Book of Est Notes

Most people are afraid that something will work--rather than not work—because we would lose interest
in our present games, our familiar problems, our act, our enduring personal relationships, etc.

Experience your negative emotions until you begin to get that you’ll do anything to keep from ending
your acts and experience what’s happening right here and now.

You’re living life through your rear-view mirror.

Don’t try to do anything. Just do, just be.

You have current beliefs and lies you live by that try and convince you your lives do work.

The harder you try the worse you feel.

Ideas and beliefs destroys experience.

Having a belief in God destroys experiencing God.

Ideas about God are deadly, deep on the scale of non-experience.

You have to go through nothing. To accept whatever happens in your life as just a process of life itself.

You’re perfect the way you are.

When you really know something--then beliefs, thoughts and feelings about it are not necessary.

We cross the line when we get out of beliefs and feelings and simply observe. When you go beyond the
level of observing, you get to the level of what is called realization—that’s the Aha! Experience!

All belief is the least reliable form of knowing. It represents uncertainty.

I am and have been ok…

I can do and be whatever I want to do or be

Providing it does not bring harm to other human beings.

It is all right for me to be this way

I love and have been loved and am loving

I recognize this and accept this

I can aspire to and have a higher state of awareness and consciousness

It is all right for me to do this…

If you look at your fear and are able to being really with it, it’ll disappear. Just observe it, don’t fight it.

You are perfect, but there are barriers preventing you from experiencing and expressing your
perfection.

The resistance leads to persistence. If you try to resist or change something it will become more solid.
The only way to get rid of something is to just let it be.

If you’re feeling tense and try to relax, you’ll feel more tense. If you have a headache and try to change
it, it’ll continue as long you as try to change it.

Stop resisting and start observing. The things you work on persist.

When you fully experience something then the experience disappears and you’ll have a new one.

CONTINE NEXT PAGE FOR “THE MIND”

The Mind
Let all ideas and beliefs you have of the mind go. Wipe the slate clean.

The mind has a record of millions of experiences from our past that unconsciously is influencing our
behavior.

The purpose of the mind is the survival of the being or anything the being considers itself to be.

The ego is when the being starts to identify itself with the mind.

When you think you are the mind, the mind’s purpose becomes the –survival of the mind--.

When the purpose of the mind becomes the survival of the being ‘it thinks’ it is, then, the minds purpose
becomes it’s –own survival—

That is what is called the ego. When the being identifies itself with the mind.

So now the purpose of the mind is not the –being—but… the mind itself.

So the survival of the mind means the all the mind’s

 Tapes
 Points of View
 Decisions
 Thoughts
 Conclusions and Beliefs

Now the mind has a vested interest in all of these records and tries to keep itself intact by replaying the
same tapes to prove itself right.

So when the mind plays an old tape, it makes you feel you understand something.

To keep itself intact the mind looks for –agreement—out in the world in order to survive.

It wants to be continual reconfirmation of its point of view, decisions and beliefs/conclusions.

So the mind wants to keep proving itself right. For example…

 Religions – Make people feel right in their poverty.

 Philosophies –To prove right they feel like doing anyway.
 Writers –Write books to secretly justify themselves.

All religions, philosophies and books are just the minds way of trying to prove itself right and dominate
others.
The mind doesn’t want bliss, --it wants to be right—and keep playing the survival tape. It rather be right
than advance in consciousness.

All minds do this.

The minds logic is that one element of an one experience is the same as every-other… except
sometimes.

Est training is a fusion of many methods that seemed to work better than using other methods.

When we get upset or sad, etc, it’s a past experience that triggered that emotional response.

It’s the mind playing a recorded tape that it links with that present experience.

When a tape is played it gets in the way of –being present in the experience--. Which leaves an
unfinished tape to be recorded and stored.

It’s when you FULLY EXPERIENCE something that is disappears and a new experience begins. When
something is fully experienced—it is instantly released.

The memories stored in our minds go back at least to when we were in our mother’s womb and many
believe that our memories include the collected unconscious of all our ancestors combined.

The ancient yogis of India claimed memories back some 350 trillion years.

This keeps things in perspective of how little we consciously are aware of.

From the moment of birth onwards we came under the influence of our mechanical mind.

From birth—everything we do is… stimulus response after stimulus response , etc.

We are machines.

Our lives are totally mechanical and stimulus response.

There’s no meaning—or goals, morals or ideals.

No control.

Tragedies are just tapes being played.

All drama is just your mind triggering off some past threat.

We spend our whole lives trying to find an escape from just admitting you’re a machine.

The mind feeds thoughts, like—too complex or doesn’t make any sense.

Every thought that’s popping into your head at this moment… just pops.
You don’t control it.

Effect, Effect, Effect…

That’s all there is….

There’s nothing to get.

There is no control over mind no matter how long you spend pretending there is.

Unenlightened is

 A machine who doesn’t think he’s a machine

 Always resisting and trying to control things

Enlightenment is:

 Knowing and accepting you’re a machine

 It’s say yes to what is
 Taking what you get when you get it and not taking what you didn’t get
 Always doing nothing but simply doing what you’re doing
 Accepting what you are, what comes, what is and take what you get when you get it
 Is fully experiencing whatever feelings come up and anything associated with them
 Choosing what happens, when it happens
 Knowing what you are and what you are not and knowing that’s perfect

Buddha said it this way

“You cannot escape the wheel of birth and death until you realize you are not the doer”

The Wheel= the First Machine

You can release all the limitations of your machine mind by fully experiencing the feelings that are
associated with them.

If we fear death, then we say yes to our fear of death, we choose our fear of death and fully experience
it.

It may disappear and it may not.

If it disappears—say yes to its disappearing. If the fear remains—say yes to still having the fear.

Sometimes fears and barriers disappear and sometimes they don’t, but, your experience of them will.
You’re not the doer. You’re the source and creator of all you experience.

You’re a God, but what you, the individual entity bouncing around inside the big world you created,
what you do is totally out of your control.

You’re the source of your experience but don’t have the least bit of control.

All you can do is choose what happens.

When you learn to want what you get—you get what you want.

It’s all a cosmic joke—you don’t ‘understand a joke’… you ‘get it’.

Human Beings = God, who being bored, must create games.

The natural flow of the universe is

Being-------- Doing----------- Having

Most people define themselves by what they do—rather than by what they in fact are.

Your dull days will come whether or not you prepare for them.

Your high days will come only when you don’t prepare for them.

It’s about letting go of games that aren’t working.

Getting a release from taking your minds un-working games seriously.

In actuality, each of us, as the sole creator of our universe, is a God, and because we have created all,
everything is as important as everything else.

When we’re fully in touch with what already is and accept what is—as more important than what isn’t…
then all games are over. There’s nothing to do and nowhere to go, everything is perfect.

But we Gods get bored with this perfection. So we always end up pretending that something that
isn’t—is more important than what is, and that’s a game.

When were fully in touch with what already is and accept what is as more important than what isn’t,
then all games are over.

But we get bored again and decide again to start playing games.

Many God’s in mythology are always taking human form to play games.

As did Krishna and Shiva. Even Jesus is seen as God taking temporary human form.
The world is imaginary. The only question is who is going to do the imagining.

Most people passively absorb the imaginary structures and game rules of others.

The wise creates his own.

All games, all goals , all events are the creation of imagination.

You can accept the world as others have create it, accept their goals and rules and play their games, or
you can consciously create your own.

In both cases—you and you alone are responsible for everything that happens to you.

The search for God, Enlightenment, Reality, Ultimate Truth, is an interesting game until it’s won.

Then once you grasp it you find that the game is over.

Then… if you marry your insight, you find that you’re living with illusion.

What humans want is interesting problems and games—no more, no less.

No pleasures, not truths, not moral codes, not a state of happiness, just interesting games.

Mind, body, spirit… all love games.

Even Monks and Mystics advancing along the path and make a sudden leap forward, discover that,
“winning” loses its interest and they then slip back into the mountain-climbing up the path to score
again.

The ones who reach the top and stay there don’t play the same games over and over. Their never bored
and are continually creating entirely new universes.

Human life in any meaning sense is impossible without playing or without contest.

But they don’t live with the illusion that they are competing for anything worth winning or against any
other than an imaginary creation of themselves. __________

Nonoko quote

“Why, it’s only the movement of my eyes.

And here I’ve been looking for it far and wide.

Awakened at last, I find myself.

Not so bad after all. “