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I always start my day with a beautiful smile and making myself happy even though at the end of
the day,
I go to my room switching off the lights go to bed, sit and stare at the window.
I am full of different imaginations, chaos in my mind, overthinking and I really want to end my
life.
I have all what I want and needed, but there is something in myself that I can’t explain why.
There is something in me that I don’t know why, there is something that is lacking in me and all I
have to do is to cry.
Why? Why I am suffering with this illness that loses my attention in everything I see.
I am already tired, depression is really inevitable.
Depression is eating me alive maybe to you this is something not serious—that you can cure it
by hanging out and having a good time.
How can you cure something you don’t understand?
I can’t pinpoint the problem, and that’s the problem.
I want to help myself but I can’t even pull myself up in the mud I’m in.
I want to fight for my loved ones but I just hope and pray that I will soon heal.
I don’t know when or how but I believed God has the best plan.
I wonder. What’s the best plan? Does it have a sign for me to know if it’s God will or my own
desire?
I want my old self back.
The one who stumble but doesn’t know how to quit.
Do I have to make my own move? Maybe a Gillette will do. But no.
I realized I have to wait.
I don’t need to rush. I need to go through a lot of process to heal.
And when that time ends. Confront and ask me. I won’t hesitate. I can truly tell that I’m finally
okay.
Maaaring ang unang dahilan ay ang mga kaibigang biglang nawala, pati mga pangakong biglang nabura,
Mga taong walang ginawa kundi husgahan ka na parang alam nila ang iyong Istorya,
Na kahit anong gawing pagpupursigi di mapapantayan ang iba.
Dahil ang inaasam ko lang naman ay ang maramdaman ang maging mahalaga.
Gusto ko nang wakasan itong buhay kong puno ng kadaliman at isabit nalang ang leeg sa tali ng
kamatayan.
Dahil tila nasa masamang panaginip na dilat ang mga mata,
Mga matang kumikinang di dahil masaya kundi puno na ng poot at kalungkutang nadarama.
Luhang natuyo’t bumagsak na kasabay nang tumutulong tubig galling sa palikuran.