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i’m a jealous person. i get jealous easily. also i’m a very petty person. i get mad sooooo easily.
maliit na reason lang magagalit agad agad ako. pero sometimes i realize where i’m wrong. i
always say sorry sa mga people na naganun ko. then.i just wait if they’ll accept it or not. so here
goes.

i’m sorry for being petty. for getting mad at you so easily. pero can you blame me? it’s like you
don’t care at all. i’m tired of always initiating yung pagbabati natin. WALA KANG PAKE and that’s
it. i don’t know how to justify the things you do. kasi wala ka talagang pake kung magalit ako sayo
or not. sa past na tao na nakakasama ko if i get mad they’ll try everything para lang magbati
kami pero bakit pag satung dalawa ako lagi nag iinitiate? parang wala kang pake pag di ako
nag iinititate. and it hurts. i talked to austin earlier and sobrang i understand why you liked ‘her’.
she’s a very happy person. a very extroverted one. sobrang opposite ko hahaha. i’ll probably
regret ever saying this cause i don’t want to look like a petty person pero i just really want to say
what i feel. i really really really get jealous whenever austin talks about how much an effort you
gave to her. pero what can i do, she may be your first love eh. i get mad when you won’t reply
kasi i’m down pag ganun. you always say na andyan ka lang. na gusto mo ako tulungan pero
bakit pag kailangan kita lagi kang wala? ano yan? mga pangako na walang sense? lagi akong
umaasa na you will change pero lagi talagang isang araw lang yung change mo. kahapon when
i got mad na di ka sumama, i was trying to make you make lambing kaso wala. kaya i got
annoyed. kaya sinabi kong annoying ka kasi again, the effort you give is the bare minimum. i
expected more. pero baka fault ko rin na masyadong malaki expectations ko sayo dahil sa mga
naririnig kong effort mo to her. pero it was my fault din considering how much you liked her
compared to me. sorry if i’m comparing. sobrang nahurt lang ako na pinagpalit ako ng person
dati for his ‘bestfriend’ and lied to me haha. kaya rin i’m paranoid whenever a guy say they like
me. like do they really like me? or wala lang, pampalipas oras lang. ganun din naisip ko sayo eh.
until now. do you really like me? or wala lang? kung di ka lang busy dun mo lang ako papansinin?
i still want an answer sa past letter ko pero i hope you answer din. pero i doubt you’ll answer
considering ikaw na nagsasabi na you ignore my messages like i don’t exist. AT ALL. i hope you
read this though. kahit wala kang pake sakin i really really really hope you read this. i won’t initiate
na makipagbati sayo kasi pagod na pagod na pagod narin ako mag inititate after ko lagi
magsorry. kasi magssorry ako, you won’t reply unless i say na gusto ko makipag usap ng personal
and you still won’t realy unless ikaw punataha ko agad. i’m sorry pero pagod na ako gawin yun.
if you won’t reply then that just means it’s the end of ‘this’ and our friendship, if we ever had one.
kasi alam mo ba i get annoyed minsan pag sticker nirereply mo, like what the fuck ayaw mo bang
makipag usap? pag magkkwento ako para topic di ka nagrereply so i don’t even know what you
like or ano hobbies mo. i don’t know you kasi you won’t initiate and you won’t answer in words
pero puro stickers lang and gif. like i get it, i reply din with gifs and stickers pero when it comes to
conversations, i talk. i put insights and inputs pero ikaw “sticker” puro stickers. this is not me saying
we need to talk personaly. this is just me saying sorry for being petty and always being mad and
moody. if you still want to be friends and continue ‘this’ then initiate pero if you just want to be
FRIENDS lang. as in nothing more nothing less, still.... ikaw mag initiate pero state whether being
friends lang ba gusto mo or something more. pero i hope you know i’m not here to become your
rebound. i’m not here para maging someone sayo dahil lang di ka gusto ng gusto mo. if you really
like me, show it. pero if you still won’t initiate after this letter, i understand. it means it’s over.
everything is over. from our ‘something’ to our friendship. i’m just tired na talaga eh. thank you
nalang and again, i’m sorry. that’s all. bye.