Doomed to Bloom

by Despina Vella
Copyright 2018 Despina Vella
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 Contents

Intro
Part I – Pain
The primordial spell
A night before darkness
The unborn
The shark
The nightmare
The girl
The boy
Part II – Inevitable
Into the forest
Fear
The song
Magic
Faint
The end
Epilogue
About the author
Intro

After years and tears

Despair and separation,
Grief and isolation,
Music awakens my supreme
Like a romantic poem
Written in the spring.

Never regret your destiny

As it is sure to come.
Find a shelter in yourself and
Cover it with love.

Unsettled lucid words

From a sincere, fervid bod…
Part I – Pain

Despite the tragedy I felt

For one thing I was sure;
All answers would come
From my open window.
The primordial spell

That witch
I’ve never met
Existed before existence.
Her curse was stronger than divine
For why she’s chosen me
I could not define.
I’ve travelled through the darkest night
A descent excuse not to find.

Question marks growing on my chest

Make my breath weak
Now revenge I seek.

“Solitude has no fun at all”,

Quirky the purple woman thought,
“How wonderful to breed
A desperate couple
Unable to cope with
The kingdom ruled by hunger!”

The spell was clear and tough;

“No shelter from nightmares,
No hole deep enough
To reach relief away
From devastating acts”.

Holding the hand of luck,

An unrevealed part.
Things in life can really turn that hard.
Not because it’s our fault my love,
But for a crazy witch
To have chosen your soul.
A night before darkness

Before the darkest of nights

A strange thought came to my head.
I left my clock behind,
Midnight was the time.

Thinking with the heart

A habit bad.
When it’s broken
You start talking with the blur.

No choice but to wait

Patience leads the way.

Persistence is something you own

Or something you don’t
And mine is tailored
On the tip of my tongue.

Loving
The good parts and the bad
A sin I’ve paid from the start.
That night I was drowning in fake truth
Unable to conceive I was trapped
In a stranger woman’s dream.
The unborn

Empty my heart of love

Empty my mind of hope.
In fantasy you choose
When to stand and when to fall.

If it is not perceived
It stays unborn.
Same for the savior
That will come through the storm.

The figure so thin,

Obsessive the courage within.
Eyes dried out of tears…

Once upon a time it was enough

A fairy tale to fall apart.
His heart remained black.
No evident regret,
No will to avoid the cliff…
Down was his thrill.

He walked before me in the same path

He talked to the stars as I
Was staring at the sun.
He kept on writing
For finding his truth
I was dancing to celebrate my youth.
The shark

I met a shark once

Fool and brave
I was,
Evil his intentions.

I saw him crunching all my dreams

Eating them one by one
Leaving no flesh at all.
My dreams were all I had.
A drug to bear with this
Unshaped world.

No songs eased the pain,

No mother love broke the chain,
No water drowned my derangement.

I was flooding
Inside my veins blood.
As time ran…
The nightmare

My nightmare is strong
And never loses sleep.
It keeps coming
No matter how many fairy tales
I read…

Fear became an unwanted

Friend
A cruel truth for an honest girl.

I asked for help

And help held my hand
Embracing all my sadness…
She never left me since then,
Just like my old, unwanted friend.
The girl

My mother always told me

I should look out of the window
Whistle to the sun and
Forget all of my sorrow!

Searching for a shelter

Not an easy path…
Rutty the road may be,
Hostile the room.

“Hiding in silence or
Living up to greedy expectations?”
That was the question of my youth,
Unanswered it remained.
All I have crafted
Pictures in my head...

The acrobat is deprived of time

All he has is moving.
“Keep your eyes on your will”,
That’s what I have learned
Counting my thoughts
On a worn thread.

Quite so difficult to see

My life running in few verses
Mocking me and questioning:
“Is that all?”
“Yes”, I would answer
Without giving any thought,
Cause thought is time spent
On realizing the evident.
The boy

A weeper, a dreamer,
A soldier of fate…
Down on earth his power is lost.
Vulnerable are the brave.

He longs
For salvation.
This will be his only win.
Romantic thoughts crafted
On his solitude skin.

He is dreaming of moving far away

To an unknown world
Music his consolation
Gruff the sound from his guitar.

Gentle but rough

Pure gold inside dark,
A strong eye revealing a sensitive mark.

In the books
He’s hidden in the books!
His escape land so cold,
The mirror never reflects a shore.
Ice from his heart
That witch tried really hard…
Part II – Inevitable

The prince will come out of the dark

Strange, scary and obscure,
But with the kindest heart of all...
Into the forest

The forest full of trees

Whispering in my ears the words
I longed to hear.
Now I feel great despair
As I realize the prey I am.
Innocent and weak
Shaking on my feet.

The predator is near

And gentle though he looks
He’s just another hunter
Hidden in the books.

The sacrifice so cruel

I have to let go of who I am
What defines me as one
Will slowly disappear.
Fear

The truth is getting near

Threatening and clear
My tears won’t bring back
My youth
My hope won’t ease the pain
I’m losing all of me
Goodbye is on my way.

Memories come and go

No reality is clear
No words overcome fear.

Inevitable he is
Though I’m still hiding
Savoring my breaths
Before he enthralls
My rebellious soul.
The song

A different sound,
Sweet and unique
Tickled my emotion.

I felt like dancing

I started moving
I didn’t care
Naive I was.

The music kept on…

I saw his eyes
For a moment
And that was enough!
Fear came again
And I run…
Magic

Dust in his hands

Fragments from space

A joker, a conjuror
Performing for a broken heart.
He made love appear
Out of his velvet hat!
Faint

I touched his hand

And filled it with hope
He bit his tongue as he lost control.
No ready he was for sharing his soul.

I thought I was the beauty

And he was the beast
But he was determined
In love to resist.

Ashamed all my hopes

Denied my rescue
And left me
Wide open
To a Cupid burlesque!

Trapped in blur
I felt his strength
Taking away my breath
Inducing me to listen
Words conceived before death.

I put my hesitation aside

And hoped for the best
Listening to a voice unrest
Half of me awaken
Half of me slept
Breaking the spell.

Waking up from a state obscure

I saw a shadow on the tree
A whisper landed on my neck
Rousing my envious regret.
It was her…
A burden on our chests
Strong as steal!

I remained silent
And put my finger on his lips
No words should interrupt
The wind that blew our
Insanity away from us…

This was our only chance

To make peace
And our fright to release.

The lady
Slipped away.
A dark persona
Offered her game
And we refused to play
In a smooth and silent way.

So she kept on searching

For unconcealed victims again
Just like he and I were…
The end

I always left a window wide open

For my relief
And finally I saw a smile on it
Taking away my grief.
Epilogue

You feel your heart is broken

Lying helpless and alone
You feel your dreams have failed
To heal the wounds of your soul…

That no salvation will come

And no one can disarm
The evils inherited
From erupting lava
In the dark.

Let me tell you one thing

To understand
My dearest and unrevealed friend;
A secret gift
To bless your night call,
A perfect sound born
In your mother’s womb.

Here is my pray for you

Here is my life’s clue.
One little thing I know it’s true
And I believe you know it too;

There are the hard times

And the good.
Life has misleading paths
You will inevitably choose.
The threat of the unknown will
Burn down your skin
Leaving you a scar to remind you
Of your sin...

And when the ghosts

Are present in your room
And when all fears finally loom,
Don’t shed a tear my love
Don’t be afraid to walk alone…

Raise a velvet rose against the moon

And let your heart accept
That a flower is doomed to bloom!

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Thank you for reading my book! If you enjoyed this book, please encourage your
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 About the author
Despina Vella lives in Athens (Greece) and has always loved poetry and music. This
book is her first attempt to write poetry in a second language. She hopes it will keep
you company during cold, winter nights!