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C. Corvidae - "My Sisters Found Me Strewn Across The Shoreline"
C. Corvidae - "My Sisters Found Me Strewn Across The Shoreline"
i am grateful, eternally,
that my scars will persist.
they converge in a map
of where i most want to be kissed
~
“my sisters found me strewn across the shoreline” a hearty thank-you to Alice, Alisha, Alyce, Anna, Anthony, Arielle, Ashley, Bee,
poetry by c. corvidae Cat, Corinne, Effi, Elly, Emile, Emily, Erika, Gabe, Jenni, Jeremy, Jon, Lain,
Lindsey, Mary, Monica, Nicole, Rooftop, Shannon, Susan, Tors, and Tuney.
contents
you contributed to the creation of this, even if you don’t know it. you are what
1. this page i aspire to become. there are many more to name, but i won’t for now.
2. “the mattress electric”
3. "omnipotent shadow people tango" this humble chapbook is dedicated to Thomas James “Jim” “T.J.” Steimer.
4. “knowing wink from distant planet… iron lung dreams of smoke” wherever you are, i hope you’re eating well.
5. “gag reflects"
6. “spark walk” / “twelve dollars and a firm handshake” / “interrogate me”
7. “a lamb stands up on 45th street” / “meet & part &” / “poem for a video I
saw online” ~
8. “pulp maiden”
9. “the precentor leads a prayer”
10. “i’m showing you the art that’s been made about me”
11. “maternity ward in purgatory” dear reader, this address is where you can & should send electronic mail to
12. “toilet bowl epithalamium” the person who wrote these words:
13. "paper petal tumor girl" corvidaepoetry@gmail.com
14. acknoweldgments
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"paper petal tumor girl" “the mattress electric”
cover art by Emile Durant / based on a photo by Alyce Donohue discovers you, traverses you,
loves you to death
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"omnipotent shadow people tango" “toilet bowl epithalamium”
i want them to see the show grubby palm upward. close one
eye,
i mean, and you know you are
if they’re watching regardless… “alone”
i’d rather them see my mouth or as “alone” as you can get. so, you see your
contorted into a sickening grin
than biting the sidewalk. sickness
emerging from Gaea. your
i'd been hoping they might chase the skin i shed dysphoria,
across a continent or two. returning to Gaea. your
organs,
but somehow,
their eyes are keen-- falling into Gaea’s seas. your
i look more like myself than sadism,
ever before, leaving bite marks on Gaea. your
but i still resemble my outdated shell union,
juuuuust enough for them to still know me. failing forever in Gaea’s infidelity. your
("know") trauma,
undone in Gaea. your
triumph,
so while you're here,
spitting in Gaea’s face. your
watch me writhe,
recovery,
watch me
writhe!
cigarettes in Gaea’s prison. your
watch me writhe,
windup,
watch! me!
Gaea inhales nervously. your
writhe!
haymaker,
Gaea hacks up bloody teeth. your
and i'll decorate my antlers
with tinsel and lights, mother
i'll keep shaking, and laughing, repeatedly refuses Gaea. your
and i'll keep eating, and father,
i'll keep rests uneasy in Gaea. your
burning reconstitution,
a minuscule burnt-out forest fairy, here’s an 18x24" painting of me holding a bouquet of lilies that have
the last of her kind, now mere just recently been pulled from the ground. dirt is still clinging to their roots. i'm
guts and bone paste rubbed smiling-- no, i'm absolutely beaming. i look as if i've never been so happy in
between your left thumb my entire life. the aftermath of a tear remains on my left cheek in a wet
and forefinger; streak. i'm wearing a yellow sun dress with floral print, and "cat-eye" eyeliner
that is slightly smudged on the left side. both my hands are clasped around
a delicate wing, the flowers and my face is turned slightly upwards, a pose reminiscent of
still stuck in your gritted teeth, prayer. the room i'm standing in is very brown and nondescript, save for an
flapping gently as you hiss your ornate clock on the wall behind my right shoulder. i'm not wearing my
favorite new words, the ones glasses, but my facial piercing is there, and i have a pair of emerald earrings.
you poached from their native lands; my shoulders & cheeks are reddened from sunburn. you can't discern this by
looking at the painting, but “Gumboots” by Paul Simon is on the radio.
a purple-and-yellow squeaking sound, the medium of the painting is acrylic on canvas. the title of the
creaking out into the air surrounding painting is "I Think I Can Hear A Voice Asking Me To Come Home". the
you, but as you awkwardly bellow your painting is hanging in a small museum exhibit and most of the people who
dinner table Lord's Prayer, of course, see it seem to have a neutral or positive opinion of it. some of them say that
you devil, you've drowned it out entirely; the painting is quite beautiful. some of them say that the woman in the
painting is quite beautiful. a few of the people even say that viewing the
an earthy aroma, painting somehow made them feel more beautiful. in a few months' time,
strong enough to sew flesh shut several other works of art in the museum will be stolen by a pair of
and unshatter bones and ungather professional art thieves. this one will remain.
coils of prickly memories piled high,
overpowered by cheap cologone; now, here’s a 3.5-hour-long film of me telling all the knock-knock
jokes i can think of. when i run out of knock-knock jokes that i already know, i
a hastily-fading little spirit wisp, start making them up. they get progressively more nonsensical. when i run
she's left this godworld completely, out of ideas, i try to repeat all the ones i've already said, in the order that i
she's evaporated like tea steam, said them. this is filmed as one continuous shot, the angle is fixed to show my
she's moved on into oblivienne itself, head and upper torso. from the beginning to the end of the film, a strange
and you are wholly nonplussed; figure in the distance (perhaps 3-4 meters back) becomes more and more
noticeable. it starts completely invisible, but the lighting changes slowly and
a power line full of hot, throbbing vengeance, the figure seems to fade into existence, as do some aspects of the
wrapped around the necks of background (grass, weeds; clearly an outdoor setting). by the end of the film,
everyone you ever said you loved... it is apparent that the figure in the distance is also me-- standing completely
we've been scared of you still, with eyes wide open and jaw agape. i am clad head-to-toe in a pleasant
for longer than we've known you, pastel blue raincoat and boots and hat. and this far-away me is staring
directly at the back of the head of the me that has been talking for all this
and we watch your compassion unfurl, time. her gaze doesn’t shift.
and we try our best to unvomit, in the last 2 minutes of the film, the me in the background suddenly
to unremember the pulp and sinew, lies down on the ground-- not a violent, accidental fall, but rather a deliberate
to push away the knowledge that spur-of-the-moment movement. the me in the foreground hears the
any and all of us are next, next, next; movement and turns to look at what has happened, breaking eye contact with
the camera for the first time. it starts snowing. the film ends.
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“the precentor leads a prayer” "spark walk"
“interrogate me”
details
enhanced, and then
destroyed by scrutiny.
a body does what a mirror wants;
blooms, wilts.
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“a lamb stands up on 45th street” “pulp maiden”
i want animals to take over my terrain 30 years after my nuclear meltdown : i i keep cutting my hands and fingers
want plants to grow in spite of themselves : i want the ukrainian government on these corrugated cardboard boxes at work.
to construct a massive protective shield and move it slowly into place around they’re surprisingly sharp.
me so my radioactivity does not spread further into the environment \\\ i have
been blamed for thousands of deaths and birth defects so please ensure the i pretend that i don’t like it.
safety of my exclusion zone and prepare to dismantle me, i will find love in i feign the notion that i never pine for the feeling
every fragment that falls of my blood on the outside of my skin.
“poem for a video i saw online” in the way i choke out these thank-yous to customers.
weakly spitting the words onto the counter
water snake climbs out of pond like peach pits
slides up pant leg into man’s lap
to indulge in offering of fish
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