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--R.K. Singh
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MY SILENCE
1974-1984
By
R.K. SINGH
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ACKNOWLEDGEMENT
R.K. SINGH
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FOREWORD
Emerson has said: “It is not metres, but a metre-making argument that makes
a poem—a thought so passionate and alive that like the spirit of a plant or
animal it has an architecture of its own.” Denise Levertov is more explicit—
“Intellect and sensuous lead to syllable which has intrinsic meaning but has
not rhythm. It is when emotion and feeling influence the operation of
process that were led to the phrase, the rhythmic , emotive grouping of
syllables.” Conrad believed that we are in this life as in a dream, and the
secret is to immerse oneself in the destructive element and let the deep sea
keep you up. As such we witness in modern poets their struggle to convert
materials that are dumb and stammering in everydayness into eloquent
media.
To the poet, the world is an extension of himself, his flesh, his blood, his
bones. Poetical modernity is expressing its freedom of form, of structure, of
imagery and idea. Twilight poets write of a fragile world, covered with
mysticism and eerie shadows.
Dr Singh has chosen his own path—combining the riches of tradition with
scintillating modernity. He is very helpful to the reader when he says: “The
psychological and aesthetic tension of each poem, which is an independent
experience shaped by an awareness wrapped in the real-fictional duality of
the poet, rests on the bilateral relation between its personae and the readers,
and I hold that as a creator, the poet should allow his readers to re-create the
material according to their own intellectual potency, taste and sensibility and
himself refrain from making any comments or suggestions on his poems.
Even giving a title to the poem is to interfere with the readers’ freedom of
imagination. As such the poems in this collection have no titles: there is
only first-line table of contents.”
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“is a woman
concrete, personal, delightful
greater than all”
Each night in the island of his little bed he enters, he senses: “Sex like
Octopus.”
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MY SILENCE
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Is it the perfume
or your body
that makes the night
drunken?
can I seek
my voice
in your breasts?
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Blind
I see her beauty
deaf
I hear her melody
ignorant
I partake of her knowledge
poor
I share her wealth
in-drawn
her vision reigns my heart
though I sit
under her tree of love
she’s still away from me
just one pace
if I could take
I enter
the pavilion of eternity
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What is
this light
without rays
shining
in your eyes?
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To express sex
a crowd is convenient in the bus
during the Puja he rubs hard
his cock against the ladies’ bottoms
before turning wild gets down
at Sabuj Samaj to search
a new outlet in the Pandal
Durga’s eyes are too hazed to see
the dark desires of youth
crowding in the name of religion
puja, culture, and tradition
--all a national wastage—
while the cowards fear the coming
closer of boys and girls
in freedom
the government deploys
criminals actively
pushing and pressing
to keep the law and order, who bothers
their rape and adultery in the crowd?
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He hands coins
just to look at
the tanned fronts
behind the little holes
of her only saree perhaps
the urge is to tear
the wrap that hides
the little thing but
he’s too timid to uncoop
his heart trapped
in her sandal arc
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Squatted in sun
she was cleaning
white and yellow germs
festering her womb
still she thanked
she was alive
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in monsoony mist
search door in the wall or
gather diaspora of continents
in a hidden landscape
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When I asked
to open her secret
she showed me thumb
I thought
she would return
love for love
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Sometimes in winter
in the snow of your body
there simmered a heat
in a vivacious spring
fell a sweet calamity
as love began to jell
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Melting chrysanthemum
silent chromosomes
restless energy
stones in wood
where is the release?
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Swelled by humidity
the mountain is a green cemetery
hiding men and ages
people may not believe in the valley
everyone is walking I hear
death echoing in tunnels
dark or grey, black or green
itching like a whore
whose hand has clutched everything
every song is a lament
conspiring with rains, winter, summer
autumn, storm, wind, sun, moon
it’s hardened , cruel, a green stone
nourishing the dirge
we crown death
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Banares
seems holier at night
mating dogs and bitches
join pundits
in the name of religion
their meditation
adds noise
no one will admit
I am no god
if it doesn’t nettle
the divine rest
it kills my peace
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There’s no penalty
when dogs foul
side-walks, parks
and streets, but if
a man pisses or spits
in a corner
they fine 100 pounds
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to prove wisdom
bureaucrats
join hands with
like dogs in
0ctober and November
and perpetuate the blur
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one by one
washes the paints
that hide the face
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a whale grows
against dull sea
stars fall mute
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The bones
with curves
kinks and hollow
the true
physicalness
we love
worm-eaten reality
now floats
on river’s breast
wrapped in white
moving toward
emptiness
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candied ideas
shine like light
and the third day ends
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my smoke-drenched spirit
and black patches remind
my eating yams raw
and the dragon fleeing
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There is no rest
even after death
body is cut open
to detect
the cause of death
then burnt to ashes
to crown formality
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on the island in me
Uhuru stands like lingam
pink mood turns violet
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Love is
to wash your hand
before touching the penis
in obeisance to lingam
the climax of creation
love is
to gather molecules
of happiness in flesh
and merge in rapture
to propitiate Shiva
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he wanted me to go back
to the yearning loneliness
and cried: “Papa, dua, pray”
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This moment
visits the dark
alleys of my body
as a guest sleeps
like my son
in my lap
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There is a wave
which never reached
the shore:
it only pushed
the waves ahead
and broke
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I prune my thoughts
to write well
to be simply understood
I don’t want
to outwit my readers
I am no celebrity
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A poem
elusive like a butterfly
is the dynamics
of a culture
a process of exchange
a cultural artifact
fascinating
stimulating
reshaping
reader and creator
it incorporates
multiplicity
of modern man
fluid, mobile
multicultural
manipulating
matrix of tongues
and patterns of languages
into a stable whole
of self awareness
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What am I digging
in the graveyard
of memory?
a handful of images
to create a new myth?
or some space
to bury my being
with orisons
and burn every tomb?
or seal
the faint flame
that used to burn
within?
the long darkness
in the skull
is twice terrible
than life
I can’t weave
gaudy mess
of dreams any more
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A poet’s simplicity
is misunderstood
so I keep quiet
but what if
my silence
is misunderstood?
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Copyright: Ram Krishna Singh
The collection, first published under the World Poets Series by Poets Press India, Madras
(Chennai) in 1985 and now out of print, appears in Sense and Silence: Collected Poems by
R.K.Singh (published by Yking Books, Jaipur, 2010).
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