“One Chance (draft)” that I can do everything on my own.
But here I am wasting my time,
Today is January 29, 2019, as usual I’m writing my journal in
this old four cornered room of mine. It’s messy here and since I live
on my own, I don’t even dare to clean or even sweep the floor. But
thankfully pests are nowhere to be seen. My room is covered in
pitch dark aura since I keep my lights always turned off to save
electricity, and the only thing that gives me vision through the night
is the light coming from my laptop and television. You might think
that I’m exaggerating here but, I’m turning 21 years old this year
and still, I’m unemployed and of course no man would even dare to
live or even date with me. I don’t have any friends and there were
no contact info saved on my phone except the land lady of this
apartment, no one would know who am I and no one would even
care even if I die. My parents died when I was 6 years old and my
aunt’s family adopt me, everything was going well, they were very
caring and loving, it feels like home. It helped me to recover from
the traumatizing event of the past. But suddenly one day they treat
me like an outsider, they were so mean, they treat me like a house
maid and they didn’t even consider me as a part of the family, they
suddenly changed, and accidentally I heard my aunt talking to her
husband, they were talking about keeping me and casting me out
until I turn 18, just so that they can get all the money, dad and
mom left for me. Those words were like knife piercing my heart so I
took the courage and decided to ran away and live on my own and I
promised myself that I will become successful and will show them
doing nothing.
I don’t like socializing with other people; other may just
think that I’m a brat and an introvert person but they were wrong.
I’m the most coward of the entire coward in the world. I just don’t
want to lose someone again, that’s all.
I’m going to go out today, I have to go find a job soon or
else I will be living on the street next month, I’m out of money and I
can say that I’m a person with a single penny on his wallet.
Today is the perfect weather, something good might
happen to me today. Hair check, coat check, paper and
requirement check, I’m technically ready to go find the perfect job
for me. But I’m lacking courage right now, lot of things are popping
into my mind like, what if I fail?, what if they laugh at me?, what if I
don’t get accepted?, what if, what if?, anyway who cares I just have
to do it right? Okay I’m going to do this. I stand beside the door
and told myself, “You can do this Callie” and I slowly grabbed the
doorknob but it suddenly fall of; it’s not bad luck isn’t it? Anyway
this is a total wreck, I probably need to fix this very soon.
The city is still the same, the smell of the dry asphalt mixed
with the carbon monoxide produce by cars is entering my whole
system, and it brings back a lot of memories. The city is so noisy
and busy people are everywhere doing their own things. Yesterday,
I was just playing games in my room and now here I am, waiting
with a lot of people for the green light to appear, time sure fly so
fast. 60,59,58,57, the traffic light is sure so long to make a go,
* Traffic lights (green): 42, 41, 40*
A little girl eating a Popsicle stick is standing right beside me
with her mother. And a man about 23 years old is standing in my
left side wearing a black coat, a blue tie, and a golden watch. The
kid beside me ask her mama cutely “Momma, let’s call papa and go
play in the park” said the little girl, “later, okay?” replied the
woman. It must be nice to have my parents here right now, if I
could just take time back, I would really want to change everything,
I really missed them.
*phone rings*
I thought it was my phone, but the ringing sound was
coming from the man beside me. The man took his phone out of his
pocket. “Hey, alright, I’ll be there soon, love you”, said the man
through the phone. I stared at the man, then I realized he’s so
handsome, he looks like a CEO of a certain company, the time in his
watch say’s 9:32 A.M, I still have a lot of time. But anyway I’m
happy for him that he is able to date in such a young age, he’s so
lucky very unlike me. 15, 14, 13, 12, at last the go sign is now very
near. 6, 5, 4, the long wait is now over. But wait! What? Hey! The
little girl run through the middle of the road, wait why? The traffic
light is still red, wait! Noooooo…!
*crash*
I quickly closed my eyes so that I would not witness the
accident, all I heard was the loud scream of the woman beside me
and I know right away that the child was hit by the truck but, after a
few seconds the loud scream suddenly stop like a movie being
paused for a moment, I slowly opened my eyes, diverting my
attention to the other side of the road so that I would not see such
a horrible event but wait!? What was happening? The accident did
not occur; I’m still standing here waiting for the go sign. Wait I need
to assess the situation. Was everything just my imagination?
*traffic lights (red): 60, 59, 58, 57*
Shocks! What is happening here? I need to calm down first,
Focus, focus, Callie focus, the person right beside me is the little girl
and her mom, and in my left side is the rich man. Wait everything is
the same, the number on the traffic light, wait what?
*traffic light countdown: 50, 48, 47, 46*
Wait, wait, wait, this is wrong!
“Momma, let’s call papa and go play in the park” said the little girl,
“later, okay?” said the woman.
Gosh! The events a minute ago is happening exactly the same, wait
I need one more sign that will prove this conclusion of mine, think
Callie Think! Right! That’s it the phone call.
*traffic light countdown: 39, 38, 37, 36*
*Phone rings*
“Hey, alright, I’ll be there soon, love you”, said the man through the
phone.
It’s exactly the same. But I need to check just one more
thing. I forcefully grabbed the man’s arm and checked his watch, its
9:32 A.M, No way! This is absolutely crazy. “Hey! Let go of my
hand! What are you doing?!” said the man, I couldn’t hear what
was the man was blubbing, I can’t think straight, my mind is going
blank. But wait, I don’t have time standing here arguing with this
man. The little girl, I need to save her.
*traffic light countdown: 12, 11, 10, 9, 8*
I still have the time; I need to warn the woman, I can do
this. But how would I explain these things in this short period of
time? She would probably think I’m crazy.
*traffic lights: 6, 5, 4, 3*
Gosh! I’ll handle the consequences later. It’s really
happening, the kid run off, and without thinking I chased her and
grabbed her hand and pull her as fast as I can, hugging her.
*traffic lights: 2, 1, (red lights)*
“Hey are you okay?” I asked the kid, but she didn’t
answered she look so terrified, she just stared blankly at me. Her
mom quickly grabbed and hug her, “why did you do that?” said the
woman, but the kid didn’t answer and just cried hardly as she can. I
didn’t notice what happened but everyone was staring at us,
everyone’s attention was focused on the little girl so I took the
chance to exit the scene.
The day is over and I didn’t even have the chance to go to
the job interview, maybe I’ll just try again tomorrow. I quickly took
a shower, change my clothes and ate dinner. For the first time I
turned on my lights and saw how devastating my room is, I notice
that it become a mountain of garbage in such a short period of
time. But anyway I must recall all of the things that happened to
me today; I sat down on my old green sofa and closed my eyes,
remembering and recalling all of the things that happened today.
What was just happened? Why did it happen? It was just like a time
rewind, and it feels like it happened so that I could prevent a bad
occurrence to happen. But it was just like any other day, and it was
no different when I go outside. The woman, the kid, and the man,
thinking back they were all part of the rewind, wait, the man,
shocks! I never got the chance to explain why I grabbed his hand, so
embarrassing….. Gosh! But who cares? He won’t even remember
me, and even if I got the chance to explain everything, it would be
probably hard for him to believe me. I guess I should just forget
what happened today, the important thing is that no one died right
on my eye today and my conscience is clear. I need to sleep early
tonight in able for me to attend the postponed interview.
January 30, 2019
Just like yesterday, I’m off to go to the Interview, wearing a
pink blouse, eh? Why am I wearing a pink blouse, did I wore this
unconsciously? Maybe I got the wrong blouse because it was dark
inside my room; I forgot to turn on the lights. Anyway I don’t have
time to change if I go back now I’ll probably miss the job interview
again, I need to hurry.
Not too early, not too late, my arrival was just right on the
clock. But this company sure is very intimidating, so big, and so
elegant; it’s probably one of the biggest companies in the city, you
can easily tell that the environment was well organized and they
probably took a lot of money and time decorating the entire floor
inside the building. I’m starting to get hype up and excited. I
entered the waiting room and wow about a hundred of applicants
are lining up for the interview, I’m starting to lose hope, but
anyway again I just have to this.
*two hours later*
“Applicant number 108”, -company employee, at last the
time has come for me, this makes me nervous but at the same time
makes me excited. As I enter the room I saw four people sitting
upfront they were all intimidating, the first person sitting in the left
side of the table is a woman wearing a white dress with a red
matching coat, and a gold glistening earrings and necklace, she is
wearing a dark red lipstick making her look like a strict boss of a
company, and the person sitting beside her is also a woman
wearing the same make up, wearing a violet dress, and on the right
side of the table was two man wearing dark elegant coats. I wonder
which one of them is the boss. They all look like big people.
*30 minutes later*
At last everything is done, talking with people like that sure
takes a lot of energy.
“Everyone can go home now, tomorrow morning all of you
will be receiving text messages, whether you are accepted or not.
Good luck guys. You are now dismissed except for applicant
number 108.” said the announcer. “But wait me? Why me? Did I do
something wrong sir?” I asked, “No that’s not it Miss Sy, the CEO
has invited you to his office to have a cup of tea”, the man replied.
Huh? What? Gosh I’m getting cold as ice, why me? I wonder which
of those four personalities the boss was.
I’m shivering, I’m nervous as hell, of all the hundred
applicants why me? I have to do this right or else my future will be
at stake. I need to create a good impression to the boss. Let’s do
this, you can do this Callie.
 Even though I was so nervous, I smiled prettily and
confidently and as I was entering the room I saw the silhouette of a
respectable guy I was very near seeing his face but, suddenly I
heard a loud bang and everything becomes black.
*Alarm Sounds: It’s time to wake up the time is 6:00 A.M*
*Alarm Sounds: It’s time to wake up the time is 6:00 A.M*
*Alarm Sounds: It’s time to wake up the ti-*
This alarm clock sure is so noisy, wait is that a dream? That
dream sure is so realistic, I thought it was real, it feels like I was
really there. Anyway I need to get ready for the job interview, come
to think of it my dream was all about my job interview, I probably
overdid everything, and spend all my night time thinking what will
happen in my job interview and brought it together with my dream.
Everything is already been prepared from my papers, requirements,
and down to the clothes that I’m going to wear, as usual I’m going
to where a white blouse with matching black coat that would
perfectly suit a job interview, I hope nothing bad will happen. After
I took a bath I quickly change into my clothes and ate my favourite
breakfast, crockpot omelette and a cup of hot chocolat drink, this is
so nice hmmm… the good aroma of the beverage was so
energizing.
*Alarm sounds: Late, Late, And Late*
Huh? Wait, I’m late Gosh!. But, I really wanted to drink the
chocolat so I drunk it without realizing it was actually very hot.
Ouch! Ouch! The coffee got into my clothes and marks a stain on it.
I can’t go to the interview with this kind of look. I don’t have a
choice I need to wear whatever I have in the closet. But wait
shocks! My clothes are all on the laundry shop, gosh! My only
available clothes are this I don’t have any choice tsk.
And so I decided to wear this pink blouse, even though I
hate pink, this is the only clothes available for me. Anyway I need to
hurry. As I planned, I arrived at my destination at the right time, but
wait this company look so familiar, wait, wait, something wrong is
happening here again. The events happening right now was exactly
what my dream was, wait I need to think carefully, was my dream
actually real? And all of these are all just a rewind, wait! I’m getting
terrified, I don’t even know what to do right now, wait I need to
calm down, something important might be happening right now,
think Callie, think! Something bad is going to happen, I know that
for sure, but I don’t know it yet. I need to recall the events in my
dream. After I arrive here there were a lot of applicants, and I
finished the interview and nothing happens, but wait I think I’m
missing something what happened after the interview? Shocks I
can’t remember it at all. Right! The man in the office I remember
now, but my dream stopped there, come to think of it, it was also
just like a movie being paused for a moment like what happened
yesterday. Anyway I need to predict what will happen at the office.
 You need to think Callie; you need to think carefully what
was the very last thing that occurred in that office, black, and
silhouette. But first I must finish my interview.
“Applicant number 108”, -company employee*
I finished my interview just like what happened in my
dream, and right at this moment the final event is going to happen.
“Everyone can go home now, tomorrow morning all of you will be
receiving text messages, whether you are accepted or not. Good
luck guys. You are now dismissed except for applicant number
108.” Said the announcer, but I didn’t replied, I wonder how far can
my action change the future. And so I followed him to the room, as
what I did in my dream I smiled prettily and confidently, but instead
stare at the man, I quickly run and pushed him down. And I was
right, this man is being haunted by a gunman, but instead of the
man I was the one hit by the gun, but thankfully it was not severe,
it was just a scratch. I was quickly brought to the hospital and was
treated right away. I closed my eyes for a moment to rest but I
heard a voice calling my name, “Callie? Cal?” I slowly opened my
eyes and saw a certain man, he is perfect from the bottom to top,
the perfect guy for all the girls in the world I would say. I can’t even
take my eyes off of him; he seems so familiar, it seems like I saw
him before somewhere, I was staring at him like a crazy person.
And he suddenly uttered “Cal? Is there a problem” said the
handsome man, “No, everything’s okay, I was just wondering if you
already have a girlfri- ahhhh no! I mean why are you calling me Cal?
I think were not that close yet for you to call me by my nickname” I
asked. But he didn’t reply and just stared and smiled at me. And no
way! he’s too handsome, how can a person be so pretty? I can’t
believe it! He sat on the chair beside my bed and looked at me in
the eye, I can obviously tell that he is worried, he told me “Cal
thank you for saving me, but you should not do that again for my
sake, I will never forgive myself if in case something bad will
happen again to you. Promise me that you will never do that
again!” said the handsome guy, “Wait, What are you saying? Do we
know each other? Do I know you?” “It’s me Ethan, your childhood
friend” he replied. I smirk and laugh at him, cause there’s no way
my fat friend from before would become this handsome. “I’m
serious”, he told me in a serious voice. “Are you really Ethan?” I
asked. “Like I told you it’s me, you know me; I don’t do jokes” he
replied, “If you really are Ethan then what is our trio tagline?” I
asked, “We will fight together until the end, Cal, Eth, Shone.”
Tears appeared right before my eyes, and without knowing
unconsciously, I suddenly hug him so tight. I missed him so much;
we were separated right before the accident that killed mom and
dad. “I missed you so much, thank you thank you, I’m so sorry I
didn’t recognize you right away, you look like a different person
now, but, anyway this means if you are here then it means shone is
also here, right?” I asked him with a crying voice. “Callie, he is in the
ICU right now, I came here to tell you this” he replied, “Wait, what
are you saying? ICU? Why would he be there, as what I can
remember he don’t have any kind of illness right? Why would h-?
This is nonsense” I asked persistently, “Can you remember what I just nod at him without uttering a single word. It seems like I
happened at the office a little while ago?” he asked. “Of course I saved myself by sacrificing someone, I need to think of this
remember everything, I saved a certain man in a black suit, But thoroughly, I almost killed the man I love.
unfortunately I wasn’t able see his face and right after I jumped at
him I couldn’t remember anything” I said, “You might think that you
actually saved him, but it’s actually the opposite, he saved you” he Chapter II
said. “What wait are you kidding me? He is being targeted by a
sniper outside, how can that be possible?” I replied. “He is not the Ethan’s POV
one targeted, you are, when you jumped at him, you were actually
It’s been 11 years since then, and I didn’t expect to meet her here
hit and you lost your consciousness, that’s why you can’t remember
again, she was my best friend, she was my everything, I was
anything, but thankfully your gunshot wound is not that severe,
actually looking for her for the past years but I failed, and now fate
after you lost your consciousness, a second shot was released, that
has brought us all again. Callie, Shone, and I, we swore to never
was again actually meant for you, but shone protected you, he was
leave each other. I promised Callie that I will protect her forever
critically hit, so we quickly brought you here and shone, but,
and I will never let anyone hurt her, but I broke my promise.
unfortunately Shone, is still lying there right now.” He said to me in
a low voice. I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t move, I was staring blankly Shone and I were both orphans, we were very thankful for Callie’s
at my hands, I couldn’t think straight. What happened at the office? dad for adopting us, but unfortunately fate were never been so
I didn’t saved him, I was delusional that I could save him, kind to us, I was on a an
everything is my fault, did my actions almost killed my dearest
friend?, no way, this can’t be..

Me: Eth,

Ethan: Are you okay?

Me: I wanna be alone

Ethan: Okay, rest, I’ll be back tomorrow.

 couldn’t hold it anymore and I cried it all out. “Eth, eth, I’m so
sorry, I’m so sorry Eth,” I told him I’m so sorry a lot of times without
explaining anything, but he didn’t even ask anything and he just
hug me tight. “Shhhh… It’s okay its okay, it’s not your fault”, Ethan
told me this in his worrying voice, “I’m so sorry I couldn’t save him
right on time, I’m so sorry,”