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Ari Venteicher
EDUC 671
Summer 2018
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Sunday evenings in my family were for watching the Showtime at the Apollo together
and for presenting our research on Black history in our Sunday’s best to our parents as
if they were judges in a local Toastmaster’s competition. My mom and dad would give
my brother and I one week to individually research a historical Black person or event
Powerpoint and other Microsoft programs thanks to our parents’ personal mission of
My parents always told us that they were working hard so that we could have a
better life than they did growing up. My mom, who has her Master’s in Management
games purposed for increasing typing speed. My dad served in the military for 20 years
and obtained a Bachelor’s degree upon retiring in General Business. My parents made
higher education appear as the only course for my brother and I after high school and
My dad’s profession was his passion. He was a champion for equal opportunity
in the workplace. He is probably the reason why I grew up believing that diversity is
asset. My parents took education seriously and they took our Black history knowledge
even more seriously. My dad loved history and would stay up with me as I completed
my homework sharing with me the impact certain laws had on the Black community
and what key historic Black people and narratives were left out of my school’s
textbooks.
My younger brother and I grew up with Black history memory games, flashcards,
and a basement library where we would read about people like Daniel Hale Williams,
George Washington Carver, Shirley Chisholm, and Mary McLeod Bethune. Although I
was extremely proud of my African American heritage and Black identity, I felt like in
At school people tried to redefine me as every identity but Black. For some
peers would dub me “honorary Asian” and compliment me by stating “I’m smart for a
Black girl.” I would go home tired and frustrated that my behaviors and characteristics
that were not seen as “Black” or “Black enough.” I felt like I was being robbed of my
racial identity as people tried to redefine me. Even my Black peers would try to drive a
“You talk like a white girl.” “You act like a white girl.” Those words stung. I could not
understand then why my positive traits were only seen as attributes of White people. I
knew more Black history than they ever were exposed to. I prided myself in the history
There were times I would cry out to my dad, feeling frustrated. I always felt like I
had to work extra hard to prove a point to everyone that I am proud to be an African-
American and that academic successful was not limited by race. I felt like I only had to
prove this because I was a minority. All of my positive attributes were classified as
White characteristics by my middle school and high school classmates. This hierarchal
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remember stretching with the members on my track team and everybody proclaiming
their university acceptance status. I was accepted into every single university I applied
to from Emory to William and Mary. One of the affluent White boys in the group felt the
need to proclaim that my acceptance in William and Mary was just to fill a quota. He
did not get accepted. He also did not consider my SAT scores, GPA, leadership skills,
and dedication to voluntarism. Yet again my race was dragged into the picture, this
time as unfounded evidence that I did not earn my university acceptance. I, like many
other African-Americans who were forced to endure this daily subjugation of race
devaluing, had to choose to accept the words or prove them wrong. I always felt like I
Automatically when you are African-American or any other minority you are seen
as bad and not of the same status as Euro-Americans (Hollins, 2008, p.26). I think that
perpetuate or entertain any notions that Black people could not have positive and
moments most of my peers stated they were unaware of the harm and racism in the
words they thought were “compliments.” How many minorities are derailed from their
goals by the negative jokes, taunting, and “compliments” of their peers and society?
I guess my experiences at school were just preparing me for the real world since
school mirrors society (Hollins, 2008 p. 35). I grew to hate labels and classifications
and became known as the person who “had a talent of seeing the good in everyone.”
In my reflection and growth as an African-American woman I was the only one who I
this point of clarity and acceptance of multiculturalism (Howard, 2003 p.198). I grew up
in a racially and socioeconomic diverse part of the nation where many minorities were
not taught to love their culture and history like I was. They all strived to be “American.”
My classmate Josue wanted to be called Josh. Other classmates would not be caught
speaking their parent’s language in front of peers and respond to their parents
questioning solely in English. It was a fear of being other. Who is the other in a country
7) I never would want any student to feel like they are not able to achieve greatness
relevant pedagogy (Howard, 2003 p. 201) where students feel like their background
and culture matters and it is welcomed in class; however, they are not reduced to
represented in the lessons so that there is consistent evidence that they can achieve
and do not feel like they have to prove their capabilities (Finnan, 2013, p.97) because
One of the lessons I facilitated for my class was a lesson on the benefits of
The majority of my students are bilingual. I wanted them to conduct research so that
they could put a name to a concept that is a huge part of their daily lives. My students
are living in a time where they hear negative rhetoric daily that they do not belong, they
are not welcomed, they are criminals, and they need to leave. I would love to conduct a
of their levels of self-efficacy and have a picture of how they see themselves in a
society that claims they do not belong (Camangian, 2010, p.131). I want my students to
know that they are heard and they are valued because like I understood as a child,
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