Annus Horribilis

Perhaps in my living memory that I swear never to forget, the year 2017 is arguably one of the most
challenging years in my entire existence. It has brought nothing but hardships and suffering for me. I
have experienced numerous crises far worse than some of the tragedies that have happened across the
world this year. As a very private person I have been quiet with all of my problems throughout the year
because I don’t want to attract any attention and begging for likes and I don’t want to be sympathized
and kaawaan ako so hindi ko na ililitanya lahat ng mga pagsubok na dumating saakin.

But to summarize it all, 2017 has been a hell ride for me. Although hindi naman ako depressed, masakit
pa rin saakin tanggapin lahat ng pagsubok na ito at may nasasaktan. I even questioned God kumbakit
binigyan kami ng ganitong kabigat na pagsubok and if kaya ba naming malampasan lahat ng ito. I felt
betrayed, hollow, paranoid, anger and frustration. It’s as if the insurmountable odds are against us and I
don’t know if I can succeed. I am sceptical for what’s to happen in 2018 because umasa ako na magiging
maganda ang 2017 ngayon. I was wrong and I’m a fool to believe.

Still I have a positive outlook for the coming 2018 and I know that there will be worse challenges than
this that I will unfortunately encounter in the years to come. As of right now, perhaps these hardships
I’m facing will be the greatest lesson na ibabaon ko and serves as my primary motivation to pursue even
greater achievements and ambitions as well as my inspiration. I will keep smiling as if parang walang
problema nangyari because that’s what I’ve always been; a person who does not seek sympathy for my
personal misfortunes.

Have a blessed New Year everybody.