Renelyn L.

Magallon

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As I’ve pondered, I can say that I’m a Personal Communicator for 2 reasons. Mayhap it manisfests

from our learnings in our undergrad course — Psychology as we were taught how to counsel and

assess clients. And more than that is the fact that I’m an empath. I have a tendency to be drawn

to broken people with heavy pasts, people with hearts that have cracks in them, people with

experiences that they are still bleeding from. I have a habit of absorbing other people’s pain and

making it on my own. I find value in assessing not just how people think, but how they feel. I tend

to be a good listener and diplomat, I can smooth over conflicts. People often turn to me as the

‘glue’ that holds groups together. And I’m typically able to pick-up ‘vibes’ that others may miss

because I’m attuned to the emotional aspect of communication.

Ironically however, I have this trait that I can’t express my thoughts vocally involving emotions of

love and affection. It’s kinda frustrating when you have so much to say but doesn’t have the guts

to spit it out. That’s why most of the time, I resort to writing. I’ve written letters that I never sent,

scribbled notes of what I wanted to say but never did, and composed poetry that I rarely revealed

who was it about or who was it for. Until lately,I have able to ponder about the people I’ve let go

in life just because I was holding back all the things I should’ve said that could’ve kept them, that

could’ve made them stay. Writing has always been therapeutic for me but the truth is— the unsent

letters, the sribbled notes and all the poetry I’ve written cannot make someone stay unless I talk

to them. I’ve realized the need to learn how to communicate for I now firmly believe

communication is the key to every relationship whether it’s romantic or genuine friendship. I need

to overcome such frustrating trait for I want to be a better person— a person who’s not only

capable of speaking her mind but also of speaking her heart.