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Reflective Essay
Reflective Essay
Mallak Ali
Ms.Gardner
23 January 2018
Reflective Essay
“You should get your hearing checked.” Seven words that have been uttered to me
countless times.
Within a class, one is expected to attentively listen to the curriculum being taught; which
is what I have done for as long as I’ve known, or I’ve at least tried to. The other second graders
that surrounded me sat and listened with ease as I repeatedly asked the student next to me what
the teacher was saying. In response, Ms.Sundus raised her voice to a volume well understood,
angrily shouting in Arabic, “ ”ﻣﺎ ﺑﺘﺤﺘﺮﻣﯿﺶ, which in translation means that I was being
disrespectful to her and to the class, followed by the universal phrase used by teachers, “If there
is something you would like to say, share it with the class.” Frightened and somewhat
embarrassed, I shriveled up in the red wooden chair as my face’s color instantly mirrored the
chair’s. After what had felt like eternity, the bell rang and my little legs scurried out of the
classroom so quickly that my upper body could not keep up. With only a 5 minute break, I went
to the bathroom and washed my face clean of its bright red pigment. “Maybe everyone is right.
Maybe I do need a hearing aid,” I said, internally questioning myself and letting the opinions of
others sink in. For the slightest moment afterwards, there was pure silence and my thoughts
Once more, the bell rang and I walked into my English class, greeted my teacher, and sat
in my chair. She spoke in a soft, sensitive voice - very calming to the ears. Fortunately, I sat in
the very front of the class, where the struggle to capture every word spoken, was non-existent.
Finally granted the opportunity, I settled into my front row view and consumed every word with
aching curiosity.
Growing up in Palestine, loud noises meant a time of celebration, a time of prayer, a time
of communication amongst one another; loud noises meant power as a community. However,
these inspirational and joyful times contributed to deafening of my ears along with others. With
laughter, I reflect on this conclusion; somehow, I am humored by the fact that while I use my
ears in more extreme circumstances than usual - blasting music, echoing prayer bells, yelling
grandparents- I wear out the two “auricles” quicker than others, leaving me to ultimately “age”
quicker than others. This leads to the simple equation that states: exceeding the recommended
limit equals harmful effects; therefore in extreme circumstances, permanent silence may occur.
Within times of silence, horrifying images come to mind, similar to those in a horror
movie. Specifically, the moment before a character is brutally murdered where there is a soft,
almost silent, melody that rings within the audience's ears, easing them into the scene, while
knowing that they should always remain alert. In silent nights as child, my ears were always
cautioning me, even while asleep. They themselves remained alert, consistently protecting me
from the monstrous gremlins creeping within my thick walls, never failing to insure my safety. I,
membrane” as I raised the volume to high and, ironically, drowned out all the noise. All the
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chatter, all the bickering, all the happiness- I denied all of it and continued to insure my
permanent silence.
Along with the sheer fact that I contributed to the deafening on my ears more than others,
another thought developed through the mist of this personal revelation. Not only had my ears
been there to alert me, but the two listening devices also somehow managed to manipulate what
was being said to me since I could understand languages. Over the many years, my ears have
been constantly filtering out phrases that are unkind for this world, keeping my innocent
“cochlea’s” sheltered through the verbal war of life. Nevertheless, its defense mechanism has
weakened over the years, slowing allowing mass quantities of societal and personal viewings
break through the gates of the “external auditory canal”. As a result of this break-in-and-entering,
myself, and perhaps millions of other children alike, are left with a small amount of help to guard
ourselves which leads to us slowly lower our shields and allow the absurd opinions of society
flood in. “Why do you talk so loud?” “You should’ve heard me the first time.” “You should
always be listening.” “Don’t you think you should see a doctor ‘bout that?’ Once again,
returning to a classic more memorable than the Titanic, “You should get your hearing checked.”
A phrase that has been told to me so many times that the words quickly lost all meaning.
Through all the agony, through all the bitter-sweet moments, through all the laughter, my
ears have clung on so tightly to the point of no escape; never will they leave me, never will we
part ways. Even in the far future when we are both aged and wrinkly, my ears will always be
satisfying my wants and denying its own and for that I thank you, ears. I thank you for all you
have overcome and I sincerely apologize for all I have done. Once again, thank you.