Professional Documents
Culture Documents
Royce Gador
7 March 2018
Powerless
Growing up I had a passive relationship with politics. I quite honestly did not have any
substantive political knowledge. I knew about the basic governmental structure that I learned in
school. The Schoolhouse Rock song with the singing piece of legislation teaching us about how
bills were formed, mnemonic devices to remember the Bill of Rights, and how the president was
elected every four years. These were the common paths we all took, but these larger than life
concepts did not have much significance to me. I was a child who felt so far removed from a
responsibility reserved for the adults. It was not until the summer of 2015 when a political tone
began to develop within myself as an election unlike any other began to unfold right before my
eyes.
That summer, the controversial statements that Donald Trump made about immigration
echoed throughout the world. I felt my stomach turn and my breathes getting heavy in my chest
as I felt outrage about the comments. As enraged as I was about what was said, I thought that
there was no possible way that Trump would have a chance in the upcoming election. I assumed
that he would get lost in the noise of the massive pool of career politicians. Looking back on it,
The political turmoil and infighting within the Republican Party from the summer had
spilled over into the fall. The drama among this group with Trump coming from absolutely
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nowhere being at the center of all of it caught me off guard. I was following the primary season
rather closely. I had not been this politically engaged before in my life. The nature of this
election and the lines that were drawn very early on made it different. The issues at stake were
too important for me to ignore. My focus on the election had become a running joke among my
friend group. I remember walking home with my friend once and asked my friend in a panic
“I got to watch the news and see the coverage of the debate,” I quickly shouted.
It is slightly odd for a 15 year old to be rushing home to watch the afternoon news, but I
felt everyone tuning in to see this election play out. To an extent, I wanted to be engaged through
whatever small means possible. Over the next year, I was planted firmly in my living room
couch scrolling through the channels for every debate and news report. For the first time in my
life, I was interested in politics. Despite my first real engagement with politics being as
tumultuous as the 2016 election was, it was the unprecedented nature of it that made see the
The final months of the general election felt like they would never come after the
lethargically paced year. The presidential debates came and gone with that heavy, frustrated
breathing at Trump’s clearly unprepared responses and Clinton’s robotic approach to public
appearances. I rolled my eyes in the comfort of my living room couch at two problematic
candidates. The scandal of the past year from Clinton’s emails to Trump’s inappropriate
I truly did not know what would happen that night. An apprehension settled in my lungs
as I sat at the edge of my dark leather couch. The news coverage had picked up that afternoon as
the reporters were out in the bitter, sharp air. The collection of icy, breathy air in front of their
mouths acted as a reminder of the past year. The news coverage rolled in like clock work. The
familiar breaking news banner written across the bottom and intense music that made my heart
race. What I had assumed were safe states for both candidates played out. New York went to
Clinton, Kentucky went for Trump, and the lists of those early states went as planned. Florida
was a razor thin race early in the day but when is it not competitive. The map filled out but when
states like Wisconsin, Michigan, and Pennsylvania came reported in close I was taken aback.
The nature of the race had changed dramatically. I sat there motionless as this played out before
my eyes. The coverage went well into the night and the races became tight. I went to sleep that
night not knowing who would be the next president. I tossed and turned in anticipation of waking
I woke up to my notifications flooded with what happend. My jaw collapsed to the floor.
My eyes widened in their sockets at what I was reading. The anger that I felt from the previous
summer rushed through my body as I saw that Trump had won. I haphazardly threw on my
clothes and took conscious steps on the way to school that day. The chatter at school was
incredibly political that day. The disappointed, the frustrated, and the celebratory camps were
formed. Heated debates about who should have won echoed in the halls and the quiet
conversations in class. I remember walking into my math class that day and a bitter cold silence
settled in the air. My friends and I gathered around to work on our math homework but we were
too distracted by the big elephant in the room. We were outspoken in our frustration with the
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election as we typed furiously away on our laptops. Each person took their turn at the public
Our frustrations turned to fear and concern. What kind of world were we about to enter?
The world certainly responded vehemently to the outcome. I saw my friends post on social media
about being at the Women’s March and the commentary made on television about what went
wrong. In the aftermath of it all, I was just existing. I was not a part of this deeper engagement. I
look back wondering why I was not going out in a political protest. A part of me knew that I just
simply did not have the time or my parent’s approval to go out. Another facet of my political
identity felt that the election happened and the outcome was not going to change. What power
did I have to make a difference? I think the powerlessness is an underlying factor in the young
people around me. We become active in our community to protest a result only to retreat back to
our everyday lives. We make our voices loud only to find them powerless at the place we all
started. The narrative continues to be written without us and the disengagement quickly settles
in. I watched as the discussions became insular again. In an instant, I was back on the political
sidelines watching powerlessly both to my own fault and partly a bleak outlook toward the
future.