sinisisi niya ang sarili niya sa pagkamatay ng troops niya. Siya lang kasi ang nag-iisang naka-survive. All through out the story, the nurse was convincing him that there's more to life. That he's a hero not just because he served to protect his country, but because he lived...for himself and for his troops. That he's a good person because he's willing to take on the guilt without it being his fault. Dahil ayaw niyang makalimutan ang buhay ng mga kasamahan niya. He lived his life while letting his comrades live through him. The nurse showed him that his true colors are not just black and white...that there's more to him. Pero sa huli hindi natanggap ng solder na he's a hero. He decided to go in a battle again without any intention of surviving it