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Daisy Chen
Writing 2
Professor McHugh
30 June 2019
A Musical Lesson
“Leave all your theories behind and let your emotion fly,” Auntie Jill, my piano teacher
and my host mother in America, insisted. She reached her arms out high as if she was about to fly.
I looked at Alice, the German Shepherd Auntie Jill adopted three years ago, trying to get some
inspiration. Alice, resting next to the piano, stared back at me. Her bewildered eyes reflected my
same confused face. It seemed ridiculous that my nine years of studying the skills and music
theories about piano did not do much help when I was only trying to craft a story based on one
I started to play piano when I was four years old. I chose to pursue my further study abroad
during my high school year. At first, I thought that piano may temporary fade away from my life
since I was in a foreign home. Luckily, my host mom was a piano teacher. She invited me to
continue practicing piano with her with full enthusiasm and I accepted with alacrity. Under her
guidance, I recollected my memories about music theory and the feeling of my fingers dancing on
However, as for Auntie Jill, I still had a long way to go because there was one significant
December 12, 2017 was the day when Auntie put in that last piece of the puzzle which
deeply branded in my mind. It was a typical Tuesday night, and I was playing “River Flows in
You”.
“No, no, no, stop right here! You are missing something, don’t you think? Tell me what
“Umm… I think…I mean,” my rusty brain surrendered and asked the internet for help. I
took out the phone in my pocket and searched this music piece on Wikipedia. Acting like a repeater,
I read out the words showed on the internet. The room absorbed my monotonous voice and became
pale.
“Oh Jesus, just stop there please,” Auntie Jill said, shaking her head with her furrowed
brows. She looked like as if she just swallowed a whole gallon of expired milk.
“Daisy, you are the one who is playing the music now. You need to think about how the
music relates to yourself and establish a connection with it. Different pianists interpret the same
music piece in subtle difference because they express their own emotions. Yes, you should do
adagio here, but to what extent? Each individual does it differently. It is our own uniqueness which
gives music soul and makes it special. And that is exactly what we value here in America, your
own worth! It is all about YOU, Daisy! It is your own unique interpretation! Leave all your theories
behind and let your emotion fly,” Auntie Jill emphasized. Her small “lecture” tugged my
heartstrings because I never thought about myself in my piano playing. Then, Auntie Jill
challenged me to think about a personal story or use imagination to create a story that fits the music
I play.
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The task did not start smoothly in the beginning. I bit my lips involuntarily and stared at
the music sheet with my brain in a chaos. All my memories about myself seemed to be covered
with a layer of tulle. And I looked like the person who tried to see things through the mist. It is
hard for me to think of an event in my life because after so many years, a lot of my memories just
faded away. “Aren’t those tempo symbols a way to show the emotion of the music? The music
sheet has presented everything on it! What is the meaning of thinking about how this relates to me!
I am not a storyteller after all,” I roared in my mind and stroke the keys with full strength. The
huge discordant chord sound carried my complaining and seemed to ignite the room. Alice was
jarred awake by this huge shock and ran to the corner with an unhappy growl. I have been trained
to focus on the skills and to perform everything on the music sheet correctly and professionally for
nine years. I believed that I followed all the markers and rhythms showed on the music sheet
correctly and that was enough. Thus, I felt that I was doing something completely useless and I
got frustrated.
This feeling also reminds of my math class in America. When I also faced frustration
caused by doing something, at least as for me at that time, senseless. I remember it was
summertime and we were in a review session for AP Calculous. The heat wave outside weakened
the air conditioner in the classroom. In this hot and dry environment, I felt impetuous and became
more worried about the upcoming test. And I was waiting for my teacher to cover one specific
“I understand how you get the correct answer, but I use my own way and get a different
one,” my classmate eagerly raised his hands up high and asked. He stopped the teacher from
“Oh, we still have time! I would love to see your procedure,” my teacher then pushed up
her glasses and pick up her marker briskly, staring back at that student with a gleam in her eyes
and waiting for him to say his method. She looked like a child who was waiting for the curtain of
a show to open. Even the deep wrinkles on both the forehead and the corners of her mouth seemed
I gazed dumbly at the whiteboard and hit the table with my pen rhythmically, trying to
rescue myself from this meaningless discussion and wondering why they are willing to spend time
on those trivial matters. Can’t they just follow the answer key and move on to the next question?
I was waiting for the answer the whole class! I tried hard to suppress my urge to roll my eyes. At
that moment, I had the same frustration because I felt that it is a waste of my time. Why people
here always force me to do something completely useless? What is the meaning of doing the
discussion when we already know the correct answer? What is the meaning of connecting with the
music when the instructions have already been written on the music sheet?
However, I still need to face my task. I dragged my body to my room and decided to record
those special events and write down how I feel at that moment to help me better recollect my
memories. Flinging myself onto the bed without turning the light on, I started to recall the nearest
special moment which was the time when I was at my farewell party before I went to college in
America. Surrounded by darkness, I took a deep breath, trying to throw myself back to the
Closing my eyes, the faces of my parents, my friends and my relatives flashed through my
mind. Instead of looking sad because of my departure, big smiles lit up their faces. Their eyes were
bright as stars and firm as irons. “We believe that you can do well there,” they said. And I could
tell that they were full of confidence in me and were proud of me.
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“That’s it!” I shouted out loud. I jumped out of bed to turn the light on and sat down in
front of my desk to write down what I saw in my memory and how I felt. Then, I noticed the family
picture on my desk with my self-made frame during art class, a warm feeling gushed from the
bottom of my heart. I felt that I was able to connect my feelings with “River flows in you.” The
music piece sounds sad in the beginning and it is in accord with my homesick and loneliness when
I need to overcome all the difficulties by myself. However, the rhythm becomes brighter and
lighter. This change is the same as how my family’s and friends’ trust motivate me to face every
challenge. The river which flows into my heart and moisturizes me symbolizes their love and faith
Sweeping the haze around me, I ran to the piano. A new world of piano playing was
unfolded in front of me after I understood how to build the connection with music. Before that,
every time I played the piano, I felt like I am programming on a computer. I sat in front of the
piano stiffly. My back was straight up and fixed and my eyes were occupied with those marks and
notes showed on the music sheet. My brain worked far beyond, calculating how much strength I
should use to hit the note or where I need to play faster. Now, I have my own understanding of the
music and my piano playing is raised to a sentimental level. Recalling how I first felt helpless in a
new environment and then be driven forward by the love and expectations from my family and
friend, my emotions took control of my interpretation. My hands rippled over the keyboards and
my body was like a dandelion, leading by my fingers to dance with the music. I used my piano to
convey my mood. After I finished this song, I recognized that even my smile did not fade away
from my face. I was immersed in the world created by my emotion and memory.
I rushed upstairs and showed my notebook to Auntie Jill with an . “Are you ready to read
a more interesting answer to your question than the internet version,” I gasped with excitement.
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Could not wait her to finish reading my story, I brought her to the piano room. Alice seemed to
realized that something fun was about to happen and followed us.
I sat down in front of the piano and started my performance with ardor. I knew that I looked
like a kid who tried to show off her fancy gift in front of the crowd.
“There you go! You got that connection with the music! I can feel you! See, even Alice is
not sleeping this time!” Auntie said delightedly. Her eyes reflected the same gleam as my math
teacher when she hears different methods from students. Indeed, even Alice was not sleeping or
Showing my own emotions in the music empowers my piano playing to become more
engaging. I no longer need to cram up all those different marks on the music sheet in my brain,
making me stressed like a tight string. All I need to do now is to find the resonance between me
and the music. Before I start to play a piece of music, I will listen to the tape first. When I am
listening, I start to connect myself with the music. And with the help my documents of those special
moments in my life, it becomes easier for me to think of a story of myself. Music becomes my
words to tell my experience and to express my own unique feelings to my audience. I inject life to
music. In return, music helps me to realize that I have such a wonderful life by pushing me to recall
The uniqueness of an individual that Auntie Jill taught me not only changes my attitude
toward music playing but also improves my ability to acquire knowledge. I come to understand
that the reason why my math teacher is willing to discuss problems with students is because she
loves to see every student’s thought and critical thinking being reflected through his or her answers.
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Because of my recognition of the importance of presenting oneself, now I would not keep
myself out of the discussion with whiny complaining during the math class. I was more willing to
express and exchange my thoughts. I remember the first time when I spoke in math class. It was
winter, and the cold weather failed to freeze our brains. As we advanced to higher level of math,
the materials were harder and required more brain exercises. We were struggling with homework
questions because sometimes we even could not understand the process provided in the solution.
“I think the answer key gives us a more complicated way to solve the problem and I figured out a
“Wow, we have a new member join our messy discussion today! Let’s hear it,” my math
During the discussion, some students pointed out several small logic mistakes in my
method. However, we brainstormed and fixed them together and did find out an easier way to
“Boom! The magic of math! Wasn’t that fun,” my math teacher opened her arms and said.
We all laughed and looked like people who just reached the summit and saw the gratifying and
picturesque view. And that was the time when I realized the meaning of the discussion. Without
the help of other students, I would never notice my mistakes and realize the correct method. The
From then on, when learning a concept, I no longer try to memorize and follow the tough
definition given in the textbooks. Simply doing rote learning does not help me to understand.
Similar to piano playing, I will think about how this could be applied to my daily life actively and
use my own words or experience to memorize it. Sometimes I will even draw pictures to help me
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to visualize it. Thus, I could transform the author’s knowledge into my own and fully absorb it.
I used to lock my uniqueness by only obeying the instructions both in my piano playing
and academic learning. Now, I open myself and make inanimate music and knowledge vivid by
putting my own value into them. Everyone is unique in their own way. Instead of following the
masses or the instructions blindly, we should express our own thoughts and to question things
courageously.