At War With My Mind

I constantly find myself at war with my mind

Some of these battles, not worth the fight
You can tell me one thing, but I’ll think another
That’s another bullet , time to duck & cover
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In this battle of my heart vs. my mind
My mind ends up winning most of the time
Cause people always say to follow your heart
But what do you do when that’s falling apart ?
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My thoughts could never steer me wrong right ?
So my mind starts to take over
It’s like my life is a game , and my mind’s the controller
But that’s just how the war begins
Showing me signs that it may never end
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I’m calling for backup , but no one can hear me
Leaving me alone to fight these feelings
So many thoughts running around my mind
What place will they lead me to this time ?
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A field of sadness ? Or a world of hurt ?
Occasional happiness, but the bad always seems to come first

But soon this battle will be over

And I hope to come out on top
Though the fight is long and hard
I can’t give up , nor will I ever stop