I would love to say something else, like try to have a conversation or something like that, but I

haven't got idea of how to do it, I mean, like what do I need to say (not even in spanish).

speaking in English I feel like is not coming from the body, like if i was just speaking as an ad, just
taking the words to my mouth without put them into my body, without digesting their meaning, and
from my mouth (fingers) to yours (or whatever). It could be funny and it is but it is weird
sometimes as well, when I would like to be like flowing, fluid, like dancing, like the ball dancing,
like into the water