeat from the start, and its dumb to keep fighting even if you already know
you will lose Stephen explained and his friend fell silent.

Minutes later the two reached Annes home and the young woman looked at
her friend. John you have not been eating right, you grew thinner she told
him. I did? How can you tell? he asked. Hmmm when I hugged you. Come
inside, we still have chocolate cake left. We should get back the weight you
lost Anne said.

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 John sat on the couch while waiting for Anne to return with their snacks. At
the kitchen Colleen was smiling while slicing the cake and her daughter
noticed. Mom, why are you smiling? she asked. Oh nothing dear dont mind
me her mother replied.

Make the slices bigger since that is his favorite Anne said and her mother
obliged. Is he staying for dinner? Colleen asked. Can he? the young woman
replied and her mother smiled at her. The question is do you want him to?
Colleen clarified and Anne joyfully nodded. So spicy chicken it is then her
mother said.

Back at the living room Anne sat beside John holding one plate of cake.
Arent you going to eat cake too? he asked. I am, we are going to share this
she replied as she took a slice and fed it to him. John took the fork and got a
bigger piece and fed it to Anne after which the young woman retaliated with a
bigger piece.

The two were laughing with their mouths full and they were surprised to see
Colleen take the empty place and replaced it a new one. There was a bigger
slice of cake this time and John burst in laughter as she saw Anne cut a very
large piece. The young woman grinned as she moved the cake close to John
mouth. John gamely opened his mouth but Anne paused and stared at him.
Icing on your lip she said.

Oh thanks John said but when he was about to lick it off Anne moved her
face closer to his and kissed him. The kiss was short because they had to turn
around and look if Colleen saw them. Once they saw Annes mother not there
they smiled at each other and kissed again.

The two sat scooted down on sofa so that their heads would not be seen by
Colleen. Anne did I really become thinner? John asked and the young woman
smiled at him. Nope she replied and they kissed some more.

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Chapter 21: Fifteen

The school auditorium erupted in shouts of joy, graduation caps were flying
all around, and the students jumping for joy. Today the seniors attained one of
lifes greatest achievements and they really wanted to enjoy themselves before
taking on their next educational journey.

Anne was finding her way to John and the young man was doing the same.
They met at the center and hugged momentarily as Jeremy pulled his friend
away. Quickly, my mom wants to take pictures he said. John looked back
and looked at Anne, I will be right back he said. What are you talking about?
Anne you have to be in the picture too. Come on you two Jeremy told her and
the young woman happily tagged along.

While the four were happily posing Kevins mom waited in line to have her
turn. Oh by the way guys I will be expecting you all tomorrow at my party
Kevin told them. Oh we almost forgot, tomorrow is your birthday. Me and
Anne will surely be there. Right Anne? John said. Anne looked at John and
Kevin and she nodded her head.

As the picture taking continued the young woman glimpsed at John and the
smile on her face slowly vanished as she started to feel guilty. Underneath her
toga she was wearing the dress that the young man gave her for her birthday.
She has known John for two years but she never knew when his birthday was.

The following day at Kevins home Anne enjoyed watching the four play their
favorite video game. John and Rick won and the birthday boy was furious.
Hey! Its my birthday. You should have let us won he told them. Sorry four
eyes but we came here to eat and since you are starving us then its no mercy
John said and Anne pinched him.

Okay wait her I will go check on mom Kevin said. Let me help Anne said.
Oh no, why dont you take my place so they can continue the game the
birthday boy told her. Dont let her play or else I would be forced to let them
win John said and everyone laughed. Please let me help Anne insisted so
Kevin brought her along.

I am sorry if I didnt invite much friends. I just wanted to have the ones I
treasured the most with me today Kevin said as they helped his mom with the
food. Its okay I am actually having fun watching you four Anne replied. Well
it just seemed that you were not happy and bored he told her. Oh no, I
actually have a problem she said.

With John? Kevin asked and the young woman nodded. Its so
embarrassing but to be honest I really dont know when his birthday is Anne
said and the birthday boy was surprised. Say what? I thought you two were
really close and you dont know his birthday? Kevin said.

Anne shyly bowed her head while the birthday boy laughed at her. Rick and
Jeremy are envious because me and John have our birthdays during summer.
His birthday is in two weeks Kevin said. Summer? He never told me and I
dont remember him celebrating Anne uttered.

We actually did last year. Remember the day we all went to visit you at the
hospital? We ate burgers and fries and thats when you knew he loved
chocolate cake because he ate half all by himself. Do you remember? Kevin
revealed. Anne smiled as she could clearly recall everything that happened that
day but after a few seconds she felt sad. So that was his birthday? No one
even greeted him so I could know she said.

Well before we came over he told us not to mention it because he knew you
would feel bad. He told us that you might tell him to go and have fun and he
didnt want that. He just wanted to be there with you Kevin explained and
Anne fell silent. Later while eating I am going to initiate a conversation and
listen to his answer he added and the young woman looked at him. What is it

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about? she asked. He keeps telling everyone his age is fifteen, no one knows
why Kevin whispered.

Fifteen? But we are of all the same age right? Anne asked. Yes and he is
the last one to turn eighteen he replied. So why does he say he is only fifteen?
Didnt you ever ask him why? she asked. We did many times but every time
we ask he would just invent outrageous reasons so we stopped asking Kevin
told her.

Thirty minutes later John replied as Kevin expected. And when his friends
asked him why the young man just laughed at them. Rick, Jeremy and Kevin
all looked at Anne, she knew what they wanted her to do but she was too shy
to ask so she just shook her head. Anne looked at John and smiled at him but
deep inside she was very curious and she wanted to know why.

Three days later as Bob was about to leave for work, he was surprised to see
Anne as he opened the door. Oh good morning Anne, go right in. Sorry I have
to rush but go ahead go inside he told her. Before the young woman could
reply Johns father dashed to his car.

Forgive him he has an early operation scheduled Linda said and Anne
looked at her and smiled. Well John is still asleep but you can go ahead
upstairs and wake him up Johns mother added. Oh no, I was here to talk to
you Anne told her.

The two ladies sat down on the couch as Linda sipped her coffee. Okay dear
tell me whats on your mind she said and the young woman was a bit hesitant.
Well I heard that John always says he is only fifteen. Do you know why? Anne
asked and the elder woman laughed.

So you know about that too. Well you see when John was fourteen years old
that was the first time I noticed acting weird. I knew that my son liked someone
for the first time and I tell you he was so funny Linda shared and Anne could
imagine what he was like so she chuckled. Before his fifteenth birthday he

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invited the girl to his party. He really begged us to prepare a nice party for him
but she never showed up she revealed.

Ouch Anne said but Linda laughed. Well you know that John is a very
emotional person and he really got hurt Johns mother explained. Now I
understand, its just like his time stopped that day. That is why he always says
he is only fifteen Anne said and Linda nodded and smiled at her.

The two ladies laughed a bit but there was another question Anne wanted to
ask. I explained to him that he just met the girl so he should have not
expected her to come. But you know John he is a bit hard headed so he still
sulked about it Linda added. So up to now he is still hurt by that situation?
Anne asked.

Oh no. He actually got over it after a while and decided to be friends with
her but only to have his heart broken one year after Linda said. Sarah? the
young woman asked and the elder woman nodded. So she broke his heart
twice Anne said.

Not really, the first one was Johns fault. He just met her and he expected
much at once. The heart ache came after he had the courage to tell her that he
liked her Linda said. Wait, he and Sarah seem to be okay. He took her to the
prom and I have seen them being really close. Yesterday he still said he was
fifteen. Isnt his time supposed to start moving again now that they are close?
Anne inquired.

Then there must be a different reason then. Have you tried asking him?
Linda said. The guys asked but he didnt give any reason so I dont want to
bug him about it anymore. He must have his own reasons Anne replied. Well
you came here to know why so why stop? Johns mother asked and the young
woman pouted.

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 Oh I get it. Its because of Sarah Linda said. He went to the prom with her
and to be honest I saw them kiss at school Anne revealed and the elder
woman was surprised. Well she kissed him I should say the young woman
clarified. But still his time isnt moving Johns mother commented and they
looked at each other.

You know there are some people who make promises to themselves and
these promises have conditions. Most often its the young ones that them but
there are also older people that do especially when they experience heartache
Linda told her.

Promises like I will never fall in love again unless I meet girl who has one
red eye and one blue eye. I shall never fall in love until I graduate. I will doing
this until this happens she added and Anne laughed. People that are hurt are
often like that, they make themselves promises and they do set conditions for
themselves. If you look at it, its a defense mechanism and a sort of
punishment for them at the same time she added.

So until their conditions are met that is the only time they move on or stop
the foolishness that they are doing? Anne asked and Linda nodded. But if
something really great shakes their lives then it doesnt matter if their
conditions are met, they will be forced to move on Johns mother said and the
young woman was confused.

Something great? I dont understand Anne said and Linda smiled. Think
of the reason why he started acting that way. If you counter that cause with an
equivalent force or something greater then he surely will move on. I do believe
that its is only you that can do that Linda told her.

Me? Why me? the young woman asked. Well I wont say but would you
like the person who caused it all be the solution? the elder woman teased and
Anne angrily shook her head. Then if you want him to snap out of it, make

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him John mother told her and the young woman nodded her head with
determination.

Mom I am awake now! I feel sick so I want breakfast in bed!!! they heard
John shout and the two of them laughed. Is he really sick? Anne asked. No,
he is always like that every summer. He sleeps late and wakes up late then
pretends to be sick so I bring him breakfast Linda explained and the more the
young woman laughed.

Oh my stomach says it wants bacon! Toasted bread and lots of eggs!! Take
your time mom!!! John yelled and Anne covered her mouth as she could not
stop laughing. The two ladies proceeded to the kitchen to cook him breakfast.
John started singing out of tune and ranting about things which made Anne
cry in laughter.

Ten minutes later Linda told Anne to bring the breakfast to him and she
obliged. Mom you know what, breakfast would be better if Anne was the one
who brought it!! If you could make that happen then I promise to mow the lawn
and do the laundry John yelled and laughed aloud.

Anne entered the room and saw the young man in bed with his eyes closed.
Good morning John she said. The young man opened his eyes and shrieked
like a girl for he could not believe that she was the one bringing his breakfast.
Anne!!! he shouted and the young woman laughed.

Anne set the tray down on his study table, she then sat down on the bed and
looked at him. The embarrassed John hid under the blanket but the young
woman kept pinching his legs. Hurry up and eat, you have lots of work to do
she told him and they both laughed. Too embarrassed John said and Anne
pulled his blanket away. You are like a child she told him.

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 Yes because I am only fifteen John said and laughed. Your birthday is in
two weeks. Sorry about last year, I didnt know Anne said. They told you?
Geez I told them not to say anything about it he reacted. Well I was going to
find out eventually. I am really sorry I could not give you a gift last year. This
year I promise to get you a good one Anne told him.

You gave me one last year John said. No I didnt Anne replied. Yes you
did he countered. Really? What did I give you then? she asked. You kissed
me John playfully said and the young woman smiled. Thats the bestest gift I
ever had the young man proudly said.

Bestest is not a word, its just best Anne clarified. Well it is now because I
said so and I dont know the term for something better than the best so its
bestest John told her and they both laughed. I kissed you days after your
birthday Anne said. Well it doesnt matter how late the gift it actually he
said.

And Youre still fifteen Anne uttered. Yes I am John smiled. The young
woman was now confused. Her kiss was not the solution, not even Sarahs.
John, is Sarah coming to your party? she asked. Hmmm yeah maybe he
replied and the more determined she was to find out what that greater force
must be.

Two weeks passed and Anne already had a plan. She didnt know if it would
work but she was not letting this day pass without changing him.

Johns closest friends were there but Anne felt relieved that Sarah wasnt.
She was nervous and was just standing by the kitchen watching the four guys
goof around at the living room. She was wondering if that greater force that his
mother was talking about could be the strong feelings that have been amassing
inside her, a feeling that she only felt for John.

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 An hour later everyone gathered around the dining table. Linda laid the huge
chocolate cake on the table and John proudly counted the number of candles
aloud. Fifteen!!! he shouted and everyone laughed except the young woman
beside him. They all sang him his birthday song as his father lit every candle.

Before he was about to blow the little blue candles Anne stopped him and
everyone looked at her. The young woman took out three little red candles and
placed them one by one on the cake. Everyone fell silent and John seemingly
froze and was just looking at her.

Make a wish before you blow them Anne whispered and John looked at the
three candles on the cake that stood out. There is three of them he
whispered. Yes, and they dont just represent numbers Anne told him.

Those words of hers hit him hard, he clenched his fists as he fought off the
formation of tears in his eyes. His heart was beating crazy as he stared at the
three red candles. Years ago he made a childish pact with himself, he remains
fifteen until that day when a girl tells him that they love him. Anne gave him
three little candles, he knew what she was trying to say even though she didnt
tell him directly. For him it meant a lot and all the pain that he felt in the past
was all forgotten.

John looked at Anne, he closed his eyes and held her hand tightly. After a
few seconds he opened them again and blew his candles. Everyone shouted
and clapped and the birthday celebrant smiled at everyone. How old are you
John? Anne asked and everyone held their breaths for his response.

Im Eighteen he proudly stated and Linda smiled and nodded her head at
Anne.

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Chapter 22: Inseparable

For the whole summer, John and Anne were inseparable. Today was no
different as they went to the local university to enroll themselves in college.
Rick and Jeremy were there to meet them but Kevin was no longer around for
he was received a scholarship in an Ivy League University.

The four walked around the huge campus. There were so many buildings
around and it was far different than high school. So John have you decided
what Youre going to take up? Rick asked. Well I think I am taking up
something in line with business and management the young man said and
Anne smiled at him. Oh so you two are taking the same course then? Jeremy
asked.

I want to be like my father Anne told them and everyone looked at John. I
want to be like her father too he said and they all laughed. Oh well we have to
leave the two of you now for this is our building. See you after enrollment Rick
told them as he and Jeremy proceeded towards the engineering building.

Anne and John walked around the campus and the young woman kept
elbowing him. You want to be like my father? she asked and John laughed. I
want to be with you he said. But John this is college. You should take the
course that you really like Anne told him. But I am taking the course of the
one I really like he countered and the young woman giggled and pinched him.

A few minutes later the two were busy choosing schedules of the classes they
want to attend. Do all of our classes have to be the same? Anne asked and
John looked at her oddly. Okay let me choose other classes then he replied as
he started looking again at the schedule. The young woman laughed and
covered his eyes, I was just kidding she told him. No, it seems you dont
want me to be your classmate John said as he really did list new schedules.
 Okay then let me copy your new schedule Anne said and the young man
laughed and showed her the new list. I dont know what these subjects are for
but they sound exotic he said and they both laughed. We stick to our first
schedule the young woman said. You want me to be your classmate in all
subjects? John asked. No, but I have no choice she replied and he was
saddened. No choice? John sadly asked and Anne laughed and hugged him.
I have no choice because I want to be with you. Its just so sad you have to be
my classmate she said.

John was confused but after a few seconds the two again started laughing.
Gotcha! Anne said and the young man scratched his head in defeat. Excuse
me a girl said and the two turned around. Hi, I am Daphne and this is Elaine.
We are from the Sigma Alpha Tau Sorority. We are here to invite you to come
visit our house the bubbly blonde girl said. Oh sorry I dont think that is a
good idea John said as he played with his hair.

The four of them laughed for a moment, We werent talking to you, we were
inviting your girlfriend Elaine said. Oh he isnt my boyfriend, he is just my
friend Anne said and everyone looked at her. Why dont you come with us, we
wont force you to join. We just want you to see what we are all about Daphne
told her and Anne looked at John. Sure go ahead. Let me finish the enrollment
for us he replied.

Oh please let us help you with those. You dont have to worry about
anything, consider yourselves enrolled. We are the top sorority on campus and
we do have connections here in school and out of school. So while waiting for
her you can go around and visit the other fraternity houses Elaine said and
the two were impressed.

John walked around and after a few minutes he was surprised to see Sarah.
Hey John the young woman greeted. Hey Sarah, what are you taking up? he
asked. Oh I just came here to check out the place where you guys will be going
to she replied. You are not going to college here? John asked.

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 I saw a snack cart nearby, wanna go grab a bite? Sarah asked. Oh sure
lets go I have time to spare he replied. A few meters away they sat down under
an umbrella shade. So Youre not going to college? John asked and the young
woman laughed. I am silly but in New York she replied.

New York? So Youre leaving? the young man asked. Tomorrow. That is
why I am enjoying my last day in this city Sarah told him. Oh yeah thats
where your dad works. So how about your mom? She will be left alone here?
John asked. No, we are already moving to New York she replied.

Whoa so this is goodbye? John said and the young woman caressed his
hand. Dont be like that John, your making me feel worse already. We still can
chat and e-mail you know Sarah told him. I am really sorry Sarah if things
didnt work out between us John softly uttered. Oh John I already accepted
that a long time ago. I am happy for the both of you she replied.

Happy as in happy or Youre just saying that because you dont have any
other nice thing to say? John asked and the young woman laughed. Why can
you read minds? I am happy for you my friend she told him. John paused and
looked at her, Friend? he asked and pointed to his hand. No more, I dont
have to look at your hand anymore. I have let you go and that is why when my
dad said we are moving to New York it somehow made things easier she
revealed.

So you mean to say you have given up on the hope thing? he asked. Yes
but not totally. For now I have accepted where I stand. Things didnt work out
like I wanted and I dont want to remove you totally from my life. That is why I
am going to be your friend and please trust me when I say that I am happy for
the two of you Sarah said.

You know what a while ago she introduced me to some girls as her friend
John shared. And it hurt you? You were expecting to be introduced as what?
Sarah asked and the young man grinned. You know, boyfriend perhaps he

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replied and she smiled. People who see you two would think that you are her
boyfriend. Maybe she was just shy to admit it Sarah told him.

Shy? She is ashamed of me? he asked. No, not that way. Look she just
broke up with Charles barely two months ago. Maybe she was just being
careful. You know people might brand her differently if she had a new
boyfriend at once. Dont worry even if she says that you are not her boyfriend,
we can see that she treats you as such she explained and the young man
smiled.

I will surely miss you Sarah. You explain many things to me in a way that I
can understand. Who am I going to turn to when we have problems now? he
said. I think you were not listening when I said we can chat and e-mail but
dont get caught Sarah told him. Get caught? he asked. We girls can be very
jealous even if you say that you were just chatting with a friend she explained
and they both laughed.

A few minutes later the two were walking around campus and they saw Anne
with her eyebrows raised approaching them. Oh boy am I in trouble? John
whispered and Sarah chuckled. Yes I think you are she replied as Anne was
walking faster towards them.

Hello Anne Sarah greeted and the young woman smiled and immediately
wrapped her hands around Johns arm. Sarah here was saying goodbye. They
will be moving to New York John said and Annes facial expression changed.
Oh thats sad to hear here she replied.

Let me leave you two alone, I have to see other friends and tell them. Anne
you take of John. And you my friend you take good care of her too Sarah said
as she smiled at the two and left. As the two watch her walk away Anne leaned
her head on Johns shoulder. I didnt know she was nice she whispered. Who
told you she wasnt? John replied but the young woman remained silent and
deep inside she felt relieved.

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 So how did the Sorority thing go? John asked and Anne looked at him and
was happy. They have a big house nearby, it had so many rooms. If I join
them I start as a pledge and I can live here in campus. They do have this big
sister thingy where you get paired with an upper year of your same course so
they can guide you. And they have study groups and lots of social activities
too she gamely said.

So are you joining them? he asked. Nope Anne replied. Why? You seem
to be so happy telling me those things he told her. Well we live nearby. If I
stay here then you would be alone coming to school. If I join them then I would
be too busy with activities and no time for you anymore. So I said no she
explained and John felt so happy.

Would you like me to join them? Anne asked as she looked at him. If you
join them then I have to go to New York John teased and the young woman
raised her eyebrow. If you go to New York then I will go with you she replied
and they both laughed. I dont want you to join them John said. I told you I
didnt, so do you still want to go to New York? Anne replied and John nodded.
Only if you come with me he told her and they smiled at each other.

So if you didnt join them how about our enrollment? John asked and the
young woman took out some cards. They still did, look here our classcards
Anne said and the young man was surprised. They still did it even if you didnt
join them? he asked. Yup, I too was surprised actually but they told me they
were not forcing anyone to join them. Whether or not girls join them they still
help out Anne said.

Hmmm they are good people then John said. Yup that is why I almost said
yes she replied and he looked at her. But I already know a person who is
similar to them she added. Who? he asked and Anne playfully smiled and
bumped him. So you prefer to with this guy? John asked and the two of them
were chuckling.

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 Uhuh but this guy wants to go to New York it seems. Which is so odd
because he never told me before that he wanted to go there. Maybe to follow a
girl! Anne said. Really? Do I hear jealousy in your voice? he teased and the
young woman laughed. Of course not! Anne replied.

You are not jealous even a tiny bit? the young man asked as he grinned at
her. No, because I know he wants to be here with me Anne responded and the
both laughed. Enrollment is over, I guess we have to go home now John told
her. What do you think did your mom cook for lunch? Anne asked. Oh you
want to eat lunch at our place? said and the young woman smiled at him and
nodded.

Well after lunch I am going to my room and take a nap John said and Anne
burst in laughter and pinched him. So what are you trying to say? she asked.
Well I was just saying, thats what I do after lunch when there are no classes
he replied and then flashed an evil grin.

Anne twisted his arm but John kept laughing. Why are you grinning? she
asked. I dont know, I cant control myself he replied. You are planning
something bad I can sense that Anne said and the more John laughed. I was
just telling you that I do take naps. I never said anything that you take a nap
with me he clarified.

Okay then Anne said. Okay? Okay what? he asked. Okay we go eat
lunch at your place she told him. And I am going to take a nap after John
repeated. Me too Anne replied and John looked at him. The young woman
burst in laughter and pinched him hard, I didnt say beside you she told him
and John pretended to be sad.

An hour later they were seated in front of the dining table while they
watched Linda cook. You two seem to be happy today she commented as the
two could not stop chuckling. It must be the heat mom John said and Anne

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burst in laughter. Yes that is why I am picking Colleen up after work and we
two are going to the spa and unwind his mother replied.

Can we come too? John asked. Only to the mall after lunch if you two
want Linda replied. Youre going to the mall? Anne asked. Yes dear, do you
want to come with me? Linda replied and the young woman shook her head.
Oh do you have plans after lunch Anne? John asked and she covered her
mouth and giggled. I think I am going to take a nap at home she replied and
the young man pouted. Anne laughed and stepped on his foot. Oh I think I am
taking a nap too in my room he emphasized.

After lunch Linda left the two at the living room and went to the mall. John
yawned and stretched his arms and looked at Anne. I think I am going to my
room now he said. Okay, I will just finish this show then I will lock the door
on my way out she replied. The young man went to his room and got on his
bed. A few seconds later he saw Anne standing by the door laughing. This isnt
your room Anne he told her.

I know she replied as she stood by the door and leaned on the wall. Hey
Anne, this morning you told them that I was your friend John said and the
young woman nodded. You are my friend right? she asked. Yes but I just
thought that I was more than that by now he told her.

What are you trying to say more than a friend? she asked and John took a
deep breath and looked at the ceiling. Well something like Charles perhaps he
replied. Boyfriend? Anne asked. Yeah. You know that I love you right? And
those three candles you said were not just numbers so I guess you meant that
you love me too right? John said.

Why John? Are you not happy just being this way? Anne asked. I dont
know, sorry I was just saying he replied and closed his eyes. The door locked
so John opened his eyes to look, he saw Anne walking towards him and a few
seconds later she was beside him in bed.

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 Anne caressed his face and stared at his eyes. Are you not happy this way?
she again asked. John took her hand and placed it on his chest, Now Youre
making my heart beat fast he whispered. Feel mine too, its the same she
told him. No its okay, I believe you he said. I insist Anne told him and she
grabbed his hand and placed in on her chest. John closed his eyes and his
hand was shaking. Whats wrong? she asked.

Anneuh my hand isfeeling something soft he uttered and the young

woman laughed. I told you to feel my heartbeat she replied. How am I
supposed to do that when you just let me touch yourthat soft thing he
countered and she smiled. Well my heart is located past that soft thing you
know. And if you have a problem with it why do you have your hand still there
and squeezing it? she told him.

John grinned a bit and the two laughed. Hmmm makes me jealous of
Charles. Really jealous for he was the first to touch these John commented.
He never did. He tried but I made sure he couldnt breath after Anne said.
Still jealous for he must have kissed you many times the young man said and
pouted.

Two times only she replied and John was surprised. You kissed me more
than two times he said and the young woman smiled at him. I thought you
were going to take a nap? Anne whispered. I find that hard to do now he
softly said as he looked her in the eyes.

Do you remember how many times we have kissed? Anne asked and John
started recalling. Of course I do, we have kissed nineteen times already he
proudly replied and Anne kissed him. Twenty she whispered and the young
man smiled.

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 I love you Anne John finally had said the words that he wanted to tell her
for a long time. The young woman embraced him and smiled. I love you too
John she said.

Their kisses amassed in number as they tossed and turned in bed. Today
marked something first in their lives, just as planned they slept in each other
arms.

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Chapter 23: Limit

Two months have passed and the two have adjusted well into college. The
two would go to school each morning riding Johns new car that his parents
gave him. Every morning Anne would pass by a small bulletin board at the
center of campus and she would spend much time reading poems and love
letters posted by other students.

Did you find something interesting today? John asked as nodded her head
pointing to one poem. This person makes good poems, they are very uplifting.
You should read them too you know she replied. I didnt know you like
poems, sorry I hate reading John told him. Well I do and I think you should
start reading too Anne said. I dont want to the young man replied but he
saw her eyebrows starting to raise so he pretended to start reading.

Anne laughed and pinched John, I was just teasing, you dont have to read
if you are forced to she told him. Ssshhh this is interesting John said and
the more Anne laughed as the young man acted as if he was really into it.

After their last class Anne was with some girl friends so John waited for her
in his car. A few minutes later his phone rang and it was her. Hi John, me and
the girls are going to the mall. Want to come with us? she asked. Oh I
thought we were doing the research paper today? John said. Oh my I forgot,
can I just go with them for a few minutes? You can go ahead and start then I
will catch up Anne said. Okay, you take care okay? he told her as he turned
his phone off.

John happily went home and started work on their research paper. Anne
was the brains and he was more of the listener but this time he was excited to
do something good for her. A few hours later he was done, his stomach started
acting funny and when he looked at his watch it was way past ten in the
evening.
 John laughed at himself because this was the first time in his life he every
got serious in terms of academics. He looked at his phone and remembered
that Anne was not home yet. He took her copy with him and decided to check
on her. As soon as he got out of the door a car stopped in front of their
driveway and he saw Anne step out. As the young woman was all smiles
approaching him, John has his eyes fixed on the young man driving the car.

Sorry I couldnt break free from them Anne said. Yeah I can see why John
said and the young woman turned around and laughed. Oh thats Eric, he is a
good guy she said. Yeah just like Charles John commented and Anne angrily
looked at him. Whats your problem? she asked.

Nothing, here your research paper. Take it and I have to eat dinner John
said. Anne took the research paper and felt embarrassed. I am really sorry
John. I really couldnt break free from them. I told them I had to go home but
they asked me to stay longer she softly uttered. Its okay. You should go home
now and get some rest. See you tomorrow the young man replied and turned
away.

John, I am really sorry. I promise it will never happen again Anne said but
John just nodded and closed the door.

A few days later it happened again. After which it became more frequent
until one night John received a call. It was Anne and she sounded in so much
pain. He didnt think twice and immediately got in his car and drove to where
she was.

Thirty minutes later at the outskirts of the city, John saw Anne sitting on the
road as her friends were laughing on the sides. He quickly got out of the car
and ran towards her and pushed Eric aside. Whats wrong? he asked but he
saw the young woman massaging her knee. The car ran out of gas so we
decided to walk to the nearest gas station Eric said and John angrily looked at
him.

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 I wasnt talking to you dumbass John said but Anne held his arm. The
young man took a deep breath and carried Anne to his car. Her friends were
walking over to his car but he immediately took off. John! You could have
given them a ride she said but the young man wasnt listening to her.

John took Anne inside their house and immediately applied an ice pack on
her knee. Its a school night he uttered. Yeah I know I am sorry she replied.
Thats what you have been saying each time John said as he massaged her
leg and the young woman fell silent.

Today you learn but tomorrow you are out with them again. What if
something much worse happens? he asked. I know you will be there Anne
happily said and the young man just smirked. You will be there right? she
repeated and John looked at her. Yeah because thats what friends are for he
told her.

John continued massaging her leg and silence engulfed the room. Hey
Anne, what am I to you? he asked and the young woman was surprised. Why
are you asking me that? she asked. Just answer the question, I really want to
know once and for all he told her.

I cant answer that right now John Anne replied and John shook his head.
Its a simple question. What am I to you? he repeated. Anne sat back and
took a deep breath, Why are you asking me that question? she asked.

Just answer the question please. Do I have to beg for it? John replied and
the young woman seemed confused. Please dont let me answer that question
she said. Why cant you answer it? Is it that difficult? I told you I love you. You
said the same words to me. So what am I to you Anne? John said.

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 John please dont do this she said. Tell me right now John said and the
young woman saw that he was angry. Anne was shaking, her heart was
pounding rapidly and her mouth seemed to be frozen. Youre my best friend
she uttered.

John smiled and nodded his head, deep inside he could hear his heart crying
but he toughened up and smiled some more. So thats all I will ever be to you
he whispered. I thought we were happy this way? Anne asked. I am but its
just sad knowing that I will never be more than your best friend. Its okay Anne
dont worry about it. I got the answer and the message is crystal clear John
told her as he stood up and walked to the door.

John we are okay right? she asked. Of course we are. You need a friend so
I will be a friend. Come on let me walk you home he told her. Anne slowly
stood up and she felt something different with him already. John are we really
okay? she asked. Yes my friend we are okay he replied and she was starting
really get worried.

Morning arrived and Anne noticed many changes. She barely arrived in time
at Johns place for his car was already leaving the drive way. You were leaving
without me? she asked and John smiled at her. Sorry I thought you were not
going to school because it was getting late he replied.

You know that I am always late every morning Anne countered. Yup and I
also know you come home late at night he told her and the young woman
decided to keep quiet for she didnt want to argue with him.

Once in school Anne proceeded to the post board while John walked away.
Where are you going? she asked. To the classroom he said. Its still early,
come read with me she told him. Its not my thing. See you in class John
said as he walked away. Anne did not like it but she decided to keep reading to
keep her mind calm.

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 In the classroom and during lunch John was back to normal and Anne was
happy. She thought it was just a temporary thing but when end of classes
arrived John walked ahead towards the parking area leaving her behind.

Anne ran after him and once she caught up she confronted him. Whats
your problem? she asked. I dont have any problem. Do you? he replied. So
why did you just leave me behind like that? she asked. Well I thought you
would be going with your other friends John said.

Well you could have asked me she snapped. I dont need to because its
becoming a habit of yours lately he told her. So you want me to go with
them? Anne asked and the young man shrugged his shoulders. Well if thats
what you want then go ahead. If you are not then get in the car because I am
going home now he said.

Anne was sensing coldness from him so she slowly got in the car and looked
at him. John, whats happening to you? she asked. Why am I changing? he
asked and she nodded. Well you wanted a friend so I am becoming a friend he
explained. But you were not like that before she told him.

Well I am now because if I go beyond being a friend I will just end up hurt. I
dont want to get hurt anymore. Dont worry I am still your friend. The changes
that is happening, deal with it because this is what you wanted he said.

Anne pouted and took a deep breath. I dont like this. Cant we be like we
were before? she uttered. Being friends have its limitations. What we were
before that was something else. I thought I was going to be more than your
friend but you told me clearly that I will just be your best friend. So I have
reached my limit, I dont want to get hurt anymore

I dont know why I cant be the one, but I respect you for you might have
your own reasons. I just cant be the me of before because I know I am just

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going to get hurt. Prevention is always better than cure that is what doctors say
so I am doing that. So I do hope you understand that my friend John
explained as tears started falling down Annes cheeks.

I dont want to be that stupid guy anymore who is waiting in line to watch a
fairy tale movie that will never be shown he added and the young woman
turned to the window and sobbed silently. Just like her mother taught her
before, Anne slept it off. She wished that when she woke up the next morning
everything was just a bad dream.

The next morning Anne was sad to see that it was all real. They had no
classes that day but Johns car was not on their drive way. She tried calling his
phone but it was turned off. Hello Anne, you didnt go with them? Linda
asked and the young lady was surprised to see that Johns mother was by their
porch. Where did they go? she asked. Comic Con, didnt he tell you? Linda
told her.

Oh yeah he mentioned that before and I forgot about it Anne said. Well
they left early because he was excited for his first long drive. I really thought
that you went with them the elder woman said. Anne shook her head smiling,
Maybe he just forgot to invite me she said. Oh thats not true, he always
thinks about you. Maybe he just thought that you didnt like those kind of
events Linda said. I have to go back home now, please tell him to call me up
when he arrives Anne said as she left with a heavy heart.

Back in her room the young woman started to get teary eyed. John would
always ask her to go with him even if she didnt want to. He would find ways
and reasons for her to go with him but this time he left without saying a word.

She sat down in front of her study desk and turned on her laptop. Her
wallpaper was a picture of them goofing around at an instant picture booth at
the mall and while staring at it she was starting to miss him.

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 For a long time she had not sat down in front of her desk. John was right,
she was always out so she decided to clean it. Anne was surprised to see her
high school paper works were still there so she decided to go over them. All her
school work had high marks except one which she recognized because that day
John got of his way in order to help her.

She took the paper and looked at it carefully. Beside her grade there was a
small note from her teacher that she didnt notice before. I can understand
students being lazy sometimes. Next time when you let your boyfriend to type
for you tell him to avoid inserting unnecessary remarks because we do really
read your works. Teach him how to write a love letter instead it read and the
young woman laughed.

Anne was curious so she quickly scanned the research work. At the end of
the first page she immediately saw a short phrase encircled in red ink. Hey
Anne, are you going to read this? it said and the young woman laughed. She
checked the other pages and there were small phrases at the end of each one.
She took out the staple and arranged the papers so it would only show Johns
little remarks and she read them aloud.

Hey Anne, are you going to read this?

I hope not because I want to tell you something

I love you Anne

Yep, words I have been wanting to say

Didnt have the courage enough to say them

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 But I really do love you. Very much at that

I know once you see your grade you dont go over your paper

So I do hope you dont read this

But if you do read it

I want you to know that I really love you

Maybe one day I will have the courage to say them to you

Hahahaha its not me John. Really its not me

Anne burst in laughter with the last phrase but it was short because she
could not stop her tears from flowing anymore. It was an awkward love letter
inserted in her school work but no matter what this was her first one.

She wiped her tears but more came out. She got in bed holding her research
paper tightly. She read the phrases all over again and memories came flashing
back in her head making her realize that John really loves her.

He loves her more that a friend.

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Chapter 24: Post Board

The semester was about to end and Anne was very sad because John never
returned to his usual self. They would still go together to school every morning
but gone was their cheerful talks and she did really miss his sweetness.

Every morning Anne would have a small post it and pass by the small board
at the center of campus to stick it there. She was hoping that John would come
with her so he could read the messages she made for him.

One day Saturday John decided to go to school and study at the library. He
usually would ask Anne for help but he was firm with his decision of just being
a friend to her. He passed by the small post it board and saw a schoolmate
posting something.

So you are the one that makes those poems? John asked and the man
nodded. Do you like them? the man asked. Not me, my friend does he
replied. My name is Aron, and this are my poems for my girlfriend the man
said.

My name is John he said and the two shook hands. You say your friend
reads my works? Aron asked and John nodded. Well she wants to tell you
that she is sorry the poet replied and the young man was surprised.

Who she? John asked and the poet laughed. Oh sorry, I thought these
little posts were for you Aron said as he pointed at the dozens of little notes
saying John, I am sorry

John froze as he recognized Annes handwriting. Those notes were indeed for
him. That is her handwriting he uttered. Then she wants to say sorry. You
should forgive her man. Here I have a little note pad and you can post your
reply Aron offered.
 What we have is complicated John said and the poet looked at him. You
dont know the power of this post board then. Some may think of it as crap but
to some its something special. This is where I met my girlfriend. I love making
poems and when I was a freshman I did post some of my works here

I was happy to know that there were some students who loved my work. So
every early morning when there are no people around I would add a new post.
The funny thing is my old posts are all gone. Then one day as I was about to
post she came to me showing all my posts with her. From that day on we are
still together and the poems I make are now for her Aron revealed.

Good for you John said and the poet laughed. There are lots who
benefitted from this post board. Couples that fight and dont want to talk to
each other. They post little messages with the hope that their partners do read
them. Some do and some dont. the ones who do are back together again and I
cant say where those couples who didnt read are. You are here and you have
read her message, messages that is. Why dont you try and respond to her and
maybe you can work things out Aron suggested.

I really dont want to talk to her. I told you our situation is complicated
John insisted. Well if you dont want to talk to her then use this board to do
the talking Aron said. John looked at the board and nodded, Anne would
always pass by here every morning to read. I just cant reply with a simple
note, she loves poems John said.

So make her one the poet replied and the young man laughed. I am not
like you who is talented in that area John told him. Oh no you are wrong.
Everyone can write poems. Its very easy Aron said. How easy? John asked.

You have lots of things you want to tell her I can see that. So tell her
through the poem. Its just like speaking to her directly. So whatever you are

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feeling just let it out through a poem Aron explained. But I dont know how to
write a poem the young man said.

The easiest and most common is the poems that have endings that rhymes.
Stick with that for beginners, the dictionary can help you when you are lost for
words Aron said. Yeah I could do that, but what am I supposed to say? John
asked.

Tell her what you feel. Tell her what you really want to tell her. It does not
have to be a perfect poem to be loved by many, once she reads it she will know
it is for her. Keep it simple but make sure the message is clear. So I have to go
now dude, dont forget to put your name so I can also read it Aron told him
and then left.

For several hours in the library John tried making a poem. Several crumpled
pieces of paper later he gave up and decided to go home. The whole Sunday he
did try again but he could not find the right words to say to her. He finally gave
up and got his books and decided to study instead.

Monday morning John and Anne had a break. The young man decided to sit
down alone on a nearby bench while the young woman joined her female
friends. While observing people around, John looked at Anne and suddenly he
took out his notebook and began to write.

He still is not talking to you like you want him to? Sue asked and Anne
shook her head. Well he keeps looking at you, maybe he is sketching you her
friend added. He doesnt know how to draw Anne told her. Well whatever he
is doing he keeps looking at you like the way you look at him Sue told her and
Anne smiled.

You know what when we saw you two at the start of the semester we really
thought that you two were a couple Sue said and Anne sighed. You two were

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really sweet and remember the first day we met? You couldnt stop talking
about him for weeks her friend added and the more sad Anne became.

Now you two just look like you are normal friends Sue said and Anne was
surprised and looked at her. What did you say? she asked. Normal friends,
you know I know you and you know me. Or if you need help I am there if not
then I mind my own business. That kind of friend thing her friend explained.

Sue hit the target for that is what was really happening. Anne shook her
head in disbelief, I dont want it to be this way she said. Then why did you
break up with him? Sue asked. We were not a couple, we are just friends
Anne explained. Yeah right, well if you want the old feelings back then get
back with him Sue said. I told you we were not a couple Anne reiterated.
Then be content with him being a friend then, if you want more then you know
what to do her friend said.

The following morning as John and Anne were entering campus, the young
man walked towards the post board. Where are you going? she asked. To the
post board, arent you coming? he told her. I can see from here that there is
nothing new she told him. Okay then meet you in class later John said as he
took out a light blue sheet of paper from his notebook.

Anne saw the piece of paper but didnt bother as she walked to their
building. After their exam they had a long break. John decided to go for a walk
and Anne went to her friend. Before she could reach her friends the young
woman turned her head to look at him and saw several students pointing at
him. She stood still and watched several more students approach John and pat
his shoulders.

Anne was surprised as more students, mostly girls walked beside John and
they were all comforting him. What the hell is wrong? Anne asked and her
friend Sue stood beside her. Now I know what is happening between the two of
you and I must say I really feel sorry for him she said.

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 Anne looked at her friend and didnt understand what she was saying. What
are you talking about? she asked. He posted a poem on the board this
morning, you didnt know? Sue told her. Oh my, was in on a light blue piece
of paper? Anne asked and her friend nodded.

The young woman ran towards the board. There were lots of students
gathered there reading Johns poem. Anne squeezed her way in front and
immediately saw what her friend had written.

To Anne:

Palms and Pockets

It took me some time to admit it to you

These feelings inside me that are so true

Such strong emotions gathered inside of me

In love with you i am completely

What made the occasion remarkable and oh so sweeter

Was when i told you and hearing your response after

I never expected those words from you

Those four words you said, i love you too.

A mere mention of you name makes my heart pump faster

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 I wish time stops so i can be with you forever

Sleeping at night and dreaming of your smile

Makes waking up the next day and living worthwhile

But then one day that smile became crooked

I felt quite alone and then unwanted

You would still flash your smile when you look at me

With your back turned still smiling, but who is he?

The lie shall set me free i tell you

the truth shall make me stay beside you

With that lie i have no choice but leave and let go

With the truth i can forgive and be forever with you

Am i in your palm that you hold close to your heart?

Or do you put me in your pocket when we are apart?

In you palms that is where i would like to be

Not in your pocket, only brought out when you need me

Whatever choice you make my love for you shall remain

Just pick one answer, there is no need to explain

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 Dont worry about my feelings, i will learn to forget

So tell me my love, am i in your palm or in your pocket?

From John

Tears poured down her cheeks, she didnt feel embarrassed for lots of girls
were crying too. Aron stood beside Anne and offered a hanky. So tell me palm
or pocket? he asked and the young woman looked at her. Excuse me? she
asked.

Palm or pocket? he repeated. Do I know you? Anne asked. You dont but
I know him and you are the one that seem very much affected so I would guess
you are Anne Aron said. Anne kept silent as she could not stop her tears from
falling, she tried to ignore him but he just stood there and posted a poem of his
own.

Wait you are the one that wrote those nice poems? she asked and Aron
smiled and nodded at her. This is a bad day for me though, I really didnt want
to post my poem today when I heard someone posted a really touching poem
but I had to because this is for my girlfriend he told her.

Anne smiled and finally accepted the hanky and wiped her tears. He came
here last Saturday, we had a talk. I told him to make a poem because he
wanted to reply to your posts. He said you liked poems so he will make one. I
didnt imagine that he would make one like this

The poems I make are for my girlfriend. Some people think they are great
but they can never comprehend the real feelings hidden within the poems.
John made one that everyone understands, look a lot are crying Aron said as
Anne looked around and saw a lot indeed sobbing.

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 Still they dont comprehend what he is trying to say except you. People may
relate to a poem but the one who really gets affected is the person who the
poem was written for he told her. Read the poem again and answer the
question at the end he added.

Anne started to read again but slower this time. While reading her mind was
flashing scenes from the very first day they met. She could remember her first
laugh with him. The feeling of her heart beating wildly for the first time and the
unexplained feelings she had whenever he was around.

For the first part of the poem she was smiling for she could recall all the
good things they enjoyed together. The feeling on her lips when they first kissed
and up the last one that they had.

Towards the end of the poem she was in tears as she could feel the pain he
was keeping inside. She knew even before what he was trying to say but this
time it was clearer.

Anne was scared and he didnt know that but this time it was time to face
her fears.

It was time to respond to his question.

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Chapter 25: Palms and Pockets

It was the last day of examinations; Anne and John were discussing their
answers as they were walking around campus. The last problem at first look
seemed difficult but it actually wasnt Anne said and the young man pouted
and scratched his head. Dont tell me you didnt get it. You got the answer
right? she asked. John sighed and put on a lonely face and the young woman
patted his back. Thats okay I am sure you got the others correctly she said
and the young man grinned.

You got it? she asked and John laughed. Of course I got it. How can I not
get it when that was the same topic you taught me before. Its similar to the
practice problem you let me solve and I tried it again last night he told her and
the two were so happy. They passed by the post board and John saw his poem
still there. Wow they laminated it he uttered but the young woman pretended
not to look.

The two were heading towards the parking area when Eric and Sue
approached them. Hey Anne the young man said. Wanna come with? We are
having a party at Erics house. His parents are out of town Sue asked. John
nodded his head and walked away and Anne was left with her friends. No
thanks, we have plans she said.

Oh come on Anne, I want you there Eric said. You can bring John too if
you want Sue insisted. Sorry, we really have plans. Maybe next time Anne
told them as she ran after her best friend.

John was about to get in his car when Anne caught up to him. You walked
out on me again she said. Well I thought you were going with them he told
her. I am sure you heard what I said to them Anne teased and the young man
smiled. We have plans? he asked and the young woman laughed. Not yet but
we are going to make plans, right? she replied and John took a deep breath
and got inside his car.
 Once they arrived at Johns home Anne wanted to talk with him some more
but the young man just nodded at her and entered their home. The young
woman was left outside was lonely for he was still treating her coldly. She still
had not responded to his question but she was determined to shatter the wall
that was now standing in between them.

The next day Anne went to Johns house early in the morning. Bob and
Linda were having breakfast and they asked her to join them. I really need to
talk to John she said. Oh sure, maybe you would like to bring him
breakfast? Linda asked and the young woman nodded.

Ten minutes later Anne entered Johns room and saw the young man still
under his blanket. She set the tray down on the study desk and sat down on
the bed and caressed her best friends face. John slowly opened his eyes and
saw the young woman smiling at him. What are you doing here so early? he
asked.

I came to bring you breakfast she whispered. Let me sleep some more
Anne he uttered. Move over then so I can sleep beside you she said as she
held on to the blanket. No! I am naked John said. Anne paused as they
looked at each other, she let go of the blanket for a second but held on to it
tighter. The young woman grinned and John started to laugh. Really? she
teased. Yeah because it was warm last night he told her.

Anne pulled the blanket away and the young man laughed as she saw him
wearing shorts. Liar! she yelled. You are starting to get really naughty Anne
John said and the young woman grinned. Hey John what would you want to
do this summer? she asked and the young man sighed and shook his head.
Nothing he uttered.

You have no plans whatsoever? she asked. No plans at all he replied.

Good, then come with me for I have something to show you Anne said and

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she held his hand and pulled him. Anne! I am half naked! he yelled but the
young woman was persistent.

They ran down the stairs and Johns parents were surprised. John! Wear
some clothes! Linda yelled. Oh dont worry I will bring him back at once
Anne said as the two went out of the house. Anne! Let me go! Where are we
going? John asked. In my room she answered. What are we going to do
there? Look the neighbors are looking he told her. Anne looked at John,
Something we should have done a long time ago. I am sure you will really like
it she teased.

They reached the doorstep of Annes home and John could not stop himself
from laughing. Wait, what are you talking about? he asked. The young
woman looked at him seriously and placed her hand on his chest. Its about
time and I want to do it with you she softly said and the young mans eyes
grew bigger.

Anne entered the house and John followed her like a zombie. Before entering
her room, the young woman smiled and slowly opened the door. Anne quickly
sat on the bed and looked at him, his heart was beating so fast and he was too
scared to enter the room. Come inside John Anne teased and the young man
slowly walked towards the wall.

Come closer, I want to show you something she said and John did as
instructed. He was shaking and the young woman was chuckling. He stood in
front of her and Anne pointed towards her desk. John quickly turned around
and was surprised to see hiking equipment.

Could you check if I missed to buy something she told him and the young
man happily checked out her hiking boots. Wow! These are the new ones and
you even have a nice backpack he told her. Anne stood beside him and she
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I made a long time ago and I am sorry if we never got to go. Can we go this
time? she told him.

John bowed his head and looked at the shoes once again, Well I have to
check on the guys if they want to he said. No John, its just you and me
Anne said as she caressed his hand. One condition he said and the young
man looked at her. What is it? she asked and Anne was starting to get
nervous for what he was about to say.

You have to let me wear clothes because I cant go hiking like this he said.
The young woman pouted and looked at him, a few seconds later she could not
hold it in any longer so she burst in laughter. Anne pinched him and they both
shared a laugh. A few seconds later there was silence and the two were smiling
at each other. Its been a long time since we both laughed like that Anne said.

Yeah, well when do you want to go hiking? he asked. Tomorrow? I heard

that there is a family campsite nearby. You can park your car then hike the
trail towards the campsite. I was thinking since its my first time maybe that
would do for our first hike? she told him.

Yeah I heard of that, sure we could do that. Are you sure you want to go
camping? Its not easy you know. You are saying goodbye to the things you are
used to for a few days John said. I can manage, I have been experiencing that
for a few months now Anne replied and she looked at him. John looked away
and pretended that he didnt hear what she said but deep inside he was feeling
the same.

The following morning John was all set, he went to Annes home to check on
her. The young woman was busy stuffing things inside her bag when he
arrived. John immediately laughed and the young woman scratched her head.
You are supposed to pack light he said.

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 Thats what I have been trying to tell her Colleen commented as Anne
pouted and sat on the couch. John knelt down on the floor and unpacked her
bag. You should not be bringing too much food he said. What if you get
hungry? You always get hungry she replied and the young man smiled.

I know but this is different. We are going on a hike and camp to enjoy
nature. Its not about the food. Consider at survival training of sorts or
something like that. A little energy bars will do if ever we get hungry along the
hike. When we are at the camp site then I already have food packs good for the
two us. You dont have to worry about anything, its a family camp site so its
safe John said. And because I am with you? she asked and the young man
looked at her and smiled.

And before I forget John said and he started to untie her shoe lace. What
are you doing? she asked. The young man removed her left shoe and took out
something from his pocket. This is a knee support. You know the ones worn
by basketball player and other athletes. I know you leg is fine but just to make
sure he said. John placed the knee support on knee, he placed back her shoe
and tied her shoelace.

Anne stood up and tried to walk around, Its kinda tight and it feels like my
knee has springs she said. Well thats how its supposed to work. Are you
ready to go? he told her and she smiled. John you take good care of her now
Colleen said. Mom! You dont have to say that. He always does take good care
of me Anne replied and the young man just smiled.

An hour later the two arrived at the site. There were only a few cars at the
parking area so John was happy. Are you ready to leave civilization behind for
three days? he asked and Anne nodded. The two got out of the car, they got
their bags and headed to the trail entrance. Finally, our first hike together
John uttered as he looked up at the bright blue sky.

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 Anne looked at him and she saw that there was a big smile on his face. She
then looked at his hand, she missed holding it but she was too ashamed to do
so. But she already decided to face her fears so she slowly moved her hand
closer to his hand and they momentarily touched. John looked at her and she
started to tremble but after taking a deep breath she held his hand. Lets go?
she asked and he gripped her hand tighter and nodded.

The trail was very simple for there was a path to guide them. There were
little climbs and a bit challenging downhill treks but the two managed them all.
After three hours the two were huffing and puffing as they reached the camp
site area. Their hands were red since they never let go of each other from the
moment they started.

John set up the tent as Anne rested and watched him. You picked a very
nice spot she said as she looked at the horizon. The sun will set there later
on she added. Dont worry after I set up the tent we go look for wood then we
might just be back in time to watch it John told her.

Once the tent was up, they placed their bags inside and went for a walk to
look for fire wood. John and Anne had fun as they were lost in the forest. Even
if they had walked in circles they were not worried. When they saw that the
sun was about to set that was the time John started shouting for help.

Anne could not help it but fall on the ground and laugh as her best friend
acted hysterical. His calls for help were all an act just to make her laugh but
the two got the shock of their lives when the forest guards arrived. We heard
you and we came as fast as we could. Are you two alright? the tall man asked.

John was speechless but Anne could not stop laughing. Follow us the
other guard said and the two got the wood they collected and followed the two
men. The thirty minute walk was silent but Anne covered her mouth and
chuckled as John imitated how the guards walked.

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 Once they reached their tent the young man was very thankful and they
were in time to watch the sun set. John! Come quick! Anne yelled as she was
seated on the ground looking at the sun. the young man sat down beside and
Anne quickly held his hand.

The suns brightness was fading giving an orange color to the horizon.
Palms and Pockets Anne uttered and John momentarily looked at her. So
you read it he said. Yes. It was beautiful John. You left a question at the end
and I want to answer it she told him.

You already told me the answer before John said. And I was wrong. So I
want to answer your question but before I do I want to explain my previous
answer she said. Okay I am listening John said.

Anne took a deep breath and looked at him. When I came to this city I was
too scared of many things. You know I had a scar on my face and my leg, I was
too scared to be with people. Then I met you, someone really different and I
asked myself if this was all true. Was I dreaming? Does someone like you really
exist? I am sorry but someone like you only existed in my dreams so that day
you came to me and wanted to be my friend I secretly pinched myself

I felt the pain and saw that you were real. For the first few days I thought
that you were just like the guys I watch on television. The ones who take what
they want and then leave. You were really different, and with you I felt so many
feelings deep inside me that I could have felt if I were not a freak. The feelings
that made me envious whenever I do watch television dramas or movies. It was
all happening to me and I was very happy

I am sorry John but I still doubted you even if you made me feel so happy
and accepted. I waited each day for the moment that you would take advantage
of me but you never did but as each day passed you just kept making me
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 When I watched dramas I would dream that I was the lead character.
Sometimes I didnt understand what they were showing, I didnt know what
they were really feeling. You made me feel them John. My heart beating fast,
my cheeks burning up, my body automatically moving by itself wanting to rub
against you. I was happy John, I was in love for the first time in my lifewith
you

After the operation to my face I could not take it anymore. I felt something
different inside me wanting you badly. Every morning I wake up all I think is
you and even before I sleep I still do. This feelingJohn I was madly in love
with you already and I became so scared

So scared that I might lose you one day and I would not know how to pick
up myself. I tried to hold back my feelings for you because I didnt want to fall
in love with you more. I am sorry. I met Charles, to be honest I didnt fall in
love him. I dont know why but I was searching, I had many questions about
you. I was trying to get rid of these strong feelings I have for you. I was looking
for someone like you so that just in case if I cannot control my feelings and do
fall for you and get hurt in the endI would be assured that there was still
someone out there like you

But no John, I just hurt myself. I was trying to look for you in him and I
really hurt us both. I am really sorry John. The talent show made me fall
deeper, the lyrics you sand hit me hard. The prom made me so jealous and
want you more. That dayyou said you loved meremember that day? You
wanted to be my boyfriend and I really wanted that too but I was too scared
John. Too scared of losing you one day. I could not imagine my life without you
when that happens that is why I was too damn scared to say yes Anne
revealed as tears flowed down her cheeks.

John I am still that girl you met two years ago. I am still that girl with the
scar on the face and whose left leg is crooked. My appearance may have
changed but I am still that same girl who is very much afraidbut not about
the things like beforeI am afraid of losing you. That is why even if I wanted
you to be more than my friend I was so scared of losing you one day. So if you

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remain as my friend I knew I would not lose you but I was wrong. You were
slowly slipping away, I knew I was breaking your heart but the truth is my
heart too was shattering she added.

There were so many chances when I could have given up on you. Sarah was
giving me an option and she was pretty convincing but I still chose to stick it
out and wait for you. Do you think I would even want to hurt you Anne? I never
will. Look at me, I am still her Anne. I have accepted my role as a friend but I
am still her, hoping, wishing and dreaming. If you just give me a chance so I
can prove it to you John uttered.

Anne stood up and looked at John. The young man got up and faced her.
Palms or pockets? he asked as he wiped her tears. Anne took a deep breath
and got hold of his two hands. She placed his hands inside the two back
pockets of her shorts and then looked at him. She caressed his face and
noticed a frown starting to form

Palms she whispered and embraced him with all her might. John exhaled
hearing her answer, he leaned his forehead against hers and they both stared
into each others eyes. I love you John she whispered. I love you Anne, I will
never leave you he told her. Once again their lips found each other; the sun
was about to hide but it was able to shine its rays on the start of their new
bond.

Forever in each others palms like the dream of many but only a few could
achieve.

-THE END-

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 PALMS AND POCKETS
BY JONATHAN PAUL DIAZ
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